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of course he would catch her the minute she decided to get up and go for a walk. nikki wanted to clear her head about everything that had been going on in her life lately. from feeling like she was always second at best especially when it came to roman's career. she understood he had missed being in the ring, he had missed being the champion and even the tribal chief, but why couldn't he make her a priority for once? she had made him just that. ❝ it's just a walk, roman. i need to clear my head. is that allowed or we going to fight about that too? ❞
" oh so now we sneakin' out the house when i'm sleepin , huh ? " when there's still bass in his voice and exhaustion in his eyes. whether nikki had plans to wander far , take a walk , or was checking the weather , her , there by the door while he's been down and unaware ? roman didn't like it. " you plannin' on goin far ? finna make me chase you down out there in front of the neighbors ? " | @b3llalution
"I wish I could forget you. But every time I try, I'm reminded of everything we had." / dolph
why was he saying this to her? and why now? why did he wait so long to admit his feelings for her? now that it was too late. nikki had been in an on going relationship with john cena for a few years now. one that of course had it's bumpy spots but this is the man who currently owned her heart. until dolph decided to come around again and make nikki question everything. make every single feeling she ever had in doubt. she didn't deserve to feel like this after she was finally happy and with a man who adored her the way john did. of course it wasn't like anything dolph and nikki ever had. they had talked about getting married, having kids and he had told her over and over again that he would give her just that. and in a world where john didn't exist, maybe nikki could think about going there again. but was she ready to put herself out there with dolph again? to go through all that pain and suffering the way she did the first time? ❝ don't you think it's a little too late for that, dolph? i've moved on. you should too. ❞
@godsdefied
Nikki Bella & Dolph Ziggler | Total Divas
she looked down at their hands. he had grabbed her hand, and it was as if they had belonged there this whole time. she didn't have the courage to pull away from him. the pull dolph had on her was too strong and yet she couldn't give in to what he was asking of her. she couldn't do this to john. not after everything they had been through together. he had changed so much of his life for her, to be what she needed him to be. of course she would never become a mother - something nikki had wanted with all of her heart since she was a kid. she talked to brie about it, they planned their lives together, having their kids play together. but what was the point of all of that if you didn't have a person to share it with? she had desperately wanted to have that with dolph in the past. nicole's heart still ached for him and when she heard his next words? it had killed her even more to even stay in the same room with him. finally, nicole pulled her hand away, turning around leaving her back for him to face. she could feel tears forming in her eyes, lump in her throat, pounding pain in her chest that only he knew how to cause. after a few minutes of silence, nikki finally turned around to face dolph again, her heart breaking before her very eyes. ❝ your everything? you have to be joking, dolph. how could i have been your everything? if i was, you wouldn't have just threw me away. and now that you can't have me? you want me. you just like the chase and that's all. you were my everything. you were the guy that i thought i was going to spend the rest of my life with. we were going to get married and have a family of our own. and then you broke my heart. you broke it so badly that i thought i would never be able to love again. and now, what? you're back and you want to break it again? i loved you, dolph. i loved you so fucking much that it physcially killed me and sometimes i think i still do. but it's over. please try to respect my relationship with john. because as much as i loved you - i'm not going back to how i felt. ❞
it had been over a decade since they'd ended things — a decade of shoving his feelings back down, burying them in other women & alcohol & jokes, pretending the two of them could ever be just friends. he was sick of pretending. fingers are tangling themselves in bleached blond hair, blue eyes pleading with her until he feels as pathetic as he looks. he didn't regret many things in his life, but losing nikki was the biggest one: his better half, his soulmate, the loss of his life. heart is left shattered on the floor between them, & he'd rather she just stabbed him, left him bleeding out & put out of his goddamn misery. he wonders what john has that he doesn't, what was so appealing about a man who would never want the same thing as her. a shaky breath burns his lungs, hand leaving his hair to grab hers; begging her to just give them another chance, & a silent promise to be better this time. ❛ how can i move on from you? you were my everything. ❜
@b3llalution, continued from x.
[TEXT] - are you seriously leaving me on read right now? / dolph
◟ contact name: dolph❤️
text / sent
please stop texting me, dolph.
text / sent
i told you whatever happened last night - it was a mistake. something that will never be repeated again.
text / sent
understand?
@godsdefied
SO MUCH SASS
@godsdefied
(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧
◟ contact name: dolph❤️
text / sent
you mean the same way you have been pretending like i haven't mattered to you in all of these years?
text / sent
where have you been in the last 5 years? you can't just walk back into my life like nothing's happened and PRETEND we can go back to the way we were. because we can't. so please forget the other night.
text / sent
and forget me.
( * nikki ♡. ) how can you say that ( * nikki ♡. ) you can't pretend you don't feel the same way
@b3llalution, continued from x.
@godsdefied
Even if it’s just in your wildest dreams
@godsdefied
Seven years of back and forth and like- some kind of more than friendship…
she was happy. she was happy for roman. all these months of being laid off, spending time with each other had paid off. and now she finally saw that gorgeous smile across his face again. he was back to where he belonged and she understood that feeling very well. sure, they had bumpy times but it didn't matter because she loved him more than anything - he had become her rock. and nikki truly believed that he was her soulmate in life and that there wasn't anything she wouldn't do for him. ❝ somebody's in a good mood tonight. i say lets go out. it's been awhile and i've missed that smile on your face. ❞ she turned around to face him, wrapping her arms around his neck, smiling stuck on her face, pressing her lips against his for a soft kiss.
it'd been partially her doing. this influence. where open eyes can finally see a new path forward and the delicate tethers of family are allowed to skew. @b3llalution 's voice had been there from the start. soothed. argued. but always , in spite of him or despite him , supported. and now , his chin on her shoulder , arms loose around her middle , roman can breathe steadier. grin closer to something genuine and less malicious. " we goin out tonight ? or we stayin' here in this hotel room till they call the cops t' try an' pry us out ? "
@godsdefied
Nick, you are an amazing guy… you are. And you are gonna find someone who is going to make you so incredibly happy-
What if I already did?
@ro1lingst0ne gets a small lyric starter from nikki bella.
when my world is falling apart, where there's no light to break up the dark, that's when i, i, i look at you.
@godsdefied ( dolph ziggler ) gets a small lyric starter from nikki bella.
you know this isn't what i wanted, never thought it would come this far. was thinking back to where we started and how we lost all that we are.
@godsdefied ( tama tonga) gets a small lyric starter from nikki bella.
you take my hand and say you've changed, but boy you know you're beggin' don't fool me because to you it's just a game, you know it's just a little too late.
@godsdefied ( jacob ) gets a small lyric starter from nikki bella.
what you got boy is hard to find. i think about it all the time. i'm all strung out, my heart is fried. i just can't get you off my mind because your love, your love , your love, is my drug.
why was he making things harder than they needed to be? nicole was already having a hard time trying not only to convince herself but also dolph that things between them were over. that the only person in her life that she loved now was john. but that couldn't have been further from the truth. ever since he came back into her life, everything had changed. every feeling that she ever had for him came rushing back to her, her heart physically ached for him in more ways than one and she wished with all of her heart that she could end things with john and be with dolph. because she truly believed he was her soulmate. he always had been. he cupped her face in his hands and she couldn't look at him in that moment. she refused to. but it wasn't just that, their lips were just inches away from the other and his eyes, they were desperate, they were searching for hers. and now she kept her gaze locked on him, her own eyes full of so much pain and agony. ❝ you're making this a lot harder than this needs to be, dolph. what if i admit that you're right. what if i admit that i love you more than anything else in thsi world? and that i have been missing your stupid ass since you left me. and yes, maybe john doesn't compare to what you and i had. but he hasn't left me. and he's been making sacrifices for me. am i supposed to leave a man that loves and adores me more than his own life for someone that may just walk out that door again? ❞ tears start forming in her eyes now, desperately wanting to know the answer to her question. because if he answered her truthfully, maybe she could have taken him back. but at what cost? losing the most amazing man she had ever come to know? or so she thought, until dolph was standing there, placing a hand on her heart, which she was sure he could feel beating so fast. her own hand now, touching the side of his face, trying her best not to completely fall apart. ❝ i love you, dolph. i love you more than i ever thought i could love anyone. and if you can honestly tell me, that you will be here, that you won't leave me like you did in the past - i will consider giving you a second chance. promise me. ❞
he'd never be able to forgive himself for walking away from everything they had; fame & money gone to his head until he'd lost everything he really cared about with nikki caught in the crossfire. he was young then, stupid, didn't know what he had when he had it. every single day he wished he could go back, fix what he broke, hold on tight to the only person who ever really loved him. a love like they had only came once in a lifetime & maybe that's why he's convinced himself that what she has with john can't POSSIBLY compare. nobody could love her as much as he does, of that he's certain. he couldn't bear seeing them together anymore. ' sometimes i think i still do. ' it echoes in his head, heart aches in his chest & he swears he can't breathe ⸻ it's the only encouragement he needs to lunge forwards, hands moving to hold onto her face.
lips are mere inches from hers as he keeps her close, eyes begging, PLEADING with her to just give him one more chance. he may not be deserving of her forgiveness, but he knows damn well that he'd treat her better than john ever could. ❛ you can't act like you don't miss us. i know you do. i know you don't mean it when you call him your soulmate. you know it too. i love you, stephanie, so much i can hardly stand it. i can't stand by anymore & watch you waste your life with some guy that doesn't love you the way you deserve. ❜ it's a last ditch effort when he grabs her hand again, places it over his heart: every beat is for her & her alone, even if she refuses to take him back. at least he'd know that he tried the best he could.