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Day138: sadness after having so much fun

Actually, i'm not surprised at all that this is happening. It always happen to me. It feels like this is always expected to happen. After being happy, expect i'll be crying and too sensitive the next day... After having so much fun last weekend like twas the best thing that ever happened to me since i lost Umpe... Here i am now, feeling so lonely & unloved. Drama queen? I don't think so. I think i have a reason to be like this right now. I mean who would be happy if the people you expect to be proud and happy for you does not even show any concern at all. Hah i guess this is what i deserve. I've been the worse person ever. I am so ungrateful. I am so worthless. Hah i really deserve to be treated like this. No one even likes me. Even my family and the people i call my 'friends'. They only see me whenever they need something or whenever i do something that displeased them. I hope i am the only person in this world who feels this way. It is so awful i don't even want to imagine another human being being treated like a crap. No one deserves to feel unloved. If i could just runaway to a very very far place, i would. I just want to disappear from the lives of these people i treat special. I bet we will all feel at ease. Coz i know i am a heavy burden to their lives. I bet they are wishing the same thing too. I feel sorry that i hafta be part of their lives. I really am sorry. One day, i'll leave them alone. I'll go to a very far away place that way i wouldn't have to disturb them and be a burden. I will disappear in their lives... I promise.