Writing; Nikki Bella - Tumblr Posts
nikki would never joke about her wrestling career. especially that. the doctors didn't say she couldn't wrestle ever again but that would take a lot of time. ❝ not for now, nattie. i broke my neck and i need to have surgery. ❞
"I know you would not joke about anything serious but this is--- the doctors said you can't wrestle ever again?"
she didn't expect this. she didn't want this. it wasn't supposed to be this way. things should have never happened between nikki and seth. but they had. he had become one of her best friends and a best friend that had turned into something much more than that. something more than nikki bella had ever imagined him to be. ❝ shouldn't i? am i supposed to make this easy for you? is it that easy for you to just walk away from me? from us? ❞ he couldn't even look at her. he couldn't stare her in her eyes while he spoke. she was sure he didn't want this as much as she didn't. her heart was breaking before her very eyes and there wasn't anything that nikki could do about it. except try to convince seth to stay.
“i wish we had more time together” nikki to seth <333
arms fall to his side where he held them crossed in front of his chest before. brown of his eyes directed at the ground now as a small sigh escapes his lips. “ you’re making this harder for both of us. “ finally, gaze finds her again. “ every time. every goodbye, you’re making it harder. “
more often than not, nikki had seemed to get her way when it came to roman. she would shoot an innocent look, finger in her mouth, eyelashes batting and he had become hers. at least for the evening. it had been a long time since nikki had felt his warmth, the way his skin touched hers, the way his lips brushed up against hers in such a soft and gentle manner. she wanted him to feel wanted. and she wanted him to want her just as much. ❝ are you kidding me? the only way you're getting me out of here is if you push me off. i'm not letting you out of my sight tonight. ❞ smirk on her face, kissing his lips ever so softly, not wanting to stop not even for a second. roman had taken some time off to heal properly and at the same time spend some time with nikki. which she appreciated wholeheartedely. but she also wanted him to do what he loved, what he enjoyed. ❝ i've just been enjoying your company, babe. and being with you everyday is something i've always dreamed of. but whenever you're ready to go back, whenever that is, i'll be happy for you. ❞ nikki supported roman and his wrestling career. she understood what it meant to have to give up everything. she went through it and since she had, things had never been the same for her again. but she wanted the best for him and she knew that when he was ready to go back, he would take back what was rightfully his. ❝ i'm not going to cry. i think you're going to be the one crying. ❞ she couldn't help but laugh, tracing her nails down his spine, while she continued on giving him neck kisses.
she says ' for one night ' as though she didn't crook a manicured finger and lure him in on a regular basis. enough so that , when the tugs come , roman's knees move across the covers with a mechanical sort of practice. muscle memory. as easy as breathing. how he slots in between the warmth of sun kissed thighs and balances , first , on planted palms before another pull , more insistent , brings him the rest of the way to her. through a barrage of kisses that're sure to leave pretty , red little reminders he'd find on the sheets in the morning , " mn.. all night ? you sure you ain't gonna want to take a break halfway in ? get you a bottle of water ? little bite to eat ? " no longer idle threats , the implication is forward. it presses against warmth that's always seemed ever - welcoming.
" got me thinkin' you're enjoyin' alllllll this time i been takin' off. " what's filled with nights like this. days that reflect a similar position. where more pecks , peppered from collar to trap to the bob of his adam's apple , tickled into a chuckle , " could make a man think about early retirement , you keep it up. " not let either of them out of this bed till he's sated. filled that bottomless pit and a stomach what's growl that likens itself to what rumbles up past the mouth on his throat. that crux where his pulse meets hers , " no cryin' when you got a limp in the morning , baby. "
"I wish I could forget you. But every time I try, I'm reminded of everything we had." / dolph
why was he saying this to her? and why now? why did he wait so long to admit his feelings for her? now that it was too late. nikki had been in an on going relationship with john cena for a few years now. one that of course had it's bumpy spots but this is the man who currently owned her heart. until dolph decided to come around again and make nikki question everything. make every single feeling she ever had in doubt. she didn't deserve to feel like this after she was finally happy and with a man who adored her the way john did. of course it wasn't like anything dolph and nikki ever had. they had talked about getting married, having kids and he had told her over and over again that he would give her just that. and in a world where john didn't exist, maybe nikki could think about going there again. but was she ready to put herself out there with dolph again? to go through all that pain and suffering the way she did the first time? ❝ don't you think it's a little too late for that, dolph? i've moved on. you should too. ❞
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BRIANNA. you will never believe what just happened to me. and i don't even know why it happened.
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dolph just told me that he wishes we were still together. i'm trying not to freak the hell out over here. and i have no more wine.
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I KNOW, RIGHT???
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i wish i was, brie. i don't even know why this came up all of a sudden!
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i told him that it was too little too late. that i moved on and that he should too. and then he went on to say that he couldn't move on because i'm his everything.
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what am i going to do?
( * nicole ♡. ) HE WHAT?!?!?! 😲 ( * nicole ♡. ) please tell me you're joking ( * nicole ♡. ) WHAT DID YOU SAY TO HIM????? 😱
she looked down at their hands. he had grabbed her hand, and it was as if they had belonged there this whole time. she didn't have the courage to pull away from him. the pull dolph had on her was too strong and yet she couldn't give in to what he was asking of her. she couldn't do this to john. not after everything they had been through together. he had changed so much of his life for her, to be what she needed him to be. of course she would never become a mother - something nikki had wanted with all of her heart since she was a kid. she talked to brie about it, they planned their lives together, having their kids play together. but what was the point of all of that if you didn't have a person to share it with? she had desperately wanted to have that with dolph in the past. nicole's heart still ached for him and when she heard his next words? it had killed her even more to even stay in the same room with him. finally, nicole pulled her hand away, turning around leaving her back for him to face. she could feel tears forming in her eyes, lump in her throat, pounding pain in her chest that only he knew how to cause. after a few minutes of silence, nikki finally turned around to face dolph again, her heart breaking before her very eyes. ❝ your everything? you have to be joking, dolph. how could i have been your everything? if i was, you wouldn't have just threw me away. and now that you can't have me? you want me. you just like the chase and that's all. you were my everything. you were the guy that i thought i was going to spend the rest of my life with. we were going to get married and have a family of our own. and then you broke my heart. you broke it so badly that i thought i would never be able to love again. and now, what? you're back and you want to break it again? i loved you, dolph. i loved you so fucking much that it physcially killed me and sometimes i think i still do. but it's over. please try to respect my relationship with john. because as much as i loved you - i'm not going back to how i felt. ❞
it had been over a decade since they'd ended things — a decade of shoving his feelings back down, burying them in other women & alcohol & jokes, pretending the two of them could ever be just friends. he was sick of pretending. fingers are tangling themselves in bleached blond hair, blue eyes pleading with her until he feels as pathetic as he looks. he didn't regret many things in his life, but losing nikki was the biggest one: his better half, his soulmate, the loss of his life. heart is left shattered on the floor between them, & he'd rather she just stabbed him, left him bleeding out & put out of his goddamn misery. he wonders what john has that he doesn't, what was so appealing about a man who would never want the same thing as her. a shaky breath burns his lungs, hand leaving his hair to grab hers; begging her to just give them another chance, & a silent promise to be better this time. ❛ how can i move on from you? you were my everything. ❜
@b3llalution, continued from x.
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i know, you told me many times, brianna. but i thought he had moved on. especially since his instagram posts were always full of him with other girls.
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you're right. I AM GOING TO KILL YOU, BRIANNA!!!!!
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how can you even say that after EVERYTHING john and i have been through? he asked me to marry him, brie. we're engaged. and i know kids was never in the plans for john but he might change his mind. and i love him. dolph had his chance. do you NOT remember all the nights i cried and you had to stay up with me? do you remember how long it took me to get over him? DO YOU!!!?
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i thought you could help me with this but apparently i was wrong for texting you.
( * nicole ♡. ) I ALWAYS KNEW HE WAS STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU!!!! ( * nicole ♡. ) you're gonna kill me for this... ( * nicole ♡. ) but maybe you should give him a second chance... ( * nicole ♡. ) dolph will give you a family. john won't.
[TEXT] - are you seriously leaving me on read right now? / dolph
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please stop texting me, dolph.
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i told you whatever happened last night - it was a mistake. something that will never be repeated again.
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understand?
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you mean the same way you have been pretending like i haven't mattered to you in all of these years?
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where have you been in the last 5 years? you can't just walk back into my life like nothing's happened and PRETEND we can go back to the way we were. because we can't. so please forget the other night.
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and forget me.
( * nikki ♡. ) how can you say that ( * nikki ♡. ) you can't pretend you don't feel the same way
@b3llalution, continued from x.
she was happy. she was happy for roman. all these months of being laid off, spending time with each other had paid off. and now she finally saw that gorgeous smile across his face again. he was back to where he belonged and she understood that feeling very well. sure, they had bumpy times but it didn't matter because she loved him more than anything - he had become her rock. and nikki truly believed that he was her soulmate in life and that there wasn't anything she wouldn't do for him. ❝ somebody's in a good mood tonight. i say lets go out. it's been awhile and i've missed that smile on your face. ❞ she turned around to face him, wrapping her arms around his neck, smiling stuck on her face, pressing her lips against his for a soft kiss.
it'd been partially her doing. this influence. where open eyes can finally see a new path forward and the delicate tethers of family are allowed to skew. @b3llalution 's voice had been there from the start. soothed. argued. but always , in spite of him or despite him , supported. and now , his chin on her shoulder , arms loose around her middle , roman can breathe steadier. grin closer to something genuine and less malicious. " we goin out tonight ? or we stayin' here in this hotel room till they call the cops t' try an' pry us out ? "
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you keep saying that.
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you /been/ having a lot going on, roman. i have been patient because i know how much it hurt you to lose the title. and then to get back on your feet.
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but now? do you even want to be in this relationship?
( incoming mssg from @b3llalution ) i want you to meet my family, it that alright ?
( mssg : nicole ) you know i'm not trying to avoid it. ( mssg : nicole ) but you sure this the best time ? ( mssg : nicole ) i got a lot goin on right now.
@ro1lingst0ne gets a small lyric starter from nikki bella.
when my world is falling apart, where there's no light to break up the dark, that's when i, i, i look at you.
@godsdefied ( dolph ziggler ) gets a small lyric starter from nikki bella.
you know this isn't what i wanted, never thought it would come this far. was thinking back to where we started and how we lost all that we are.
@godsdefied ( tama tonga) gets a small lyric starter from nikki bella.
you take my hand and say you've changed, but boy you know you're beggin' don't fool me because to you it's just a game, you know it's just a little too late.
@godsdefied ( jacob ) gets a small lyric starter from nikki bella.
what you got boy is hard to find. i think about it all the time. i'm all strung out, my heart is fried. i just can't get you off my mind because your love, your love , your love, is my drug.
@br4wl gets a small lyric starter from nikki bella.
so i cut you off, i don't need your love, 'cause i already cried enough. i've been done, i've been movin' on since we said goodbye.
why was he making things harder than they needed to be? nicole was already having a hard time trying not only to convince herself but also dolph that things between them were over. that the only person in her life that she loved now was john. but that couldn't have been further from the truth. ever since he came back into her life, everything had changed. every feeling that she ever had for him came rushing back to her, her heart physically ached for him in more ways than one and she wished with all of her heart that she could end things with john and be with dolph. because she truly believed he was her soulmate. he always had been. he cupped her face in his hands and she couldn't look at him in that moment. she refused to. but it wasn't just that, their lips were just inches away from the other and his eyes, they were desperate, they were searching for hers. and now she kept her gaze locked on him, her own eyes full of so much pain and agony. ❝ you're making this a lot harder than this needs to be, dolph. what if i admit that you're right. what if i admit that i love you more than anything else in thsi world? and that i have been missing your stupid ass since you left me. and yes, maybe john doesn't compare to what you and i had. but he hasn't left me. and he's been making sacrifices for me. am i supposed to leave a man that loves and adores me more than his own life for someone that may just walk out that door again? ❞ tears start forming in her eyes now, desperately wanting to know the answer to her question. because if he answered her truthfully, maybe she could have taken him back. but at what cost? losing the most amazing man she had ever come to know? or so she thought, until dolph was standing there, placing a hand on her heart, which she was sure he could feel beating so fast. her own hand now, touching the side of his face, trying her best not to completely fall apart. ❝ i love you, dolph. i love you more than i ever thought i could love anyone. and if you can honestly tell me, that you will be here, that you won't leave me like you did in the past - i will consider giving you a second chance. promise me. ❞
he'd never be able to forgive himself for walking away from everything they had; fame & money gone to his head until he'd lost everything he really cared about with nikki caught in the crossfire. he was young then, stupid, didn't know what he had when he had it. every single day he wished he could go back, fix what he broke, hold on tight to the only person who ever really loved him. a love like they had only came once in a lifetime & maybe that's why he's convinced himself that what she has with john can't POSSIBLY compare. nobody could love her as much as he does, of that he's certain. he couldn't bear seeing them together anymore. ' sometimes i think i still do. ' it echoes in his head, heart aches in his chest & he swears he can't breathe ⸻ it's the only encouragement he needs to lunge forwards, hands moving to hold onto her face.
lips are mere inches from hers as he keeps her close, eyes begging, PLEADING with her to just give him one more chance. he may not be deserving of her forgiveness, but he knows damn well that he'd treat her better than john ever could. ❛ you can't act like you don't miss us. i know you do. i know you don't mean it when you call him your soulmate. you know it too. i love you, stephanie, so much i can hardly stand it. i can't stand by anymore & watch you waste your life with some guy that doesn't love you the way you deserve. ❜ it's a last ditch effort when he grabs her hand again, places it over his heart: every beat is for her & her alone, even if she refuses to take him back. at least he'd know that he tried the best he could.
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so, i had a conversation with dolph where i told him that i may be considering giving him a second chance. if, IF he can promise me that he won't do what he's done in the past.
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i don't know if i'm doing the right thing, brie. but i feel it in my heart that dolph is my soulmate.
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i'm going to hell.
( * nicole ♡. ) i'm just saying, nicole. ( * nicole ♡. ) you shouldn't give up the only thing you've ever wanted for john. he isn't worth it... ( * nicole ♡. ) i'll support you whatever you wanna do, but it's really something you should think about. i want you happy.
@godsdefied ( brie bella ) gets a small lyric starter from nikki bella.
we get closer and closer again, but we're falling apart, i'm losin, you're losing a friend, but it's over, there's noone to blame, it'll never be the same.
