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I really appreciate that even though Blitzo hated the musical Cats!, he still owns a Rum Tum Tugger costume. Presumably this is all for sweet Moxxie and how much they love him. Dammit, I love these precious imps!

headcanon: blitzo loves being picked up

Obviously, if he doesn't like you, he doesn't want to be picked up. But if you're someone he halfway likes or trusts, and you pick him up? He's going to physically curl up like a scruffed kitten, while on the inside he'll relax. He really, really likes it. He doesn't even need to be cradled all tenderly or anything--you can hold him at arm's length and he'll enjoy it.

He might be a little weird, but would anyone expect anything well-adjusted or not weird from him?

(He will not admit this, though. Ever. To anyone).

I love that Blitz’s self-hatred has teeth. It’s not packaged into an easily digestible form where the character cries a little, says something self-damaging to another character, and then gets comforted out of it. There’s nothing wrong with that, it has its place, but, personally, the sharpness of Blitz’ self cruelty makes him such an interesting character.

It warps his perspective until he only sees potential attacks from others, never their care. He pushes people away before they get close enough to, in his mind, leave him to die alone. The fear of abandonment tied to the self-hatred has him alternately blowing off people or getting so far into their business they get upset. He’s not great at showing care and love to others, even when he feels it deeply, because doing so makes him vulnerable. His past mistakes are not seen as mistakes by him, but as big, glaring character flaws, and they feel so encompassing he runs from them instead of taking responsibility.

He has a string of failed relationships and his current relationships have friction directly related to the symptoms of his self-hatred. I love when self-hatred gets externalized and causes problems. I love when it’s not something used only to garner audience sympathy but is treated as an understandable character flaw deserving of empathy.

Blitz really can't stand knowing he hurt someone he cares about. I'm not just talking about the fire, either.

We all know that he immediately tried to apologize once he realized he'd genuinely hurt Stolas at the end of Full Moon, though he was portaled out before he could finish the words.

But even in Truth Seekers, when the truth serum caused him to tell Moxxie he had shitty taste in music, he IMMEDIATELY apologized, like as soon as the words were out of his mouth, and even started CRYING while lamenting about having hurt Moxxie and lied to him a lot.

Idk I just think it's important to point out that underneath all the trauma, Blitz is a big ole softy who can't stand knowing he's hurt the feelings of people he cares about.

What Kind of Tragedy Are You?

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self-inflicted

you were given the choice to live, a thousand times over, and yet you never choose it. not intentionally, oh no, you didn’t know it was a grave you were digging. but with every turn, you were twisting the knife deeper. every decision doomed you more. had it been anyone else, they would have made it. but you? you are so perfectly you, there was no escaping it. the true tragedy of it all, is how preventable it was.

Question. Could I do [critical damage] to Blitz by pulling on his tail?

Yes, but you would have to pull pretty hard--or at least very quickly. It's part of his spine, so a tail injury would absolutely be excruciating to him. That being said, his tail is fully prehensile and every bit as strong as his other limbs. Blitz can pick someone up and throw them with his tail if he needs to... but an injury to it would basically be a significant loss of mobility.

His tail is basically a limb, as well as just another way to interact with people, to communicate his moods, his interest, et cetera. Blitz intensely dislikes when anyone tries to grab his tail at all, unless it's with his express permission and he trusts them, so he's pretty guarded about letting someone get even close to touching it.

But against a Goetia? I can't imagine he would win, and so yes, critical damage could absolutely be done. A yank that is hard and fast enough, especially nearer the base, would be a spinal injury that would sideline him hard and fast.

Blitz kept the piece of the chandelier. He stole it back out of the bag of loot, hid it away, and has had it ever since. He took it out and thought about that day all the time, even if he couldn't admit to himself that it meant something.

Or everything.

He still has it now, after Apology Tour.

For the first time, looking at it hurts.

My Blitz is actually...

Pretty damn good at giving head. It's one thing he's confident about, and something he LOVES doing. But he's also #stupid and that crystal is still a point of trauma, he's NOT in a good place these days, so I can absolutely see him panicking and forgetting 😂

Blitz is extremely wary of alcoholics and drug addicts. The depth of trauma his dad caused him isn't something he can just get over with the snap of his fingers, but it did teach him to worry about those people, and to recognize problems when he sees them.

---[content about addiction and recovery under the cut]---

Blitz cares. He knows full-well that day drinking can be fine and many people can do it in moderation, but that for some, it absolutely isn't fine and isn't something they can control or moderate. For some people, the problem is insurmountable, and they need to get help. And yes, he's afraid of becoming addicted himself. He knows he could, all too easily. But his experience with an alcoholic father is a big part of why he was worried when he pointed out the way Stolas was drinking. He's doesn't want to lose him to alcohol.

Blitz had to fight to help get his sister to go to rehab for drug use, and did the same with Verosika, trying so damn hard to get her to ease up on the drinking, to get her to see that she needed help (and probably still does, at least in the show canon).

He regrets that he screwed Verosika over. I headcanon that he tried to get her to go to rehab and she wasn't interested, so he accepted that and tried to keep going with their relationship as long as he could... until he couldn't. Until she said she loved him, and he broke her heart and ended things in the absolute worst way he possibly could.

He couldn't let himself fall in love with an alcoholic. He wouldn't have survived it and he knows that--and Blitz wants to live.

With his sister, he paid for her rehab as long as he could, as much as he could and worked his ass off to make sure he had enough money to keep that going, to never have to ignore a bill from her facility. She hated him and didn't want anything from him, clearly, but he was her brother: taking care of her, as much as he could, felt like the least he could do, even if she hates him for it. She's alive. She's alive, and so it was worth it. It was all worth it.

Even if she blames him, he still cares. He still feels responsible for helping her. For making sure she is never abandoned.

Because that is one of the ways that addiction hurts the people in the addict's life: they feel responsible. They want to help and they can't. They love them deeply, but can't save them. And speaking as someone who has had painfully close experience with helping people get into rehab... the addict often never forgives them for it for a long, long time. Having an intervention is beautiful in theory, but often damages the relationship for years, until the person in recovery reaches a stage where they are ready to work on that. Where they understand that it wasn't them someone was rejecting, it was the drugs, the alcohol. The lies. The pain. The self-destruction.

Blitz knows this. So no matter how much Barbie Wire hates him now, he knows he can't really talk to her about their childhood yet. He can't have that relationship with her yet. He effectively does not have a sister, and never will, not until she chooses that role again. But, because he knows and understands, he will always be open to her coming back. He'll be happy about it when it happens--if if happens. He may not be able to verbalize his understanding, or be great about talking about his feelings in general, but that doesn't mean they aren't there.

Recovering addicts can sometimes be the most wonderful and inspirational people, but they can also be the most vindictive and cruel during recovery, especially if recovery wasn't their choice and they felt forced or shamed. It's a hard, ugly truth... and Blitz will still hold onto his love for them. He doesn't just stop loving someone, doesn't just stop caring, even if he seems like he does.

So, yes. He was worried about Stolas's drinking. And yes, he's worried about Verosika's. He can't be in a relationship with an alcoholic--for both their sakes. He knows he isn't a stable enough person, and at the same time, he can't bring himself to enable someone's addiction. Not if he loves them. Not if he has ever cared about them. It doesn't mean he doesn't understand the misery that can push someone to need to rely on substance abuse. It doesn't mean he doesn't get it. It means he wants better for them. He wants them to survive. He knows people hate when others have boundaries, addicts especially, and it can be fucking heartbreaking to enforce them... but he will, when it comes to substance abuse. It will break his heart, but he'll do it...

And he will never stop hoping for the people he loves to heal. To recover. To get better. Even if he is a shitty, broken person, he will hold onto hope for them, and try to help them get what help they'll accept.

In all fucked up honesty... Blitz might adopt Emberlynn if she ends up needing it. She literally threw herself at him, knowing full-well she was going to be killed. She's probably not okay, and much as he really doesn't want a stalker...

I feel like Blitz will fight anyone who tries to hurt her or fuck with her. Not entirely out of guilt (although there is some guilt, of course; killing someone with depression hits a lot differently), but out of some sliver of understanding. It probably will be awful for Moxxie, Millie, and Loona, but goddamn... Blitz would rather give Ember a place to live and a chance to orient herself, and maybe find something to live for. Well, afterlife-live for, but same difference.

He realizes it's fucked up to feel protective over a person you literally murdered, buuuut here we are.

Hurt her, deal with him.

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a knife called grief

"You have left your house, you have left those people behind, but what are you going to do about the memories which have taken root in you? You can run but not without them. You want someone to sit with you on this cool marble floor while the sun burns everything. You want them to cut your rotten heart and theirs too. You want to sit with it in front of you, let them see you with all your flaws, which haven’t been your fault but you have been made to believe so, and you want them to love you anyways. Because you know you’d do that for them."

“Someone wants to fight me?? All right bring it !”

How Much of a Sinner Are You? It's so simple, so perfect. Blitz loves it.

How does Blitzø feel about Stolas' immortality? Has it troubled him?

Absolutely. It absolutely troubles him. It has kept him up at night, wondering:

Am I worth remembering?

and

Did I wound him so badly that he's going to have to carry this hurt for eternity?

Both of those things absolutely fuck Blitz up to think about, one a lot more than the other. He's already afraid of dying alone, we know that. Blitz is lonely, so painfully lonely, that he will do a lot of things he shouldn't if it means someone will hold him--will want to hold him--all while denying he cares at all. Because, you know. He's a dumbass. But more than that, the fear that he has given Stolas scars that maybe Stolas won't heal from for hundreds of years? That he has wounded the heart of one of the few (as he sees it) good, noble beings out there? Stolas is one of the only good people Blitz actually believes in. The thought that he has burdened him with grief, shame, or heartbreak, that Stolas may end up carrying ghosts of for all time?

That fucking breaks Blitz's heart. He doesn't want to be forgotten, but if it hurts Stolas more to remember him...? He hopes that one day, Stolas will forget.

It's not just the fact that Blitz and Stolas were having two completely different conversations at the end of The Full Moon. It's the fact that Blitz was the only one who realised this. At the very last second, he realised he wasn't having the conversation he thought he was, and he now has to sit with the knowledge of what Stolas was actually saying to him, and the weight of how Stolas must have interpreted his reaction.

Meanwhile, Stolas is still fully under the impression that Blitz understood what he was saying from the get go, and his reaction was completely genuine every step of the way.

They were both facing away from one another... And only Blitz looked Stolas' way.

When you have to get your hot powerful owl boyfriend to intimidate a client ✨

Love? How could anyone love a washed up circus imp like you?

"What, you mean like Stolas and Vizzy? And Angel? Fuck you." Blitz waved his hand dismissively at the stranger, although there wasn't really any heat to his voice; he didn't sound upset, or even like he really disagreed with them.

"They might have chosen the wrong guy, cause I--am. The wrong guy. A walking piece of shit and we all know it. But, listen." Abruptly, he plopped down on the empty stool next to this person, scooting over closer to them. "It's not my call. Whether or not they get to love me. I thought, for the longest fucking time, I thought that I had some say in it. So it always felt like I was tricking people, if they gave a shit. It always felt like, like I was doing something, fucking... You know. Wrong.

"But that is why I kept pushing people away. That shit attitude. That somehow, because I didn't believe in myself, no one else could either. You know how fucking long it took me to figure that out? How fucking many people I pushed away and hurt before a light clicked the fuck on? It's--listen. Bud. Take my advice? One drunk fucker to another: don't decide for other people that they're right or wrong to love you. Just try not to be a dick about it."

Will I.M.P torture a target if the client pays for it?

Yes and no.

Torture is a pretty big investment of time and a huge risk; to do it right requires a lot of intimacy (non-sexual), and a lot of time. The risk of someone coming to save the target, or avenge them, just goes up and up the longer they spend with them. Not to mention the risk of the target themselves getting free and doing some damage.

If the money was there, Blitz would do it. He has before. He struggles with it a lot--while he enjoys killing, the torture dynamic is harder for him to maintain, harder for him to enjoy. He is good at inflicting pain when it's necessary, but the drawn-out infliction of it, the head games, the destruction of the victim's hope? That fucks Blitz up.

If torture was really necessary, if IMP needed the money that badly, Blitz would take the contract, but fulfill it alone. He wouldn't want to risk Moxxie, Millie, or Loona on something like that. And it would be expensive--the longer he's there with the victim, the less time he has to go out and fulfil other contracts. So there's the expense of that, and then the ridiculous fees he'll add on just because he hates doing it so much. But if the client's pockets are deep enough?

Blitz is good at it.

Even if he hates it.

He's good at it.

Cutest imp ever. No wonder the Prince fell head over heels for you

Blitz started to answer cheerfully, but then over-thought it. He was quiet for a long moment, then shook his head.

"I think maybe... maybe Stolas got really unlucky. Maybe he was, you know. So fucking lonely and neglected, and abused by that asshole of a wife, that he was ready to... I guess fall for the first person to be halfway kind to him? Which, I ain't complaining. I love him, too. Fuck, fuck me fucking dead, I love that pretty goddamn bird.

"But sometimes, I can't help wondering... is it fair, you know, to him? To be with me? When there are so many people out there who are... sweeter. Less damaged. I want him, don't get me wrong, and I'll never give him up until he wants me to. But still. It's hard not to wonder."

Would Blitz ever want a royal status himself or be publicly known as being attached to a royal figure like Stolas? Probably not on that first one, but still...

Yes.

If it meant he could be with Stolas in a way that Stolas would never have to question anymore? Blitz would want anything.

Whatever Stolas actually needs from him as a partner, whatever is going to help him actually be there for Stolas this time--as a supportive partner, not a side-piece, not a secret--he'll do it. Maybe he's not entirely thrilled with the idea of becoming a royal, if that ends up happening, because he's pretty sure that means he wouldn't be able to continue with his killing business... but it would be worth it. Because as far as Blitz believes, no one has ever really been there for Stolas...

Least of all him. Obviously.

He wants to make that up to him. He needs to make that up to him. So if Stolas ever reaches for him and says stay, marry me, be mine, Blitz will do it. Besides, he knows Stolas won't have to live with him forever, obviously. His entire life will only be a blink in Stolas's lifetime, but he's gotten to the point where he realizes, he wants to find a way to be the best damn blink.

He wants Stolas to feel safe. To feel wanted. To not have to wonder, If not now, when? To know that he can have a partner. Someone always in his corner. Someone who will face everything with him--even if it means accepting a more public position, or a royal title, to get them there.