I'm Trying - Tumblr Posts - Page 2
My first time drawing with markers and it kinda worked. Blending is very difficult.
It’s really hard to be mad at Luke, while reading the book, picturing him like this:
I’m sorry but pretty privilege is so real
Stared at a photo of myself for too long and now I have to actively remind myself that my body is the least interesting thing about me. But still wtf was that angle???
FINALLY AFTER A FEW DAYS SAUL IS POPPING UP!!!
There are some days when I look in a mirror and I don't recognise the person staring at me and I don't know if that happens because I changed so much or that I lost touch with reality and my body and my mind, I'm just so tired of everything and I don't know
Monday, 5th of August / Lundi 5 août
I am really proud of myself today because I managed to wake up at 6. (I usually wake up at 12)
It's crazy how sleeping early can make your mind clear; when I sleep late and a lot, I don't feel this good, but when I sleep early and not so much, it's alright and even better than the previous. By that, I mean that I feel more rested and have a clearer mind.
Anyway, I woke up early and worked for a few hours before going back to sleep (since I'm not used to waking up early I needed to sleep more).
So I woke up at 12 from my nap, read, wrote, bathed, did some chores, and then I finally made my famous oreo tiramisu, (if you want the recipe ask me, it's literally so damn easy)
Then I kept on catching up on my diary because I had a lot to write. I also watched half a movie ( called Tenet).
So y'know, it was a normal day, but since usually I just lay around the house, I am pretty proud of myself for being this productive; usually I have a really hard time cooking and doing chores because I am not really action-oriented, but improvement comes slowly.
It's a small but nice win :)
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( I wanna add just one last thing, sometimes I feel like I'm the only one like this, who has such a hard time doing things that requires you to use your physical energy, like chores, even bathing can require so much effort or pressure from me sometimes, like, I can perfectly use my brain all day and be alright, but as soon as I have to move, it feels like it's sooo hard.)
Anyway, c'est tout pour aujourd'hui, je vais aller me coucher tout de suite pour me réveiller tôt demain.
Bonne nuit ♡