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land of trust.

hey. i wrote this under fifteen minutes, so i genuinely understand if this doesn’t make any sense.

there’s a small reference to a greek god here. dolos. sometimes also referred to as dolus. in greek mythology, dolos is the spirit of trickery. he is also a master at cunning deception, craftiness, and treachery. dolos is an apprentice of the titan prometheus and a companion of the pseudea. his female counterpart is apate, who is the goddess of fraud and deception. his roman equivalent is mendacius. there are even some stories of dolos tricking gods into lies.

using the terminology “dolos’ follower” is basically trying to give benefit of the doubt. in order to hide someone’s dirty work by blaming it on something else or saying that it was done under someone’s pressure.

judas. judas iscariot, his name, is often used synonymously with betrayal or treason. according to all four canonical gospels, judas betrayed jesus to the sanhedrin in the garden of gethsemane by addressing him as "rabbi" to reveal his identity in the darkness to the crowd who had come to arrest him.

i don’t know how i feel about this little “part” of me that is always ready to forgive betrayal. it’s that part that would happily walk on a new path whilst leaving the worst behind, just because it (that part) is either deeply in love with that source of betrayal or because the hurt is too much to get a sensible reaction. it leaves you numb, in the puddle of agony, that drowns you until you can’t think straight.

“i hope you bury me before i bury you.” is simply my way of saying i hope you completely demolish all the pillars of faith you built in this land of trust because if i get to support myself on any of them, i will come back and build another home to all our false memories. so, it’s better if you ruin every last thing, before i decide to get back up and fight a war that i clearly have no interest in wining. “before i bury you-” to me means digging my grave.