I Just Realized I Can Drink Zero And Diet Drinks During A Fast. I'm Celebrating!!

I just realized I can drink zero and diet drinks during a fast. I'm celebrating!!

Literally. I am the fat funny friend and what hurts the most is when I got asked out as a joke. Happened more than once.

I don't want to be the fat friend anymore.

Watching 600 pound life well eating makes me feel so disgusted I can't finish my food I just started eating lol

Random rant:

I hate the fact sometimes that I have vertigo. Like if I ⭐️ve myself and do a small amount of exercise or anything, I get dizzy, throw up, have migraines, and sleep for hours. But the order is all over the place. I'd be throwing up and having migraines at the same time then sleep with my head in the throw up bowl. It's horrible but then I end up having fruit for awhile because eating anything too solid makes me ill. Even going to places like Knotts and Six flags I can't go on rides that spin too much or I'd ruin the whole day for not just myself but anyone else I'm with. I feel like a constant burden. Why did I have to fall and hit my head? Why did they have freaking stairs? And why was I holding so much stuff in my hands?

I wish there was a cure that actually worked and not constant doctor appointments and having to explain what happens to me all the time. I've even told my mom that the doctor appointments are a waste of money. All they're gonna tell me is I have medicine, don't know if I'll work, and that's it. There is no cure but I wish there was. Maybe then I'll finally be normal.

I have decided to get my nails done when I reach my first gw. But only when I do.

Update: decided on something else. Once I reach my gw, I wanna go to a book store.

My vertigo is catching up with me. Told myself I would take care of my body and that was a complete lie. Hopefully I don't get sick and throw up like last time because I have my meds but only time will tell