Bakugo And Izuku - Tumblr Posts

You know? Today I woke up and decided angst. So I present to you the barest outlines of a songfic for the song It Took Me By Surprise, but instead of Bakugo's viewpoint being the song, it's Izuku's.

Warning: Victim Blaming Themself/Self Blame

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I would react badly

To the slightest hint of hesitance

("Hey do you want to play heroes today?" Izuku asked, eyes flitting to Bakugo. Bakugo frowns, contemplating. "It's okay if you don't want to, really, we can play tag or hide and seek or pillow forts or-")

(Izuku as a kid going back on his words if Bakugo waits too long to answer, because of his insecurity and empathy. Think after Bakugo got his quirk but before Izuku got his diagnosis)

He'd bend awkwardly to suit my mood

No word from his defense

("Shut up! Of course I want to play heroes! Stupid Deku". Bakugo stood up, stomping over to the playground. "Are you coming or not?!")

(He feels as though Bakugo only chose the first one because he felt obligated to because that is what Izuku would do)

I'd cry knowing how my tears

Felt like acid burning through his skin

("Stop crying, stupid nerd! It's just a scrape. You'll be fine!" Bakugo leans down, eyebrows furrowed, and holds out a hand. "We're going to be heroes and heroes don't cry about getting injured. Come on!" After Izuku gets up and starts following Bakugo again, Bakugo's shoulders untense and his eyebrows relax.)

(He believes that it is his fault for not holding back his tears because he knows it hurts Bakugo to see him cry)

Pushed every little button

But the right one that would let me in

(Blames himself for not being able to react/read Bakugo’s feelings correctly)

Now he's afraid of me

Now he's afraid of me

(Bakugo pushes him away and his attempts to help because Bakugo is afraid to need help, to been seen as weak)

It took me by surprise

The hatred in his eyes

(Izuku remembering the first time Bakugo said he hated him, and meant it)

I've pushed this man as far as he could go

But he lacked the words to let me know

(Bakugo being too mad to gets his thoughts out You-You- You motherfu! I’m not- I’m not weak! Leave me alone!)

He acted out, now I can see it is my fault

(Izuku being pushed to the ground by Bakugo)

I made changes

That went unnoticed

Sang songs for deaf ears

(Izuku apologizing, Izuku getting out of the way, Izuku leaving him alone, Izuku changing his favorite things so Bakugo wouldn’t feel copied))

He mistook my silence for punishment

(Bakugo thinking that Izuku is doing this because he thinks Izuku looks down on him)

As it had been all these years

(Bakugo showing a consistent belief in this as they grow up)

I'd cry knowingly how my tears felt like acid burning through his skin

(Izuku crying even though he thinks himself weak for doing it because he knows it bothers Bakugo and then later he knows that Bakugo gets mad when he cried)

Now he's afraid of me

Now he's afraid of me

(Izuku knows that Bakugo sees him as a threat, even if he doesn’t know why)

It took me by surprise

The hatred in his eyes

(Izuku remembering Bakugo’s hatred during the U.A. finals/ first battle)

I've pushed this man as far as he could go

But he lacked the words to let me know

He acted out, now I can see it is my fault

(Izuku feeling as though his question in the Finals was a push too far, and that Bakugo only punched him because he could not articulate how he felt. Him feeling responsible for Bakugo’s actions in the rest of the finals)