But Imagine Him Starting To Find Comfort In His Own Mental Illness - Tumblr Posts

Adding to this bc why not 🤷🏻

We see how having powers that can cause harm can affect you psychologically (mainly with Percy and Nico).

Imagine Will growing scared of his own powers, not knowing weither he’s healing someone or making them worse.

Imagine him looking at the blood on his hands and thinking about how maybe he killed them. Maybe he lost control of his abilities.

Imagine the fear of helping anyone, using ambrosia or nectar if mortal medicine isn’t good enough.

Imagine him being too scared to touch anyone because he doesn’t know what will happen.

Imagine him hiding his struggles behind a fake smile because he’s meant to be the happy, sunshine, healer boy.

Imagine him wishing he could talk to Micheal or Lee about this and remembering he can’t.

Imagine him looking at his blonde hair with hate.

He looks like a much younger version of his father.

The father who curse him with hands that can heal and hurt.

The father whose traits he inherited.

“No bad, all good”

Are plague powers good?

Is hurting people good?

Soon he can no longer even look at himself in the mirror without feeling disgust at what he can do.

Even if he eventually learns to live with the knowledge that he can hurt almost as good as he can heal, there will always be a small voice in the back of his mind telling him that maybe someone he loves is next.

Demigods never live that long anyway-

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I’ve seen a few headcanons (especially in fics) that Will solace actually is naturally brunette but when he was claimed by Apollo his hair turned blonde (weither it’s over time due to sun bleaching or straight away).

And I just wanted to say I love this so much purely because of how heartbreaking some of the implications can be. 🤗

It’s never happened to any Apollo campers before, Will doesn’t know why it had to happen to him, his one sense of normalcy taken away so quickly, his one connection to his previous life- gone.

Will starts to pick up quite quickly he’s not like his other siblings, he’s can’t write and is average at archery. But he can heal, better than anyone else can.

He was different from the start, he was claimed differently, and his gift was different too.

And while still struggling with what to do, at the ripe age of 12 he’s now in charge of a cabin full of kids younger than him, because he was the oldest to survive.

Just imagine how the plague powers would also affect him. Apollo himself said that it seemed Will had gained all of his good qualities and none of his bad.

How would this 15 year old feel that the same hands that can heal can cause harm?

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