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Yes.

Absolutely living for Laios’ English VA

I unserstand why seems pointless for some people me figuring out I have Asperger's Syndrome as a young adult, but for me feels like getting rid of a backpack that's been filled for 22 years of words like "freak", "shy", "weird", "nerd", "genius" (yes, beeing the "smart kid" sounds cool, but it's lonely), etc. It's about self acceptance and peace of mind.

I think this is the best way someone could of ever summarized my shitty memory and attention span.

Sorry, I can't remember what you just said

My Brain is out of

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Let’s talk about the astounding similarities between cats and autistic people, and how we should make them the official autism mascot instead of that godawful puzzle piece

looks like i’m definitely on the spectrum

It feels insane to finally have this put into words, even if its by someone else

idk about you guys, but i find dating and anything related to it so confusing!

like i’m generally quite good at inter-personal relations with allistics when it comes to friendships and other casual things where you kind of know how much you should expect and how much you can expect from the other person, but when it comes to any kind of possible romantic relation, i’m at a complete loss. i can never figure out how much i can and should expect from the other person, and i’m always terrified of overwhelming them and scaring them away because i like them so much (which has happened so many times that it’s made me scared of showing any interest at all now), and it’s so frustrating!

i hate the games that come with dating and flirting; ignoring texts to not seem eager, or pretending like you don’t wanna hang out with them even though they’re all you can think about. it would be so much easier if we could just be like “we both like each other, and would like to start dating, so how about we find a way to make it happen” but if you do that now, the other person might lose interest because you’re ‘too available’ which is apparently just as bad (if not worse) than being ‘too emotionally unavailable’, so it’s like this super fine balance of showing interest but not too much interest, and it is EXHAUSTING! especially when you already struggle with social bonds because then you end up overanalyzing every single thing you do, and if it doesn’t work out you probably end up blaming yourself for doing something wrong.

at least that’s what i do...

After seeing a post talking about how I shouldn't use the term "Asperger" neither "Aspie" due to the past of these words and althought I see the point, I honestly just don't care 'cause I also feel comfortable with these names so yeah, I thought about doing... something just for fun and it actually ended waaaaay better than I expected at first

"Is it a poor representation about autistic people being seen as dumb or non-rational people?"

also

"Is it a assumption about Taz being autistic?"

also also

or even "is it a way OP found to show how he just doesn't care about what people say he's supposed to be/relate/bother with?"

anyway, just some questions that could possibly be made and Imma just answer with "feel free to think whatever you wanna"

I never got an opportunity to fail without risking the few things I had just by being myself

I'd be afraid of everything and everybody if I wasn't angry with everything and everybody

I never had any issues about knowing myself 'cause my whole family and every kind of environment crushed me by being myself, which means I was forced into knowing every inch of myself to recognize what exactly about me was seen as "wrong" by them

Trying to write an introductory post

My name's Daniel. Honestly, I don't know how to exactly type this shit besides just throwing whatever I find important so yeah, here we go

I'm an autistic/Asperger who got a late diagnostic, a trauma survivor (mainly from my traumatic childhood), chronically depressed, generalized anxiety disorder, maybe with social phobia (although I dislike the way we use "phobia"), potentially dyslexic along with dyscalculic and also probably ADHD. That's a fucking ton of diagnostics, ngl. What else do I type? I guess I'll try to give a preview of what I like to say and do here

Although it's been a couple of months since I didn't make a single edit, I love graphic design overall and it's part of my natural pattern recognition from the very beginning of my life. I try to make wallpapers and icons/profile pictures because this way I can give my art some kind of utility. I'm by no means a professional, I just do what I like

I think it would be good to say something about other interests too. Here we go again

I've been interested in english also since the very beginning, even if I'm not a native speaker. I'm currently a college student aiming to be a translator and maybe a teacher, who knows. Along with that, I like studying human nature and honestly I don't really know the true answer for that. Maybe it's because I don't naturally get what other people think and say most of the time, therefore I developed some kind of inclination towards trying to grasp wtf humans do and why the fuck they do what they do. I personally love the idea of studying human instincts and its roots — which still fuck me to this day since I didn't find a specific route for the kind of studies I'd want to do but well, I guess I can't have my cake and eat it too

I'll try to be more specific about my interests, here we go again

I love/hate Pokémon along with Sonic and I purely love Minecraft. There are other franchises I love like Ben 10 and some animes like Ao no Exorcist, although I've been trying to start Dragon Ball recently (it's going way better than I expected, ngl). Overall, I like thinking about these pieces of media. There's something so cool about understanding the deepest points from a universe and trying to solve its mysteries with the information it provides you. Oh and I also have interest in bad movies because Imo the path to grasp what is a great movie can only be traveled through bad movies. If I had to guess what would be the worst movie I've ever seen, I'd say Birdemic which is only ahead of Sharktopus. I also like horror movies overall, although the Insidious saga has a special place in my heart. Godfuckindamnit, what a good sequence. I don't even care if it's not the best franchise, I just love it so deeply

I guess I should speak about what else I post. Trigger warnings, I guess? Transphobia, misogyny

Although I don't consider myself transphobic, people have their rights to call me whatever they want. Having said that, I'll try to clarify myself 'bout it

I don't believe someone's "assigned" a sex, sexuality nor gender. I honestly don't even believe in gender. It even reminds me of the "LGB cut the T" except I'm more about the TQ+ and whatever comes next. I don't really have any problem with whatever people identify themselves, I just don't believe they're what they think and I ask to not force me into believing them.

About misogyny, it's quite a two-sided path. Part of me thinks women feel entitled to everything at their core while also part of me thinks I'm just being extremist, by example. Even if I'm not the best example and I don't even show it that much, I do have hopes about the world not being as harsh as I think but whenever I go out expecting to see something different I end up being crushed by reality again. It got to a point where I can't even see a woman without being invaded by negative thoughts like "she would see you as a dispensable tool and an inferior being", even if I don't know her. Honestly, I don't blame anyone who would think I'm just a hardhead. Having said that, anyone is always welcome to ask or comment on anything here

Well, I tried. I'll try to either organize or write/type a different introduction later

I don't know who needs to hear this, but if you're going around calling older autistic people Nazis for identifying with the name of the condition they were literally diagnosed with, you are worse than them. Like, by far. Like, it's not even a competition.

Fake It 'til You Break It 😭

Timers and alarms for EVERYTHING

This is adhd culture

Happy girl's tears

I don't want to want to die. I just feel so stupid and invisible and I feel like I'm just a burden.

I'm reaching out and screaming, "Someone please see me! Look my way and see my tears!"

But they don't hear me. No one hears the laughing girl's cries. No one hears the sound of her heart breaking.

No one sees the smiling girl's tears. No one sees her smile crumble behind the bathroom door.

They don't see her pain. They don't want to.

I'm trying to get better! I don't want to be so stupid and worthless all the time! I'm trying as hard as I can, so why?! Why do I feel like my feet are cemented to the ground and I'm falling into quicksand? The harder I try to get better, to be the better daughter, better friend, better everything, the worse I get?

The happy girl shatters and no one notices. Maybe when the tears are blood, they'll turn and look? When that crimson stains her fingers instead of the salty drops she wipes off her face?

But then it's too late. When the happy girl tries to die and ends it all, they say, "How did we miss this? Why didn't she ask for help?"

She did, but you closed your ears to her. You held her mask up when she was trying to rip it down and show you she was hurting. You told her it was her own fault, she just needed to try harder.

But the happy girl had already tried her hardest, and it was never enough for you.

Just a thought

I’ve come to realize over time, that while my anxiety and depression have voices, and embodiments within my mind, my aspergers does not.

Anxiety will whisper in my ear of possible failures and all that will go wrong, depression will pull on me, and try to drag me down, telling me all is worthless.

But my aspergers does not speak to me, it does not carry its own body. It simply, locks me up, like a character you haven’t unlocked yet, but for actions and words, it opens up my senses without touching me.

I found it interesting...

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So this is mobile so forgive me for any mistakes but, I think I’ve just had the best day ever.

So I don’t really talk about it a lot but I have autism, Asperger to be specific. I’m pretty high functioning so usually people can’t tell and I don’t have to deal with many issues. Eve over sensitivity I’ve sort of dealt with? It only hits me rarely now anyway so that’s good.

But a massive thing for me is anxiety. I have it really bad to the point either my heart is constantly racing or my productivity is shit because of it.

Well recently in my country herbal shops have been allowed to sell cbd oil, which essentially a derivative of weed without the hallucinogenic properties.

I’ve been offered weed before by friends who knew about my Aspergers, but from experience through others with Asd I knew I would completely breakdown down if I hallucinated so I never too them up of the offer.

But then the cbd oil came out and honestly? I’ve never been calmer in my life. I’ve always been scared of strong medication due to the side effects and my family’s history but this cbd stuff just... just works for me. For the first time in my life my brain feels quiet it’s so weird!

Like a moments I can sort of feel the anxiety start but then it just cuts off.

Fuck I don’t even care if it’s a placebo this shit is working for me! Something is finally working for me!

Like I’m sure it won’t work for everyone but I seriously really recommend looking into it if you have any sort of strong or debilitating anxiety, especially if stronger medication causes bad reactions.

Warning tho start on the lighter concentration and increase if necessary.

Also if you have a strong aversion to bad tastes get tablets, not oil. I think the oil works quicker but you have to keep it under your tongue for a minute and it tastes really bad.

My older brother Will (in the blue) with our hs basketball seniors. I'm his shadow but he's pretty awesome. He's the teams manager and does all their paper work for all the sports teams. He has aspergers and he loves math and journalism. He made a half court shot at the last game I'm not sure how to share the video to tumblr so here's a picture. He's gonna be the best news article writer ever.