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Am I Lonely?
Am I lonely? Is that subjective? Does it matter? Do I?
I wonder
Are they really my friends? Or am I just so consistent they don't have a choice? Am I nice? Or is it just easier to be nice than exert the energy to be honest? Am I lonely? Or are people just one of those things I just don't understand?
I wonder
Do I care? If I'm lonely I mean, I think I do, I want to. It's a very complex emotion, and it's one of those things that don't come alone. Am I lonely? Or am I tired? It is unfathomably late and there's a voice in my head that's been whispering sweet nothings since midnight. Is it the hour? Or the day? Maybe the time, not just the hour. Am I thinking too much? Making myself believe I'm lonely? I could be faking it. Just to feel something, but if that's the case why must it be lonely?
I think I just want to be understood. For someone to look at me, see me, and go, "Oh honey," I want a hug, I want it to feel real, not just a formality, I want to be trusted; I want to trust.
God, Am I lonely? Is that my tragedy? Am I surrounded by love I will never see? What a tragedy indeed. Am I lonely?