I Thought They And My Other Coworker Who Was Gossiping With Them Liked Me - Tumblr Posts

Man I wish that the people at my work respected me enough to tell me when I’m messing up and how to do better rather than gossiping about my faults and mocking me where they thought I wouldn’t hear. It especially hurts that my mentor was one of them. To my face she says I’m doing a good job and that people love me but behind my back she says that it would have been better for me to stay home and agreed when my boss talked about me calling my daddy to get me out of scrapes (she was referring to the time I had to call my dad to get me early from work because my migraine got bad enough that I couldn’t continue to work through it, my boss was the one who said I should go home early and had asked me a little earlier if I needed to leave then or if I could stay until I had worked a half shift. I told her I would work the half shift but I wasn’t able to make it and she was the one who convinced me it was fine. There was also a time when dad took me home early but I didn’t call him, he knew I was sick and came to check on me. That time I had actually called in saying I couldn’t make it but she guilted me into coming in.) I usually love my work environment and my coworkers (even my boss) but now I’m just hurt. This is just added to the time several weeks ago where I heard a coworker, who I think of as a friend complaining about how I take forever to check one aisle. I know I’m slow, especially back then cause I had only started a few weeks earlier and no one bothered to train me properly. I’ve had way more good times with my coworkers but right now I’m just hurt. I’m more hurt by the lack of respect in talking to me directly than by what they said.

I already always think I’m screwing up and that I’m terrible at my job. My anxiety is through the roof most of of the time and usually they are the ones reassuring me that I’m doing a good job or that it’s ok to make mistakes. Now I wonder if they were lying to me