Npd Vent - Tumblr Posts

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I wish I could find more resources for npd that didn't make me feel like complete shit for my disorder like I already know I'm an asshole please let me learn how not to be!!!

wow as i'm tagging this one of the suggested tags in npd is anti npd I love being seen as a monster for existing /sarcasm

How to stop depending on a person who has wanted nothing to do with you for 8 months no glue no borax

why are people competing?? with me in the reblogs way to make someone feel insecure about their struggles

How to stop depending on a person who has wanted nothing to do with you for 8 months no glue no borax

having to force yourself to stop liking spinterests because they trigger you and remind you of that one person is the worst feeling ever

Don't join this server if you have NPD everything you do gets criticized

Try to give advice when someone is wanting advice? Your advice doesn't work for them so you're abelist

Use a term on yourself which helps you explain how to interact with you but someone else doesn't like (mental age)? Fakeclaimed and called ableist

It's so heavily moderated that the safe space is only safe if you remember every rule and want to get walked on and criticized and also it's all adults having a power trip against teens trying to figure out the community

YES YES YES this is what I feel

No matter how many people want me, no one will need me like I need them

It also does not help that I’m crashing rn so hhhhh ig I’m a useless lil thing until someone gives me praise.

then I’m god. bow before me, worm.

I have very high expectations for myself. Too high. Sometimes I think about what my life would have to be like in order to finally feel satisfied. To not feel so incompetent and miserable most of the time. And I couldn't find an answer. I would still feel pathetic on top of the world. Being the smartest, most beautiful, most admired, most skilled person, doing everything perfectly. Being practically an almighty God. And I would still feel incompetent and disgusting. Having NPD turns you into a black hole. You can only desperately gobble and gobble, hoping to feel full at some point, but nothing could fill a bottomless void. Everything that comes in, disappears. Forgotten.