Oreo Cat - Tumblr Posts
TW // Vent
I've had nights where I just listen to Someday I’ll Get It by Alek Olsen and just sob my heart out. I think of my cat that passed away. His name was Oreo. He was a beautiful black and white shorthair cat. He had a big primordial pouch that would swing when he ran. I would always go on adventures outside with him and my other cat, Pumpkin. Oreo was so cuddly. I told him everything and he was always there for me. Even when nobody was there, he was. Gods, I miss him. I miss him so much. For most of my life he was my only friend. He was the only person I trusted. I loved him. Over about a week he started to act less energetic. He ate less and less every day. He looked sickly, and his hips were protruding. His face looked so sad. You could tell he was hurting. I told my parents we should bring him to the vet. They weren’t too concerned. He just kept getting worse and worse. It broke me to see him in that condition. He seemed to not want anything to do with me, so I gave him space. I always want to make him comfortable so I would always listen to what he seemed to want. We took him to the vet finally and he had a giant mass in his stomach and his liver was failing. He had to be put down. I was distraught. I was told that I was able to go to the vet when he would get put down. One day my parents said to say goodbye to Oreo, but I thought he was just going in for another checkup. I only gave him a couple pats, a kiss on the head, then walked away. I had no idea that would be the last time I would ever see him. Right after they left I realized. I realized I would never see him again. I broke down. I couldn’t get out what I was feeling. I was broken. I just lost my best friend, the friend that had stayed by my side since I was younger. The best friend that I named. The best friend that I cared for. The best friend that I loved. The best friend that loved me. The best friend that I just lost. The best friend I never actually got to say goodbye to. I always think about him. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry Oreo. I shouldn’t have distanced myself in your last days. I should’ve been there for you. I should’ve said goodbye. I should’ve comforted you. I should have saved you. I should have convinced them to bring you to the vet earlier. Maybe we could've saved your liver. Maybe they could’ve removed the mass before it was lethal. Maybe, just maybe. I hate myself for everything. I hate myself because I didn’t help him. I hate myself so much. I should’ve been better for him. I wish I was better for him. I really hope he forgives me. I’m so sorry bubba, I’m sorry. This is all my fault, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry Oreo.
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