Questioning Cluster B - Tumblr Posts

I want to express my feelings violently

I want to express my feelings violently

I want to express my feelings violently

I want to express my feelings violently

I want to express my feelings violently

I want to express my feelings violently

I wANT TO EXPRESS MY FEELINGS VIOLENTLY BUT I CARE SO MUCH ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE THINK THAT I SUPPRESS ANY AND ALL STRESS I FEEL THEN TAKE IT OUT ON MYSELF LATER

I know I'm not okay in the head but I'm scared of getting better because what if I won't be the same person anymore

what if the traits that define Me disappear

Me : I'm literally the best everyone loves Me

also Me : what why did you compliment Me? wdym you appreciate My company?? wdym you actually care about Me??? *flustered confusion*

I love My new writing quirk it emphasizes what matters. Me

Me half the time : I'm so different and no one comprehends what happens in My brilliant mind :)

the other half of the time : My difference is a curse. My mind forever forbids Me to connect and be vulnerable. I walk this earth with the crushing weight of My solitude and isolation. No one understands Me and everyone fails to give Me the support and help I need

My toxic trait is actually being toxic

"what doesn't kill you makes you stronger"

what doesn't kill you forces you to cope with it in unhealthy ways

what doesn't kill you distorts your self-image

what doesn't kill you makes you feel dead anyway

what doesn't kill you makes you wish it had

I fucking hate people I fucking hate people I fucking hate people I fucking hate people I fucking hate people I fucking hate people I fucking-

how do I say "I see everyone as NPCs" without people hearing "I see everyone as pawns"

guys be like "i'm so random :)" but really be fishing for attention

I wanna quit My meds SO BAD it's itching at my brain because I obviously don't need that shit, but I need it, My brain's perfectly fine but also not??

I'm torn between what feels right to Me and what a licensed professional told Me

I can't possibly need medication that bad, right???? I mean.. I'm not THAT unstable am I???

scrolling on tumblr and watching youtube until My brain leaks from My ears and I'm sick and tired of the content I'm consuming and the crushing weight of the Big Sad starts to finally chew through the denial and distractions