I Hate Change - Tumblr Posts
I’m painting this week
My room has been cleared out of small furniture, half unpacked boxes, and my bookshelf. My mom calls it ‘clean’ and ‘spacious’ and free of chaos. I call it empty and barren and i like my chaos thank you very much. I’m not a fan of change but at least by the end of this my walls wont be such a boring gray and i can better set my room up. I’ll get my glow in the dark stars and my paintings. My room will start to really come together. i just gotta put up with this empty room besides my bed and dresser.
Does anyone else really really hate change… I re arranged my room because I needed to get rid of my dresser and a lot of junk, and now it feels so empty and not home-y anymore, it just makes me sad :(
Lemme know is yall are the same way plsss
A different type of hurt.
it's a different type of hurt watching someone you knew online who you said you were gonna meet up with one day drift apart from you, checking back on their profile every now and then and then seeing how they're discovering new parts of themselves, sexuality, gender, identity etc, and it's weird having them never tell you about it, because you know back then they would've told you. You can't even ask about it because you haven't talked to them in months and you're not apart of their life anymore. You can't do anything except sit back and watch the person you once knew change and grow through merely pixels now, not even their voice itself telling you about it. You guys used to be inseperable, playing games together, planning to meet up, just for it to all be ruined by time zones and getting grounded, you don't feel the desire to meet up with them anymore, you hardly feel the need to talk to them. despite all that, you'll always feel the need to think about them. to think back. what do i mean I've been through multiple hyperfixations, grounded multiple times, sobbed multiple times, been ghosted multiple times, broke up with someone, had crushes multiple times, got new pets multiple times and never told you about it?
autism is kinda crazy cuz one little change from my expectations and my day is absolutely fuckin ruined. mood obliterated over something most people wouldnt really care about. everything gone to shit because its not perfect. like my life cannot go on peacefully afterwards and thats so fuckin crazy