Narc Crash - Tumblr Posts

Does anyone else just randomly feel like they're annoying everyone around them and that they should just disappear for a while to give everyone else a break from their existence, or is that just me?

YES YES YES this is what I feel

No matter how many people want me, no one will need me like I need them

It also does not help that I’m crashing rn so hhhhh ig I’m a useless lil thing until someone gives me praise.

then I’m god. bow before me, worm.

I have very high expectations for myself. Too high. Sometimes I think about what my life would have to be like in order to finally feel satisfied. To not feel so incompetent and miserable most of the time. And I couldn't find an answer. I would still feel pathetic on top of the world. Being the smartest, most beautiful, most admired, most skilled person, doing everything perfectly. Being practically an almighty God. And I would still feel incompetent and disgusting. Having NPD turns you into a black hole. You can only desperately gobble and gobble, hoping to feel full at some point, but nothing could fill a bottomless void. Everything that comes in, disappears. Forgotten.