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A DUTY OF CARE.

pairing: nate river/near & gn reader.

word count: 2k

content: talk about marriage, major spoilers for all of death note, food mention, domesticity, hurt/comfort kind of, reader is from wammy's house.

note: my part in @cyancherub BFTD collab!! this was such a blast to write n i'm really happy to be a part of it!! go check it out, heed the tags, etc <3

“I think…” Near ventures one unremarkable afternoon in midwinter, pausing in the middle of a thousand-piece puzzle, “we should get married.”

Your hands pause over the tea kettle. “Um. Near?” you say cautiously, wondering if he’s finally lost his damn mind. “We’re... not together?”

He looks at you; he looks entirely unruffled, considering what he’s just said. Anybody else would be flushed, or avoiding your eye, or fidgeting, but not Near. There’s not a hair out of place. Well, there is, but that’s more in a literal sense, and your fault besides. You’d meant to cut it last weekend, it was creeping past his shoulder blades again.

“Yes we are,” he rebukes quietly, puzzle piece held aloft. “We’re always together. You all but live here now.”

“Yeah, but that’s…” You pinch the bridge of your nose briefly. “It’s different. We’re not, y’know, in love.”

Privately, you used to wonder if Near could even feel things like love. Now - now that you’re older, you realise how stupid that line of inquiry ever was. Near loves. He loves quietly and subtly, and with no thanks to Wammy’s house which squashed every emotion together into ‘bad distracting wrong’ until he couldn’t tell what from what. There’s a helplessness to it, the way he looks to you most of the time to tip him off on what emotion he should be feeling. It’s a mark of the Wammy’s kids you just barely managed to avoid. That inclination towards dispassion. Monotony as comfort.

So yes, Near loves. And after all these years - the meeting, the departure, the loss, and everything after that and everything in between - you’ve come to realise that you’re included in this little exclusive circle, too. It’s gotten pretty quiet these days, though, with the loss of Watari and L, Mello and Matt. It’s really only you and Giavanni and the SPK that recline beneath Near’s watchful eye. And it’s there if you really look for it - in the way his fingers curl briefly in your clothing when you have to leave. In the words that almost leave his lips, the quick glance of silver when his eyes flick to yours. It’s that haunting loneliness, the one you’ve come to recognise in the own lines of your face when you catch it in the mirror.

Near loves you, and he’s loved in return. But it’s not… well, it’s never been…

He tilts his head, mulling this over. “Does that matter?” he asks softly. “Many people get married for other reasons. Money, or power, or appearances.”

“Well, I want to get married to someone I love,” you shrug. “I think.”

“You’ll wait until you retire if you do that,” Near says matter-of-factly, going back to his puzzle. His moon-white hair swings past his ears, obscuring his face from your face, casting his soft features into shadow. “You won’t drag anybody you love into this life.”

You blink. “How - how did you know that?”

“You told the man in the blue tie about it,” he says mildly. “What’s his name? I’ve forgotten.”

“It’s Rin. Were you spying on me?”

He doesn’t meet your gaze; that childish avoidance returns in the subtle hunch of his shoulders, the way his fingers twirl a puzzle piece idly. “I told you I wanted to keep a closer eye on you. Do you think you’ll marry Rin?”

“God, Near…” You heave a deep sigh, rubbing your temple tiredly. “He asked me out for coffee. It’s hardly a proposal. I’m not getting flooded with those, don’t you worry.”

“Not flooded,” he agrees. “You’ve only had one, and you’ve yet to give it an answer."

The kettle clicks. You turn your back, trying to ignore the flutter of your pulse as you pour the two of you drinks. Green tea and honey for yourself, black for Near. He stopped taking sugar when Mello died. Monotony as comfort.

You set the mug on the floor before him, to which he mutters a quiet word of thanks and lifts it to his mouth. His pale, lithe fingers peek out of the gaping sleeves of his shirt, smooth and unshaking. You’ve always envied the reign Near has on his emotions, but sometimes you suspect he envies the manner in which you have no reign on yours at all. They spill out of you like someone’s turned on a faucet, whether you want them to or not. He’ll never have known the freedom of that. He’s been prodded and shaped into filling L’s shoes, no matter what it did to his mind or his soul. It makes you feel desperately sorry for him, but you’d never admit it to him. He’d think you were patronising him. He’s childish like that.

Your tea is too hot to drink, so you set it aside. Near avoids your eye.

“Let me brush your hair,” you offer.

“... It’s alright as it is,” he shifts.

You roll your eyes. “No, it isn’t. Besides, you won’t have another break for days, knowing you. Where’s the brush?”

He scowls, just barely. “Where it always is.”

You smile and get to your feet, heading for the chest of drawers by the television. And, okay, maybe there is a strange sense of domesticity here, with the two of you cross-legged on the tatami mats, sipping tea from mismatched mugs from your own cupboard, a hairbrush having ‘a place where it always is.’ It’s like that brief period in your life where you lived with a roommate, a year or so after you left Wammy’s. It’s certainly nothing like anything you had at that school.

It’s nice. Especially with Near.

Your fingers dance down his parting, separating his hair into halves, and you’re not remiss to the slight shudder that passes through his narrow shoulders at the contact. You work on the bigger knots first, easing them apart with your fingers, and tut. “You shouldn’t let your hair get this long if you’re not gonna take care of it.”

“That’s your job. You’re the caretaker.”

“Caretaker?” you laugh, digging the brush into his scalp. He winces in response, a petulant whine leaving him. “You couldn’t pay me enough to be your caretaker. You’re hopeless. I’m just an idiot with nowhere else to go.”

There’s a brief pause. And then Near speaks again, quieter this time, with a wavering hesitance that makes you think he’s measuring his words. “I’m glad you have nowhere else to go,” he confesses. “I like having you here.”

Your throat sticks. “With you?”

“Where I know you’re safe.”

The brush pauses halfway down his neck, and phantom pain throbs through you. It’s never easy, being reminded how deeply Near feels these things, because it always makes you feel like you don’t do enough for him. But he shies from contact, and words of affirmation seem to do little for him. Maybe just having you here is enough for him. Affection seeps through your chest, sticky and sweet as syrup. Unable to help yourself, you lean your head into the back of his, breathing against the soft, pale locks of hair. He tenses in response, a breath getting caught in his throat, but it’s surely a mark of how much he cares for you that he doesn’t push you off. He simply sits there, stoic, allowing you to get a reign on your feelings.

The two of you exchange pain in this familiar little dance. It's the way it's always been. The day after Matt and Mello left Wammy's, he'd waited until you sat down on the floor beside him and slumped right into your lap. It was the first time he'd ever voluntarily touched you.

And when you were sickly and flushed and riddled with fever, Near had crept into your room, a silent white shadow. He pressed one of his favourite dice into your hands, and it was deliciously cold against your heated palms. He'd sat there for the rest of the night, eyes pale and unblinking, tugging nervously as his shirt, like he was waiting for you to die.

After a minute, you clear your throat and you peel backwards. You resume the monotonous brushing of his hair, sweeping it over his shoulders for easier access. It really is getting long. You’ll have to cut it soon. God, you're actually starting to sound like his caretaker.

Well. Caretakers have a duty of care, don’t they? Your fingers toy with a strand of pale hair, considering. It’s not really that far off.

“Why d’you want to marry me?” you ask, which you feel is a reasonable question. Near shifts.

You half expect him not to answer. For a good minute, he doesn’t; the silence presses in, not uncomfortable, as you work your way slowly through his hair. It’s soft to the touch, because you make sure he washes it semi-regularly, and it smells like standard drugstore soap. All of him smells like this - clean, pressed, all fresh linen and scented laundry detergent and unlabelled soap. At least it’s clean, you reason to yourself. Mello smelled like the acrid curlings of cigarettes and leather and cologne, and Matt was worse. Near is clean in the same way that L was.

Finally, he pries opens his mouth to answer. “I… did all I could to keep everybody alive,” he begins slowly. “Matt and Mello died. L and Watari. Even Kira in the end. I thought if I tried something different to keep you close, it might have a different ending. Is it… really that unreasonable?”

You swallow hard, because, okay, that was maybe the most painful thing he’s ever said. You set the brush down and manoeuvre around him, taking a hold of his hands. He runs freezing cold, always, terrible circulation even from when he was a kid. In the winter, you used to sneak down to the kitchens and fill hot water bottles for him, press them between his sheets. He'd curl into them with shaking, numb fingers, coin-round eyes peering up at you from beneath his pale fringe.

He doesn’t meet your eye now, not even when you curl your fingers around his and encourage it. “Near…”

He clears his throat lightly. “Never mind. Don’t think about it anymore.”

“Hey.” Two fingers on his jaw, tilting his head to look at you. His pale eyelashes flutter in surprise, mouth gently parted as he awaits your response. “I have a duty of care, remember?”

His face twitches. Could be understanding or confusion, but because this is Near you lean toward the former.

“Alright,” you pull in a breath, smiling. “Let’s get married. Why not?”

Near blinks. “What changed your mind?”

“Oh, what always changes my mind?” you laugh. “You, of course. Anyway, it’s like you said - I’d never pull anyone I loved into this life. But you’re already in it. In fact, you’re the centre of it. Nobody’s simultaneously as safe and in as much danger as you are.”

“And that’s somehow better?” he asks dubiously. You roll your eyes.

“You’re gonna have to stop questioning me so much when we’re married,” you chastise.

Near cocks his head. “Ah... I think I’ve made a terrible mistake.”

And then you laugh, mirth bursting from you before you can reign it in, and though Near doesn’t smile, there’s a softening in the lines of his face, a safety, maybe, in the way his eyes relax as they track your expression.

It's not a relationship. Maybe you could call it that to save time, but it's not. But it's something. It's love, in your own ways. It's safety. It's more comfort than you've ever felt with anyone else, and if the price of keeping that was marriage, well...

There were worse people to be married to.

Death Note Masterlist

Started: 7/16/22

Last Updated: 10/10/22

Requests: Open

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L Lawliet

-My Beacon of Light | L Lawliet x F!Reader comfort

-Comorting Touches | L Lawliet x F!Reader comfort 2

-Vows | Self-insert | angst

-L with a S/O who bakes

-Kodoku | L x fem!reader | angst

-L x gn!baker!Reader -F!S/O has a nightmare | Angst, Fluff

Light Yagami

Relationship HC's | gn!Reader | Angst, Fluff

Mello

-Trans!Mello x fem!Reader | SMUT -Mello x fem!Reader | Angst -Jealous/Possessive!Mello x fem!Reader | Angst, Fluff -Getting f!S/O a kitten | Fluff

Matt

-Nothing here yet!

Near

-Nothing here yet!

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Match up info:

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Characters reacting to you when you tell em youre cold

Fandom: MultiFandom

Pairings: Characters X Gn!reader

Genre: Crack, Fluff, Comedy

Format: Scenario

Warnings: None

Word Count: 70

A/n: Writing about my babies cause I miss them :')

↬"well damn! I cant control the weather,can I?"

Haikyuu: Tsukishima, Kuroo(will give it to you afterwards tho), Atsumu

Bungou Stray Dogs:Fyodor, Dazai (he'll say it more nicely but this is what he means XD), Ranpo, Nikolai, Jouno

Death Note: Light (only if he hasn't killed you yet XD), L Lawliet(fight me on this one lmfao)

↬takes his jacket off and gives it to you,even if he's freezing to death <3

Haikyuu: Sugawara, Akaashi (ya'll agree that this guy is the real prince charming himself right?), Hinata, Tanaka, Nishinoya, Asahi, Bokuto

Bungou Stray Dogs: Atsushi, Fukuzawa, Tanizaki, Gin, Higuchi, Sigma, Mori

The Case Study Of Vanitas: Noe, Roland

Death Note: Matsuda

Jujutsu Kaisen: Saturo Gojo

↬"this is why I told you to wear your jacket,idiot" sighs and holds you closer to himself while blowing your hands so they'll get warm T^T

Haikyuu: Iwaizumi, Daichi, Oikawa(he'll be a little nicer), Kageyama, Osamu, Suna, Ushijima

Bungou Stray Dogs: Chuuya, Kouyou, Yosano, Teccho, kunikida, Tachihara, Akutagawa

The Case Study Of Vanitas: Vanitas

Death Note: Mello

Jujutsu Kaisen: Megumi Fushiguro

↬just take your clothes off and give them all to him cause he needs it more than you lmfao XD

Haikyuu: Tendou, Kenma, Yamaguchi

Bungou Stray Dogs: also Akutagawa(please I love him but hes so skinny T^T), Kaji

Death Note: Near

Jujutsu Kaisen: Yuuji Itadori

telling them I hate you in the middle of sex

Fandom: Multi Fandom

Pairings: Various Characters X Fem!reader

Genre: Smut,Crack,Fluff

Format: Scenario

Warnings: NSFW content

Word Count: 0.3k

A/n: saw a death note version of this and wanted to give it a try myself :D

●youre on his lap,bouncing up on his length and down as your nipples are slightly pecking each other,getting a hold of his neck and connecting your lips together to share the euphoric sensation that was being spreaded through your body

●it feels amazing.the pleasure youre receiving as his fat cock pounds into your soaked cunt,his fingertips that is delicately touching every curve of your body,

●it was too good to be real

●you have no idea how you fell for this man.he has you in his fist,knowing you like the back of his hand,reading you like a book,even if he isn't trying to

●hes gorgeous.making you feel thing that nobody has ever made you before

●youre desperate for his love,his touch,his cock

●and you want to let him know that,but somehow you tell him the exact opposite of what you mean,and that doesn't really concern you cause you know its one of the random things people tell each other while having sex,but perhaps you came off a bit strong

●"oh god! I fucking hate you,you motherfucking useless peace of shit! j-just like that! "

●lmao lets see what their reaction would be

↬immediately stops moving and stares into your eyes ,shocked and ready to cry.

"y-you really mean it?…" "w-what?noooooo baby that was just the heat of the moment im sorry!"

hes not convinced.what kind of idiot would say that in the middle of sex? they don't know that,cause they don't watch porn

Bungou Stray Dogs:Atsushi(duh),Kajii,Tanizaki

The case study of Vanitas:Noe

Haikyuu:Hinata,Kageyama,Yamaguchi,Asahi(wow Karasuno is full of softies),Lev,Bokuto,Atsumu(he watches porn)

Death Note:Matsuda

↬"shut the fuck up you fucking cockwhore!" "what did you just call me?"

ok,perhaps he came off a bit too strong as well XDDDDDDD LOL

Bungou Stray Dogs:Akutagawa,Ranpo

The Case Study Of Vanitas:Vanitas

Haikyuu:also Kageyama,Tsukishima,Also Atsumu,Oikawa (lmao it really was the heat of the moment for him),Kunimi

Death Note:Light Yagami,Mello

↬smirks while getting a hold of your hair,slightly pulling it as he bites your bottom lip and makes his movements faster.

"going crazy over my cock,arent you baby girl? better watch your mouth or daddy is gonna teach you how to behave properly"

Bungou Stray Dogs:Dazai,Dazai,Dazai,Dazai,Mori,Also Chuuya,Tachihara,Fyodor

The Case Study Of Vanitas:also Vanitas(but he'll punish you),Roland

Haikyuu:Tsukishima,Nishinoya,Daichi,Suga,Kuroo,Tendou,Osamu,also Atsumu,SUNAAAAAAAAAAAA,Iwaizumi,Kunimi,Oikawa

Death Note:L Lawliet,Also Mello,maybe near…?

↬bro this guys offended.like what the fuck? hes making you feel good and this is how you repay him? get ready for revenge lmao

Bungou Stray Dogs:Akutagawa,Kunikida,Ranpo

The Case Study Of Vanitas:Vanitas lol

Haikyuu:Kageyama,Kenma,Ushijima,Atsumu,Kunimi

↬is confused.why would you even say such a thing? he knows that you don't mean it,but just why?

Bungou Stray Dogs:Kunikida,Akutagawa,Fukuzawa,Tanizaki

The Case Study Of Vanitas:Noe

Haikyuu:Kageyama again lol,Asahi,Kenma,Akaashi,Ushijima,Kita

Death Note:Near,Matsuda

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Bungou Stray Dogs

∞Chuuya Nakahara | One & Two & Three

∞Atsushi Nakajima | One

∞Dazai Osamu | One

∞Nikolai Gogol | One

∞Ryuunosuke Akutagawa | One

∞Fyodor Dostoevsky | One & Two

Haikyuu!

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∞Tooru Oikawa | One

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↳NSFW Prompt List!

“Open your mouth for me, baby.”

“I won’t apologise for marking you up, everyone should know you’re taken.”

“Swallow. All of it.”

“Do you need to use your safeword, darling?”

“Do you know what happens when you misbehave?”

“Shall we put that mouth to better use?”

“I was good while you were gone! I didn’t even touch myself.”

“I’m bored. Wanna play?”

“Say that you want me.”

“We really shouldn’t be doing this right now.” “Well, do you want to stop?” “No.”

“We might get caught. Does that turn you on?”

“You look so pretty with my dick inside you, princess.”

“Good morning, princess.”

“Sit on my face.”

“Keep your voice down - there’s still a party outside.”

“If you think being in public is going to stop me, you’re sorely mistaken, sweetheart.”

“Either I’m insane or you were just masturbating in our living room.”

“When I wake up, you’ll still be here, right?”

“There’s only one bed.”

“Have you ever used handcuffs?”

“I know you think about me when you’re alone.”

“Which do you prefer, fingers or mouth?”

“This is our little secret, okay?”

“You think I give a shit that other people want you? I’m the one that gets to have you.”

“Is that my shirt?”

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Death Note MasterList!

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◆Mello Keehl

⇝Brat taming with Fem!Reader

⇝"Sit on my face"

◆Various Characters

⇝Reacting to their S/O squirting | Light & L & Near & Mello & Matsuda

⇝When their S/O is cold | Light & L & Near & Mello & Matsuda

⇝When you fake an orgasm | Light & L & Near & Mello & Matsuda

⇝Telling them "I hate you" while being intimate | Light & L & Near & Mello & Matsuda

⇝Giving them head | Mello

⇝Going down on you | Mello & Light

⇝Feeling sore the morning after | Mello & Light

⇝Sitting on their lap | Mello

⇝Sitting on their face | Mello & Light & Matt & Matsuda

⇝Messing up his meeting with your dad | Mello

⇝Needy, needy boys | Mello

⇝Eating your snacks | Light & Mello & L

To be added...

01. 𝐍𝐞𝚊𝐫 ⠀⠀٬٬⠀ 𝕹⠀⠀⋆ ⠀🍚 𖦹

PSD::@i4junie ♡

random hcs w/ near x fem reader!

one of my absolute fav characters

warnings: smut, subbing, cockwarming, angst with comfort

nsfw under the cut

• i would say that you guys met before the kira case, maybe at wammy’s or just through family/friends

• only because i doubt he would’ve been out of the spk building much during the case, and he doesn’t seem like the type to get randomly attached to one of his workers

• keep in mind you work with him and not for him like halle, so you don’t fall under that umbrella

• you and halle are friends, she loves you

• since you stay and work with him, you guys have nights where you sleep over in her room and you guys just talk and have fun

• you and near are such an unexplainable friendship

• like halle and the other workers are so confused bc if he met anyone else that acted similar to you, he didn’t take nearly as much of a liking to him as he did to you

• but he enjoys having you around, even though he’s hard to read

• since you two had always been close, there was never really a time where you were shy around him, unless it was just a part of your personality

• you could easily just go sit by him while he was working and start a conversation with him and hours would speed by like seconds

• i headcannon him to be autistic to some degree, so eye contact is kinda hard for him

• social cues as well, which i think is why he pisses mello off like anytime he talks

• but you don’t see him as any less because of little things like that, which he’s silently grateful for

• asking him out was very fast

• the whole exchange was maybe like ten seconds tops

“hey near?”

“hm?”

“can i be your girlfriend?”

“sure.”

• he was happier than he let on though

• your relationship is more on the private(not a secret) side, and all in all it’s very healthy

• you guys don’t go out for dates much even before kira, but you hang out often so it makes up for it

• you play games together, like cards and dolls and hot wheels, he eats that shit up fr

• you bought him a dollhouse or a mini racetrack or something and that was the first time he kissed you

• as for kisses, they’re fleeting and he keeps you on your toes

• he’s never big on pda or js affection in general, less because he dislikes it and more because he’s just never experienced it before

• but you help him soften up a bit, and he slowly grows fonder of little things, like kissing your hands and cheeks

•he loves kissing your hands: wrists, knuckles, you name it and he’s right there

• like you’re cupping his face and he reaches a hand up to move one of yours closer and he kisses your palm :3

• sometimes he’s lonely when you’re outside the building, but he’s never insecure(cough mello cough)

• he trusts you completely and knows that you love him just the way he is

• sex

• oh good heavens where do i start

• sub almost every single time

• ik i said he’s not big on affection but for some reason sex has always been one of his handful of exceptions

• eats pussy like a god

• mans will have you absolutely hooked, obviously giving him space between rounds but never passing up an offer to have any type of sex w him

• first time you two did it he was antsy beyond belief

• anytime you made a sound whether it was good or bad even though they were always good, he’d have to resist the urge to pull away and make sure you were okay

• you never rushed him, but gradually he grew more comfortable with sex and was barely ever nervous anymore

• he has a low libido, but if yours is higher he’ll gladly accommodate for you via overstimulation or vibrators and other toys

• likes head, but is super sweet and will always put you first if you’re both needy that time

• really likes head

• i think he just likes seeing your face, and maybe just the fact that you’re the one giving him head

• he’s quiet, but really easy to hear during sex

• he whimpers fs, and maybe moans a bit further on

• probably into orgasm denial, for both of you but mostly on him

• he can talk really dirty when he feels like it, every word he says during sex seems to have a purpose whether it’s to get you closer or just to tease you

“talk all you want, you can’t deny the mess you’re making of yourself.”

“aren’t you cute, thinking i’m gonna let you get off that easy.”

• he’s smart with his words and studies your reactions so he knows more of what to say in the future

• also he has an rbf but it’s less bitchy but more nonchalant, he only ever really smiles or anything like that after you guys are done because he’s too focused on you to even think about it

• his face during sex is so hot

• he would be into cockwarming and size training, but honestly i think he’d prefer it as less of a sexual thing and just something intimate instead

• sitting on his lap with his cock between your legs, gently stretching you out as you play with his hair and chat with him about his day while he works

• during the kira case, he’d be restless, and sometimes you’d wake up early to find him hunched over and snoring in his chair

• besides basic hygiene(i.e. baths, brushing his teeth) i feel like he’d have some trouble taking care of himself so you’d help him

• when he isn’t busy you guys have mini slumber parties where you wear face masks which he hated at first but got used to and play with barbies and it’s just a nice time

• he likes just being in a room with you, you make rooms good*

• the night after mello came back to the spk to get his photo, he cried in your arms for the first time(might make a fic abt this)

• it was just everything on top of everything, and he wished they hadn’t grown up the way they did because he really did care about him

• you held him close and cradled him in your arms, reassuring him that it was okay to cry and okay to feel, you have no idea how much that meant to him

• he can’t imagine his life without you in it

• listens to mitski, mom jeans, and cocteau twins

• doesn’t listen to music much, but it helps him destress

• likes generic cookies like oreos

~

*you’re immediately my friend if you recognize the saying

Death Note

♡ Names have the links to their masterlist!

➤ Kira

↳ Yagami, Light

↳ Amane, Misa

↳ Mikami, Teru

↳ Takada, Kiyomi

➤ Japanese Task Force

↳ Aizawa, Shuichi

↳ Mogi, Kanzo

↳ Matsuda, Touta

➤ Wammy's House

↳ Watari

↳ L

↳ Near

↳ Mello

↳ Matt

↳ Beyond Birthday