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menace gets personal <- new tag!!!!! for things about life? i guess? personal things anywho i am so very overstimulated right now we're at the vet for cat and theres another cat here who keeps screaming which i get but there is also a baby which I get as well its just A Lot of noise and its just very overstimulating and i also dont know how long we'll be waiting? so its a lot of noise for an unknown amount of time cause the dad is now whispering loudly at the baby which is More noise okay that is all rambling menace

menace gets personal there is More how is there more the cat and baby have left only to be replaced by a yippy dog but we cant see the dog? it is behind a door i want to go to bed rambling menace

menace gets personal cleaning a whole enitre house is a TASK i am so very exhausted and i think we have more plans? that involves so much walking i am already pooped think we're gonna have an early bedtime tonight its only 1p and i am dreaming of a bed lmao rambling menace

menace gets personal like i thought my body pains were normal and mom said they are not what do mean my shoulders shouldn't lock almost instantly after starting to crochet or knit and my fingers shouldn’t ache after starting an embroidery project? and my hips shouldn’t feel like they're locking when it's cold? and i shouldn’t be cold all the time? i just chalked all this up to weird body quirks but mom threw? i don't know if threw is the right word but she threw out this big explanation for it and now everything has made itself more present like now my jaw aches after eating? even during eating i don't feel like that's normal it's just weird you know rambling menace

menace gets personal i forgot how very stressful moving is like the actual day not the packing and stuff although that is stressful this?? this is so much worse like we have time. you do not need to stress everybody out i promise thats just gonna make everything worse my man and completely ignoring us because you have shit to do??? kind of an asshole move and shoving us out of the way to grab something we could've gotten for you????? also an asshole move idk i am just very stressed and not really looking forward to today i mean i am? cause i finally get out of the living room but also no? it is so stressful rambling menace

menace gets personal started with a sore throat yesterday then it went to body aches now its a sore throat and runny nose and light cough its not covid tested for it last night it feels like a cold but a friend said there might be a bug going around rn but then i see other people posting theyre sick and im like 98% sure they dont live near me so is everyone just sick right now cause this shit SUCKS anyway rambling menace

menace gets personal dude there is so much going on right now and i feel like a child for my reactions to it?? except i know im not really acting like a child but god i feel like such a child!!!!!! neg like why am i reacting this way?? why am i so stumped over this small thing??? it might not be small tbh but it seems like such a small thing!!! and i know theres probably multiple parts to this but i just want to curl up in a ball and cry but i havent cried in a while? and i think i forgot how to? which means its all gonna come out at literally the worst moment possible idk theres just so much i dont even know where to begin work is new and theyre doing construction on my street and my dad is being weird and and and and ive been journaling about it but i think theres too many changes that it's not doing much? but i also know that ive been able to pull myself out of situations almost? to make sure i dont overreact or seem mad about it yk? but what do i even know??? i think i am spiraling goodnight <3 rambling menace (also pls dont worry i am fine i am just stressed as all get out and im a little frustrated i think)

they arent dead i just havent seen or talked to them in like 6 years so having a dream about them where they came and surprised me and talked to me about guitar hero of all things?? i am a bit distraught but i have to keep going about my day as normal is this what those baby dreams feel like? rambling menace menace gets personal grief i guess???

/hj its never been this bad before but alas my body keeps changing and making everything Worse so this does not surprise me that much fucking sucks though it fucking sucks anyway rambling menace menace gets personal i even took a nap to try and help it and if anything it made it worse

I AM EXCITED maybe a bit too excited?? i think part of my whatever this is is that i fear i dont have enough time to pack and clean with job beacuse i just dont have the energy for anything anymore? but the trip is not for another week packing now isnt necessary and its gonna stress the babes out but alas brain want pack brain want clean but brain is stuck because i cant im sure another part of it is that next weekend im supposed to have an extra day off cause the store is closed but i have to work that day to make up for hours so surely i dont have time!!!! there is no time!!!!!! (there is) (especially because im working from home that day) (i can pack in between things) there is just no time smh rambling menace menace gets personal

menace gets personal yeah work was shit today!!!!! to start it out our registers just were not working today? and my boss would not help me figure it out so im on the very edge of a breakdown and we've been open for 45 minutes before she finds me and tells me its fine?? because we have ways to recover from this we might've figured it out after forever but it took like the whole day? and then she was being WEIRD about things but now she wants me to do this and this and this and she hasnt shown me how to do any of it!!!! and if i ask her she's gonna talk down to me because “why don't you know this?? it's so simple???” anyway today was stressful oh wait also!! someone got on her ass because i am a part time employee doing full time hours! although the only reason she really brought it up was because they said something about it costing more money to have me there doing more hours than i should be?? something like that idk she also now has to justify my hours!! since im working so much more than i should be :) okay i think thats all goodnight (im not going to bed) rambling menace

menace gets personal <- at least a little work started out bad again and my boss loves talking down to me so i have started organizing the clown office :) and i want to make a little sign that says “welcome to the clown office” because i think its funny (and yk what maybe ill like this office better if it was named by friends and i had a constant reminder of that) so i might have my mom make one? idk theres no spot for it yet but its starting to feel a bit like mine and thats what we're going for i also have a shit ton of rubber bands??? so if any of yall want to come make a rubber band ball hit me up i got you mmm also want to redo the wall art (cause it kinda sucks) but i dont know if im allowed anyway back to work i go (im actually gonna eat first but alas) love you <333 rambling menace

menace gets personal cause i think this is how im getting through work right now i do not want to go in today (but i think its too late to do anything at this point) i got bruised from doing fucking grommets yesterday and everything is sore my hands are forming bruises methinks because of how badly they hurt my right knee is bruised (and also already a bit fucked from a different injury like 4? years ago) my chest is a bit tight but not as bad as yeterday so we'll take that win and i am so tired i fell back asleep this morning and i just know if i were to lay down i would fall asleel again and the real funny (/j) thing is is that im a part time employee. i am working full time hours. been here for 2 months and the only time i took off of work was for a vacation which is normal typing it up but for a /part/ time employee idk if it is normal i also took 2 hours off one day so logically i should be able to leave early or just not go in today but idk it feels too late? idk where im going with this but i hurt and am tired and so badly wish to not be working today but alas the horrors persist rambling menace