Morning Anxiety - Tumblr Posts

Every morning is the hardest with this anxiety disorder. I always cry and I want to go home to my hometown and I miss my parents and my sister...

But I always survive these mornings somehow. If you are in the same shoes, keep going! Until now, you've survived 100% of your mornings and tomorrow will do just the same.

In other news, positive things in my day today:

- I almost finished my seminar paper (only needs some polishing that I hope I can do tomorrow morning)

- My dad called me and even though he is struggling too, he gave me so much strength and I can, after years of lack of emotional affection from him, finally feel how much he loves me. It means a lot that he tries to help and doesn't abandon me in these dark days of mine

- I also talked to my mom and my sister and they made me laugh, and I finally haven't felt that laughing while struggling is a crime (it's not!! Please, laugh as much as you can, you need those happy chemicals)

- I talked to my grandma too, she is my ray of sunshine, I love her so much 🤍

- I had to take my meds, but I finally accepted they are a source of help and I need them now, until I can be strong again

- I washed my clothes, my hair and I will ask God to help me next week, as I will have to encounter a lot of stress again (cardiology, psychiatrist and I also have to read a book by Tuesday and write something about it)

- I feel like my hands aren't trembling all day anymore and my heart rate is more okay too (I almost stopped checking my pulse all the time, nowadays I only do it once or twice a day)

I am trying really hard to tell my subconscious we will be alright. I believe we will.

- Reni