Not The Answer - Tumblr Posts

if you don't have a fever then you definitely aren't even mildly sick, right? well that's the view in my family. physical health obviously trumps mental health which is a hush hush issue and funnily enough the last time i mentioned, yeah first time ever by the way, that i attempted suicide thrice, yeah you heard me right thrice, i was told that movies did that to my brain. but its ok. its always ok. it doesn't matter if i am shattering into pieces because there always a worthless one in the family who just can't seem to get anything right, even perfection has flaws apparently. i sit wondering what it would have been like to be loved by a family but i suppose i will always just keep on wondering about it. family is linked with blood but what do u do when you start hating them so much that you wanna keep jabbing a knife into his throat until he bleeds out? what do u do, huh? well i keep telling myself that it's all gonna be ok no matter how bleak it all seems. may be it's gonna be ok someday. just may be.