Been Depressed For A While Now - Tumblr Posts

To my family I just want yall to know I love yall. My silence was out of my control.

That whole thing where you stop calling and life progresses and then you finally see people and realize how much time you've missed, is a very real thing. And it hurts. I feel like I'm going to experience that I've already experienced it a couple of times and I hate that feeling it's a very dark and scary feeling that's the best way I can describe it but it just doesn't feel right. And the feeling that you're never really going to get help for whatever it is you're going through. Whatever it is I'm going through should I say. It's like a forever lost feeling the feeling that family members will grow and progress or whatever, and it's kind of like life just ran by at a flash and you didn't get a chance to actually enjoy it and it left you behind. I'm not even that old and I feel like this is already happening to me..... the depression never stops it just kind of eases up every once in awhile. I hate this s***