He Cared So Much - Tumblr Posts
1 year ago







Part 7!
…….I’m sorry?
Part 1
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F U C K I N G
WEEPS
SHUT UP LEO SHUSH UR MOUTH I KNOW IT HURTS
BUT TF WAS DON SUPPOSED TO DO
ahhhh
grief and anger are so fucking interconnected and i jUST
WEEP
also thank gosh dons not actually putting his body or ninpo back in the future/past timeline i was so fucking stressed about that
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DELICIOUS ANGST CHEF CASS THANK U FOR THE MEAL
tasty grief
UGH forever in love with how much grief will haunt you
even after the return of what was lost
and the instinctual reaction is always so self centered like
(missed you so much it felt like a wound) therefore (you have commited this hurt upon me)
(i asked you to be here) to (you were not here) to (you kept yourself away) to (you didnt care i asked for you)
to (did you ever care at all?) to (did you love me at all? was i not enough?) to (was i not worth coming back for?)
of course its not actually like that at all
he cared so much
and he tried so hard to be there
its not at all logical or fair of leo to be acusatory as if don could have done anything different
but grief sets us back to our most simple and direct means of understanding the world
with ourselves at the center
and all things that happen are directly connected to us
as if we are the only influence upon reality
(i ask and you create) (i ask and you repair) (i ask and you push) (i asked and you did not answer)
(when we all needed you you were there) (when i needed you you were silent)
(now they need again and you are here) (but i am still standing in a dead mans room)
yall better talk this shit out
9 months ago
so in the the end q!badboyhalo was not only father to dapper. he adopted pomme. he was richas pai if only for one special minute. ramon had told him before he was more of a father than others were. trumpet was taken care of by him til his last days. lullah had always said he was like a father to her. and some of leo’s last words for him were that he was also her pa. all the little eggs wouldn’t have made it this far without their tio. it’s very gratifying to see all the love he poured out was given back to him tenfold ♡ rest well little ones
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