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Also my psychologist and psychiatrist will test me to see if I have bpd at some point in the next months, so I have that to look forward to. Maybe by then everything will be fine and I won't remember anything bad, meaning the diagnosis that means the most me will never happen.

Not to make this into a vent account...

But I don't think anyone in my class likes me that much. They never ask me to help them with their shootings (we go to film school), but then they complain about not having enough people, they barely ever include me in their plans or conversations, sometimes they even put their backs to me when we talk in a group :/

What have I done wrong? I get I'm not very good at shootings (I get overwhelmed easily, I have autism and anxiety which doesn't help), but that can't be the whole reason none of them seem to like me.

I find it hard enough to make connections, but if this keeps going on like this, I may as well give up on making friends.