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Happy girl's tears

I don't want to want to die. I just feel so stupid and invisible and I feel like I'm just a burden.

I'm reaching out and screaming, "Someone please see me! Look my way and see my tears!"

But they don't hear me. No one hears the laughing girl's cries. No one hears the sound of her heart breaking.

No one sees the smiling girl's tears. No one sees her smile crumble behind the bathroom door.

They don't see her pain. They don't want to.

I'm trying to get better! I don't want to be so stupid and worthless all the time! I'm trying as hard as I can, so why?! Why do I feel like my feet are cemented to the ground and I'm falling into quicksand? The harder I try to get better, to be the better daughter, better friend, better everything, the worse I get?

The happy girl shatters and no one notices. Maybe when the tears are blood, they'll turn and look? When that crimson stains her fingers instead of the salty drops she wipes off her face?

But then it's too late. When the happy girl tries to die and ends it all, they say, "How did we miss this? Why didn't she ask for help?"

She did, but you closed your ears to her. You held her mask up when she was trying to rip it down and show you she was hurting. You told her it was her own fault, she just needed to try harder.

But the happy girl had already tried her hardest, and it was never enough for you.

@kaiholic

[180321] kai for spring/summer 2018 l’offciel homme (1/2)

Hiii I’m the same anon from before, and I just wanted to say that I loved reading your namor fic

My people went through colonization as well, and sadly, we’re still not allowed to speak our native language or practice what’s left of our culture, but the way you described the reader’s pain and frustration was so incredibly relatable.

Idk It’s just nice to finally see someone who understands the pain of colonization and being stripped of your culture :,)

You’re a great writer!!🫶✨

omfg im so overwhelmed from this i just woke up 😭😭 im so glad u found this relatable!! but also very sorry and angry that ur ppl are practically still experiencing this,,

honestly the more i think abt colonialization the more and more angry i get bc so MANY countries have lost their cultures and arts to the colonizers,,, and to think that we're never gonna get most of it back breaks my heart, its as if they permanently severed the ties to our ancestors

and the fact that most ppl who were under colonizers take dna tests to see if theyre mixed but most of the time theyre 90%+ their native country 😭😭 just goes to show how they forced their own practices on us like owning last names and such

TYSM FOR READING!! 😭😭😭