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Adhd but not for me
Why is it that my brother and I had the same gifted burnout, but he got got diagnosed with adhd and got meds, but I got nothing? I line up with a lot of both autism and adhd traits, but “No, you don’t have autism, no way. Mayyyybe just a little adhd. You’re just quirky” as if having autism is so horrible
Stop Lying You Narcissistic mf
My mom literally tried to say she knew about the neurodivergencies, but they “Didn’t matter because they didn’t affect your academics” even though i constantly got spanked for bad grades. You would think I would learn my lesson the first ten times. She didn’t know about the possible adhd and autism anyway. No one was allowed to make implications about her “gifted” children.
Gifted burnout and perfectionism
At first, I couldn’t relate to all the other people with gifted burnout when they talked about perfectionism. My academic perfectionism had died already...but then I started working and good freaking grief. It happened. I made my first mistake on the first day and almost cried. It was something so small that I couldn’t have known better because I’d never worked retail, but it messed me up. Then, I made more mistakes and felt even worse. I might quit soon
Is there a name for being that person who is always reprimanded for "wasting potential" or "not applying yourself" constantly, until one day, you magically outperform your usual self. But it never lasts. It lasts a day, at worst and maybe a few months, at best. But everyone is finally proud of you and they come to expect it from you and you're just thinking "No...please. I can't do this with consistency... This was just a fluke." And then once you're back to normal production (maybe worse if you tried to keep overachieving), they're back to "You're not trying hard enough."
Is there a name for it? Am I the only one?
I just told my partner of over a year that I've been looking into both an autism and an ADHD diagnosis.
It did not go too well.
Nothing has changed. My 165-195 range of raads-r scores didn't suddenly make me a different person just because he knows now. I think we're still together but I want to scream.
Study. Study. Study. That’s all she was good for. That’s what her parents say. That’s what her friends think. That’s what she knows. It’s all she knows and she wishes she knew more. More freedom. More fun. More this. More that. But the need to know more is cut short when her grades come in and the tunnel vision begins. Her parents assure her that they are still proud of the B she made but she knows otherwise. Academic validation is all she longs for, all she’s good at. Clawing and climbing up the never ending tower. Or maybe , it’s all in her head. Maybe she is free. Maybe she knows how to do more, be more than letter grades. Maybe. Maybe. Maybe. But then her report card comes in. The cycle repeats itself. Night after night, hour by hour she stares at a screen. The cursor is blinking and the page is blank. She knows she should write. Anything, word after word after paragraph, but her mind is blanker than the screen and she can’t seem to pull herself from her thoughts. And then a notification dings on her phone and before she knows it it’s midnight and the paper is due tomorrow. Then she realizes how tired she really is. How she can’t seem to get out of bed in the morning, if only to repeat the cycle. But the cycle is all she known, but she wishes she knew more. And that’s the life of a gifted burnout.