12/01

12/01

The cards I pulled for myself:

V of Pentacles -- X of Cups -- VI of Wands

December begins my personal month of The World... which represents Jupiter’s influence over the Root chakra. Jupiter sits in my 6th house where I learn how to contribute through my lifestyle. My emotional state has been recovering from isolation, I can tell because even while my time online has averaged to 9 hrs a day the past three years, I’m not taking on and digesting all of the energy in the same way.

I used to wallow in my envy for others who seem to have it better than myself, and I allowed that to take from what happiness or peace I found in my own life. I recently commented on a discussion about learning appropriate language to express your intellectual opinions and the irony of engaging in nuanced discourse with people who won’t ever understand your point of view. I realize my experience in both of these sides, for example in my lack of education I compensate by teaching myself with whatever I have access to. The 5 of cups shows how we measure our values based on what is structurally coveted. By depicting two sickly characters waging against the harsh of nature while the Church window glows over them. I’m emotionally mature enough to understand the poverty that my “privileged counterparts” face, is just a different form. (My guides tell me it’s a lack of character value.) My mental state has cleared up so much. I think I’m still too obsessed with social media and I definitely catch myself reading far too deep into arbitrary information. But I also recognize my inner voice apart from the collective consciousness. Which I feel that is what I find addictive about the internet-- as a looking-glass into the collective. I no longer take my own emotions out of context from where they belong: in myself. Social media is especially confrontational about what people feel, constantly in demand of emotional exchange. People learned to bet on false projections which they know cause arguments or controversies, because that’s how they find the attention they need. I have an entirely new approach to utilizing the internet in a way that allows me to appreciate connection with the collective. I believe this connection is what motivates me to share ideas and stories. (My guides want me to write about my addiction.)

I’m always drawn to documentaries with a willingness to learn something new, but I personally felt as though I’d already known– and recognized this story. The subjective testimonial-style interviews really allowed me to meld the shared world of influences which only extend as tribute through Dash Snow’s artwork.

As a life path 5, the major lessons in Yooa’s life are ruled by Mercury’s placement in her chart. People ruled by Mercury tend to iterate the world through their conscious sensibility. The accuracy and tangibility of this sensibility depends on how strongly the native retains information. While Mercury represents the consciousness itself, it mainly symbolizes the quality of information one is able to retain and apply.

In Yooa’s case, her placement of the Mercury in Libra highlights harmony with others as the method of building personal experience. The Blue aura resonates within abilities of the Throat chakra, which rules Taurus and Gemini. In Yooa’s chart: the Moon and Black Moon Lilith are placed in Gemini, revealing the level at which she is able to absorb reality.

I’m picking up on an energy leak through the Third-Eye chakra. I see that her subconscious reality is limited by certain beliefs. She would have to work on expressing her emotions in a way that promotes honesty and relatability. I’m getting that she’s quick to retreat into her internal world. Her ability in detaching from her surroundings can misdirect her attention from the present.

This energy leak takes away from the quality of her attention, which is the main aspect of retaining conscious information. She’s meant to express her beliefs honestly in a way that hold true to the situation at hand. However, her ability to communicate clearly can also impose upon her imagination. If she could express her ideas in transparent ways then she would realize how that generates esteem for those around her to share from their own experience.

The stellium of Libra placements in Yooa’s chart is notable as a focal point with respect to the lesson’s she’ll have to work through in this life. There’s a deeper fear of mediocrity which can manifest as procrastination. By involving herself with many pools of interests she causes distraction from her own skills. So she is here to work on expressing her ideas in ways that allow for deeper connections between people.

Life Path Spectrum

the lessons of your life path depends on your ruling planet which corresponds with your life path number. while everyone is on their own life path, we are also each cycling through our own monthly cycles. this means that each month within a given year will present a focus towards the different lessons within your personal chart. so you have a ruling planet guiding you through your life purpose, but you also have monthly themes which are meant to progress that growth...

! my guides describe this phenomena as having a prominent color varying through different palettes or schemes. your prominent color being represented by the chakra corresponding to your ruling planet. of course the palettes/schemes are representing the changes according with the monthly theme.

using the chaldean numerology method, we can find our life path + ruling planet. to then interpret with the corresponding chakra color!

= SUN

= MOON

= JUPITER

= URANUS

= MERCURY

= VENUS

= NEPTUNE

= SATURN

= MARS

clearly, we listed two more planets than there are colors in a rainbow... we’re actually working with ten chakras total, though we retract PLUTO’s life path zero for obvious reasons! that leaves us with just two extra colors:

SUN = violet crown

MOON = indigo third eye

JUPITER = orange sacral

URANUS = blue-green high heart

MERCURY = blue throat

VENUS = green heart

NEPTUNE = magenta soul star

SATURN = red root

MARS = yellow solar plexus

PLUTO = black earth star

add up the digits in your full birth date, and reduce until you end up with any number from 1 through 9 exclusively. that is your life path and then assigns your prominent chakra color! but for your monthly cycle you will only take the digits of your birth day + month. that number (1 through 9) you then add 1 month to reveal the color which starts your monthly cycles.

for example, as life path 8, my ruling planet SATURN assigns me the prominent color of the root chakra: RED. while my birth month + day = 9 so my month cycles begins at 10 = 1. the SUN adds VIOLET to my palette during the first month of the year, INDIGO during the second month etc.

This 20 minute film is very transient of its own context, opening itself to exploration beyond cultural nuance. There was a moment where the film really allowed me to indulge in it’s meditative quality. I could say that I participated my emotion and attention more than the character itself.

self-transformation in my expression of duality

during my month of JUDGEMENT; with the moon’s influence over the earth star chakra, the lessons within my 3rd house are brought to surface

i’m reading a spanish book that my aunt lent me and i haven’t decided if i like it; “Manual de Supervivencia” by Marta Salvat

i’d already read “Tu Eres Yo” by the same author for the same reason; my aunt directly recommended it + while i’m realizing this is great practice for my spanish i also feel really conscientious of the fact that my aunt gave me these books despite the fact that it’s a proficient level of spanish vocabulary, all the while she is constantly correcting me when i speak spanish

it really gets me so pressed as it interrupts my train of thought, i really could appreciate the gesture in general except... it’s not helpful coming from family that hasn’t been apart of my life growing up... it’s very patronizing + not at all the way that i learn personally

with the lessons of my 3rd house PLUTO, i’ve learned how to live in my own path + repurpose the pain of being socially ostracized into my individual self, i’m not meant to wait around for ppl to explain things to me bc i’m actually a natural inquisitor, i’ve always managed to entertain my own interest/curiosity although society would rather expect that i assume the pity of growing up without proper “culture” or “traditions”

ppl have always treated me like i was different despite the fact any taboos i broke were on default of my life’s circumstances... i believe part of my self-transformation means acknowledging what makes me so different, its the way i know how to recognize the unconscious beliefs that ppl chastize their selves with + i use that to guide myself in investigating my own beliefs

!!! anyway i’m very happy bc i love these books for what they are, its helping me integrate spanish through spiritual concepts which i already understand, the author Marta Salvat goes deeply into the unconscoius projections which we navigate to understand eachother’s internal world

 ??? it was just so confusing that someone who doesn’t spend time with me to give me a beautiful gift like that LOL but it’s clearly bc my family unconsciously doesn’t see themselves as worthy with enough insight to help, which is perfectly find considering that i know my personal destiny now

quality time is super important for me to receive from my learning environment, but i didn’t have such relationships as a child no less estranged from my birthplace... i think its very dense for them to expect that i should be a fluent speaker, it really hurts my feelings as my elders blatantly deflect their responsibility over my education

though the books i’m reading are quite literally giving me confirmation that i need to focus on improving for me-- speaking spanish or whatever it is; i’m not the same little kid who gets overwhelmed by unwanted attention doing anything to avoid it, i actually recognize when i’m doing something unexpected that could change the coarse of my growth, i have to want that growth + teach myself