I'm Both Mentally And Physically Ill - Tumblr Posts

Ik I joke around to my friends and family about not being able to sleep on my side, but it really fucking sucks.

Cuz like, sleeping on your side feels so much more natural and comfortable than sleeping sitting up. I've been unable to sleep on my side without waking up extremely nauseous for well over a year now, and it hasn't gotten any better.

I've tried this medication, I've tried that medication, I've tried this diet, I've tried that diet, I've tried sleeping in different parts of the house, I've tried sleeping on my back, I've tried sleeping on my stomach, and nothing works.

And I've been told countless times by people that "You should really sleep in your own bed.", and "It's not good for you to be always sleeping on the couch.", and "(In a rude, know it all tone) But why would you sleep in your bed? You seem perfectly fine sleeping on the couch.", as if they don't understand its not a fucking choice for me.

Sure, I can sleep in my bed, but I'll wake up at 2am feeling like I'm one ill-timed blink away from vomiting. And with my emetophobia, that's not gonna cut it.

I just wanna rip my stomach out of my body and ask it what the fuck it thinks it's doing.