OMG She Says She Is Excited To Go Out With Me :) Hehehe I'm So So Happy She Keeps Telling Me I Love You...

OMG she says she is excited to go out with me :) hehehe I'm so so happy she keeps telling me i love you... (lol ik I'm very delusional but idc shes hanging out w me like literally YES)

rip why am I so dumb keep asking if she gonna get w her man what tf am I encouraging my own demise what is wrong with me ... oh yea I convinced myself to support everything she chooses wow I'm such a fucking idiot... it's okay right as long as she is smiling right?

she keeps calling him cute then when I tell her to get closer to him she says she is satisfied with just being a friend? lol that's bull shit but then again I'm in no position to say anything am I?... i want to see her smile yet i don't want to see her and this ... guy with her... arugh.

I cant tell between wanting the physical touch of love or if I'm just horny either way gonna do it to feel that dopamine rush idgaf that much anymore...

you know its even worse when she baits me like that like no one tells you that they r gonna tell u ily till u say it back like isn't that just an open invite... she plays on thin ice but doesn't save me when i fall...

and yet u fall for some random ass guy u don't even tell me about... and I'm supposed to tell you everything that happens in my life?.... is this what one calls double standards?

i wish she would look my way just once...