All That Matters [Kelly Severide]

All That Matters [Kelly Severide]

Description: Kelly is overprotective, but this time he has a good reason. 

Warnings: Assault, unwanted advances, cursing.

The Cubs were playing tonight and anytime they played a home game all of Chicago would watch. Some from their homes, some from Wrigley Field, some from bars. This did not exclude the crew from Firehouse Fifty-One. They'd all gathered at Molly's after their shift to watch the game, eat some food and drink.

The bar was packed. Like barely any standing room packed.

Kelly had decided that since Y/N excelled during a challenging call that he would be the designated driver.

Y/N definitely would've blown over the legal limit on a breathalyzer by inning five.

Four shots of tequila and two beers had her stumbling through the crowd on her way back from the bathroom.

Kelly had noticed a guy glancing over at her a lot, but he didn't want to say anything to Y/N because he wanted her to enjoy tonight. He didn't want to start something over nothing again. Maybe the guy was looking at the TV. They were sitting close to it.

Y/N had noticed the guy staring at her too. She didn't say anything to Kelly because she knew how he could get. Anything that would present a threat to her in his book, was immediately taken care of by him. For example, the Chicago Fire Department Gala.

The gala was a fundraiser to raise money for families around Christmas time. A group of guys cornered Y/N and Gabby by the bathrooms. When Kelly saw what was going on, he only saw red. That was until Y/N grabbed his wrist. She was the only person able to bring him back to earth when things got tough.

He's head over heels for that girl.

Y/N was halfway there when someone bumped into her. She didn't think much of it at first, until someone grabbed her forearm.

She turned around and met the face of the guy that she felt staring at her all night.

"Can I help you?" She asks.

"Yeah. You can actually." He replies. "Do a little spin for me sweetheart." He smirks.

"No thanks. I have a boyfriend, and even if I didn't, I wouldn't be interested." She was starting to sober up, because she felt uncomfortable.

"That guy in the CFD shirt? Did he have to buy that to look cool because he's a volly?" He chuckles. "Honey both of us know he can't handle a woman like you." He gives Y/N a sinister smile and her stomach churns.

She looks around Molly's, desperately trying to catch Kelly's eyes, but the he steps up beside her.

"Firehouse Fifty-One, Squad Three Lieutenant Kelly Severide." Kelly grabs his hand and tears it off of his girlfriend. "Can I help you? Or are we going to have a problem because you keep harassing my girlfriend?"

"I didn't do shit, but if you want a problem, I can give you one." The guy sits his can of beer down on the table beside them and swings at Kelly, but, because he's drunk, he completely misses and hits Y/N.

By then Casey, Gabby and Cruz noticed what was going on, and they'd started to make their way over.

Y/N fell to the ground because she wasn't expecting that. Kelly immediately lunges at the guy and tackles him to the floor. He throws punches left and right. Not caring where he was hitting the guy.

Gabby kneeled down by Y/N and helped her to her feet and out the front door, leaving Casey and Cruz to get Kelly.

"Severide! Severide! Stop!" They grabbed his arms and dragged him up to his feet.

"Stop before you kill him!" Casey yells.

Kelly doesn't care. His brain immediately goes to Y/N.

"Where is she? Where's Y/N?"

"Gabby took her outside." Cruz says.

Kelly starts towards the door, pushing past everyone to get to her. Once he gets outside he looks left and then right to find Y/N and Gabby standing by the wall. He rushes to her and turns her to him.

She's got a black eye already forming, a definite bloody broken nose, and tears rolling down her face. Kelly sighs and pulls her to his chest and puts his hand on the back of her head.

"I'm so sorry, baby." Kelly whispers.

"It's ok. I'll be fine."

"No it's not ok. That bastard is getting charges pressed against him, and you are going to get checked out." He says. "I should've went with you. I should've been there earlier."

"You can't predict the future Kelly." Y/N says as she pulls away. "I'm ok. You're ok. That's all that matters."

"That's all that matters."

The Two Percent [Adrian ‘Taco’ Kovacic]

Description: Y/N has to handle some business and Taco gets protective.

Warnings: Harrasment, cursing.

After having been a trainee at Bondi for two years, Y/N finally finished her TAFE course, and got offered a permanent job.

Of course she took it. Who wouldn't?

She was three months into her first summer as a fully fledged lifeguard when she was asked to do a voiceover for Bondi Rescue on a incident that had occurred a month earlier.

"Ninety-eight percent of people down here at Bondi are great, they mind their own business, don't cause any problems. But then there is that two percent of people that are just complete assholes." She tells the camera. "There was an incident with a group of kids, sixteen year old girls. They were local, and it was the weekend, so where else do teen girls go on a hot weekend? The beach."

Y/N was with new trainee, Adrian, better known as Taco, up at North Bondi, just watching the water when she heard a girl tell someone to go away. Neither one of them payed attention to it, but after the second time Y/N turned her head to look.

A older guy was over by the girls, he was about twenty, only two years older than her.

"Hey Tac and Y/N, I think you might have an issue a couple of meters away from you. This guy just keeps talking to these girls, and they aren't liking it." Chappo, who's in the tower, says over the radio.

Taco grabs his radio to answer back. "Yeah mate, we heard one of them tell him to go away. Has he touched any of them?"

"Not yet, but he's inching his way closer, just keep an ear out."

"Copy." Taco replies and sets the radio down. "If we have a rescue, you can go in just incase he acts up, you shouldn't have to deal with that."

Taco only says that out of sympathy, because ever since Y/N started at Bondi, some men would touch her butt, or grab her boob on "accident", or just do it because they think it's ok.

"Nah, I'll be fine." Y/N replies and grabs the megaphone to move some swimmers down to the flags.

After a while Y/N saw a few of the girls go into the water. She was standing in the back of the rhino drying off after a rescue, so she had a great vantage point. She sees the guy get up and follow them so, she radios up to the tower.

"Chap, I'm going to go talk to these girls. I'm not going to identify myself yet. Could you possibly send someone down here."

"Yeah will do. Take Taco with you and be careful." Chappo replies.

Y/N takes her lifeguard rash guard off and that leaves her in a black bikini. She jumps off the rhino and walks over to Taco's side.

"We're going to go talk to those girls, take your pullover off." She tells him. Taco nods and gets out of the rhino. He takes the pullover off and sets it in his seat.

They casually make their way into the water and Y/N stands beside one of the girls.

"Hey." She greets the young girl.

The girl turns and sees Y/N and Taco. "Hi." She smiles.

"Is that guy bothering you and your friends?" Y/N asks quietly, trying not to draw any attention.

"Sort of, but it’s nothing we can’t handle." The girl replies.

"Well, we are lifeguards here, so if you want him to go away just come get us. Alright?" Taco says. The girl nods and they walk back up to the rhino to see Bacon standing there as well.

"How’d it go?" Bacon asks.

"She said they were fine, but I told her we were lifeguards and that if they wanted him gone to come get us." Taco replies.

"Ok, I’ll just hang out here with you guys incase he acts up."

§§§

Eventually, the man got too close to the girls, and put his hands on the girl Y/N had spoken to earlier, and she was livid.

She was in the middle of talking to Taco when she saw what happened, so she cut him off.

"Excuse me, I have to go make a scene." Y/N says and hops off the rhino.

She starts speed walking over to the group and makes it to them before Taco even has a chance to breathe.

"Oi, buddy!" She exclaims. The man looks at her and the girls move away from him. "Come here. Now." Y/N demands. The man reluctantly agrees and walks over to her. "What do you think you’re doing?"

"Talking with to the girls." He responds.

"No. You were talking. They were telling you that they didn’t want anything to do with you, but you couldn’t take no for an answer."

"What the hell is your problem, little girl?! I could stomp your ass into the sand!" The man exclaims and comes closer to Y/N, and that is when Taco intervenes.

"I suggest you back off mate." Taco warns.

"Or what? It’s not like you can do anything."

"I can and will do something if you touch her." Taco states firmly. The man rolls his eyes.

"You need to leave the beach, and don’t come back." Y/N says.

"Why?! I didn’t do nothing!" The man exclaims while throwing his hands around.

That’s when Taco stands in front of Y/N. The last thing he wanted was for her to get hit.

"You touched her! Did she say you could?" Y/N asks as she points to the girl, who quickly shakes her head no in response.

"Whatever, she liked it."

Last straw. That’s what set Y/N off.

"Get the hell off the beach and don’t come back or I will call the police and have them arrest you." The fire in Y/N's eyes seemed to finally convince the man that she wasn’t screwing around, because he turned around and bogged up the beach and both lifeguards watched the man leave the beach.

After that was all said and done Y/N walked over to the girls and apologized for their experience with the man, and asked if they were all alright.

All of the girls were grateful that she and Taco stood up for them and assured the two they were perfectly fine, and then they left for their homes.

§§§

After pack-up when all of the lifeguards were in the tower they were all talking about how the day went when Bacon brought up the situation up at North Bondi.

"Y/N was a total badass, she wasn’t taking shit from that bloke." Maxi says.

"Yes, you could see the steam coming from her ears all the way from South Corner." Reidy laughed.

"And Tacky, I’m so proud of you mate! Always having her back." Deano adds.

"She’s always had mine." Taco replies and smiles down at Y/N, who in turn, smiles back at him.

"Awe, so sweet!" Harries exclaims.

"Yeah, it’s safe to say I’ve found my new buggy buddy."

Santa’s Helper [Johnny Beecher]🎄

Description: Y/N works as Santa's Helper, and Johnny needs to get a present for his cousin.

Warnings: None.

A/N: Day 6 of 12 Days Of Christmas!

The mall is always packed this time of year, and people always need help finding presents, so every holiday season Y/N is a "Santa's Helper".

Sure she liked doing it, but when grumpy people yell at you for suggesting they get their son who likes paw patrol and the color red a Marshall play set, it gets tiring.

She had just gotten in when the other girl told her she had "two cute guys" waiting on her. She puts her sweater on over her uniform shirt and walks over to the boys.

"Hi guys, my name is Y/N and I'm a Santa's Helper." She introduces herself, shaking hands with both boys.

"I'm Cam." The redhead says.

"I'm Johnny." The brunette says.

"Ok. Cam, Johnny, who are we shopping for today?"

"I'm shopping for my sister, and my parents." Cam says.

"I'm shopping for my cousin, and my brother." Johnny says.

"Ok, I can work with that." Y/N smiles.

As they were walking around the stores Y/N got to learn about both boys, especially Johnny.

They play hockey at the University of Michigan, where she also goes to school.

"I'm not sure why I didn't recognize you guys. You're pretty popular on campus." Y/N says as she scans through shelves of makeup for Cam's sister. "You said your sister wanted more colorful eyeshadow?" Cam nods. "I'm not a big fan of James Charles, but the Morphe palette is really good and colorful." She pulls it off of the shelf and hands it to Cam who looks at it and nods.

Johnny stood there and watched her do her thing. He loves how she remembers things only if it's been said once and is so easy to make conversation with. Now that he knows who she is, he knows that she is the girl Will had a project with for his Psychology class.

He also thought she was adorable in her Santa hat.

"Ok, so your cousin likes Barbies right?" Johnny nods. "The holiday Barbie is on sale for twenty bucks."

§§§

"So Beech, you going to give her your number or ask her out?" Cam asks as they wait for Y/N to come back with a decoration for Cam's mom.

"Huh?" Johnny replies, turning to face his friend with a confused look.

"Dude, you've been staring at her with heart eyes the whole time." Cam snorts.

"I don't know what you're talking about." Johnny mutters and crosses his arms.

"Yeah ok, Beech." Cam laughs. "She seems to be a good girl, and she is beautiful, so I say go for it."

Just after he says that she rounds the corner carrying a picture for Cam's mom to hang in her house.

§§§

After finishing, Cam decided to run off and get a drink, leaving Johnny and Y/N by themselves.

"Thank you for helping, we would've been lost without you."

"Yeah of course! You'll have to let me know if your cousin likes the doll though, I was in love with mine when I was younger." Y/N smiles as she reminisces. Johnny's stomach erupts with butterflies.

"God you're beautiful." Johnny whispers as he takes in her smile.

"What was that?" Y/N asks.

"Uh, nothing." Johnny stumbles over his words until he sees Cam standing behind Y/N motioning to his phone to get her number. Finally, he gives in. "Could I have your phone number? I'd like to take you out sometime."

Y/N blushes as she nods. Johnny hands her his phone and she types her information in.

"I'd love to go out with you sometime Johnny, but I still want to know if your cousin likes the doll so text me, please?"

"Yeah, of course." He grins.

"Well, I should get back to work." She turns her head to look at few women standing at the desk.

"Yeah. I'll text you later?" Johnny asks as he takes a few steps.

"I'll be waiting."

Home For Christmas [Grayson Dolan] 🎄

Description: Grayson's ex will be at the Christmas party he is attending. Y/N pretends to be Grayson’s fiancé.

Warnings: Cursing, cheating ex?

A/N Day 10 of 12 Days of Christmas!

Grayson immediately panicked when he heard that Giselle was going to the Christmas party. And who does he call when he panics?

Well, Ethan, but Ethan couldn't help him this time.

He called Y/N, the twins best friend.

"Gray. I just got in bed, and we just got off the phone like forty-five minutes ago." She whines.

"Y/N/N this is important!" He exclaims. "Giselle is going to the Christmas party!"

"How'd you not know that? She goes every year when she can." She wonders.

"That's not important! Do you not remember what I told her when we broke up?"

"Yeah I remember your dumbass saying "Oh I'll have a girlfriend the next time you see me and then you'll realize what you lost.". Is that what you're talking about?" Y/N asks sarcastically. "Not that I don't agree with the last part." She adds.

"Yes." Grayson sighs. "I know it was dumb, but I need you to do something for me."

"Like what?"

"I need you to pretend to be my fiancé."

"You're joking right?"

§§§

The twins, Y/N and Ethans fiancé, Noel, had all flown to Jersey to spend Christmas with the twins family.

Grayson had bought a engagement ring and gave it to Y/N after explaining the situation to Ethan and Noel, who both thought Grayson was insane.

"So how are we going to explain this to the rest of your family?" Y/N asks as they get out of the car to get their bags and bring them inside.

"Well they all already know I like you so they won't question that." Grayson says nonchalantly before going inside, leaving Y/N standing there in shock.

§§§

"I can't believe you're going to marry my baby! Oh I'm so happy!" Lisa exclaims while bear hugging Y/N.

She had seen the ring on Y/N's finger during Christmas Eve dinner and questioned her, but Grayson explained before she could.

"Congratulations! We were all waiting for this to happen." Cameron says.

See, that's the thing. With Grayson's comment the day before, they still hadn't had time to talk about it, and Y/N was still wondering what exactly he meant, but with the way his family is acting, she's getting really confused.

He's never seemed to have those feelings before now.

§§§

Grayson walks into the living room the next morning with a cup of coffee for Y/N,  just how she likes it and sits in the rocking chair before pulling her down in his lap.

Y/N was about to lose her mind. He acted like this was totally normal. Could he not see how confused she was?

They still hadn't had time to talk about it, because they couldn't get any time alone. There was either always family around or Grayson was busy doing "man" things with Ethan.

She planned to finally talk to him about it while they were getting ready for the party after they were done with presents.

"You guys excited for the Christmas Party?" Lisa asks.

"Yeah, it will be great." Grayson says and smiles up at Y/N.

"Yeah, it will be fun."

§§§

"Gray, I have a few questions." Y/N starts as she brushes her hair out.

"Yeah?"

"The other day when we got here, you said that your family already knew that you like me. What does that mean?" She asks as she watches him do his hair.

"Well, I've always had feelings for you Y/N. I thought you already knew that?" Grayson looks at her through the mirror with a confused expression, just like hers.

"You seriously think that you would have dated that cheating bitch if I knew you had feelings for me too?"

"You have feelings for me too?"

"Yes, you idiot!" Y/N chuckles.

Grayson was going to respond, but Ethan knocked on the door.

"Guys it's time to go!"

They both look at each other.

"We'll talk more later?" Grayson asks. Y/N nods and opens the door, finally feeling a weight lifted off of her shoulders.

§§§

At the party Grayson searched the room for his ex, but didn't see her.

"So where's Giselle?" Y/N asks as she wraps her hand around his bicep.

"I'm not sure. Her parents are here." He nods to the older couple across the room.

"She can't be too far then, unless she actually isn't coming." Y/N says.

"Yeah, I'd be ok with that though."

The party was great. Y/N and Grayson danced, ate, drank, took pictures with family and friends and played some games.

It felt right. Like she is supposed to be by Grayson's side and seeing just how happy everyone is about their "engagement" made her wish it was real.

They had said their goodbyes and went back to Lisa's house around ten at night, but Grayson and Y/N weren't ready to go to sleep.

"Let's go ice skate." Grayson says as he pulls out two pairs of skates. His and a pair for Y/N he had gotten specifically for their rink.

Y/N nods and follows Grayson outside. They put their skates on in silence, but once they get on the ice, they start to talk.

"It feels nice being here with you and the rest of your family, not just as your friend, even if it isn't real."

"It could be real. If you wanted it to be." Grayson says quietly as he gets closer to her.

"Us being together, or engaged?"

"How about both? I know you've been ready to settle down, and so have I. We know each other inside and out." Grayson pulls her close to him, engulfing her in his arms.

"I don't want you to settle for me though. If there is some girl that could make you really happy I want you to be with her." Y/N says as she looks into his eyes.

"The only woman who can make me really happy, in that way, is you." He admits.

"Are you sure?"

"Are you sure?" Grayson counters. Y/N nods. "So will you let me bring you home for Christmas every year?" He leans in.

"Of course." Y/N presses her lips to his and wraps her arms around him as best as she can.

When they finally let go of each other, Grayson smiles at her.

"I love you Y/N."

"I love you too Gray."

Transplant [Kristain ‘Yatesy’ Yates]

Description: Y/N finally gets the call she’s been waiting for.

Warnings: Pain after major surgery?

A/N: This is part two to "Internal"! Also, this is my last imagine until December! December is going to be big, so stay tuned for that!

It's rare for Bondi Beach to be not packed on a beautiful summer day. When Y/N woke up that morning to get ready for work, she just had a gut feeling that it was going to be an amazing day.

She was scheduled with Matt Dee, Mouse, Hoppo, Jesse, Maxi, Kerrbox and her boyfriend of ten months, Yatesy.

Mouse was really the only concern on the beach because everyone was listening, people were behaving and the only injury was a bloody nose caused by a annoying little brother.

Hoppo had called Y/N up around eleven to have her lunch break in the tower with Jesse. While they ate they danced around to some music while scanning the calm water with binoculars.

Y/N's phone started ringing and she turned the music down to answer it.

"Hello?"

Jesse sat and watched to see if she'd give any indication as to who it was, but her eyes widened and she put her hand over her mouth.

"Ok, I'll be right there." She hung up the phone and turned to Jesse. "I've got to go!" She grabbed her bag from the book by the back door, ripped open the door and sprinted down the promenade to her car.

Jesse was left speechless. That was unusual for Y/N, so he picked up his radio and called Yatesy up.

Once Yatesy was in the tower Jesse told him what happened.

"Did she look upset?" Yatesy questioned.

"She just looked shocked, mate. I'm not sure what emotion her face was showing."

§§§

Y/N had gotten the call she's been waiting on for years.

She was finally getting a transplant.

Her doctor said the heart was being harvested in Perth as they spoke, so she needed to be there as soon as possible to get prepped for surgery.

She called her brother, Chris Brown, famous Bondi Vet, to tell him the news. He almost started crying when she told him because he always worried for his sister, not knowing when she'd get bad again scared him.

Chris met Y/N at the hospital and sat with her while the nurses prepped her for the surgery.

Once the heart was less than 45 minutes away Chris had to leave Y/N until she was out of surgery. They said their "I love you's" and "see you later's" before Y/N asked him to call Yatesy and tell him what was going on, since she didn't have the time to.

§§§

"Kristain, it's Chris. Y/N's getting a transplant right now. She didn't have time to tell you, but she would really like for you to be here when she's in recovery." Chris tells Yatesy. Yatesy's jaw drops.

"Yeah, of course. We'll be there soon."

Yatesy was on the verge of a panic attack because no one could get ahold of Y/N. He was actually just about to call her brother when the vets contact lit up his screen.

Yatesy was there first, then after the beach closed most of the lifeguards strolled into the hospital to see their friend after her surgery.

Yatesy was also probably the most nervous one there. That's because after Y/N finally spilled on how bad her condition could get he had researched everything about the human heart. Just so in case he needed to help her. He's also nervous because that's his girlfriend, the woman he plans to marry soon, the love of his life. He just wanted everything to go right.

§§§

Y/N's eyes slowly opened after waking up from her drug induced sleep. Her face scrunched up when she felt the pain in her chest. The incision, her ribs, her whole body just hurt.

The nurse monitoring her sent her a bright smile.

"I'm glad you're awake Y/N, you've got some visitors in the waiting room if you're ready?"

"Yeah, bring it on." Y/N replies with a small smile on her face.

The nurse walks out and walks in a minute later with her brother, her friends and her boyfriend.

Chris is the first to approach. Giving his sister a kiss on the cheek and asking her the normal questions.

"How do you feel?"

"Are you happy?"

Then Yatesy sat next to her. He grabbed her hand and kissed her forehead.

"I'm so happy for you, sweetheart. You finally got your transplant." He says with teary eyes.

"I finally got my transplant." Y/N replies with a smile and teary eyes match the man she loves.

Internal [Kristain ‘Yatesy’ Yates]

Description: Y/N's health condition gets outed on a hot, busy day at Bondi Beach.

Warnings: Cardiac Arrest

Y/N had been feeling dizzy all day. She had heart problems, really, really bad heart problems. Bad enough to get a internal defibrillator. Most people would probably say being a lifeguard isn't good for someone with cardiac issues, but she still pursued the career.

She's been a lifeguard for Waverly Council for three years. The only person to know about her issues was Hoppo. He had to know because of legal reasons, but everyone else was kept in the dark about that aspect of Y/N's life.

"Bondi Central to Blue Rhino. You've got a young man, twenty meters out." Yatesy says over the radio.

Y/N and Yatesy are great friends, well that's what they like to think. Everyone could tell how in love they are, except them.

Yatesy wanted Y/N to come up to the tower because he noticed how she's been acting but the lifeguards were stretched thin and Bondi was busy.

She'd been going back and forth between first aids and incidents in the water all day, with no time to take a breather, let alone any time to inform anyone about how she was feeling.

"I'm going in Yates. He's not looking good." Y/N replies before setting her radio down and grabbing the board.

"You're not looking good either." Yatesy mumbles to himself.

He watches as Y/N hits the water. She starts paddling to the man, but he notices her grab her chest for a second before continuing to paddle.

Y/N finally gets to the man but when she sits up her eyes roll back into her head, going unconscious. Her body falls forward and smacks against the board. The man she went out to rescue clings to the board and starts waving for more help.

Yatesy starts to panic. Normally he is good at keeping a cool composure, but this is Y/N. The woman he's in love with. He grabs his radio and immediately radios out to every lifeguard, even the ones at Tamarama and Bronte.

"Bondi Central to all Waverly Lifeguards. We have a lifeguard down, get an Ambo here quick!"

Yatesy grabs the defibrillator and the other bag of medical supplies. He throws lifeguard protocol out the door and abandons the tower. Hopping in a ATV and speeding to Y/N. By now other swimmers, and surfers have gone over to Y/N. A surfer had brought the man in and the others were trying to wake her up.

Yatesy hits the water and paddles as fast as he can. All he can think is that he might not get the chance to tell her how he feels. He might not get a chance to actually love her.

He stops right next to her and grabs her arm.

"Y/N?!" She doesn't answer, so he puts two fingers to her carotid artery.

Yatesy swears his heart shattered. The pain in his chest, the feeling in his stomach. It was all too much. The tears start rolling down his face. He grabs her from the board and pulls her onto his.

He races back to shore and sees Hoppo, Jesse and Reidy standing there, waiting for them. Yatesy gets off of the board and Jesse pulls him to the side while Hoppo and Reidy pull Y/N up onto the sand.

"She'll be alright mate." Jesse says as he puts a hand on Yatesy's shoulder.

"She didn't have a pulse." Yatesy whispers.

"She'll be alright." Jesse repeats.

Y/N's internal defibrillator goes off, surprising everyone except Hoppo and now Reidy. Her eyes pop open and her hand goes to her chest.

"Y/N you're alright sweetheart, just breathe." She looks up at Hoppo and Reidy who are leaning over her and then tries to sit up when she hears a sob of relief. Reidy stays behind her to keep her steady as she looks at Yatesy.

"Kristain." She croaks. Yatesy walks over and takes Reidy's place behind her.

"I'm in love with you. I know this probably isn't the best time to tell you, but when I saw you collapse I swear my heart fell apart." Yatesy admits.

"I'm in love with you too. I'm ok. I'm sorry I scared you."

Yatesy wraps his arms around her and presses a kiss to her head. "You don't have to be sorry about anything."