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unironically kinda wanna go to therapy now...
Curt just constantly beats himself up for Owen’s “death”. He does something well in life? Well he couldn’t save Owen so what’s the point? Fucks up? This is why he got Owen killed. This is why Owen is dead
and it’s that. Constantly. For 4 years. He drowns in his sorrow and is consumed by his self hatred and rage because he let Owen die, he let Owen down. What type of a friend, what type or a partner lets that happen?
That’s not how that night was supposed to go, and Curt knows it’s his own fault it’s ended up like that. And he never lets it go, holds his loss so close to his chest like it’s keeping his organs from spilling out of his body before he crumbles and collapses on the unkept floor of the apartment he only took Owen to once, the same floors Owen graced with his presence covered with dust and grime from the lack of his loves heavenly light breaking through the dark clouds of the dreary space. Why should Curt get heavens light when he left Owen to burn in the building he let explode?
TW : blood, self-harm.
You can manipulate yourself into loving pain, loving if your cat scratches you too hard or if you feel you're about to throw up from a punch in the face, love the way the blood flows into your mouth, loving the way it feels when you bite yourself and scratch yourself so hard it leaves a mark for hours. You can manipulate yourself into loving it, enjoying it and craving more. Humans are merely made up of opinions, we're all brainwashed into thinking pain is bad, manipulated ourselves over time to hate it. Find bliss and peace in it, love the way it feels and find comfort in it, it helps. It takes away fear. It gives you freedom, enabling you to do more fun things. It's possible. Just an idea for those who wanna try.
Just watched the first saw movie. I need someone to cry out to me ‘I NEED YOU’ the way Adam does to Lawrence.
*shakes silently with a hand over my mouth as my mom asks me why I’m suddenly crying*
You have no idea, NO IDEA, how much the Disaster Twins relationship means to me
@somerandomdudelmao *cough-cough* *COUGH* Sorry I'm still not over this arc... *disappears*
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