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"If I'm not me..."

KNJ × Female OC

Part 5 & 6

Part 5

That night, when they sat down for dinner they were joined by 3 others.

"Noona, this is BamBam, you met him this morning. He's my right hand Alpha." She bowed to the man, who bowed back a little deeper than she did.

"This is Jackson, my beta." The man stood up and bowed deeply to her.

"This is Kihyun, his mate and alpha." She smiled and bowed to him as well.

They all sat down for dinner, a beta walked in holding plates and passed them out, "Joonie, can you explain your ranks a little more?" Namjoon nodded, smiling softly.

"An alpha is the dominant, protector, and often leader of the pack. Omegas are the more submissive ones, they bear the children, raise the children (with our help of course) and are there for the alpha's when we need to relax or need clear thoughts. Betas are in between. Most people think less of betas, but they're really both ranks in one. They lack certain genes but they can be as strong as alphas or as submissive as omegas." Jackson huffed, causing her to giggle.

"He's not wrong." Kihyun mumbled, pushing Jackson's shoulder. "Omegas, bear the children? Male or female?" Namjoon nodded, "Yeah, our bodies don't get to choose our subgender." Anrea let a wonder filled 'aw' escape her mouth.

Suddenly, she felt a weird pressure on her shoulders and she turned to look at BamBam. "Is there something wrong?" Namjoon asked, obviously smelling the anger radiating off of BamBam that he was trying to smother.

"It's just-" She grabbed her chest, her heart palpitating. Namjoon rushed to her, "Noona, what's wrong?" She kept looking at BamBam. "What are you doing to her?!" Namjoon yelled, making Jackson jump.

"Nothing."

"Lies! Your scent says otherwise, fucking stop!" Suddenly all pressure was off her shoulders and she gripped onto Namjoon for dear life. "I've lost my appetite." He grumbled before lifting her up like she was the most fragile thing in the world.

As the couple left, Namjoon heard Kihyun bluntly say, "Your jealousy fucking stinks. She's sick, can't you smell it? Yet you still forced your anger onto her. You're an alpha, get over yourself." Before chairs scraped and Namjoon shut his bedroom door.

So they know she's sick too, and didn't object to her being my mate..

Part 6

"Why does he hate me?"

Namjoon sat her down, "Because he can't have my pups. BamBam was a late bloomer and he felt this draw to me at a young age. I guess he developed feelings for me, but when he presented as an alpha..." She nodded, "I understand." Namjoon hummed, "My question is, how did you feel his anger?"

She shrugged, "I felt a heavy pressure on my shoulders and he was glaring at me. I've always been able to feel people's auras so I wasn't too shocked." Namjoon hummed questioningly. "Would you like to meet my mage friend?" She nodded but slowly stood up, "Can we bathe first?" Namjoon hummed.

"Join me." She said, tugging Namjoon's arm. He smiled and stood up, grabbed clothes for them and then walked to a door in his room. It opens to a gorgeous bathroom, a shower on the far wall.

He walked her to the shower and turned the water on. He looked back to find her removing her shirt, when her curly hair bounced back to her shoulders he looked away.

"Don't get shy, Joonie. You have to see me naked at some point, right?" Namjoon gulped and opened his eyes, taking in her body.

Her curves were perfect, her thighs looked so smooth, her stomach flat and kissable, her breasts big round and perky. He began to stare and she giggled, walking closer and tugging at the hem of his shirt. "Your turn." Namjoon was hard and it sure didn't hide itself.

He gulped and removed his shirt, letting her hands roam his chest and abs. He then unbuckled his pants and tugged them down before removing his underwear.

She stepped back, biting her lip. "I should've made you strip a long time ago." Namjoon chuckled and held his hand out. She happily took it and stepped into the shower with him. He held her close in the shower, letting the water run over their bodies as they cleaned themselves.

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She turned to him as she rinsed her hair, the front of her body pressed to his as her hands ran through her hair. Namjoon shuddered and backed up against the wall.

"What's wrong?" She asked, worry in her voice. "Y-You put your stomach on my-" she smiled and lowered her head, "Sorry Joonie. Did you not like it?" She nodded, "No I did! It just shocked me."

She smiled more and got closer to him, "You like being this close to your Noona, naked? You finished cleaning yourself before I did." She booped his nose and smirked. His face burned red as she leaned into his chest, her fingers tracing down his stomach. "You're much bigger than I expected, Joonie." Namjoon gulped, audibly shuddering as she gripped his erection.

"Fuck."

Dear Namjoon | KNJ

✧ Pairing: Kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way? a/n: comment to be in permanent taglist!

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Dear Namjoon | 01

✧pairing:Namjoon x reader ✧genre:angst, fluff,smut,slow burn ✧warning(s):explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧synopsos;You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

a/n: when I first started writing Dear Namjoon I was writing short chapters :DDD

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"United Airlines flight 880 to Miami is now boarding" you hear the women call over the intercom

"mom, can't i just go with you. please don't leave me here" you cling to your mothers arm

" y/n, i'm going to miss my flight if you don't let go and board the bus" she says as she tries to get free from your grip

"please, i won't know anyone"

"sweetheart, you'll have your brother ok. listen i need you to let go now. think of this as a new change, you were going to transfer school either way. here your brother will be able to watch over you from the inside ok"

with pleading eyes you cling even harder to her arm "please mom, we aren't even that close" you lie, now your stomping your feet, people are passing by and very obviously judging you but that doesn't fucking matter. how can she send me to live with my dad who barely knows  me. ok my brother and me have a good relationship but that doesn't mean she can send me there.

"This is the final boarding call for United Airlines flight 880 to Miami"  your mom looks at her watch

"that's enough with your tantrum park y/n, let go right now and board the bus" she raises her voice

I let go of her arm and point at her "FINE BUT DON'T CALL ME, YOU HEAR ME? I DON'T WANNA HEAR FROM YOU"

she rubs her temple and sighs "y/n, stop ok. i'm sorry i can't bring you with me" picking up my bag and suitcase   i walk to the bus

"i'll call you tomorrow ok!" my mom yells as i walk away

fuck i can't just walk away i've been attached to this women ever since i was born, turning around i drop my luggage once more and run to hug my mom one last time "don't forget ok" tears stream down my cheeks

"you're such a baby, i will call you ok. love you"

"love you too mom" the bus honks and i rush to grab my bag. entering the bus i sit in the only available seat by the window

"WHEN YOU ARRIVE WAIT FOR YOUR DAD, DON'T TALK TO STRANGERS"  she yells as me, the bus pulls out and drives out into the road, she waves at you.

her imagine becomes hazy the farther the bus drives.

"this isn't fair, why couldn't i just go with her" you whisper, not wanting to get people's attention more than you already did

I was on my way to my dad's house, he lived in seoul. my parents divorced when i was younger. I have a older brother by one year, his name is park jimin. When our parents divorced my dad said he wasn't capable of taking care of a girl so he asked for my brother instead. he didn't even give me a chance, literally told the judge he didn't care if i stayed with my mom.

yeah it's a bitchy thing to do but at least he still sent me letters on my birthday along with gifts. I would occasionally see him on jimin's birthday. but our relationship was awkward, my dad is a business man. our relationship was like a business partnership, he would give me an envelope with money on birthdays and holidays. tell me i'm growing up well, good job and thats it. like damn dude at least hug me but no even in pictures he would be far from me.

my mom said he's always been an awkward person but dude i'm literally your offspring, how hard can it be.  he looks intimidating as fuck though....so i also maybe kinda don't talk much to him either

i think we both need help...mostly him.

I have a good relationship with my brother, we got separated when i was five and he was six. my parents wanted us to be able to rely on each other even if we didn't live together. to not be strangers.

jimin would come over all the time, my father is always busy so he never wanted me to go and stay at their place. only on holidays will we all get together, our parents ended on a good note so we sometimes all spend holidays together but it became rare when they found out me and jimin thought there was a chance of them getting back together. they didn't want us to have that false hope and maybe ruin our childhood.

my mom got a promotion and was sent overseas but she said i don't know enough english so it would be better to finish school here, and then i can decide to go overseas or stay here. it's bullshit she didn't wanna take me with her. i know enough english, maybe even more than her.

jimin told me my dad was talking about getting to know me better, and i think that's where this all came from.

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the bus drive took all night, i arrived around five o'clock. it's fucking cold, and guess what no fucking sight of my beloved dad who apparently want's to get to know me. i thought since he was a business man he'd be punctual, i guess i once again had high expectations.

crossing my arms, i lean against he wall as i wait for someone to come.

it took twenty minutes till i finally see some fancy car pull into the parking lot, i just knew it was him. his business had become so successful when i turned ten. i remember he sent me a letter and gift that day.

i stopped writing back at the age of seven, i realized that if everything he wrote was real. he'd actually show up and pick me up for a weekend or something. not send a fucking stuffed bear.

I wasn't wrong, my old man steps out of his car and fixes his suit. he looks around, looking for me.

i chuckled "does he even know how i look" shaking my head i walk towards the obviously lost man

stopping in front of him he looks at me and gives me a awkward smile "hi y/n"

"hi..dad" there is this relief he feels as i call him dad.

but honestly i think he's dumb, the word dad. it really means nothing to me. shit, girls call their boyfriends daddy as they get fucked.

the word dad is overrated.

if me calling him dad means so much, he should've been here when i was a kid and it was actually cute to hear your daughter yell out dad and run to you, hoping to be picked up and showered with kisses.

this whole 'get to know you is just bullshit. bullshit on a fucking stick'

"uh...how have you been?" he breaks the silence, as we awkwardly stood there. people passed by us.

"good, do you mind if we go? it's uh..cold"

"oh, yes sure let's go" he extends his hand out. i raise my eyebrow in confusion as i stare at his hand and him

"oh..i'll carry your suitcase "

"oh" shit i thought he wanted me to hold his hand, giving him my suitcase, he starts to walk to his car with me behind him

he opens the door for me to get in the car. putting my suitcase in the trunk

"sorry i was late" he says as you both buckle your seatbelts

"don't worry about it, it's fine"

he just nods, starting the engine

"i thought jimin would come"

"oh..yeah he was going to. but i um, i was already coming late"

"right..it's fine"

the rest of the car ride was quiet. i would occasionally steal glances of my dad, but he was only looking out into the road.

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as he parked the car, outside the huge house. I see a boy run out the front door. and it's no other than my older idiot brother, park jimin. not waiting for my dad to open the door for me, i push the door open and get out. i haven't seen him since new years, running towards me with his arms wide open our body's crash into each other.

his arms wrap around me, as he lifts me off the ground. spinning me around "my adorable little sister is finally here" he showers me with kisses. my eyes tear up again. even if we talked all the time, it's way better this way.

"ok ok you are making me nauseous" i laugh

putting me down he cups my face "let me look at you, i haven't seen you since new years. beautiful as always" he smiles, making his eyes disappear. 

reaching up to his hair i tug on a long strand "back to black huh"

pushing my hand away he laughs "yeah, i know you like my hair black"

"ohh so it was all for me huh"

"anything for you" he winks

we both turn around the sound of the trunk closing

"it's cold so maybe we should head inside" he says, looking at you

nodding you grab your bag, closing the door.

"dad got your room fixed, mom told him everything you liked so you can feel at home" he smiles, he throws his arm over your shoulder guiding you to the house.

you glance over your shoulder. finding your dad looking up, taking a deep breathe in as he looks back to you guys. your eyes make contact before you look forward again. listening jimin.

"here's your room" your dad turns the door knob. the color to the room is periwinkle and lavender color mixed together just like your room back home.

the room was bigger compared to the one back home. "we also got someone to buy you clothes" he says as he places your suitcase by your bed

"your uniform is already hanging in your closet. tomorrow will be your first day"  clasping his hands together he looks at you "any questions"

jimin slaps his forehead at the awkwardness from his dad, your dad glances at  the both of you.

you look around the room "thank you dad, it looks great. i think i have everything" he nods

"you must be tired so um..i'll go and let you catch up with jimin" he walks pass you both and smiles closing the door behind him.

you cross your arms and look at jimin with your eyebrow raised

"give him a chance, he's trying. he was nervous all this time, getting everything ready for you"

"11 years late" you place your bag on the desk, pulling the chair out to sit

"y/n please, he regrets not getting to know you. give him a chance ok" he kneels down in front of you taking your hands in his 

you look around the room "fine..it looks like he thought of everything" you chuckle

"sis you have no idea, look" he gets up walking to a cabinet, opening it he takes out a bin filled with pads tampons

covering your mouth as you laugh 

"mom told him everything and he especially asked about this, something about him not wanting you to struggle about anything" he shrugs putting the stuff back

you get up opening the closet "who got all the clothes then?"

"oh mom send a list of stuff to his secretary and she got everything for you. even your undergarments. she also came and fixed everything"

you nod "he's trying isn't he"

"he truly is"

letting out a sigh you rub your temples

jimin pulls you into a hug "you don't know how much i've always wanted you to live with us again. my room is right next to yours. tell me if you need anything" kissing your forehead he says he gots to go do something and leaves you alone in your new room

you look around and see that he truly got everything.

  "i should get some sleep..i'm tired" you open your suitcase, taking out your pajamas.

getting into bed you realize it's the same mattress your mom had gotten for you

"fine dad...lets see if you can make up for those lost years" saying that left a bitter taste in your mouth

Dear Namjoon | 02

Dear Namjoon | KNJ ✧ Pairing: Kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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waking up I notice it's already three in the afternoon.

"i should get something to eat" getting up i walk to the bathroom to wash up, I walk into my room again taking my shirt off. looking into my suitcase for something to wear.

the door suddenly opens with my dad entering the room oblivious to me getting changed "y/n we were thinking of-" he stops as he walks past the wall that blocked view into the room

"you have to knock!" i yell as he quickly turns around and walks out the room

"this man" i sigh, grabbing a tank top and black leggings.

"i'm use to just walking into rooms" you hear your dads voice as he sighs

"yeah but it's different now, she's a girl" jimin whisper yells at him. you walk into the living room and both of them turn to look at you

"sorry, i didn't mean to just barge in like that" he stands and look your way

"it's fine...just knock before entering" you look at both of them

they both nod and jimin elbows your dads arms

"we were thinking it would be nice to go out and eat, since it's your first day here" jimin wiggles his eyebrows as he looks at you

"ok sure, i'll just go get my bag" you laugh at how stupid he looks, you walk towards the stares when your dad calls our your name

turning back you look at him "yes?"

"can...can you change into something else" he rubs his neck

"what?"

"your outfit?"

"yeah? what about it" you look at yourself, the fuck. i look fine.

"something more decent"

and does words shocked you. your facial expression right now could cause you to have permanent wrinkles. this bitch left me for ten years and thinks he can act all dad and tell me what to wear

"decent?"

"dad..." jimin sighs

"hmm, your right. maybe i should put shoes on. it was kinda cold out" you smile and walk upstairs

fuck you old man

you hear them discussing between each other once more as you come down stairs. you had thrown a small cardigan on, but you aren't gonna change only cause he said so. fuck that.

"let's go" you smile at both of them

your dad just looks at you as he grabs his jacket and walks towards the door sighing. jimin shakes his head, but still walks to you apologizing but you just shrug.

"this is gonna be a long three years" you roll your eyes

jimin gives you a sorry look, he didn't understand why you both cant just sit down and talk the past like maybe then you guys can start fresh.

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you all sat down, and ordered food. he didn't talk at all. you all came to a Mexican restaurant. honestly it was your first time eating Mexican food, so jimin said you should try something called Pozole.

once the food came, jimin did most of the talking with you. he would occasionally answer questions jimin asked him but he wouldn't say anything else.

"y/n" he puts his hands on the table and looks at you "i'm sorry alright, i don't know how i should act or what i should do when it comes to you"

interesting, he doesn't even apologize directly for what he did, jimin kicks you under the table side glancing dad as if telling you to not be a bitch and answer

"just treat me like you treat jimin. don't worry all the hard steps of raising a girl were already taken cared of" you continue to eat and jimin slaps his forehead

"oh but that still means you have to knock before entering"

"y/n...."

"look..what i wear doesn't matter, say something when i'm walking butt naked out the house"

"i don't care what you wear, i just want people to respect you. not cat call you or look at you as if they..." he rubs his temple

"respect me? so i need to dress like some nun to be respected? maybe if someone cat calls me or looks at me a certain way. i would expect you to speak up or beat his ass not look at me as if it's my fault. why do i need to change" you cross your arms and lean back

"it doesn't need to get to that if on-"

"if only parents taught their sons to not be nasty dogs" you finish his sentence before he says anything else

"i'm not one of your office workers, i'm not gonna dress up every time i go out. or when i'm suppose to be in a house where i should feel safe. if you are inviting someone over and tell me i should change to something more decent then they shouldn't be in the house"

jimin grabs your hand, squeezing it. "ok y/n..."

"you're right, i'm sorry"

my heart is beating so damn fast, this adrenaline. is it hot in here or is it just me.

you feel as if your throat is getting sore and it's getting hard to swallow. you touch your throat and look down to the food "what the fuck is in this" you spit out the rest that was in your mouth into a napkin

"what?" jimin looks at you

"your neck" your dad gets up quickly walking to you. you take off your cardigan and he sees hives all around your neck and behind your ears

"what are you allergic to?"

"what? i don't have any allergies" jimin hands you water "fuck i'll call the ambulance"

"jimin it's getting hard to breathe" you keep your hand on your neck

"hold on"

at this point everyone is looking at you and whispering amongst themselves

"fuck, i guess i lied dad. mom missed a step" you try to laugh only hating yourself as it hurts you to laugh he doesn't laugh or react to your joke at all, keeping a concerned face the entire time.

"um excuse me " a lady walks up to you guys with something in her hand "my song has allergies too and well i always carry a epi pen with me. if you don't mind i can give inject you" she shows the pen in her hand

"epi pen?" you wince as you talk

"can you? that'll be great" jimin tells the lady

"wait what the fuck is that" you look at jimin

"it's gonna help the swelling from your throat and hives go away" your dad tells the lady that it's fine and she walks up to you. what the fuck this lady i don't even know is gonna inject me with some fucking pen

"it won't hurt i promise" she smiles

and you look at jimin giving him a look that says 'once i get better i'm killing you'

your dads hand is on your shoulder as he squeezes it. pulling out your chair from the table you

i know i might look tough and i can talk shit but i cry easily. i'm a fucking softy, what the fuck. you feel your eyes tear up.

"want me to count"

"ma'am please just do it " you look away

she didn't lie, it didn't hurt. it hurt more how she just slammed it into my thigh.

and instantly you feel the relief on your throat. "holy shit, thanks" you smile at the lady

"no problem, you should probably take a test and see what your allergic to" she smiles, handing the used epi pen to my dad telling him to wait for the ambulance since you still need to be checked

"shit..." you clear your throat a couple of times

"what? is it coming back?" he asks

"no, i'm just thinking this is a shitty first day here" you laugh again

the ambulance got there and you were taken to the nearest hospital. to just be monitored for six hours. they both stayed there and well, you told them you hadn't eaten the meat from the bowl so we all concluded that i was allergic to hominy, the white corn in the pozole.

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we got back home late as fuck. jimin was laughing at me for being allergic to a certain type of corn

"shut up because of you wanting to eat different food i almost died" i slap his arm, as we both walk upstairs. my dad said he was gonna call my mom to tell her what happened.

"are you feeling better though?"

nodding i touch my neck "way better actually" you give him a thumbs up

"good enough for school tomorrow?" you just nod, following him into his room. flopping onto his bed

"oh and your car got here today" he hands you the keys that were on his desk

"ooo my car, thanks" mom didn't want me driving all the way here so she got someone else to bring my car

"are we going together to school tomorrow?" he picks up his guitar from the stand and sits on his chair "nah, i drive my motorcycle. unless you wanna go with me"

"yeah no" he starts to play a melody, laughing at your immediate rejection

"hows the band doing?"

"they are doing good, excited to meet you for sure. finally able to put a face to park y/n" he chuckles

"righttttt"

"we have a show tomorrow night, wanna come?"

"yeah why not"

"dope, i'll send you the address tomorrow"

you stay in the room silent, but just enjoying the music jimin was playing.

and you fell asleep

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Jimin Pov

y/n fell asleep not long after she had laid down. i was thinking of waking her up so she'd go to her room but she was sleeping so peaceful and it was nice seeing my little sister here in my room hanging out. instead i covered her and turned off the light, wanting to go tell dad what a horrible job he did

her phone rings before i leave the room, but she didn't wake up. picking up her phone i see it's mom. so i take the phone and walk out the room

"hello? y/n oh my god baby how are you. are you okay? your dad told me what happened" he spoke so fast

"hey mom it's jimin, y/n's sleeping" my mom kept in touch with me way more than dad did with y/n. i always felt bad when my mom would have me over for a weekend and sometimes a whole week and y/n only saw dad on my birthday or holidays when ever we all got together

"oh its my sweet jimin, how are you"

"i'm good, y/n is fine now. she scared the shit out of both of us but she's ok" i chuckle, thinking of the joke she said in mid of everything

my mom sighs "maybe this was a bad idea, should i have her come with me?"

"what? come on mom, this wasn't anyones fault. she just had never eaten that and well she's allergic"

"your right. sorry i'm just freaking out for no reason. how's it going between both of them"

"well shit, let me tell you" i open y/n's door and walk in to avoid my dad hearing

"alright mom, so dad was late to get y/n cause he was freaking out about her room being perfect. and then he walked into her room without knocking. but right after that she come down and he told her if she could change to something more decent"

"he said what?"

"okok i know it sounds bad but he meant well. i don't side with him, you know fuck men who think with their dick...shit sorry for my language"

my mom laughs "don't worry jimin, go on"

"well anyways, she went at him while we ate. and when they finally cleared shit up she got the allergy reaction. but she told dad before that to not worry that all the steps of raising a daughter were taken care of. so while her throat was swollen she told dad sorry that you missed a step" she was laughing as i told her what you had said

"oh my, poor of your dad he must be so nervous"

"mom you and dad are friends right?"

"best friends...honey it's just that...it's like having the right person but at the wrong time" she sighs

"i'm glad y/n is better now, tell her i called ok"

"yeah i'll tell her"

like y/n says thats all bullshit on a stick. i go wash up before going back to my room, y/n was in the same position sleeping soundly

i get into the bed and pull the blanket to get some "goodnight little sister"

Dear Namjoon | 03

Dear Namjoon | KNJ

✧ Pairing: Kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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I remember when jimin and me would have sleep overs as kids, we would have the time of our lives. so waking up next to jimin who looks like a mochi as he sleeps made me reminiscent of those days.

my brother was the cutest when we were kids, when ever he would come visit me everyone wanted to get to know him. once he got into hight school, and he came to visit me. all the girks went crazy and going to school on my own was annoying because girls just wanted to be my friend to get a chance with my brother.

i don't think i've ever had any real friends. but that's fine.

jimin's little snores fill the room, i grab my phone from then night stand to check the time. we needed to get up soon so i did the only thing a sister will do to their brother.

i kicked jimin off the bed.

it was funny until he screamed, then it wasn't funny cause he sounded like it actually hurt. tangled with the blanket as he tried to get up. but i run out the room, my dad stands at the end of the hall confused as to why i was running and laughing. he seemed to understand the situation once he saw an angry jimin coming out of his room chasing me.

"y/n i'ma kill you, you hurt my fucking elbow" he yells as he chases you, you finally make it to your room, rushing inside you lock the door. as you lean against the wall to catch your breathe you hear jimin outside your door

"y/n open the door"

"no" your wheezing at this point from how much your laughing

"it's not fucking funny, it's the last time i let you sleep with me"

"i love youuuu"

"fuck you" he yells as he walks away from your door

after getting ready I gather up my courage to go see jimin, and beg him to let me go to school with him. i didn't feel like driving.

"no" he glares at you through the mirror as he combs his hair

"pleasee, i'm sorry ok" i pout trying to get him to agree, but he just ignores you

giving him back hug i pinch his waist"pretty pleaseeeee"

"noo i wanna take my bike and i can't with you"

"what do yo mean you can't? i'm not afraid"

he sighs, grabbing your hands that were wrapped around his waist, he turns to look at you "dad said no cause you wear a skirt" he smiles at you

"thats bullshit on a stick" you cross your arms

jimin stares at you as if he was pondering

"you know what fuck it lets go" he throws his arm over your shoulder, grabbing his bag. he passes by his closet getting a sweater "but wrap it around your waist, we don't want him to go all psycho" you wrap the sweater as you both head downstairs. your dad was in the kitchen getting his morning coffee and bread as he was taking a call

"we're leaving for school" jimin calls out, getting his dad's attention

"ok, y/n are you taking your car? it's in the garag-"

"no i'm going with jimin"you give him a wide smile, jimin still had his arm around your shoulder "don't worry dad she'll wear a helmet"

"wait but jimin" he gives jimin a stern look

"don't worry dad" he smiles and we walk away.

"how long has it been since you've been on a bike" he hands you a helmet

"shit since you brought yours" tugging on the sweater on your waist to make sure it's secure, you also didn't like the idea of someone look at your ass.

you hold onto jimin's waist lightly and he chuckles "sis hold onto me , if you fall i'll leave you there"

tightening your grip on his waist you pinch him "jerk"

"yeah yeah"

i would be lying if i said i wasn't about to shit bricks when he took off in full speed giving me no time to get used to it. my grip around him tightens more and i let out a scream.

"didn't you said you weren't afraid" he laughs

"oh shut up"

----

thankfully the school wasn't far from us. pulling up to the parking lot he parks next to other motorcycles. he kept teasing me about my scream and was exaggerating that i probably bruised him from how hard i was holding him

"ooooo jimin who's this lovely lady" the guy with a boxy smile gets off his bike and walks to us

"hey bro" they do a handshake and jimin turns to me "it's my sister" he smiles brightly

"the famous y/n" he reaches his hand out towards you

"yeah..and you are?" you shake his hand

"taehyung"

taking off the helmet you hand it to jimin, getting off the bike you realize that people are staring at you

"why are they staring?" you fix your hair, cursing yourself at the thought at your hair might look like shit due to the helmet

"oh don't mind them, its the park effect"

"park effect?" jimin and you say together

"well it was the jimin effect, but since your his sister" he looks around, glancing at the guys "well it's now the park effect. since you're both good looking"

you wanted to put on the helmet again, this it he most compliments you've ever gotten in one conversation

"come on little sister lets go find out your schedule" jimin holds your arm, as he glares at the guys making taehyung chuckle

taehyung follows you guys, walking next to you. you glance at him, noticing he is good looking himself. and just like jimin he also had people staring at him. if he's one of his friends then where are the other friends jimin always talks about?

"where's everyone else?" jimin asks as if he could read you mind

"i think they said they weren't coming today" he shrugs "but i would never leave you all alone at school, so i came" he smiles

"what a great friend" jimin rolls his eyes

the day ended quicker than you thought and just like taehyung said none of the other guys showed up. during lunch jimin told you to stay with him. it was nice being with him. you finally know what it's like to have fun in school. Jimin is in his junior year while your a sophomore. "my sisters a nerd" jimin tells taehyung as you guys walk to the parking lot

"i can see, like dang girl do you live with your nose in books"taehyung looked surprised as he looked at your schedule

"my life is boring unless i'm with jimin, i got nothing better to do then read" you yank the paper from his hands and stick your tongue out at him

"everyone is already at the spot, you guys going home first?" taehyung asks as he gets on his bike

"nah were going right now, are you going home?" taehyung shakes his head

"lets go then"

jimin puts the helmet on you, and waits till you get on.

"now don't squeeze too hard" he chuckles

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we made it to a club, and i was honestly confused. my dad is bothering me over clothes but jimin can come to places like this. getting off the bike jimin grabs the sweater from my hips and tells me to put it on. "don't go wandering around, if something happens dad will go for my head" he tells you with a serious tone

"ok"

the three of you walk over to a side door where a huge man stands

"nick how you been?"

"if it ain't jimin and taehyung" they all shake hands and the man looks at you "who's this?"

"my sister, if you ever see her here make sure she gets in please" he nods and opens the door letting the three of us in

the music is loud and it's dark. you can only see jimin and taehyung in front of you. you grab jimin's arm, trying not to get separated from him as you get through the crown, walking to the bar. there you see a tall man with broad shoulders with a white dressing shirt. he was with someone else who had silver hair and a black suit

both of them looked at the three of you but their eyes stayed on you. "jimin is this your sister?" the boy with silver hair speaks loudly to try and be heard over the music

"yeah her name is y/n, this is jin and yoongi" he points at then

"nice to meet you"

looking around you see a bunch of people dancing, the girls had nice outfits and were wearing heels. maybe it would've been better if we had gone home to change

"we got you both a outfit" jin tells jimin and taehyung

"nice, y/n stay here" jimin points at the seat next to yoongi, taehyung and jimin leave following jin

and you sit awkwardly next to him, conscious at him staring at you. "so how do you like it here" he suddenly starts a conversation

"ah..it's good, just getting used to the new changes" you smile

"getting use to having a dad huh"

his words caught you by surprised but of course he would know. he's one of jimin's best friends, jimin must've said something

"yeah" you sigh "i'm really trying to get used to it"

he nods, opening his mouth to say something he gets interrupted by a younger boy who rushed over to us "hyung, hoseok asked if you could come to the back" the boy with doe eyes glances at you ask he talks to yoongi

"yeah sure" he gets up and glances at you "let's go" he waves to follow him

"jungkook, she's jimin's sister" he points at you, and hearing his name made you remember the boy. once when jimin came over he was on the phone with someone called jungkook

"oh hey, i'm jungkook"

"y/n" you smile.

passing the double doors, you expected it to be something else. maybe less crowded but it was worse, unlike where you were sitting there was a stage here. people were performing and the crowd were dancing.

yoongi turns to look at you "stay here, i'll let jimin know your in here" he points at the wall, it was starting to irritate you that they were just telling you stand still and behave basically.

nodding you lean against the wall. jungkook tells you goodbye as he follows yoongi through the crowd, someone walks up to the stage, and the light dim down even more. making it more dark in the large room. lights of multiple colors light up the room. you watched about two performances, and it was starting to be boring just standing here.

"people usually dance in a club" someone walks up to you, and your heart skipped a beat as he towers over you as he leans on the wall next to you, eyeing you as he waits for your response

"ah..i don't dance" you nibble on the inside of your cheek. intimidated by him

"my name's namjoon" he smiles again

"y/n" you keep eye contact with him.

"by the looks of your clothes, i don't think you are allowed to be in here" he looks at you from head to toe

looking down to your clothes, you really wished jimin had taken you home to change

"right, i look out of place" you chuckle awkwardly

"not at all" he says sarcastically,

"i didn't have time to change"

"how old are you" he asks

you continue to look at him without responding "i'm only asking cause you are wearing the same uniform from my school" he grins

"are you new? i've never seen you before" he tucks a strand of hair behind your ear and you see his dimples show as he smiles at you.

"yeah..today was my first day" his stares makes you melt

"so y/n, you dating anyone?"

"no..you?" he shakes his head. the eye contact between the both of you drew him to lean more towards you. his hand is holding the nape of your neck, your heart is beating so fast against your chest. you glance between his eyes and lips

"can i kiss you" he whispers

and as if you were in a trance you nod at his words. smirking at your response he pulls you into a kiss.

you were screaming in the inside, this was your first kiss and you didn't know what to do, as he kisses you , you just stood there awkwardly, namjoon pulls away and raises his eyebrow

"sorry i've never kissed anyone" you feel your face and ears heat up in embarrassment

he chuckles at your words "don't worry, i'll teach you" he kisses you with his warm and soft lips once more. i could feel the soft tickle of his breathe as we kissed.

"breathe with your nose" i gasp for air, his lips brushed against mine "breathe, cause i'm going to do it again" his lips touch yours as he takes your bottom lip between his teeth you parted your lips slightly, allowing his tongue to slip inside. bodies pressed together heatedly against the wall, you finally get used to kissing him, my heartbeat was loud in my ears and i wondered if he heard it too. breathing heavily as our lips are pressed together, he tilts my head back deepening the kiss even more

"good girl..see you got the hang of it" his hands roamed under your skirt and he gropes your ass. making you squeal at his sudden touch. "i'm surprised you let me just kiss and touch you however i want" he massages your butt

"it's just that..your handsome" i feel so embarrassed that my eyes tear up.

"yeah?" without wasting time he kisses you again, more eagerly

the kiss overpowered all my senses, he lifted me up. making my legs wrap around his hips. i cling onto his shoulders.

breaking the kiss we stare at each other as we catch our breathe. his hands caressing my ass. my hands wrapped around his neck. he leaves a trail of pecks down my neck, as I tilt my head he sucks against my skin

"n-namjoon" you accidentally moan his name, causing him to smirk against your skin. bitting your bottom lip to try and keep you from letting out any other sounds. he moves his head away from your neck, pressing his thumb against the hickey he just made he grins "perfect"

breathless, you stare at him. the music quiets down and they a man walks up the stage "next up we have BTS performing" and the crowd cheers

namjoon groans, giving your ass a firm squeeze before letting you down. you both fix your appearance

"let me get your number yeah?" he smiles, reaching into his pocket

"oh sur-"

"y/n" jimin calls our your name as he makes his way through the crowd with the rest of the guys you just met

"oh jimin" you say, namjoon turns to look at the them

"namjoon, that's were you were" jin says "we were looking for you, to introduce you to jimin's sister. but seems like you already met her"

"jimin's sister?" he turns to look at you, your heart is beating fast again and you feel yourself getting red "yeah, she's y/n" jimin throws his arm around your shoulder giving you a squeeze

"oh and this is hoseok" he points at the guy with white highlights

namjoon keeps his eyes on you as you greet hoseok, jimin finds him staring at you and hits his arm

"my sisters off limits" he points at him and the rest of the guys

namjoon snickers at his words, "i'm serious" he looks at namjoon "i can see how your drooling as you stare at her" you felt like hiding, jimin speaking up about how your off limits but you already had a steamy make out with him.

namjoon lifts his arms in surrender "what ever you say jimin"

"sorry y/n we are gonna go perform, just stay here for a bit longer. once were done i'll take you home"

you nod at his words. and they all start to walk away, namjoon turns to look at you and your beet red face. he gives you a wink.

once they got on the stage your eyes couldn't leave namjoon. he was also staring at you. you felt butterflies in your stomach.

jimin tells the guys goodbye and he guides you out of the club

"lets get home before dad calls" back into his uniform he tells me that dad doesn't know that he comes here. and that he hoped i could keep it a secret.

"i'll take you home next time, sorry if you were bored"

"i wasn't...bored" you respond, thankful you had the helmet on so he wouldn't see your beet red face.

"so you wanna come when i have shows?"

you nod

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getting home you go to your room. laying on your bed you touch your lips, where just a hour ago namjoon was kissing you

"that was my first kiss" you blush as you remember how he touched you.

"i didn't get his number....was he serious when he told jimin .." sighing you walk out the room and walk to jimin's. opening the door slowly you hear the water running, you look at the night stand and see his phone there charging.

entering his room your grab his phone and open it. his password was your birthday. going into his contact you look for namjoon's number, taking out your phone you save it onto your phone.

clearing his apps you put the phone down and walk out the room closing the door slowly behind you

"how was school" startled you drop your phone, your dad was at the staircase

"it was good.." you look at him

he nods, scratching the back of his head

"how was work"

"good good" you nod

"i got some take out, so when jimin comes out we can all eat"

"ok"

he nods and makes his way downstairs

picking up your phone you rush to your room, you look at namjoon's contact number. gathering all your courage you press one the message icon.

Namjoons chat

Hey, it's y/n. i got your number from jimins phone..

attagirl, i was wondering how i was gonna get your number. i knew jimin wouldn't have given it to me

sorry about him, i didn't think he'd say that. he always does that when it comes to me

i can see why ;) i'm gonna have to go, i'm heading home but see you at school tomorrow?

yeah see you tomorrow

closing the chat i grab my pillow and scream into it.

Dear Namjoon | 04

Dear Namjoon | KNJ

✧ Pairing: Kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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During dinner dad once again didn't talk much, we ain't in silence only have jimin say a few things once in a time. when dinner came to an end dad asked jimin if he'd wanna go with with my dad to a small business trip tonight. jimin was hesitate at first about leaving me alone but assured them I could stay by myself.

after we finished talking i went to shower, getting ready for bed. jimin strictly told me I couldn't sleep in his room because i pushed him out the bed and locked the door to stop me from coming in. shit i would've complained about it but i was too tired.

when I finally got comfortable in bed my phone rings really fucking loud and i jump out the bed to grab it. it was none other than namjoon.

i was screaming in silence before answering.

"hey" his raspy voice me blush

"heyy"

"what are you up to?"

"nothing really...just in bed"

"oh, this early?" he chuckles. i look over to the clock on my night stand and see its 8:30.

"yeah..i'm not really a morning person, sleeping enough gets me out of bed" you both laugh

"how are you getting used to living here"

"oh it's been good, i like the fact i can see jimin all the time" you smile

"getting used to have a dad too?" his words catch you off guard, it's the second time one of jimin's friends asks you that

"yeah..especially that. i don't really know how to talk to him" you laugh awkwardly

"you'll get used to it at some point, and shit you don't wanna get to know him then don't. it's up to you anyways"

"it's funny your the second person who asked me that ever since i got here"

"really? who's the first"

" what was his name again...yoongi?"

he hums at your response "jimin told us everything"

"yeah i figured.."

we talked for a while, the whole time we were on the phone my my smile was ear to ear. i paced around my room or laid on the bed. but we talked for a good hour.

"alright i should let you sleep, or you'll be grumpy tomorrow" he laughs

"yeah yeah what ever, goodnight namjoon"

"goodnight y/n"

I slept smiling that night.

I was never excited to go to school, until today. I wanted to see namjoon so bad, I was kinda mad that jimin told him I was off limits. but the face that he called me last night means he didn't care right?

I once again went with jimin to school on his bike, and I was getting used to it. He told me that every one of his friends have a bike and they take it to school.

as we arrived to school, we walked in and he told me to go with him to their 'spot' aka the rooftop

apparently the school put safely rails up there and students are allowed to go there. not many do but it's become their spot ever since they first hanged out here.

arriving to the roof top I see them all sitting and joking around with each other, there were some desks there and namjoon was sitting one of them, manspreading.

I always found it annoying when guys would do that but not namjoon. it was hot.

we walked up to them and they all greeted me, namjoon did as well but he wasn't as flirty as yesterday. actually he wouldn't even look at me, he ignored most of my glances. he didn't even look at me.

i sat at another empty desk and just fiddled with my fingers, waiting for time to pass by.

did i do something ?

we heard the loud bells, and got up to head to class. jimin throws his arm around my shoulder as we walk to the door, i glance over my shoulder to see namjoon. I catch him staring at me, with a raised eyebrow, and let me tell you his brow raise holds so much power.

during the day if we bumped into each other as we changed classes he ignored me entirely, now I was just getting irritated.

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it was time for lunch, and we headed to the roof top again. but namjoon wasn't there. we ate our lunch and he still hadn't showed up. So i casually asked hoseok where he was and he said he's usually in the courtyard reading a book or something.

so i excused myself to go to the 'restroom' but i told jimin i might just go look around the school after, and he insisted on tagging along but i told him no.

and just like hoseok said, i found namjoon in the court yard alone reading a book. so i walked up to him, clearing my throat to make him aware of my presence. He looks up and my heart skipped a beat. he was wearing glasses and I never knew how someone cold look so hot wearing glasses.

"hey" he says casually, taking off his glasses he puts them in his case as he lays it on the book he was just reading.

"why have you been ignoring me?" i cross my arms

he chuckles and looks at me intensely

"jimin said you were off limits and look what happened at the club was hot, shit i'm attracted to you but i'm not gonna be the reason you two get in a fight or him and me get on bad terms" he shrugs, leaning back he crosses his arms

"but it's not for him to say, who i can or can't be with"

"babe that's between you two" he opens his bag to put his items away.

"but we talked last night and i-"

"hold that thought" he says abruptly as he gets up zipping his bag, he looks at the people entering the courtyard

"lets go talk somewhere else, we don't need anyone hearing our business" he puts his hand on your shoulder. gently pushing you towards the double doors. you both walk along the hall, namjoon glances into rooms until we get to the end of the hall he slides the door open and i walk in. the room was dark except for the light that came from outside. he closes the door and tosses his bag at the nearest desk, once again sitting on top of it.

i began to get nervous at the look of his serious face, so i just leaned against the wall, keeping a distance hoping he didn't sense my nervousness

"look you just got here, and i don't want you fighting with jimin ok" he breaks the silence first

you stare at his lips as he talks, just as he eyes you as you stand against the wall. there was clearly a sexual tension in the room.

"what if he doesn't know" i say quickly, he studies you for a minute before talking

"you mean not tell jimin?" you nod without hesitating

"about us"

"us?" he lifted an eyebrow

he gets off the desk and walks up to you, inches away from your face. his lips brushing against yours as he tilts your head back. "so you won't tell jimin?" his hand touches your thigh and you jolt at his sudden touch. causing you to nod again "use your words babe" his hands slides under your skirt

" i won't tell him" those four words made him smirk "you won't tell him that one of his best friends wanna fuck and kiss his little sister when ever he feels like it" his breathe tickles your nose, you blush at his words making him sneer at your reaction. shaking your head again.

"words" he pinches your thigh, as his hand makes its way underneath your skirt. "no i won't tell him" you whine, you could feel yourself vulnerable with every touch, that you'd agree to anything he asked from you.

"good girl" his hands grope your ass giving it a firm squeeze before his lips meet yours eagerly, you didn't waste time, parting your lips instantly letting his tongue in. "look at you, just yesterday you said you didn't know to kiss" he gives your ass another firm squeeze

"i learn really quickly"

"oh yea?"

"mhmm"he rolls his eyes at your cockiness

"wrap your legs around me" he says as he lifts you up, you do just as he says. your bodies pressed against each other.

you can feel the shape of his bulge right against your clothed heat, he grinds slowly against you making you moan.

"fuck..you have no idea how much i'm stopping myself from ramming into you right now" his kisses travel down your neck, as his hand unbuttons the top few buttons from your shirt. revealing your cleavage and collar bone. he right away starts to suck on your collarbone, gently nibbling on your skin. his hands continue to massage your butt as he rolls his hips into you.

"if i took your first kiss does that mean i have the honor of deflowering you" he kisses your jaw, tracing kisses down to your exposed neck

"n-namjoon" you call his name weakly, bitting your skin once more as he sees the hickey's decorate your skin, he looks up at you. seeing how bad he's messing you up. "you didn't answer"

his forehead up against yours "yes.."

"you're so fucking beautiful" he groans, and you feel his dick getting harder against you, his fingers move your panties aside, allowing him to stick his finger into you. you gasp at his sudden touch and your hands grip his shoulders

"w-wait namjoon"

"shh, don't be loud. someone might hear you" he chuckles, you nod and bit onto your bottom lip, trying to keep yourself from letting any other noise come out

he begins to thrust his finger into you, causing you to squirm from his touch "be a good girl and don't move so much" he groans from the sudden friction you did as you moved

you wrap your hands around his neck, pulling him into another kiss and you both instantly start sucking on each others lips, you tug onto his hair. he takes this chance to stick another one of his fingers inside of you. thrusting them upwards harder each time, you moan into his mouth.

the unfamiliar feeling made you extremely wet, this was the first time someone had touched you like this. he pulls away from the kiss, looking at you with intense lustful eyes "you like it huh, my fingers inside of you, the way to tighten around my fingers makes it obvious" he thrusts his digits into you once more, harder than before.

"n-namjoon please"

"what babe, tell me what you want"

you bite onto your bottom lip, your head leaning back. he takes the chance to kiss your neck a few more times. leaving some hickeys along your cleavage.

both your bodies stop at the sudden ringing of bells, indicating lunch was over and namjoon sighs in annoyance

"well that was enough fun for now" he kisses you one last time, as he pulls his fingers out of you, making you whine at the feeling of emptiness inside you. he stares at you as he puts his fingers inside his mouth licking his fingers

he gives your ass a few more squeezes before putting you down, making your nose scrunch at the sudden feeling of wetness between your thighs "jimin said he wasn't gonna be home tonight, what if i come over?" he asks as he fixes his hair

"uh yeah, that's fine" you tell him, as you button up your shirt. he grabs his bag from the desk, walking by you he gives you a kiss again "i'ma head out first, wait about two minutes before you go out, we don't need no one spreading rumors oh and gets some ice for your lips they're swollen " he winks at you, as he walks out leaving you all alone in the room with your drenched panties and eagerness to have him touch you more.

once the door closes you hold onto the book shelf next to you right away, as your knees give out. and you knew right there and then that you were weak for this man.

as you walked to class after waiting like namjoon said, you are zoning out as you walk. but hearing these girls in front of you talk about BTS you look up to them, trying to hear their conversation.

they said someone is planning to open a station where you basically leave letters for any of the guys, sort of like fan mail. it makes sense since they are getting popular among the school.

the whole day all you could think about was namjoon. if you saw him in the halls, he would still not spare any look at you, but you now understood why.

you all walked out of the school, and you see your dad standing by his car

"you ready jimin" he asks after saying hello to you and the guys

"i thought i would drop off y/n and then we'd leave" and you saw just how much he wanted to smack himself.

"you forgot" you say, sighing

"sorry, it didn't cross my mind" he rubs his neck

"don't worry mr.park i'll take her home" namjoon steps up behind you

"really? i'd appreciate it" he smiles, jimin looks over to you. but you were trying to control your expression and tried to not look at namjoon

"you ok with that?" he asks

"yeah, don't worry. i'll see you guys tomorrow" you smile.

jimin leaves with your dad and you stay talking with the guys a bit more, they invited you and namjoon to hang out but namjoon said he had plans and also needed to take you home. they tried to convince him a bit more before finally letting it go.

walking up to his bike he puts his helmet on you. giving your waist a small squeeze "let's go finish what we started yeah?" he whispers

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sex

you could never really date anyone, maybe cause jimin always told you to save yourself for your special someone. and his words really stayed with you.

there was this uneasiness inside your chest, as you remembered that. namjoon and you are basically in some sort of relationship..but he hasn't asked you to be his girlfriend.

is this what friends with benefits feels like? you wondered. it made you sad thinking all you were was just a fuck buddy.

we finally arrive, and he parks in front of your house. once you both get inside, taking off your shoes, namjoon stares at you as you bend over to put them in the shoe rack. naive to the fact that your panties were showing, namjoon decides to smack your ass

"namjoon!" you jump up and look at him, shocked. he laughs at your reaction. putting his bag down he puts his hands on your waist drawing you into a gentle kiss

"where's your room" he whispers between the kiss

"upstairs, it's the first room to the left " he hums at your answer, grabbing your thighs he lifts you up making you wrap your legs around him, you giggle he walks up the stairs, he struggles to open the door but eventually does. he kicks the door shut, as he walks to your bed, tossing you onto it.

butterflies erupted inside your stomach as you see him throwing his jacket and tie on the chair, unbuttoning his shirt. he leaves it at the end of the bed

he positions himself between your legs, you cover your face with your hands knowing damn well you were beet read

"don't cover your face" he pins your hands above your head

"i wanna see your reaction to every touch" his other hand unbuttons your shirt completely. you bite your bottom lip.

fuck i gotta ask him what we are

he lets go of your wrist and gets a grip on your waist, he leaves little pecks on your neck. traveling down to your stomach. you arch your back, he begins to suck on your skin, leaving hickeys all over.

"your gonna have to hide these well" he says between pecks, his hand makes its way under your skirt, as he plays with the hem of your panties he doesn't waste time and takes them off

the cold air hits your heat making you whine

"be patient, and i'll give you what ever you want" he says as he puts your lace panties inside his pants pocket, making you blush even more

he continues to leave kisses on your stomach with his arm underneath you helping you arch your back for him.

"n-namjoon" you moan

"yes" he starts to play with the zipper on your skirt

"a-are we gonna star-" his hand reaches for the clasp of your bra, and he undoes it.

"are we gonna what" he pulls it down and begins to suck on your breast.

"are we gonna. start dating" you finally ask

he stops sucking on your skin and looks up to you with a raised brow

his grip on your waist loosens before he takes his arm from underneath you. he sits up and stares at you

"i don't really do labels" he ruffles his hair

"then..where we just gonna fuck and thats it?" you ask in disbelief leaning on your elbows, your face shows the disbelief, he sighs. reaching for his shirt from the end of the bed

"you know you should listen to your brother more often" he gets off the bed, buttoning up his shirt

"what?"

"i just thought we were trying to relief each others pleasures" you were completely shocked at each word that came out of his mouth.

you felt like a fucking idiot, he took your first kiss, he marked you all over your body. you felt like crying

"namjoon" you say his name and he looks at you once more, before ruffling his hair "shit..don't look at me like that you make me wanna say yes to everything you ask from me"

i stare at him speechless, as he looks at me, eyeing the marks he left on my body. he walks over to me giving me a kiss once more but i look away. his hand grabs my chin making me face him he kisses me but i didn't kiss him back and he sighs "let me think about it ok"

grabbing his jacket from the chair he walks to the door, "i'll see you tomorrow alright" he leaves you alone in your room shocked at what just happened

"did he think we could just fuck and call it a day" you quietly say. getting off the bed you walk to the mirror, looking at all the marks he left on your body. your eyes tear up. "fuck this" you open your closet getting a huge shirt, you unzip your skirt letting it fall on the floor.

getting into your bed you wish you could sink into it and disappear, as you cry into your pillow.

"mother fucker took my favorite red underwear too" you sob

Dear Namjoon | 05

✧ Pairing: Kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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once you woke up, you found that not just your lips were swollen due to how much namjoon sucked on them but your eyes were puffy due to you crying.

you go wash up, and come out with at towel wrapped around your body. you kept looking at the marks that decorated your skin in the mirror. and you felt dumb because deep inside you want him to touch you and kiss you. maybe friends with benefits is fine.

picking an outfit good enough to cover the marks , you then begin to pick up the clothes from the floor. only to find that he left his tie in your room. picking it up you get angry again and toss it into your closet inside your suitcase before shutting it

"asshole"

jimin and dad came home earlier, since jimin rushed him. not liking the idea of you being alone a whole night.

he walks into your room, you were laying in bed. "hey sis" he jumps on the bed hugging you

"hey mochi"

"did namjoon leave after dropping you off?" he lays his head on your lap, your fingers begin to brush his hair

"yeah, he said he had plans"

"nice, i owe him one for bringing you home" he closes his eyes and relaxes as you comb his hair

"i think he took it really serious when you said i was off limit"

"he better"

you chuckle at his words "why you bring it up?, don't tell me you like him" he asks

"no" you answer quickly

"i was just wondering why you said that" you bite your lip, hoping he'd tell you, he sighs

"he a fuck boy, he uses girls for his own pleasure and later on leaves them. i just don't want him to pull that shit on you. i saw how he looked at you"

"everyone was looking at me"

"nope, his eyes were undressing you"

"your so extra" you laugh

his arms wrap around your waist "let me sleep here, you don't know how much i've missed you" he pouts

"ok" he rolls over and gets under the blanket, you turn off the light, he hugs you.

"goodnight"

"night"

jimin fell asleep first that night, for the first time in a while i stayed up all night thinking about everything that happened today.

-----

when jimin woke up he looked at you for a while, at some point he hated his parents for separating the two of you. and thats why he tried so hard to keep a good relationship so he wouldn't become a stranger to you.

but right now it was time for revenge, for what you did to him. he snickered at how you always looked angry as you slept, and thought it would be funnier to just take a photo of you. grabbing his phone he opens the group chat with the other guys

BANGTAN CHAT - Jimin POV

y/n kicked me out of the bed yesterday

tae: that's the most random shit you have ever said

you don't understand it hurt like a bitch, but i can't do that to her. so i got other plans

hobi: and why are you telling us this

namjoon: cause he has no other friends

fuck you, and its cause of this

jimin sits up and takes a photo of you sleeping, sending it to the group chat

i might not be able to kick her off the bed but this is good enough for revenge. now i'ma wake this kid up so see y'all at school.

tae: did he just send us a photo of his sister sleeping

jungkook: she's gonna kill you, you know that right?

yoongi: someone show her the photo and if she kills him, no one help him. he deserves it

----

what jimin didn't know is that he just gave namjoon a photo of y/n. namjoon smiles at the photo

"shit maybe if it's her...it wouldn't be so bad" he saves the photo

i woke up to jimin sticking his finger into my ear and it was wet

"what the fuck, why is your finger wet" i clean my ear

"oh cuz i licked it" he laughs, jumping off the bed "get ready for school" he says with a smile ear to ear

once again you went with jimin to school, cause you were too tired to drive. today was weird because the guys just kept looking at you and jimin was acting cocky all morning

"do i look funny today or what" you were getting irritated at their stares, especially namjoon's

hoseok then walks up to you and jimin yells his name "hey you wouldn't" jimin points at him, and hoseok takes his phone out showing you the group chat. taehyung is holding back his laugh at the view of a very stressed out jimin. who is slowly getting off the desk.

you grab the phone and read the conversation until you scroll and see your photo. you look up at jimin with dagger eyes "you asshole!" you hand hoseok his phone back, as you walk to jimin, who's hiding behind taehyung

"you kicked me off the fucking bed" he yells

"bitch you stuck you nasty finger in my ear" taehyung is being pushed around. as you try to get a hold of jimin

your face was beet red at the thought they all saw the photo, but what made you blush even harder was that namjoon saw the photo. only making you wanna strangle your brother even more.

he pushes taehyung towards you as he runs for the door, you turn, trying to grab him but trip over your bag you had carelessly tossed on the floor.

namjoon quickly gets up and his arm wraps around your waist as he catches you. you tense up at his touch, but you stand straight and look at him. before you pick up your bag, sticking your middle finger at jimin. you leave the rooftop. leaving everyone but namjoon confused.

"shit, is she that mad?" jimin asks concerned

taehyung being his own curious self he was more into why there was a awkward tension between the two you.

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once it was lunch time, jimin said he had to go to a class for some help. and said to go make friends instead.

i was planning to just go to the rooftop before i got a message from namjoon. telling me to meet him in the same class from yesterday. hesitant at first. i decided i should go and hear what he has to say.

you walk the same hall as yesterday. making sure no one was looking at you as you enter the last classroom. you find namjoon sitting on the desk just like yesterday

"hey" he smiles

"what do you want?" he raises his brow at my tone.

"come here" he motions you to come closer to him. and you do, you stand in front of him. his hands reach for your waist pulling you towards him, as he leans on the desk. "i'm sorry alright"

you look away from him, with your arms crossed

"look i'm not really good at relationships. but if it's you it's worth giving a try" he gives your waist a little squeeze "what do you think?"

"i don't know you said i should listen to my brother more, and well my brother said your a fuck boy" you stare at him, trying to hurt him with your words like he hurt you but it didn't work

he just chuckles at your words "didn't i just say i'm not good at relationships, plus there were more reasons to why those relationships failed. but i don't gotta tell your brother everything" you just stared at him, angrily.

"come on babe don't be mad" he pouts

"don't call me babe" you frown

"why"

"because we aren't dating"

"but you like it when i call you babe or actually" he presses your body against his "or how you body reacts when i tell you your a good girl" he whispers by your ear making you tense up

putting your hands on his chest, you put distance between you both "you are saying everything except what you should be saying"

"oh yeah?, and what's that?" he tilts his head, making you more frustrated

"i'm just kidding, geez" he laughs

"wanna be my girlfriend"he presses his forehead against yours

"i don't know, let me think about it" you peck his lips, as you push him away. ready to walk away but he holds onto you tighter "i don't think so" he grabs your chin as he kisses your roughly

changing positions he sits you down on the desk, your arms wrapped around his neck. his hands propping himself up on the desk . enjoying the kiss, he smirks against your lips.

"you aren't gonna answer"

"hmm answer what"

he sighs "i gotta repeat myself?" you just stare at him in silence

"go out with me"

"alright" he smiles and leans in to kiss you but you pull on his hair making him groan

"make me cry again and i will tell my brother"

"did i make you cry" he pulls your hand away from his hair, giving it a kiss.

you don't respond at all

"sorry alright" he kisses you again and again. making you melt at his touch.

"you know it's gotta be a secret right" he presses his forehead against yours, "hmmm, does it?" he smirks

"yes! i'm serious namjoon"

"i like people knowing what's mine though"

"it's my brother, i don't think you need to be territorial with him"

"he said you were off limits, i promise i won't ever say it. i just hope you don't make us get caught" his dumb brushes against your bottom lip.

" we can meet here every time. no one uses this room" he smiles

"how do you know? fucked one of your other bitches here?" you bite his finger, making him grin

"don't be a jealous girlfriend, you gotta trust me. and you're not one of my bitches, so no i wouldn't take you to does places" "Plus I wouldn't be fucking you, I'lol be making love to you "

"it's just you from now on"

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after making out for a while longer, he says you guys should go already. and you followed him to the court yard where he read his book. and you scrolled through your phone

" i heard you guys will be getting fan mail"

"yeah, they said something about that" his eyes don't leave his book

"y/n, thats where you were" jimin enters the court yard

"i thought i told you to make friends, not to go hang out with namjoon"

"ouch, for your information i found your lonely sister sitting here alone. no need to thank me for giving her company" he shrugs, giving you a wink without jimin noticing

"you're a lost cause y/n" he sighs, sitting next to you. "namjoon you ready for later?" jimin says excited

"yeah sure why not" he response was rather dry, he didn't look interested

"don't mind him, when he's reading he doesn't pay attention to anyone" jimin sighs

"you wanna come along?" he looks at you

"yeah, i'll go" jimin nods.

you guys stay there until the bell rang.

-----

after getting to the club, you realize a bunch of kids from school were also there. jimin explained that were was some sort of concert. they left you alone once more as they went to go get ready for this performance.

jin sits next you, giving you a glass of orange juice. "how did you like our performance the other day" he asks

"i think your guys are awesome, what jimin would tell me over the phone doesn't give justice to how hard you guys work" you take a sip of the juice.

"thanks" he smiles, satisfied with your answer

your phone rings, and you take it out to find a message of namjoon, telling you to go through red doors near the bathroom.

"uh ima go to the bathroom" you put the cup on the table, jin smiles at you as you walk away. going through the crowd

you walk pass the bathroom, seeing a lot of red doors everywhere. taking out your phone your about to call namjoon, but someone grabs your arm and pulls you into one of the room making your scream.

they cover your mouth with their hand and you hit their chest

"it's me, calm down"

"namjoon!" you whack him again "what are you doing" he laughs

"i wasn't sure if anyone was out there, sorry" he gives you a hug

"i wanted to see you before we went up, jimin said he's taking you home after"

"oh.." you look around, seeing a lot of instruments everywhere, your eyes stopping at the violin

"you play?" he walks up to the violin, handing it to you

"a long time ago, i don't think i can even play a child song at this point" you chuckle

"who knows"

"lets hang out tomorrow?"

"when??" you place the violin where namjoon had picked it up from

"after school, the guys are all planning to hang out, jimin will be there. i'll tell them i got some plans, you just tell jimin that he should spend some time without you" his eyes crinkled as he laughed

"ok, but i think my dad is gonna be home tomorrow so.."

"don't worry you can come to my place" nodding, you guys hear the announcements, and you hear an angry jimin calling out namjoon to get his ass to the stage

namjoon quickly puts his hand behind your neck, as he leans in for a kiss "i need to recharge" he mumbles, he takes your bottom lip into his mouth and sucks lightly.

"fuck, i gotta go but. tomorrow alright!" he points at you as he walks out the door

waiting for a bit, you hear the music start. taking it as your cue you walk out and head to where the stage is.

you see multiple people in suits, they have clipboards and are looking up to them, two guys catch your attention. their heads bopped to the music. looking at the clip board you catch a glimpse to the name 'Bighit Entertainment'

-----

once they got off stage, many people went up to them with business cards. namjoons steps up and takes all of them as the other guys head to the back. jimin signals you to head to the back as well. you walk slowly as you also keep your attention at namjoon who was talking to all the men in suits

"y/n hurry" jimin calls out to you

"he's getting a lot of cards" you tell jimin

"i know, isn't it exciting" jimin smiles making his eyes disappears as he smiles, you nod. happy to see him so bright

"let me change and we can head home"

namjoon was good at not glancing at you or talking to you that it made you sort of uncomfortable. cause all you wanted to do was look and talk to him. instead you talk to jungkook seeing how his eyes twinkled as he told you about the song they were singing.

"your very passionate huh" my mouth curved into a smile, his happiness being contagious.

he nods "i just wanna be good enough, so i can go with them" and he looks up to the guys, your eyes follow where he was looking. "i think your great?"

"yeah but what if i'm not good enough"

"thats bullshit on a stick, if they don't want you then you go to another one. anyways they won't leave you behind" your brows knitted

"yeah, your right. that's why i'm afraid to be the one to hold them back" his eyes gleamed with sadness and you did the one thing you could think of

i karate chopped the back of his neck

"y/n what the fuck? that hurt" he gets up, massaging his neck.

"thats for thinking the way you are, you can't be negative about things." everyone was looking at you guys since jungkook raised his voice

"fuck but did you have to hit me" jungkook whines, only to get pinched by jimin "don't talk to my little sister like that"

"she's not wrong, if they want one of us they gotta take all of us"

-----

the next day you drove to school, instead of going with jimin. since you were gonna head to namjoon's place after school.

and just as planned you made sure to tell your dad you were gonna hang out with some friends, yes you hadn't made new friends. but you knew some people from before you moved.

and just like namjoon said, jimin asked if you wanted to go with him. but you told him to hang out with his friends without you. ever since you came to live here he takes you everywhere with him.

you told him you were gonna hang out with old friends and he didn't suspect you at all. namjoon texted you his address, and you head over to his place.

ringing the door bell, a smiling face greets you as he opens the door

"your here" he reaches his hand out, you grab it and he pulls you inside. your back is leaning against him as he takes off your jacket. only to hang it up.

"what did jimin say"

"nothing, he was fine with it" he nods, walking into the living room. he sits down.

he was wearing his glasses again, and you loved how he looked with them "do you use your glasses to just read?" you ask as you see the book on the table

"yeah"

you sit down next to him, a little distance between the both of you

"are you hungry? we can order something" he asks, taking out his phone. right now you weren't thinking about food, for the first time ever you were feeling horny over namjoon. you wanted him to touch you.

you glance at his lips "uh sure, what do you wanna get"

scrolling through his phone he isn't aware of your stares

"namjoon"

"yeah?" he answers without looking at you

I felt flustered at the thought that he suddenly didn't wanna have sex. i thought he invited me over for that reason.

you felt like he was trying to respect you but right now you didn't want him to respect you. gathering your courage, you grab his phone. putting it down. he looks up at you, as you get up and straddle him, placing his hands on your waist

"do you really wanna order food right now" he's shocked at your sudden acts but doesn't let it phase him

"well, i don't know...do you have something else in mind"

"i want you to touch me.."

"yeah?" he smirks

pushing him to lean back agains the couch you leave kisses on his neck, he doesn't react to your touch making you irritated. you begin to suck on his skin just like he did to you. his hands already groping your ass, as he rolls your hips against him.you feel at how he right away started hardening.

"you sure you want this"

"yes" you were greedy for his touch already. he presses your ass against his hardened length, making you bury your face at the crook of his neck. trying to hide your beet red face.

as he kissed you he kept tilting his face to try and kiss you but his glasses were getting in the way. frustrated he pulls away, taking off his glasses. tossing them tot he other side of the sofa. "they were getting in the way" you giggle

your body started moving on it's own at this point, this man makes you loose all your common sense.

"good girl, keep grinding on me" his voice sounds raspy, you fasten your pace, and he finally had enough.

he picks you up, tossing you over his shoulder as he walks upstairs to his room. locking the door behind him.

laying you on the bed, he pulls his shirt over his head, you feel a lump in your throat as you feel the butterflies in your stomach again.

it's gonna happen for real this time.

he wastes no time to undress you, he stares at your body. especially all the marks he left on your body "it was dark yesterday in your room i didn't get a good look at you, but now i can see you properly"

"don't say that" you cover your face

"why not?" he kisses your stomach, as you squeeze your thighs together

"cause it's embarrassing" smirking at your words, he grabs your thighs. spreading them "i didn't mark here" he begins to kiss you inner thighs, sucking on the skin.

"wa-wait not there" you whimper as he nibbles on your skin.

my mind is empty, i can't think straight.

you feel him blow at your heat, making you moan "na-namjoon not there" his grip on your thighs tighten, not letting you close your legs

your core is aching for him. he's making you feel a way you've never felt before. "your dripping" his fingers rubbing against your clit

"your sure you want this? once i start, i won't be able to stop myself" uncovering your face you see his fingers in his mouth again, as he licks his fingers off.

you nod

"use your words"

"yes namjoon, just fuck me already please" you stare at him as he undresses completely, reaching into his drawer to get a string of condoms out. he rips one open, pumping himself a few times before putting the condom on

"alright, i'll be gentle" he positions himself between your legs, your feel the tip of his cock rubbing against your clit smearing the wetness at your entrance

"look at me" he says with his raspy voice. his hand is on your waist holding you in place, you feel the tip of his cock enter you and you whimper at the sudden stretch

"hold on babe, it'll feel better soon" he grunts, laying his head on your shoulder. trying to control himself from fucking you senseless. the rest of him sinks into you slowly, making you moan as your walls stretch around him. "fuck your so fucking tight" he groans, brows pinched together. his mouth agape. your pull him into a kiss, and he moans.

a completely new feeling appears inside your stomach, your walls clench around this thick length. you feel a sense of pleasure and the knot releases making you moan

"fuck" namjoon looks at you "did you just cum from me just entering you" his forehead has drops of sweat

"cum?" you whimper, your mind completely gone

"fuck you're so innocent" sitting up he grabs your hips lifting them up, he grabs a pillow placing it underneath your hips

"i can't control myself no more" you look at his abs, your eyes look down and you see him inside you. making you wonder how he even fit. your walls clench around him even more as you think about it.

"fuck do you want my cock that badly" he pulls out enough to just leave his tip inside you, just to thrust into you, your whole body shivering with pleasure

he increases his pace and your a mess under neath him. unconsciously you spread your legs even more. making him smirk

"its sexy that you're spreading your legs for me, do you want it deeper" he grunts, as he thrusts into you once more "don't worry i'll hit all your good spots"

you thug your nails in his back, as he fastens his pace. "y/n you feel so fucking good" the pleasure was immense, every time he touched you his body screamed with pleasure, everything about you made him delirious. like every other time he had sex was meant to be with you.

you feel the feeling in your stomach again "namjoon i-"

"cum for me babe" his lips meet yours as he kisses you eagerly, after a few more thrust you cum for a second time, i cry out as he continues to pounce into me, reaching his own orgasm. his thrust get sloppy, he growls at the last few thrust before he releases into the condom. letting out little breaths as he tries to calm down

he brings his lips to yours kissing you roughly, his hand makes his way to your clit, entering two of his digits into you. you whine at the overstimulation

"wait namjoon" you whimper

"what" he growls

"i can't anymore" you grip his shoulders. he takes his fingers out of you, sitting up. you see his cock hardened again.

he takes off the used condom, tying it up he tosses it to he bin next to the bed

"babe i didn't take out just one" he picks up the string of condoms, a smug look appears on his face

"i'm tired"

"please" he kisses your inner thighs

"one more time" you stare at his dick, seeing how it twitches and it makes you feel good that you could make him hard so quickly

"fine one more time"

"get on all fours"

"what?"

"just be a good girl and listen" he slaps your thigh, you get up. getting on all fours as he lifts your ass up more.

"fuck your so fucking beautiful" you blush at his compliments

opening another condom he puts it on, wasting no time he thrusts into you. his grip on your waist tightens as he thrusts into you again.

"where the fuck have you been all my life" his heart tightens every time he rolls his hips into you

you whimper at his words, your hands griping onto the bed sheets

"namjoon" you moan his name

"yes" he grunts

"harder" you say weakly

"what ever you want" and he does exactly as you asked pulling out, he thrust harder into you making you gasp for air.

"fuck this feels so good" you manage to say, eyes shut close as the pleasure rushes through your entire body

namjoon focuses at how he disappears inside you, he bites his bottom lip. fastening his pace

"wa-wait i feel like i'm gonna pee" you whine

"just do it" namjoon groans

"wh-what"

"don't worry baby just squirt" not being able to argue with him, you feel yourself cumming again

not long after namjoon shoots into the condom again, he pulls out and you fall flat on the bed once he lets your waist go

"fuck..i can't get enough of you" he kisses your back, sucking on the skin

"namjoon i can't no more" you whine

"once more please" he continues to suck on your skin

you look at the string of condoms seeing there are three more left

"i really can't move"

"don't worry you won't have to get up"

"fine"

changing his condom once more he lays behind you, spooning you "alright" he lifts your thigh giving him space so he can slip inside of you, hands cupping your breast. as his other hand rubs your clit

"n-namjoon" you moan, he continues to thrust into you, bitting onto your shoulder making you whimper. "fuck i wanna know how it feels to fuck you raw" he moans

and the idea of him inside of you without any barrier made your walls clench around him

"shit, does that idea excite you" you couldn't last long this time, cumming shortly after. he followed you too

"y/n.." he groans

"no namjoon, i won't be able to walk" you lay on your back, hand on your stomach, as you still feel as if he was inside you. looking at namjoon he's covering his face with his forearm. you look down and see his dick, hard and up against his stomach

"what the hell are you" you laugh

your phone rings, making you reach for your skirt that was on the floor, you see it's jimin's number

Dear Namjoon | 06

✧ Pairing: Kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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"namjoon be quiet ok" you answer the phone, laying on your stomach

"hey"

"when are you coming home" he asks, you question yourself if you could even go home at this point

"why is dad asking already?"

"nah he ain't home yet, i just wanna know if you're staying out "

you hear namjoon moving behind you, looking over your shoulder you see him putting on a new condom and your eyes widen. knowing damn well what he was about to do

and you weren't wrong, he grabs your hips. lifting your ass up. he aligns his cock to your entrance, slowly entering you

you bite onto your bottom lip, you squirm because of the pleasure. only to receive a slap to your ass by namjoon, making you stop from moving.

"uh, i think i might stay out" you say weakly

"oh?" he says

"who are you with?"

"a friend"

"a friend? what friend"

you were about to answer but namjoon thrusts into you making you moan into the pillow. you turn to glare at him. but he smirks at you

"y/n? what are you doing right now"

"jimin, i-"

and as if namjoon wanted jimin to know his little sister was getting fucked he pulls out only to thrust into you again. not giving you a chance to move the phone, you moan loudly. you grip the phone tightly

"what the fuck y/n, who the fuck is-" he sighs

"call me when you're fucking done" he hangs up the call, and you cant help but whimper at the overstimulation.

"namjoon you fucking idiot" you grip the sheets

"who said you could answer the phone" he grunts, thrusting into you again

you both cum together. "last one" namjoon says as he changes condom again. and you didn't argue with him, instead you laid on your back, and spread your legs for him

"good girl" gripping your waist he aligns himself to your entrance once more.

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namjoon helped you into the shower, after promising he wouldn't touch you

he gives you one of his boxers and shirts. as you dress he changes the sheets of the bed.

"namjoon, jimin heard" you hit his chest, as you both cuddle in the bed "and? at least you didn't moan my name" he has a smug face

"it's not funny, now what"

"babe you're not some kid, shit if your out having sex with someone. he can't say shit about it" he shrugs

you look at your phone, staring at his contact

"i'm serious don't try anything this time" he raises his hands as if he surrenders

you dial jimin's number, hearing the click

"hey.." you say quietly

"where the fuck are you" he was pissed

"jimin, don't be mad"

"you said you were going out with friends not going out to link up with someone"

"so you want me to tell you every time, oh jimin ima go have sex"

"no i don't want that but at least get a guy who has the decency of not fucking you while your on the phone with your brother" he yells

"where the fuck are you, i'ma come get you right now"

"no..i'll go home on my own"

"y/n i swear, you have thirty minutes to get home" hanging up you get off the bed putting on your uniform again "i told you not to get caught" namjoon smirks

"you're annoying" he just laughs at your words

"at least i don't have to sneak out the house anymore with different excuses" you get off the bed to look around for the clothes you were wearing

"where the hell is my underwear" your legs were shaking as you walked around looking as to where namjoon threw them

"i'ma just call jimin and tell him your with me" he was feeling bad about sending you home after fucking you more than once. he was actually impressed you could stand.

"what?" he grabs his phone and you jump on him "no you can't, he's already mad"

"yeah but what's gonna happen when you go home" he looks concerned

"don't worry about it..we'll tell him some other time" you take his phone placing it on the night stand

"fuck it i'll just go like this" you put on everything but a underwear, namjoon stares at you the entire time.

namjoon follows you outside, your legs were sore but you could still walk

"call me, when your done getting lectured" he chuckles

"yeah, i should probably change your name" you take out your phone opening his contact. deleting the prior conversation. "what should it be hmm" you chuckle

"hmm how about daddy" he smirks, and your forehead creased as you looked surprised.

"daddy huh, is that one of your kinks" you laugh as you type in daddy to his contact

he bites his bottom lip, "you should go before i take you back inside" he stares at your thighs. your skirt was raised a bit, letting him see the marks he left on them

"shit jimin is gonna kill you once he sees all those marks"

shutting the door for you, he gives you a quick kiss once you roll the window down "see you tomorrow babe"

he stands outside, watching as your drive away . taking out his phone he opens your contact. taking off the photo of you sleeping that he had put. and erases your name

"what should i name you"

typing your new nickname he's satisfied as he presses save "juicy thighs" he lets out a chuckle.

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pulling up to the house you find a angry jimin waiting for you outside. getting out the car you walk pass him, into the house.

"did you meet this friend at the club" you walk up the stairs ignoring him, you hold onto the back of your skirt so you brother doesn't see your fucking ass

trying to close the door from your room, but you fail as he pushes it open

"y/n i'm serious, why are you acting this way"

"jimin" you yell catching him by surprise

"have you had sex already" you cross your arms

"what?"

"did you have sex already"

"yes, but what does this have to do with anything"

"then why can't i?" he stares at you as he searches for words

"cause your a fucking kid, at least tell me he's your fucking age"

you look away, and he scoffs in disbelief

"where the fuck did you meet him, when we talked before you came you said you were single"

he looks at your exposed neck and sees all the marks, and he is literally shocked. you've always been opened with him. he doesn't know why it's bothering him so much that you don't tell him who it is.

opening your closet he starts tossing shit around, grabbing a underwear he throws it at you "did you at least fucking piss after having sex" he asks without looking at you as he shuffles through your stuff "if you get a uti i'm not taking you to the fucking hospital, you'll have to deal with dad"

you put the underwear on "yes i did"

"did you use protection"

"yes"

he sighs, grabbing joggers throwing them at you"do you think i need to go get does pills that help you not get pregnant, fuck what are they called i can't fucking think"

"uh..no?" you put on the joggers underneath your skirt, unzipping it after fully having them on

"i'll go get it just in case" he keeps shuffling through your things, opening your suit case. he finds a turtle neck. picking it up he sees a tie.

"did i leave my tie in here?" he picks it up, looking at you

you bite the inside of your cheek cursing yourself out for not giving it back to namjoon

"you gotta be fucking kidding me, you brought him here?" he yells at you, throwing the shirt at you

"what if dad caught you, no fucking way. you've gone insane" he throws his arms around like a mad man

"put on the fucking shirt what are you waiting for, what if dad walks in here and sees you looking like that"

you undo the first few buttons of your shirt and he sees all the marks. "the fuck is this guy a leech?" he feels like laughing but tries to keep himself serious. he turns around giving you a chance to change

"are you done"

"yes.."

turning around he grabs the clothes you took off and gives you the tie "get in the fucking bed, and wait till i get back. i'm putting this shit to wash and i'ma go get the pill"

"and next time make the fucking guy buy it" he slams the door shut

you take out your phone, calling namjoon

"hey, how'd it go"

"he found your tie"

"my tie?"

"from the day you came over..you left it here and i forgot to return it"

"oh shit.."

"where is he now?"

"he said he was gonna go buy me a pill" namjoon chuckles

"it's funny how he's angry but still taking care of you at the same time"

"yeah, he said to tell you that next time you need to buy the fucking pill" you both laugh

"how do you feel"

"sore" he chuckles at your response

"shit he's calling me, i'ma hang up"

he hangs up on you and answers jimin, who was yelling hysterically that his little sister was out with some grown ass dude that could be a leech cause he marked her everywhere. namjoon tried so hard not to laugh, and honestly a part of him wanted to tell jimin that it was him. but he didn't wanna fight with him over you.

namjoon asked him if he called him to just tell him his little sister is out having sex. jimin sighs and says he called to ask what was the best brand for the morning after pill. namjoon tells him to get the plan b one step brand, making him feel bad for jimin who is freaking out for his sister.

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getting home he walks up to your room with a water bottle "there drink the fucking pill, make sure to read the instructions"

after drinking the pill he just stares at you "are you two dating at least , he isn't just some fuck buddy is he"

"we're dating"

"are you gonna tell me who it is" you shake your head

"why not"

"cause you're mad right now"

"no i'm not the drive cleared my head. i'm sorry i freaked out but if you come out pregnant or some shit and he doesn't wanna be responsible i'ma have to beat his ass. and i told mom i'd watch over you" he ruffles his hair in frustration

"remind me to never have any fucking girls" he rubs his temple, you couldn't hold your self back and finally start laughing, letting out everything you've been holding back

"it's not fucking funny" you grab his arm pulling him into the bed "mochi you are gonna be an amazing father to any girl"

"no" he shakes his head "you just took ten years off my life in the past two hours"

"i'm sorry"

"at least don't lie to me, tell me where your going. what if something happens i won't know where to look for you" you nod at his words "okok i'll tell you" he pulls you into a hug "fuck man, my little sister isn't so little anymore" he gives your forehead a kiss

"go to sleep, you piece of shit" he gets off the bed and walks out the room.

your phone lights up and it's a message from namjoon, saying goodnight

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breakfast was silent, jimin decided to punish you by taking your keys away saying he was gonna drive you around until you tell him who the guy is.

the three of you sat there eating, jimin next to you. your phone lights up and he looks at it. seeing the contact name "daddy" pop up. he looks at you in shock as he chokes on the noddles he was eating. he starts to cough. you're trying so hard not to laugh.

"are you alright jimin" your dad says concerned

"i'm fine" he pushes the bowl alway as he stares at you

"let's go" you grab his arm, pulling him up

"bye dad" you say and jimin scrunches his nose as he cringes

once your both outside he look stops you "really, daddy?"

your shrug "what? the word daddy is so overrated" you walk up to your car, only for him to snap at you that he was driving

"get your daddy cringy ass to the passenger seat" he glares at you

Dear Namjoon | 07

✧ Pairing: Kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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Jimin was on the look out to see who I would look at, he would glare at any guy that looked my way.  And it made me wonder, what he was gonna do when he finds out that namjoon is my boyfriend...and the guy who isn't "decent".

getting up to the rooftop, he was pouting the whole time. right away going to sit with taehyung who was leaning against the wall with a hat covering his face.

namjoon was talking to hoseok, and his acting was on point. i walked to the guys and greeted them all, taehyung first asked me what i did to my brother for him to glare at me. i just shrugged while jimin mocked me. i turned to hoseok and namjoon to say hi and namjoon greeted me so fucking dryly. like he said "hey" giving me a glance before continuing to talk to hoseok.

"y/n can i ask you something" jungkook calls my name, turning to him i see him sitting on a desk with papers out on the desk. i pull another desk to sit next to him. "sure what's up"

he puts the paper on my desk with a lot of Spanish words "can you help me? jimin said you knew some Spanish"

taking the paper in my hand i look at the words, my mind was trying to translate them. "uh give me a minute, i haven't studied spanish in a while" i feel myself getting red because he looked at me as if i was his only hope

"we just gotta match them so.."

i take the pencil from his desk "como te llamas is...what is your name" i mark a line connecting the two

"cuantos años tienes is....how old are you" jungkook kept nodding as i continued to connect the words

"sorry if i get any wrong" i hand jungkook the paper back and he has a huge smile on his face "the teacher has been an ass all week cause i was dragging to turn this in" he puts his things away

"thanks" he gives you a side hug and jimin sprints up "jungkook is it you" he yells as he points at jungkook

"what?" he looks at him confused

"jimin shut the fuck up and sit down you fool" jungkook looks at jimin confused

namjoon looks at jimin and then you, and I can see how much he's trying to hold himself back from laughing

and as if something clicks in his head jimin sits back down "your too young.." he murmurs, taehyung's glaring at him because he woke him up once he got up and screamed

the bell ranged and you looked at jungkook "ignore my stupid brother, he's on some shit these days"

he nods his head , grabbing his bag and leaving first.

once i got to my first class a group of girls came up to me telling me if I was gonna write letters to 'BTS'. Some said it made no sense since i'm always hanging out with them others said it would be funny since they wouldn't know.

"yeah..i'll write something" and they handed me a 7 purple envelopes. i put it in my notebook

once class started i got bored, since i already knew what the teacher was teaching. opening my notebook i take out the envelope. grabbing the sheet from inside i grab my pen, tapping it on the desk i wonder for a long time what to write. And i thought of the craziest idea, so i began to write.

Dear Namjoon,

I'm addicted to your dick already

putting the paper back in, i lick the envelope, closing it tight. as for the front i wrote babe

i grab the other envelopes and write to all the other guys. keeping cute little motivational notes. addresses myself as "number one fan"

when classes ended i walked with caution to the station where they put a box for the letters. dropping it in the box i made my way to find jimin at our usual spot.

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grabbing lunch we head to the rooftop where we see all the guys gathered around looking at a basket of cards, and jimin rushes over. i smile at the sight of them getting excited.

"we got letters already?" taehyung nods, "jungkook got the most" you turn to look at jungkook as he is staring at the letters completely happy.

we are all sitting down and eating, as they read their cards. i glance at namjoon when he finally gets to the purple card. he didn't catch the word "babe" written on the front. he opens the envelope and takes the card out. grabbing his drink he takes a sip as he turns the card around and reads what it says.

his eyes open wide and he spits out the water, coughing instantly. hoseok looks at him with a grossed out face, some water went his way "what the fuck namjoon" he wipes his sleeve

namjoon picks up the envelope took look at the name, and he reads babe

namjoon says sorry, he sticks the card back in the envelope. unlike the other letters he puts it away right away. he looks at jimin who was too distracted reading his letters with taehyung, and so he turns to glare at you.

"really" he mouths and you shrug

he grabs the pile of letters thats for jin and yoongi "i'm gonna take these and leave them at my locker" he gets up, as he stares at you. raising a brow at you.

and you knew what he wanted, he wanted you to get up and follow him "i'm gonna go throw the food out" you pick up your tray and jimin's who was done. jimin glares at you and then looks at namjoon

"don't leave her outta your sight" namjoon looks at him and then you "no problem"

after dropping off the trays and letters at his locker he pulls you to the empty room that no one goes to

"you think your funny huh" he grabs your waist, making you sit on the desk

"what happened daddy did you not like the letter?" you bite your bottom lip

"don't provoke me y/n cause i'll fuck you right here and you won't be able to walk to class" his hands rest on your knees as he spreads your legs. he grips your thighs as he presses his body against you making you feel his hard length inside his pants

"you're addicted huh" he whispers in your ear, his hand already rubbing your thigh

"yeah" you cup his face, your lips brush over his. as you try to tease him.

"how can you be addicted when you haven't even tasted it" he smirks, you blush at his words "be a good girl and get on your knees" he squeezes your thighs. you get up from the desk, namjoon leans on the desk instead his hands keeping him up.

i get on my knees, and look up to him. keeping eye contact, i can feel myself getting wet, just by his stares. he smirks  "take it out"

i look at his crotch area and gulp. reaching for his belt i undo it and i unbuckle his pants. namjoon bites on his bottom lip as he watches me

"move faster" he says sternly

i pull his pants down, letting them fall as i stare at his boxers which shows his thick hard shape.

i rub him through the underwear and he groans. "y/n take it out already"

hooking my fingers to the hem of his boxers, i pull them down. his cock sprung up, standing tall against his stomach.

i gulp at his size, it was my first time staring at it

"what do i do?" i look up at him, innocently

he just stares at me.  i reach out and touch the tip, making him grip the desk more.

bringing my mouth close i give him slow licks from the head to the bottom. i stare at him, right before i kiss the tip, putting his dick in my mouth.

"breathe through your nose" he says with a raspy voice, making me hum against his dick. the vibrations made him twitch. i could taste the pre cum in my mouth. i could feel my self salivating  around him. 

i wrap my hands at the base of his cock, pumping him slowly as i bob my head. "good girl, see you can do it" he groans, his hand pulls my hair back in a pony tail "i wanna see how your mouth wraps around me"

i blush hard at his words, taking him out og my mouth. i reach into my pocket taking out a hair tie. i tie my hair into a pony tail

"like this?"

he nods slowly, his eyes full of lust as he stares at me " can i fuck your throat" he says suddenly

"you always ask for permission to everything?"

"i'm never gonna do something you don't want"

i nod

"use your words"

"yes it's fine" he nods, and i lick his shaft with the tip of my tongue, I kept trying to remember what the girl did in that video i watched a long time ago. i put my lips around the whole head of his cock and suck him off gently.  my hand fondling with his balls

"fuck y/n..i thought you." he grunts as his head falls back "you said you didn't know"

finally i lowered my mouth over his entire cock, getting it deep inside my mouth. i start bobbing my head. swirling my tongue around the head of his cock, he bucked his hip up.

Small hitched breathes leave his mouth making me press my thighs together

he grabs the back of my head "are you ready" he grunts as he waits for my answer. but his phone rings making him groan in annoyance, picking it up he sees its jimin

"look babe it's your brother, should i answer" i shake my head

"don't stop" he smirks as he answers the call. bringing  the phone to his ear "what happened" he watches me as i lick his shaft, while my hand pumps him. making him shut his eyes.

"y/n? no, we aren't together" he says calmly as he looks down at you and he thinks to himself 'your sister is on her knees in front of me with my cock in her mouth' he smirks

"sorry bro, i needed get do something so i had to leave her" i touch his balls again making him groan

"seriously dude" jimin exclaims, namjoon chuckles "what bro, you called me. i'm a man with needs. are you done so i can hang up?" jimin hangs up the call and namjoon looks down at you

"shit if only you could see how fucking beautiful you look right now with your lips wrapped around my dick" he bites his bottom lip

you pull him out of your mouth, only to pump him as you lick the head, sucking on it slowly. he grabs his phone without you noticing, "y/n" he calls your name and you look up to him. seeing his phone you hear him take a photo

your eyes widen in shock "namjoon" you say his name

"don't worry, this is just for me" he has a smug look on his face "i can't wait no more" he pulls your up by your arm, he makes you lean over the desk "i need you right now" he pushes your skirt up

"but we're at school" your grip the end of the desk, as you bit your bottom lip as he touches you more

"please? i'll make it quick" his fingers move your underwear to the side, as he rubs you with his tip

"but you have to be quick" finally giving in

"that's my good girl" you hear him rustling behind you as he takes out a condom. he touches your aching core with his fingers, and right away they got wet making your face crimson red of embarrassment "dang girl you are addicted huh"

you hear him suck on his fingers  "since your this wet, i can assume your ready"

you nod quickly

"then lift your ass for me" and you do exactly what he says. grabbing your waist with one hand he aligns himself to your entrance with the other. not wasting time he thrusts into you completely

"fuck babe, your so fucking tight" he stays still letting you adjust to his length

"i'm gonna start moving" he grips your waist harder, and starts moving his hips roughly into you

"fuck" you say loudly as you bite your bottom lip

you hear his moaning, making your walls clench around him "shit babe, if you tighten like that i'm gonna have to go harder" he grunts

"do i-it"  he tightens his grip even more on you, and your completely sure that your gonna be bruised

"fuck me harder namjoon" you turn to look at him

"shit..don't blame me if you can't walk to class after this" pulling out he thrusts into you harder, making him growl at the pleasure

you were choking from the pleasure, all you could hear was the sounds of your bodies meeting and namjoon's grunts behind you as he kept pounding into you.

"i'm so close" i gasp for air as he rubs my clit with his fingers

"cum for me baby" he leans over me, sucking on my nape

and there it was the familiar knot inside my stomach, letting out a moan i cum on him. making him fasten his pace. i whimper as he fucks me through my orgasm

"hold on i'm almost there" he lifts your ass more, making you step on his feet to, he thrusts into me harder and faster. till i fell him twitch inside, releasing in the condom.

"you're so lucky we're in school or we would have another round" he pulls out of you making you loose strength on your knees but he holds you up "i told you not to provoke me, now look" he smirks

"don't flatter yourself, i can still walk" you stick your tongue at him. he rasies a brow, and lets go of you. making your legs betray you, you sit on the ground. glaring at namjoon.

He tugs himself back in his pants with a smug look "I think I should call Jimin and tell him I found you"

"You wouldn't" he bends down, gripping your chin "I would" he kisses you once more

He takes out his phone, unlocking it but stops as he stares at the screen. "Your lucky, your pretty photo of my cock in your mouth saved you" he shows you the photo making you blush

He grabs your arms as he helps you sit on the desk "come on let's get your legs working before the bell rings" he massages your thighs.

"i'm gonna keep sending you letters" namjoon chuckles

"i'll be looking forward to them" he kisses your forehead

Dear Namjoon | 08

✧ Pairing: Kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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namjoon was busy all week so we didn't meet much, and once the weekend came my dad said he wanted to hang out so I couldn't sneak out to his place.

"just hang out with dad today and i'll let you go with your mystery boyfriend tomorrow. no questions" jimin tosses your keys on the bed. your sitting on your chair, crossed arms. looking at him

"did he tell you where we were going?" jimin shakes his head "nope he didn't tell me anything"

letting out a sigh you get up and grab your keys "ok then, but you better keep your work and not bother me tomorrow" you point at him with an intense stare

"yeah yeah i'll let you go have time with your boyfriend" he rolls his eyes. as he walks towards the door "but behave yourself" he shuts the door behind him

taking out your phone you text namjoon, telling him if you could come over tomorrow.

- later that same day-

after getting ready, with decent attire. not wanting to make your dad have a fit. you head downstairs.

"you ready?" your dad asks as he putting on his coat

"yes" he nods "i'll heat up the car" he smiles and walks out

"thank you for dressing up normally would"

"oh shut up" jimin just chuckles at your words

"what are you planning to do while we're gone?" you ask him

"oh the guys and me are heading to namjoon's place. we're just gonna hang out"

as you zip up your boots you stop at the mention of namjoon. "lucky"

"you think so?" he laughs "well it's better than being with dad" you shrug

"yeah what ever" he sits on the sofa "try and have fun" you both hear honking outside, a sign that he was ready to go.

"well here goes nothing" you walk out the door

"you got this dad" jimin murmurs

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JIMIN POV

once I arrived at namjoon's place everyone was already there, like always we sat in his living room and played against each other.

the only person who wasn't playing was taehyung and namjoon. since taehyung asked him for help on his homework cause he was behind.

jin yells as Mario falls into the pool of lava taking his last life. "my turn" jungkook yells as he takes the control from jin

i was watching them play when a phone that was tugged in the side of the sofa vibrated. i looked at it, i couldn't tell who's it was

taking the phone out from the side of the arm rest it lights up.

1 new message from Juicy thighs

cringing at the nickname "aye who's juicy thighs" i annouce loudly. jungkook pauses the game and everyone looks my why

"what? taehyung asks

"juicy thighs, someone left their phone here" i shrug

namjoon the grins "that's mine" and all the guys looked at him

"damn namjoon juicy thighs, really?" yoongi scrunches his nose as he says the name

namjoon gets up and walks towards me, taking the phone from my hand. he smiles as he looks at the message "well you'd have to see them in order to understand" he smirks, taking his seat by taehyung again

"gross bro is it the same girl you were with at school" now it was me cringing at his behavior

"yeah it is" namjoon's huge as ego was very visible right now.

"now who is it? and how long is it gonna last" jin's brow raises as he asks namjoon

for the first time ever, namjoon just smiles "i'm actually not gonna tell you guys who it is"

"that's a first" yoongi says nonchalantly "leave the guy alone, and start playing before i take the control" yoongi tells jungkook

looking back at the screen, i remembered something. y/n had someone with a nickname too...

"hobi, is it normal for people to have nicknames like that. even for just fuck buddies"

"especially for fuck buddies" he grins

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Y/n POV

we got to a restaurant, it was a nice fancy one. we follow the lady who greeted us as to the table. he pulls out the chair for me and i sit down.

"how's school" he asks as he sits down

"it's good" i smile, taking the menu that was handed to me

"do you feel comfortable in your room?" he asks, as he reads the menu. you glance at him before answering "yes, thank you for fixing everything for me"

he smiles "you're welcome"

after we order, it was silent for a little while

"y/n i'm sorry" he rubs the nape of his neck

"i should've been there for you more when you were younger"

"dad, it's in the past. let's just move on from it"

"can you do that?" his voice gives a hint of sarcasm

"hmm i guess not, but i thought that would make you feel better"

"i wanted to reach out when you stopped answering my letters"

"cause i saw the change of handwriting, it wasn't you but your assistant who was writing them. aren't i right?" i cross my arms and lean back

"i got busy and it wa-"

"right" he sighs and looks at the side "i never stopped loving your mother, at some point we were gonna get back together but then i thought you would feel weird"

"don't blame your failed relationship on me"

"what? i wasn't doing that" he says fast "it wasn't even a failed relationship more like meeting the ri-"

"right person at the wrong time, yeah i know. look dad, i'm not interested in the relationship between you and mom. honestly i just wished you'd let me breathe"

i know my parents still love each other, both of them never remarried and my mom never dated again. they were more focused on their careers than anything else. they would fight for that reason, but separating made them closer than when they were together.

"i didn't know being near me was so suffocating" his eyes gleamed with sadness

"you bringing up the past over and over is suffocating, ever since i moved in with you. it's been great, i like it the whole having a dad and all, but i just wish you'd let it go" i sighed, as i massaged my temple

"you like it?" i nod at his words

"that's good then"

the waitress brings food to the able and walks away

"i just wanted to know about everything i missed" he cuts the meat on his plate and switches it with mine, since we ordered the same thing.

"that's what photo albums are for" he looks at me with a sad smile "yeah i guess thats right"

"you didn't miss much dad, everything i remember is with jimin and all the times i saw you. yeah there are memories with mom or some random thing i did in life. but i don't remember the rest" i just shrug, he nods. "let's eat"

the rest of the dinner was quiet

we went home after that.

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- Next day-

Namjoon answered me late last night saying I could come over around the afternoon if i wanted to.

so in the morning i watched a show with jimin and dad. we ate breakfast together and just heard jimin talk about how they got a lot of offers but that a company called Big hit is catching their attention.

once it hit around eleven i excused myself, as i went to shower and get ready.

i'm not a huge fan of make up, so i just do my eyebrows and eyes at times.

i open the bag i had been hiding in my closet, and i take out the red lace lingerie. i end up wearing a spaghetti strap dress with a grey long sleeve shirt underneath, i made sure i picked a dress that reached my knees. to not have my dad giving me looks that screamed "you're going out like that". with some finish touches i head down stairs. i had told my dad in the morning i'd be going out

"i'm gonna hang out with some friends" both of them turn to look at you

"alright, don't stay out too late" jimin says, but he's glaring at you as he speaks

you dad looks at jimin and then you "or just call if your staying out" you nod and give them both a hug.

once you got to namjoon's place, he had texted you the front door would be unlocked. letting yourself in you take off your shoes as you look around but see no sign of namjoon. you make sure to lock the door before looking for him

you walk to the living room and kitchen but see him no where. you make your way to the staircase, heading up stairs but you kept stopping as you looked at all the photos hanging along the wall. you kept looking at the photos of namjoon when he was small.

suddenly you hear music playing from his room, and begin to make your way there. the door was opened and you see him sitting on his desk. note book open as long as his computer with a small keyboard on the desk

he was writing things down as he played on the keyboard.

"hey" i lean on the door frame, waiting for him to turn to look at me

and he does, he looks at you with a very serious face. his glasses on his face and just like always your heart skipped a beat. he smiles at you and signals me to come closer. he doesn't talk at all.

I walk towards him and he pulls me to his lap, kissing me right away. i part my lips for him, as he french kisses me.

he finally moves back, but leans his forehead on mine "i really needed that" he lets out a sigh

"what's wrong?" his grip on my thigh loosens but he brushes his thumb over it.

"i'm just having a hard time writing today, but i gotta finish it by tonight "

"oh shit, is me being here gonna distract you? i can go home" I try to get up but he holds me down "no you being here is gonna help me not be so stressed" he kisses me again, he tilts my head back

"you help me recharge" he grins as he gives you small pecks on your lips making you giggle

"yeah?" you play with the top of his shirt "do you wanna do it in a faster method"

he chuckles "nope, not right now" he puts his arm under your legs as he gets up. he lays you on his bed "be a good girl and stay here until i figure out the chorus" he winks at you. he sits back on his chair, leaving you dumbfounded on the bed

"my tablet is there if you wanna watch something while you wait. but just use the headphones" he tosses them on the bed "try not to make so much noise" he smiles before turning back to his desk

"did you just treat me like a child" i laugh "but fine i'll be quiet"

grabbing the tablet i see a folder on the main screen that said BTS songs, so i grab the head phones. i put them on as i press on the folder and listen to the songs.

- 30 mins after arriving -

namjoon would occasionally look at me and tell me he was recharging by just looking at me and i would just laugh at him

"i like your music" i say out loud, after being quiet for a long time "we're you hearing all the music?" he doesn't turn to glance at me

"yeah, do you mind?" he shakes his head

"i was gonna show you anyways" i nod at his words and now i'm playing a cooking game he had on the tablet

- 1 hour after arriving-

the tablet was gonna die so i was looking for the charger, opening the drawer he took it out from i find the charger but i also find three boxes of condoms and my eyes widen

then again when we have sex he always does it more than once, my face completely red and hot at just thinking that about it.

you didn't wanna play with the tablet no more, now you wanted to play with him.

after putting the tablet to charge, i grab the box and open it. taking one out. closing the drawer i sit back on the bed "how much longer are you gonna work on the song"

"babe i'm not even close to done" he sighs, i can see how he was annoyed at his own writers block. so i'm gonna distract him.

taking off my underwear i leave it on the bed and walk up behind him, i wrap my arms down his neck with my chin resting on his head. i can feel how muscular his chest is under my hand, i had to hold myself back from pinching his nipple

time to be serious y/n i smile at myself. he doesn't react to your touch what so ever, as he's focus on writing.

"namjoon" i whisper to him

"yeah?" he answers dryly

"take a break" and he stays quiet ignoring you completely, and now you were getting frustrated. "namjoon" you whine his name and he just chuckles

"babe give me just three minutes" he says as he crosses out a line of what he wrote cursing under his breath

you look over at his clock and see its only 2pm.. he can take at least a small break i tell myself. I say this as to not feel guilty for bothering him instead of just staying on the bed like he said.

lifting his arm you sit on his lap again, like you did earlier. he looks up at you, putting down the pencil.

"what's wrong are you bored" he laughs

he holds your hips as you straddle him, "not really, i like spending time with you even if it's like this"

"yeah?" he says with a grin, and you nod

"then be a good girl and sit on the bed, i'm almost done. once i'm done with the chor-" i squirm on his lap and pout, making his eyes open wide "are you throwing a tantrum" he laughs

he stares at you and chuckles "if you're horny just say so" I feel my cheeks blush

"where did my innocent little y/n go" he pinches my cheek, i push his hand away "don't be like that" i say as i massage my cheek cause this bitch pinched it hard.

"babe if you wanna have sex just say it, what's there to be ashamed of. you already said your addicted to it" he winks, his hands leave your hips as they make their way under your dress, but stops mid way.

"look at you, your all ready huh" he smirks as he squeezes your ass with his hands. you just shrug with a smug, feeling confident 

"your still gonna have to wait" he smiles at you

"what?" i pout, my confidence leaving fast

"i need to finish this at least, so be a good girl and sit like this or wait on the bed" he gives my ass another squeeze

"but i'm so wet" i hide my face at the crook of his neck from embarrassment. you hear him snort as he tried to hold his laugh.

"what turned you on this bad" his hand moves in between our bodies as he presses his fingers on my folds, his fingers wet.

i whimper at how sensitive i feel "i opened your drawer and saw all the condoms"

"seeing condoms turn you on?" 

"no..i was just thinking why you had three boxes of them" he fingers rubbing against me

"what was your answer" he slips a finger in and i let out a moan, I can feel how hard he was getting underneath his joggers

"you like doing it more than once"

"good girl" he pulls out his finger making me whine, he brings it up to his mouth licking it

"well since your ready, i'm gonna teach your something new" my heart begins to race

"something new?" he nods

"let me just grab a co-" you take the condom out that you had been saving on your bra strap and he has a smug face

"don't stare at me like that" i wanna cover my face right now, from how he stars at me

"get up real quick" getting off of him he pulls his joggers and boxers down, letting his growing bulge spring up. "let me get the condom" he opens the foil and places it on the top of his harden cock "roll it down" he smirks

"what?"

"you gotta learn to put it on" i move my hands slowly to his, he grabs my hands and places it on his tip "do it" i feel myself getting more wet in between my thighs. i slid the condom down his length "like that?" i look at him

"there she is, my innocent little y/n" he grabs my hands making me  pumps  his length. "alright pick up your dress" gathering your dress you straddle him again, his bulge standing between the both of you.

his hands go on your hips, as he bundles the dress up, holding it "lower yourself on it"

i reach for his cock in one hand as i hover over it. i align it to my entrance. my other hand holding his shoulder tightly

i can hear my heart beating loudly in my ears "hurry up babe" you feel how he twitches under your touch.

spreading your legs a little more you begin to lower yourself on him, feeling his tip brushing against your entrance you groan

i was starting to feel embarrassed, he always took charge in everything. why is he making me do it.

his grip on your waist tightens  "faster" he says, pushing you down on him

"w-wait"

"i can't " he says

you sink into his length a little more, his head finally inside you making you spread your legs even more in order to take him in more. he lets out a grunt as your walls clench around him "fuck how are you still so tight" your wetness was enough to not let it be painful.

"does it hurt" he says slowly, concerned cause he didn't stretch you like he usually does

"no..it feels good" half of his length is already in you

he bites his bottom lip trying not to push you down himself, waiting for you to do it. he lets out a sigh of pleasure once your sitting down completely.

"good" he breathes out, grabbing your hands he wraps your arms around him, his sudden movement made your walls clench even more, you rest your head on his chest

"namjoon"

"i know i know" he chuckles

he scoots closer to the table, making his hips move and you moan out his name

"you know what people call this?" he says, as you hear him click his pen, you shake your head. 

"cockwarming"

"w-what"

"means you just sit there with my dick inside of you" he smirks

moving your head to face him he continues to smirk at you "i told you to wait, since you're so desperate for my dick, you can have it. but you're gonna have to wait for me to fuck you" he focuses on the paper and continues to write.

shocked at what he said you wait for him to say he was joking "wait you're serious"

he ignores me and continues to write. you can feel how your walls clench around him making him twitch inside you, you whisper is name as you try to stay still " namjoon please just touch me" my forehead leaning on his chest

he just chuckles and now you feel irritated "i swear namjoon" i whimper

i hear as he scratches something out again, he's completely focused on his writing

not wanting anymore of this torture i move my hips. he clenches his jaw, but continues to write

i did it again, but faster, making his tip poke me in a weird spot making me moan out his name. he lets go of the pen as he holds your hips "stop moving or i'm not gonna let you go home today" he says

you gulp at his angry tone and just nod

"shit.. i need to get you a sex toy or something" he chuckles

not being able to answer him you just lay your head on his chest, trying to calm down

about a minute passes before he slightly moves causing him to thrust into you. you whine once again "sorry babe, i didn't mean to move" i feel the smirk on his lips as he gives me a small kiss on my neck. and it sends chills down my spin

"namjoon i'm gonna get off" i hold onto his shoulders, but he thrusts upwards making you weak on your legs so you can't get up

"your not listening today" he says as he puts the pen down "i'm done" he grabs your ass as he gets up.  laying you on the bed he spreads your legs resting in the middle he grinds against you. "is this what you wanted huh" you nod quickly, tears streaming down your cheeks. he pulls his shirt over his head, tossing it on the floor. his face inches from mine 

"wait"

"what" he says, I could hear he was getting impatient. I reach up to his face, and take off his glasses. 

he leans down to kiss my jaw, tracing kisses down to my neck. he thrusts his hips into me roughly, my mouth agape. i dig my nails into his back.

namjoon thrusts his hard and thick length into you, despite your cries of telling him to go slower "isn't this what you wanted" he grunts and your walls clench around him. he pulls his shirt over his head, tossing it on the side of the bed. 

"your walls clenching around me isn't helping you" he grips your waist as his pace fastens.

he continues to roughly thrust into you, knocking the breath out of your lungs, your nails digging into his back makes him groan but he only felt pleasure from it.

he grabs the end of your dress, and shirt, taking it off your body to toss it somewhere else "shit did you dress up for me too" he smirks as he looks at your lingerie

you can't keep your eyes open anymore, at this point as you call out his name. as your walls tighten around him he knows your close, he lifts your hips even more as he fastens his pace. you feel the knot in your stomach. namjoon continues to pound into you, desperate to make himself feel more. he wants to fuck you raw.

"fuck, y/n" he groans, his brows pinch as he thinks of fucking your raw.

"did. did you just get b-bigger" i cover my face with my hand

"i can't fucking help it, your just so fucking good" and that was the end for me, the knot in my stomach releases, face burying into the crook of my neck he continues to thrusts into me

he continues to fuck you through your orgasm with deep thrusts as you hear him let out little breathes of frustration

"y/n lift your hips" and you do as he says, placing a pillow under you he grabs your waist as he thrusts into you sharper and deeper than earlier

you start to kiss him, moving your hips as you try to help him reach his orgasm.

namjoon growls as he finally comes inside the condom.

"y/n let me fuck you raw one day yea" his face buried in the crook of your neck

"raw?" you ask, catching your breathe

"no condom babe" he sits back, pulling out from you making you whine. his brows pinch as he pulls out.

"as long as you get on birth control we'll be fine" he says as he ties the condom disposing it at the bin

"how do i get that"

"i'll take you to a clinic, but i don't want you to feel pressured to have sex without a condom alright" he stares at me with a serious face

"we will only ever do what you want"

but the idea of feeling him without the condom excited you. you nod, he gives you kiss

"we can always just get the pill jimin gave you the other day along with the birth control" he opens his drawer taking out the opened box of condoms

"wait what are you"

"didn't you just say i like to do it more than once" he smirks, looking down to his cock, you look down and see he's fully erected

"wait no i'm sore"

"nope, i'm gonna tire you out so you let me finish the song" rolling on the condom down his length he grabs your leg pulling you closer to him "now spread your legs for me babe"

let's just say, he finished the damn song and i ended up staying over.

Dear Namjoon | 09

✧ Pairing: Kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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I ended up staying over at namjoon's house. Not only did he wanna have more rounds after the first one. After I fell asleep he finished his song and we went at it again. Jimin of course was angry but couldn't say anything cause dad was there when I called.  Namjoon told me how he texted the group chat furious that I never listen to him. 

When I woke up, I was laying in his bed, feeling sore between my legs. Namjoon was sleeping beside me with his arm wrapped around my waist. My face went hot right away from feeling his naked body on me. He didn't snore but the little puffs of hair he'd let out would hit my neck and make me get the goosebumps. 

"you're awake" he says with a raspy voice 

"yeah.." he hugs me one last time before laying on his back "what time is it?" his forearm covered his eyes from the light that came through his window. turning to look at the clock on his nightstand "8:25" 

he groans "i have to get up and get ready" he turns to look at me but only sees my uncovered back. he smirks as he sees all the marks he left on me decorate my back 

"how do you feel?" he sits up, stretching. 

"i'm just sore" i glare at him, seeing his stupid smirk 

"I'm gonna go get ready, take your time to get up ok" his naked frame walks around the room as he grabs his clothes to shower 

"where are you going?" i ask, my eyes never leaving his body 

"practice, yoongi's house. So I can't be late" he sighs before entering the bathroom 

well that's good, that means once I get home jimin won't be there. Namjoon ended up leaving before me, I was just getting up when he got out the shower. 

once I arrived home, No one was there. So I went to shower quickly and then grabbed my heating pad, Cause my back was killing me. Laying on my stomach I put the heating pad on my lower back as I scrolled through my phone to kill time. 

I was dozing off when jimin suddenly calls "y/n are you home already?" I can hear the rest of the guys talking in the background 

"yeah i got home a while ago" he sighs "want me to bring anything home? the guys are coming over so" 

they're coming over? is namjoon coming too? "no i'm fine" 

"ok then, i'll see you soon" 

after hanging up I look at my outfit, I was wearing an over sized shirt and shorts. "fuck it i'm too tired to go downstairs" I get comfortable and doze off. 

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"y/n must be in her room" jimin says as he puts down the bags of snacks and drinks on the table. they arrived about 30 mins after he called y/n. everyone, even namjoon. 

everyone starts gathering in the living room, as they distribute the food amongst themselves 

"why do you look so annoyed" hoseok asks jimin with his mouth full. "stop talking with your mouth full, it's gross" jin looks at him with disgust 

"it's just that she won't tell me who she's dating, we've always told each other everything. her living here, I thought we'd be closer you know?" he pushes his hair back 

Namjoon grabs his drink and takes as sip from the straw "then just follow her when she goes out, if it's bothering you that much" yoongi tells jimin 

"that's not right, you shouldn't stick your nose in her private life" jin hits yoongi's arm for his advice, he looks at jimin "that trust you guys had, it's still there. just wait till she wants to tell you" 

jimin groans and grabs the bag of chips grabbing a handful. Namjoon just sits back and listens to them talk, hearing yoongi tell him to just follow her, almost made him nervous. 

"or you can just put a tracker in the car" jungkook says 

"her phone will just detect it, then she will get angry " Namjoon speaks up, he takes the bowl of grapes tossing one in his mouth 

"yeah you're right" jimin clicks his tongue 

'just let her be, she'll end up telling you at some point, or you'll find out on your own" taehyung says as he start up the game 

"anyways, i'm gonna go to the bathroom" namjoon gets up, heading towards the stairs, the rest of the guys stayed sitting talking amongst themselves. 

namjoon remembers where your room was, stopping in front of your door he turns the door knob slowly. He knew you'd probably be asleep, since you would for sure be tired. 

entering the room he saw how you laid on your stomach with the heating pad on your lower back. he didn't feel bad about last night it actually just boosted his ego even more. 

he closes the door before walking into your room, sitting beside you. he moves the heating pad, laying his hand on your lower back. he can feel the heat that stayed there. his palm circles your lower back as he applies pressure. 

a few more presses and I woke up, "you really are a deep sleeper huh" i hear namjoon chuckle behind me 

"hey" 

"does it feel better" he continued to massage my back "sorta". 

"how did you come here without my brother following" 

"said i was gonna go to the bathroom" he smiles "jimin is really annoyed that you won't tell him about us" namjoon lets go, i turn over and look at him 

"yeah i know, but i don't wanna tell him yet" namjoon looked unbothered by the whole situation. i don't think he really cares if we are a secret or if everyone knows. 

"do you want him to know?" i ask, wanting to know what he really thought 

"i don't really mind, him knowing or not. your brother isn't my concern" 

not his concern? he must've seen my confused expression because he chuckled 

"i like people knowing what's mine" he reaches for your hair pushing it away, pressing on a fresh mark he left on you "but I have other ways of letting people know too" he stared at your neck with a grin 

he's always been like this, he makes me flustered so fast and about the simplest things. 

"anyways, i just wanted to check on you. i'm gonna go before jimin comes up looking for me" 

he waves as he opens the door walking out. 

"that's not the bathroom" namjoon freezes as he shuts the door, taehyung just caught him leaving your room

he looks up at taehyung, grinning "I guess your right" letting go of the door knob he turns to face him, putting his hands in his pockets "what about it?" 

taehyung wasn't surprised that namjoon wasn't startled about being caught leaving your room. 

after all he was imperturbable.   

"taehyung don't make shit weird between us just cause you keep getting into things that don't concern you" he walks close to taehyung putting his hand on his shoulder "it's not that serious" 

"what about jimin"

"what about him?"

"what are you gonna do when he finds out?" he turns to look at namjoon, again unbothered 

"well, then i'll deal with that when it's time" 

"what if it destroys our group, are you really gonna cause a fight over a girl"

"careful taehyung that girl is his sister and my girlfriend" 

still unbothered 

"whatever" taehyung looks at the floor 

"your always too curious for your own good" namjoon ruffles his hair, taking two steps down the stairs before stopping due to taehyung talking again

"are you at least serious about her?" he turns to look at namjoon, both making eye contact 

"for the first time in my life, i'm a hundred percent serious" 

he remained unbothered the entire conversation 

"the bathroom is to the right, it would be rather bothersome if you went into her room. since there is no reason" he walks down stairs. taehyung looks at your bedroom door for a good minute before walking backdown stairs, joining the others. 

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jimin ordered pizza, once they arrived he thought you should come down and eat. Walking up to your room he finds me reading a book 

"if you're awake why haven't you came down? he stands on the door way "thought you might want some alone time with your friends" i shrugged 

actually I just didn't wanna make a mistake downstairs. Namjoon always does a good job in ignoring me but I always end up glancing his way. 

"well there's pizza, if you wanna come down and eat" he was about to leave but then he points at me "no, come down and eat" he stays with a serious face 

"damn ok" I get up and walk out the room before him.  jimin smiles, knowing you still listened to him, but honestly you were hungry 

jimin needs a life. 

going down stairs you kept telling yourself not to look at namjoon. 

"if it isn't the little sister" jin says as he looks at you 

"hey guys" you smile at them, namjoon glanced at you nodding his head just as everyone else. 

you went with jimin who was going to the kitchen for some plates, you decide to sit at the counter  that had a window like opening to look into the living room. trying to keep a distance. 

the guys were playing Mario again, they've committed to passing all the games for some reason. I think it was jin's turn to pick this month. 

jimin had the control, he was fighting one of the boss bunnies but was killed by the fly hat with spikes. 

"I swear i dodged that! it makes no sense" he yells, throwing his arms up 

"yeah yeah, my turn" yoongi takes the control, pushing him aside so he takes the seat in front of the t.v 

namjoon shakes his head while laughing, he picks up his plate and glass. and walks towards the kitchen. towards me. 

I try not to look at him as he walks my way, focusing on the screen, since jimin looked out way as namjoon walked away

I could hear him behind me, washing what he brought to the kitchen. 

"good girl, you're controlling your urge to stare at me"

I felt a tingle in my chest when he talked to me 

"i'm starting to think i might be bad influence to you" he chuckles 

"who knows, you might actually be" i softly respond as i continue to stare at the screen. 

"maybe" I hear the water turn off , he stands next to me. grabbing a napkin from the counter to dry his hands 

"you came down dressed like that huh" we are both looking forward at the guys playing the game 

"what's wrong about the way i'm dressed" I was honestly curious as to what was wrong with it, he turns around. leaning against the counter as he looks down at me. I was about to tell him to not stare at me but  my mind went blank when i feel his palm on my thigh. "it's too short" 

my body tenses at his sudden touch "let's see how much you can take before getting flustered" 

he slips his hand into my shorts making me gasp, but the sound of the game and screaming covered it up, I can feel the heat of his hand as he glides down closer to her own heat.  

"namjoon" i hold his arm 

"let go, or you'll make it obvious" 

"b-but"

"let go" listening to his words I let his arm go and sit the way i was 

"now let's talk, if we just stand here. well it would look weird" 

"about what " i was trying to control my breathing. 

"hmmm, the letter. who gave you that idea" his middle finger slid across my heat through my panties, my body shuddered as i tried to hold back from making any noise. 

"my classmates told me to write them" 

"you wrote to all of us" he says quietly, I nod because I couldn't trust my own voice at this point. he started to stroke his fingers rhymicially. 

"and what did you write to them" 

"words of encouragement"  I answer quickly 

"look at you, you're so wet already and I haven't even touched you directly yet" 

my breathing was rushed and I was having a hard time concentrating on the the screen. I wanted to look at him. 

he presses his finger against my clit, I brought up my hand to cover my hand, readjusting myself to make it seem like i was leaning on my elbow. 

namjoon chuckles at my actions "words of encouragement huh" he moved aside my panties and slid his finger between my wet folds. making me moan into my hand "shh, don't want your brother to find out right" 

he pumped his finger in and out continuously 

"n-namjoon stop p-please" my other hand back on his arm, trying to stop him. instead he adds another finger making my whole body tingle. 

my body betrayed me the moment my hips moved to grind against his fingers on its own. "stay still i know you want me to fuck you right now but your gonna have to wait" he smirks 

he increases the speed of his fingers. looking up at namjoon I see the smug look on his face and it irritated me. i slide my hand over his bulge. The dark look in his eyes made me feel hot and my breathe hitched. He stopped moving his fingers the moment i touched him, but started right after. 

I had an effect on Kim Namjoon. 

"namjoon it's your turn" jimin calls out to him, making him stop once again

"alright" he speaks up, jimin looks back at the screen as he talks to jungkook 

"your all wet now, maybe you should go change" he smirks, pulling out his fingers. I also move my hand, he licks his fingers before wiping them in the back of his joggers. 

"jungkook give me the fucking control" namjoon says as he walks towards the sofa, jungkook wanted to take another shot at it. 

I finally give my back to the living room "fuck" my core was aching for his touch. 

"As if yesterday wasn't enough" getting up from the counter I leave the plates in the sink and walk towards the stairs. giving namjoon a small glance before leaving. 

he didn't look my way. 

jimin and the rest decided to head to the backyard to play basket ball, namjoon told them he was gonna finish the place in Mario. they all left, taehyung was the only one who looked back at namjoon. knowing damn well he wasn't. namjoon reaches for his bag he brought with him, taking out a condom. 

the moment he heard they left, he waited for about ten minutes. he gets up from the sofa and walks up the stairs, finding you in the hall. you were looking for something in the laundry basket in jimin's room because it was his turn to fold the laundry but he hadn't done it. 

"namjoon what are you doing up here" i whisper yelled at him 

"they all went outside" he walks towards me, picking me up and  he throws me over his shoulder "Namjoon what are you doing!" i hit his back and kick my legs "are you crazy we're gonna get caught"

"i'm fine with that, you're the one who doesn't want him to know"

he opens the door, kicking it close. he puts me down and i walk back. bumping into my desk "no namjoon, if jimin sees you're gone he's gonna come looking for you" I knew what he wanted, I could see how hard he was through his joggers 

"you shouldn't have pulled what you did downstairs then" 

I glance down at his dick again and look at him "i'm sorry ok"

"that's not gonna make it go away sweetheart" he smirks 

"but i'm still sore from yesterday" 

"there's other ways, did you forget?" his voice showed how he was being sarcastic. 

Pulling down his joggers, I look up at him one last time. he was just staring  at me. 

taking off his boxers brought me face to face with his harden dick. 

"don't just stare, if jimin walks in with my cock in your mouth it's cause you took forever to start" 

I lick my lips before licking the tip, taking him into my mouth right away. cause he was right. 

I looked up at namjoon, moaning against his length sending vibrations all through his body. making him groan as he bites his bottom lip. not breaking eye contact with you. 

i remembered to breathe through my nose in order to take more of him just like he taught me. his breathing was hitched as i massaged his balls with my hands "shit....I Think I really am bad influence for you" be places his hand on my hair. I continued to suck on his dick as he gripped my hair. 

"fuck i don't think i'd be satisfied with just your mouth"  I was thinking the same thing, I was completely wet between my thighs, My walls were clenching around nothing as I rubbed my thighs together. 

"get up" his raspy voice, turning me on even more. 

Once my lips leave his dick, he grabs my arm picking me up. "you have no idea how fucking hot you look right now"he says before slamming his mouth onto mine, kissing me deeply. 

holding my waist, he turns me around. bending me over  the desk. "we're gonna have to be quick" he takes out the condom, i hear him opening the packet. clearly sliding it on his length 

he quickly takes my shorts and panties off, brushing his fingers over my soaking folds making me  whimper from how sensitive i was feeling. 

"you ready?" I nod quickly, and he smirks. "words"

"yes" i moan as he rubs his fingers even more against me 

"then be a good girl and  bend over more for daddy" this was the last draw for me, this man had shackles on me. and i voluntarily let him put them on me. 

I did just as he said, stepping on his feet. I feel him enter me roughly, not wasting time he starts thrusting into me. He loved the feeling of him inside me, he hovered over me "look at you, under me. begging for my dick" I sucked in a shocked breathe when breath when I receive a slap to my ass. he fastens his pace, i could hear him moaning behind me. the room filled with the sound of our bodies. 

we hear the door from downstairs open, and i cover my mouth quickly 

we hear jungkook call out for namjoon, my heartbeat loud in my ears as i get nervous of him coming to look for him "don't be too loud or jungkook is gonna find me fucking you " he slams  his hips into me. I imagined how he looks right now, his voice was already driving me crazy

"fuck, if you tighten around me like that" he grunts, leaning over me he kisses my neck "don't tell me you just got excited at the idea of jungkook finding you bent over with my dick pounding into you"  he grips my hips even harder, sucking on my neck. 

How do I tell him that it's his face and voice that are driving me crazy right now 

"answer me" i shake my head, causing him to grab my chin and making me face him. the moment i see his face, i feel myself tighten more around him "it's you're face" he looked so fucked up right now as he stared at me "why didn't you tell me" sliding out he turns me over, sitting me on the desk. Wrapping my legs around him, He pounds into me again "now you can look all you want" 

"kiss me" I breathe out 

"anything you want" connecting our lips he deepens the kiss, thrusting into me harder. 

I feel the familiar knot inside my stomach, I was still sensitive from yesterday. As if namjoon knew he quickened his thrusts, holding onto my already bruised waist. "fuck" he bites on his bottom lip

my walls clench around him as I release all over his dick, he continues to thrust into me through my orgasm. 

"n-namjoon" i whine at he overstimulation "hold on..i'm almost there" his thrusts become sloppy and he finally releases inside the condom.

"fuck, y/n i just can't have enough of you" 

"we can't have another round, i'm serious" i hit his chest 

"fine, i only brought one anyways" he slides out of me and we both moan. 

he ties up the condom, tossing it in my bin by the desk, he grabs my waist as he helps me up "you should get in the shower" 

"i know"

he grabs tissues from my desk to clean himself a bit. putting up his boxers and joggers. "need help?"

"no, you should go before they really do find us" 

"you sure?" 

"yes"

"ok" he kisses my forehead, and walks out the room. the moment the door closes, my legs give up and i end up sitting on the floor butt naked, completely wet between my thighs "i'm the one who can't get enough from you" my face was red. 

I couldn't believe I did this with jimin in the house

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ

Imperturbable - unable to be upset or excited; calm

Dear Namjoon | 10

✧ Pairing: kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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Jimin didn't forget to give me an earful when the guys left. Talking about serial killers, and how I was pretty enough to get kidnapped.

I was a hundred percent if I got kidnapped this brother of mine would probably find me no matter what. so that's the least of my worries.

Once the guys said they were leaving, I went to say goodbye and it was weird.

Everyone was cheerful but jungkook. He didn't even say bye, he just stared at me. I began to feel nervous, he did walk in when we were upstairs...did he hear us? But he would've said something to jimin. I know he would. but then again I might just be over thinking it.

I could feel how the day where jimin would find out about namjoon and me was getting close.

the next day at school, my assumptions were correct. Jungkook would stare at namjoon and me constantly. but his glare towards me was harsher than the one towards namjoon. and namjoon was totally oblivious to his glares.

it was fucking annoying. leaving the rooftop earlier than I would, was the only option I had and I think that brat was going aiming for that.

"y/n, are you writing more letters too?" the girls from last time walk up to me. box full of envelopes this time too

"uh sure.." they handed me green ones this time. putting them away, I sat on my desk listening to the teacher talk.

taking out an envelope I open it and take the card out.

Dear Namjoon,

Do you think I have panties right now?

chuckling at my note I slide the card back in the envelope and write babe on the front as always and addressing it to namjoon.

I write cards for the other members as well, making sure to write words of encouragement. I wrote a separate one to jungkook.  I tried to talk to him in the morning but he totally blew me off.

Jungkook,

Why are you mad at me? Did I do something to upset you?

closing the envelope I write Amiga meaning friend in Spanish. After class I walked to the same station and dropped the letters into the box.

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"There's more and more letters each time" hoseok says the desk got over flowed by letters addressed to him.

"i know, isn't it exciting" jimin smiles as he opens another letter

"i'm gonna save these again, and give it to the others later" namjoon wraps rubber bands around yoongi's and seokjin's letters, putting them in his bag

I look at jungkook as he picks up the a green letter, he reads it with an excited face so i knew damn well it wasn't mine.

"there's a talent show here, in three weeks we should perform as a way of thanking everyone" namjoon speaks up. everyone agreed.

i kept glancing between namjoon and jungkook waiting for either one of them to grab my letter. my wait finally ended when namjoon grabbed the last green card from his pile. he turns it around and reads babe, not missing it this time.

he looks up at me, before turning the card to open it. he reads it and raises a brow, clearly intrigued. he looks at my thighs and grins.

my dumb ass got all excited and I became a smiling idiot. that i completely forgot all about jungkook. The moment i turn to look at him, he had my card in his hand. his brows frowned and he looks up. I stopped smiling, he was angry. and his looked confirmed he was angry at me.

namjoon must've not seen him since he reached for his bag to put the card away.

jungkook gets up from the desk and walks over to me "y/n, i need help with my homework"

"oh? um.." i look at everyone and see how they were all talking amongst themselves. "ok..what's the homew-"

"i left it in my locker, will you come with me?" i nod, getting up from my seat. I follow him without saying anything else because he was already mad at me.

as we walked to the door namjoon turned to look at us, but he didn't get up to follow us.

we kept walking for a good while "jungkook we're away from the lockers, we aren't even in the school anymore" I tell him as we pass the field. I continued to follow him but I was starting to feel weird.

"we're going somewhere no one can hear us, the supply shed should be fine" and that made me stop walking

"why?" I look behind him, the supply shed wasn't far from us.

he stops walking to turn and look at me, he eyed me before staring into my eyes. he was so angry it radiated from his body, i could feel it. "to talk about how namjoon is fucking you and you're letting him knowing you can ruin everything we've worked so hard on"

my breath hitched Once he finished his sentence, I was shocked to hearing him talk to me like that.

"I don't see why it involves you , i'm leaving" My goal was to walk away, but this asshole grabbed my arm gripping onto my wrist "it involves me because i'm in the group. I thought you knew you're brother well"

"i do know my brother" i try to shake him off but his grip was strong

"then you know he holds grudges and never looks back."

"jungkook you're overreacting, nothing is going to happen to the group. when he finds out, he'll laugh about it I swear" My eyes were tearing up from the pressure on my wrist. "lets talk over there, people are coming"

"no, i don't want to. let me go"

"you made me do this, keep that in mind" pulling me towards him he lifts me up over his shoulder, he grips my thighs as i hang off his shoulder

"Jungkook are you fucking crazy?! put me down" I yell at him, hitting his back as he starts walking to the shed. I keep yelling his name until I felt a slap on my ass making me gasp.

"what the fuck, touch me again like that and i'm telling namjoon" i pull his hair

"then shut the fuck up and stay still" he uses his other hand to open the door to the shed, closing it behind him. he finally puts me down, I stumble on my own and fall backwards. "what the fuck jungkook, you can't just pick people up how ever the fuck you want only cause you can" I can feel how my cheeks are hot, The bitch caught me off guard, how dare he smack my ass.

he brushes his hair back, and stares at me. "break up with namjoon, make it as if it never happened"

"what? why!"

"i thought you were smart, yet you keep asking the same shit" he reaches down towards me, grabbing my arms he puts me on my feet but holding me in place "once you break up with him he'll get over it. he always does, he's dated half the girls from his grade level and yours"

pushing his arms away I put a distance between us "i don't fucking care who he's dated, grow up jungkook. a small fucking fight between the group isn't gonna destroy it" I slap his hands away from me

"you don't fucking understand, we aren't just a group of friends. we want to debut together. we actually have a meaning and future. not like you. a virgin who finally had sex and is obsessed with the first guy who fucked her. jimin said he told you why not to get with namjoon, especially him,  and you clearly ignored it" he was angry, I could see how the vein from his forehead was forming as he talked harsh to me. He walked towards me, I kept taking steps back

"touch me again and i'm seriously gonna tell namjoon" I point at him, my voice betrayed me as it cracked while i spoked, making him scoff at my threats

my back hits the wall, he cages me there as his hand is against the wall right next to my face "have sex with someone else, you'll see there isn't anything special about it. stop being a wall in the way of our success" my heart was beating against my chest, as my eyes teared up "get the fuck away from me" I manage to say.

"you have till the end of the month to break up with namjoon"

"you won't do shit anyways" I was cursing at myself for crying right now, tears stained my cheeks. I was looking weak in front of his bitch.

"i'll tell jimin"

"that's bullshit on a stick" he scoffs at my words "really? you think it is"

"yes, you wouldn't say shit because you just said it'll ruin everything" he smirks at my words

"i'm so fucking tired of you, you know that. why don't you ever just shut up huh"

"i'm not gonna ask you again after this, Get The Fuck Away From Me" I push my hands against his chest but he doesn't budge

"I wonder how namjoon deals with you, he hates when people are fucking cocky" he chuckles "but then again he can just shut your pretty little mouth a different way huh" his hand gets close to my face, making me flinch. I shut my eyes, all I feel is him wipe my tears. he leans his face towards my ear "if you need someone else to show you that sex isn't fucking special then just tell me and i'll show you"

raising my hand I slap him across his face "talk to me like that again, touch me without my permission and i'll tel-"

"you'll tell namjoon, i know" he steps back, unbothered by the stinging on his cheek

"no, i'll tell jimin"

the stupid grin on his face fell "really? and are you gonna tell him why I brought you here to begin with"

"i'll tell him everything, I don't give a fuck. touch me or talk to me in any way that's disrespectful and he's gonna kick your ass" pushing him to the side  I walk to the door, pulling it to the side I walk out. I look at my wrist, seeing how it was a bit red, and I could feel the stinging on my ass. stupid bastard hit me hard.

I walk towards the building, trying to stop myself from crying even more. The bells rang and I was aggravated, my shit was in my locker and I left my phone with jimin.

I walk to my locker, and jimin was there leaning against it "hey, where were you....why are you crying?" he gets off my locker, cupping my cheeks "what's wrong, where did you go? where's jungkook"

"it's nothing" i open my locker, taking my bag out

"where's jungkook? I saw you leave with him"

"i helped him with his homework, and then he left" stupid bastard you're lucky i can't tell him right now

"what?"

"i wanted to be alone" i grab my phone from his hand "wait but that doesn't explain why your crying"

"I miss mom okay" I yell at him, catching him off guard

"y/n.." i shut the locker

"we'll talk at home alright" and I walk away from him leaving him worried by my locker

Jimin told everyone or just namjoon that I was crying because he texted me not long after the next class had started.

he asked me if I was alright, and if i wanted to ditch class and meet where we always did. but I honestly just wanted to be alone.

jungkook the kid who looked like he was so fucking friendly turned to be a bitch, I felt disrespected. I had done nothing wrong. And the way he treated me made me feel like shit. I was ready to have a whole break down here in class.

I tried to pay attention to the teacher but my ass hurts as I sit where he hit me.

why did he have to have such a heavy hand.

I grab my bag and close my book. getting up from the desk, i walk out the room. ignoring the calls from my teacher.

I walk down the hall, going towards the exit that faced the parking lot. I take out my phone and call the one person i never thought I would need

"hello?" my dad was confused, why wouldn't he be. I've never called him. I was quiet, not knowing what to say.

"hello?"

"y/n?"

"y/n? what's wrong? why aren't you answering"

i covered my mouth as tears flowed out my eyes "dad" my voice cracks and he hears that i'm crying

"y/n what's wrong?" his voice filled with worry

"can you please come pick me up"

"what? where's jimin"

"in class, please don't call him"

"y/n i-"

"dad please just do this for me, please come get me I'm fucking shaking"

Growing up I never had a dad to pick me up when I fell, I didn't have anyone to go to when I was getting bullied. My mom was always busy and this man wanted nothing to do with me. During events my mom would show up but everyone else had a dad. I was a outcast.

All does things were childish, falling down. I learned I could get up on my own. When someone bullied me, I learned how to fight back. When someone called me names, I learned to turn the other cheek.  I didn't have to hold anyones hand to cross the street. And i learned to treasure myself.

but how do I learn to let go when someone disrespects me the way jungkook did. telling namjoon would just start a fight, telling jimin wouldn't make a difference. ]

Wouldn't I just be the problem.

If I had listened to jimin none of this would've happened.

"i'm coming alright" his voice brought me back from my pathetic thoughts

"thanks dad"

he didn't take long to get to school. once i got in the car he texts jimin, letting him know that he picked me up.

jimin calls him right after he sees the message but my dad didn't answer. putting his phone on the cup holder on silent. I did the same thing.

"home?" he asks as he kept his eyes on the road

"i don't wanna go home"

"then we don't go home..have you eaten?"

"no"

"do you want to eat?" i stared out my window "no"

"i'll take you somewhere, that i hope helps you feel better"

I fell asleep as he drove to  who knows where.

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"wake up" he taps my shoulder, I look up. squinting my eyes as the sudden light makes them sting.

And the sound of water makes me sit up. He brought me to the beach. "we brought you here when you learned to walk. around this time of the year, the turtles come out to do their nest and lay eggs"

I pull the door handle, stepping out of the car. the beach was empty. it was just my dad and me hearing the sound of the waves hit the shore.

"when you were small, you ran around chasing the crabs. we told you not to touch them and you didn't listen. you grabbed it and threw the crab at jimin" he laughs "your mom said you were gonna be troublesome"

" I didn't interpret that from your actions, I just thought you were gonna be fearless" I stare at my dad as he looks at the water "I don't know what upset you this bad, but you shouldn't run from it"

"you can tell me, and i'll fix it" he looks at me, and i've never seen him more serious than now. even when he tells me to go cover up more when he doesn't like my outfits.

"I had a project once, they asked me to say a special moment i had with my dad in front of the class. and bring some thing that reminded me of it" I take my shoes off leaving them in the car, I walk to water.

"y/n the water is cold" he calls out

the water covers my feet as I get to the shore, I look around and find two shells that looked the same. walking back to my dad i grab his hand, putting one of the  shells on his palm

"i didn't have something back then, i'm glad I do now" we stayed quiet for the rest of the time we were there. He helped me rinse my feet of the sand. And I just sat on the hood of the car. looking out at the water, jungkook didn't cross my mind once.

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✧ Pairing: kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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Once we got home, jimin wasn't there yet. They had practice today. After having my dad question me over and over if I was alright, I finally got away and went upstairs to shower.

My ass had a hand mark and it irritated me, now I had to avoid having sex with namjoon until it went away. Or else he'll end up fighting jungkook. way I was gonna have my period soon. Laying in bed I check my phone, there was over 50 messages from jimin and missed calls too. His last message told me to call him the moment I got home. Namjoon also called and texted me.

I was planning to call, but I fell asleep.

once jimin got home he asked his dad where they went and he didn't say anything in response. but there was a shell on his desk.

he walked into her room, right away hearing her little snores as she slept. Jimin didn't know what to say to you, he did the only thing he could think of and it was to just get into the bed and snuggle with you. he felt like this was more than just you missing your mom. maybe he has been a bit harsh with you lately about the whole boyfriend situation. He wanted you to know that he didn't care who you dated as long as you were happy, even if he didn't like the guy he'd shut up and smile.

he knew you weren't the best at making friends, so maybe you might have trouble with kids but since your his sister everyone would want to be your friend. he couldn't think of anyone who'd bully you, I mean who would have that death wish. Jimin and his six friends would beat them into a pulp.

Like taehyung says, his hands are bisexual. he'll beat a girl if he had to. jimin chuckles at his own thoughts, as he brushes his hand against your hair.

"don't be so sad, please" he whispers, giving y/n a kiss to your forehead.

I woke up to a huge muscular man hugging me, aka jimin.

I wanted to kick him off the bed, cause his body is a walking heater and i hate when it's hot like this. But I knew he came here because I cried earlier.

instead I licked my index finger and stuck it in his ear just as he did to me the other day. His eyes shot open and he grabbed my hand "Really? thats the first thing you do when you wake up" He was totally judging me with that stupid look on his face

"oh shut up, you did that to me first" he chuckles

"how are you feeling?"

"better"

"i'm surprised you called dad"

"I just didn't wanna be at school, and well you had stuff to do anyways"

"you know i'd stop anything if it was fo-"

"i don't wanna put you in a situation like that, anyways there's also dad so" i shrug, he just stared at me. but another reason I didn't tell him anything was because I didn't wanna put more in the hot plate with jungkook and me. I knew that had practice today, me making him leave would only make jungkook more annoyed.

"do you wanna call mom?" I he picks up the covers, looking for his phone that got lost in the bed

"she's probably still sleeping, we shouldn't....i'll talk to her this weekend anyways" he looks at his phone.

"i may have told the guys you left and they were all worried" he shows me his phone, I looked at the chat and I see a lot of messages from the three youngest but namjoon who of course like always tried to seem uninterested

even jungkook was asking how was, fucking hypocrite.

"wanna eat something?"

"like what?"

"what do you want?"

"whatever you make"

"alright, i'll go make something. i'll call you when it's ready"

he gets off the bed and walks towards the door but I call out his name, making him look at me again , smiling brightly.

I wanted to tell him, right there and then. About Namjoon and even about what happened with Jungkook.

he'd be more pissed at jungkook for hitting me, than namjoon for dating me.

but that fucking smile, I couldn't do it

"nothing never mind" I smile back at him.

"ok, i'll call you soon"

Once he left, I knew how deep I was in this shit.

Namjoon texted me saying If I didn't call him he was gonna come to the house. So I had no choice but to call him.

"Look who finally decides to answer" he was mad at me, I could hear it in his voice.

"I was asleep"

"jimin said that, but why didn't you answer me at all"

"I was with my dad"

"what's with all the dry answers, did something happened when you left with jungkook?" his voice hinted as if he knew something. Did jungkook tell him?

"what do you mean?" I hear him sigh "Jungkook heard us the day we came over" Namjoon knew that jungkook heard and he didn't even tell me....Do it tell him what happened today?

"did he say anything rude to you?" forget what he fucking said, he fucking touched me...

"what did he tell you? about that day" I ask him

"he told me I needed to tell jimin about us, or he would"

Fucking dick, he told me to break up with you.

"y/n? something happened didn't it. fucking jungkook I told him not to fucking say nothing to you"

I kept silent, I couldn't tell him what he said or what he did. I was scared.

"y/n, what did he say?"

what if I just told him? he'd Probably just go to Jungkook's place to hit him.

"he didn't say anything...just that we needed to tell jimin" I bite my inner cheek

"that's it?"

"yea.."

"ok" he sighs in relief "If he bothers you about it again, just tell me"

I guess the bitch got a hold on me, cause I couldn't tell jimin or namjoon about what happened today. I felt like crying again.

"namjoon..."

"yeah?"

I wanna see you but I can't..not right now.

I was saved by jimin calling out my name, telling me to come down to eat

"i'm sorry, I have to go eat"

"wait y/n, what if I come over"

"jimin and my dad are home"

"i'll sneak in"

but the hand mark...

"no sex, i'm serious" I tell him with a stern voice

"ok"

"promise?"

"i promise" he laughs

"I don't like having sex when I can't hear you call out my name so I don't mind"

"your annoying" I laugh at his answer

"but you love it"

"yeah yeah, i'm gonna go now"

jimin was already in bed when namjoon got here. he parked his bike away from our house, so jimin wouldn't see it.

my dad was in his office when I went to open the door.

"hey" he smiles

"shhh" i pinch his arm "my dad is in his office, shut up" his brow raises as he looks at me "pinch me again and i'll go back on my promise" holding onto his shoes we walk up to my room, locking the door behind us.

namjoon places his shoes and bag down, pulling his shirt over his head.

"what the fuck are you doing" i yell quietly, covering my eyes. I hear him chuckle "babe, why are you covering your eyes. you've seen way more" he grabs your hands putting them down

"namjoon i'm serious no sex!"

"alright alright, i wasn't planning on making a move on you. calm down"

"then put your shirt back on" i smack his chest

"i sleep without a shirt, and keep touching me i dare you" he grabs my hands.

there he stood in front of me with just grey joggers on "fine, lets go to sleep" I walk past him turning off the lights. I could hear him getting into the bed, as I make my way to the bed in the dark.

As I cover myself with the blanket he pulls me into a hug. we lay there silently for a good three minutes before he speaks up "this is nice, just laying here with you in my arms" he smiles

"I was actually planning to punish you for ignoring my calls all day, but you spent the day with your dad so i'll let it go" he palms your ass, making you flinch.

"namjoon"

"yeah?" If I tell him, will he leave and go beat up jungkook? or will he tell me to just ignore him. this is my fault for wanting him.

namjoon starts to give me multiple kisses on my face "you really thinking of something else while i'm in front of you" he pouts, making me smile "sorry, i just had a bad day"

"what made you upset" I shrug as if I didn't have an answer but I did. Just not a the answer that would do any good for him.

"it's fine, we all have those types of days"

I nod as he talked, I didn't know how I was gonna act in front of jungkook tomorrow. Honestly it bothered me the idea of being near him.

"namjoon, can we meet at the room tomorrow?"

"sure" he mumbles, already dozing off.

"namjoon.." he hums as I call his name

"good night"

"good night babe"

He fell asleep before me, I stared at his resting face as he slept. trying to see memorize everything. I was thinking of jungkook's threat. I have till the end of the month to break up with namjoon or he'll tell jimin.

for it to not get bad, it'll be better if I tell jimin. sitting him down and talking to him.

moving the hair from namjoon's eyes, I knew I couldn't break up with him. I would miss him too much, I don't know what i'd do without him.

once morning came, namjoon was holding me hostage in the bed. telling me he didn't wanna get up.

"namjoon we have school" I pinch his arms "but it's so comfortable being here with you" he whines

"come on, we have to leave before jimin notices" I try to get out of his embrace, only to fail when he hovers over me. his hands on my thighs, he pulls me closer to him "i'll get up after you help me with something" he rubs his erection against my clothed heat "you've got to be kidding me" he has a smug look on his face "no namjoon, i said no sex" i whine, his hands caressing my thighs "are you sure" he grinds against me once more, making me bite my bottom lip "yes"

he hums, his hands going from my thighs to the hem of my shorts, he brushes his thumb on my skin "namjo-"

"y/n?" jimin knocks on the door, "why is your door locked"

namjoon looks at the door and then you, still having his stupid smug look "I'm getting dressed" I say loudly

smacking namjoon's hands away i try to get up but he pushes me down, kissing my neck. I place my hands on his shoulders "namjoon don't you dare" i whisper

"what's taking you so long" jimin says annoyed, he knocks on the door once more

"your brother is very impatient, lets have a quickie" he whispers next to my ear before he continues to leave kisses on my neck

"sorry" i say to jimin, namjoon begins to suck on my skin.

"are you gonna want me to take you to school?" jimin speaks once again

"no., i'll go on my own"

"are you ok?" he says concerned

"jimin, i'm on my period. i'm in pain, i'll be going a bit late today"

"oh...i can't do anything for you? want me to get you anything?" namjoon slides his hand into your shorts and rubs his fingers against your heat "your a little liar, you aren't on your period" he makes you gasp as he pinches your folds

"no, i'm alright. you should go or you'll be late" i hold onto namjoon's hand, trying to stop him from moving it "namjoon please stop" i whisper

"alright then, ill see you at school" he walks away, heading down stairs

"namjoon what the fuck, what if he caught us" he raises his brow, slipping one of his fingers into my entrance making me gasp

"namjoon..no"

"i don't know why your cursing at me. but i don't like it"

"i'm sorry, i'm sorry" i whine, he takes out his finger only to thrust it into me again "i don't like how you gave up so quickly

"you keep saying no sex but yet you get wet so easily, look at how your pussy takes my finger so easily"

I cover my mouth trying to stop myself from making any noise, he smirks at the view underneath him "but i'll do as you said" he smiles, slipping out his finger from inside me making me whine at the emptiness

"namjoon" i pout

"what babe, you said no sex" he licks his fingers before wiping them on his joggers "get up we have to go to school don't we" he smirks, as he gets off of you.

what a bitch you thought, you were horny and he knew it. this was his revenge. two can play this game.

Dear Namjoon | 12

✧ Pairing: kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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Once you arrived at school, you saw that the rooftop was empty. You couldn't even find jimin. No one was answering your calls. So you went to the only people who basically knew everything about them.

Their fans.

since my brother and his friends were the pride and joy of the school, they allowed the fans to have a club room. along with allowing the whole letter exchange situation.

entering the classroom, i find boys and girls all together looking at their phones. walking up to the crowd of clearly very excited people I see the girl who always hands me the envelopes the period before lunch.

"Oh my god y/n" she screams and everyone turns to look at me. they all begin to walk towards me and are jumping as they scream

"w-what?" startled by the sudden mob

"you don't know? Your brother and the rest of the members signed under Big Hit Entertainment!" handing no more like forcing her phone into my hand I look at the article.

HEADLINES:

"THE NEW BEST THING: BIG HIT SIGNS 'BTS' "

Bang PD stated in the interview that he was astonished by the enthusiasm and surge of talent he witnessed during one of the their performances in XXX Club in last weeks show. The seven prodigies call themselves BTS, their leader is Kim Namjoon. Bang PD says that there is much potential in BTS. Probably debuting won't be a problem?

My jaw was touching the ground, Jimin got signed up?! I screamed on the top of my lungs as the excitement their fans were feeling was rubbing on me.

"if we write them their letters can you please give it to them?" the girl grabs on to your arm with pleading eyes, nodding at their request. they all rush to the desks grabbing envelopes and writing on the cards.

taking out your phone you text jimin, letting him know how proud you were. Opening namjoon's message something stops you before you begin to type. For some reason, jungkook's words played in your head. since trainee's sometimes aren't allowed to date, is your relationship with namjoon gonna cause a problem?

closing the chat, you walk to the table of girls as they begin to fill up a box with cards. "but how come they aren't here" I ask the fan club leader.

"they got a call and all left early" she smiles, putting another letter in the box.

after a long time of waiting you are standing in front of your locker with a huge box in your hands. jimin texted you to go home after school and didn't answer any message after that.

as for namjoon, you couldn't get in contact with him at all. It makes sense that he wouldn't be able to answer but you were kinda sad about it as well.

once you got home you took the box to your room, leaving it on the desk. the girls had given you, the same envelopes as always so you could write them letters too.

sitting at the desk, you stare at the empty cards. but for some reason. You couldn't bring yourself to write anything to none of them, not even namjoon.

The moment I heard my dad yell from downstairs that jimin was home, i jumped off the bed and ran downstairs screaming his name. as he entered the door I jumped into his arms

"look at you! i knew you could do it" hugging me tightly he whispers a thanks, jimin was nervous to be cut from the group or to not be taken all together. finally I pay attention to all the other boys entering through the front door, and my eyes wander to namjoon who was also looking at me. jimin puts me down, and pats my head.

as jimin walks to the living room I feel someones stare behind me, turning around I make eye contact with jungkook who looked displeased with me. Ignoring his stares I ended up talking to yoongi.

I was sitting on the floor in front of jimin as I listened to namjoon explain to my dad and me what happened at the meeting.

dad wasn't really happy with the whole idol idea but he was supporting jimin through it all. did he get lectured for playing at the club, yes he did. But he wasn't harsh on him since all the other guys were here too.

namjoon mentioned something about a letter, and it reminded me about the fan mail.

"oh right, you're fans heard about what happened and they wrote you guys letters today too. they asked me to hand them to you" getting up from the floor you walk upstairs to get the box of letters.

entering your room you grab the box, heading downstairs with the box in your hand.

hoseok was excited to see the letters. opening the box you see that they were all organized with rubber bands so you walked around handing everyone their pile of letters. once you got to jungkook, you didn't even look at him. namjoon slightly touched your hand as you handed the pile of letters to him, but you didn't react. you didn't want anyone else to find out about the two of you. you already had enough with jungkook.

they all went through their letters, and right after namjoon finished his pile he looked up at you confused. well why wouldn't he be, there was no letter from you.

this time you ignored his stares.

they ordered food after dad went to his office, wanting to give them space you went to your room. locking the door, you didn't want namjoon to walk in and cause someone else to find out. grabbing your phone you text namjoon telling him not to come upstairs into your room.

namjoon's phone rings in his pocket and he looks at it real quick, and discreetly. and as if you had read his mind, telling him not to come up when he was planning to get away right now. He was confused of why you were acting like that.

first no letter, now you tell him not to come up to your room.

putting his phone down, he tries to get back to the conversation. trying to find a good time to ask jimin if there was something wrong with you he waits a bit more.

"look at this letter" jin shows yoongi, and yoongi looks at him with a rested face "you've shown me the same letter over five times already" he says as he pushes the card away from his face. making jin pout.

"jimin, what's up with your sister?" namjoon asked nonchalantly he takes a sip from his drink.

"Nothing? why you ask?" jimin was confused as to why namjoon asked, he thought you were fine.

"oh i don't know, she left to her room right away. and she wasn't as talkative as before" he shrugs

jimin sighs "she acts like a child sometimes" but what he really wanted to say is that your an emotional mess when your period comes.

"that child could beat your ass if she head you say that" yoongi says, jin then says he'll bet five dollars that jimin would beat y/n's ass. everyone then continued to talk about it, while namjoon sat there uncomfortable.

he wondered if you were mad about him not answering you all day, but as the leader he had a lot to do compared to the rest. he stared at his phone, look at the messages between the both of you. wondering if he should just ask you whats wrong.

the idea of you ignoring him or avoiding him annoyed him. instead of messaging you he decided to leave you on seen. letting his ego take over, he wanted you to message him first.

what he didn't know was that you had already fallen asleep, and by not messaging you and by you not explaining why he couldn't come to your room. there is now a misunderstanding from his side.

once you woke up, you looked at your phone. expecting namjoon to have texted you but he didn't. not thinking much about it you got ready for school.

jimin now rides with you in your car, something about the company saying they should avoid riding their bikes due to the possibility of injuries or it just being dangerous in general.

you slept in the car as jimin drove to school.

you had to return the box to the club room. after saying goodbye to jimin you headed there.

"here's the box" you smile, handing it over to the leader.

"thank you for giving them the letters" she smiles.

bowing your head, you begin to walk towards the door, "wait...can i ask you something" stopping to her voice you turn to look at her

"uh..sure?" you sit down and she sits in front of you

"i don't know if you get questions like this everyday....but could you maybe get jimin to give you an autograph...for me?"

I was lost at words, I didn't know what to say. Jimin said their company told them something about giving autographs or taking photos with people. but you were too busy staring at namjoon's face that you don't remember.

"uh..sorry, but I don't really like um..asking my brother for things like that" your lips go into a thin line. trying to predict how she'll react.

"that's selfish"

"excuse me?" your eyes widen at her quick change of attitude. she scoffed and crossed her arms "i'm just asking for an autograph not his number or anything else"

"right...and I said no" you speak up at the same tone.

"hey, i gathered the letters." another girl walks in with the box that's always placed in the hallway. "do you think we should read the letters?"

"read the letters?" you ask confused, but anxious because you write...interesting letters to namjoon.

"we found out haters are writing letters to them too now. good thing we noticed someone who only badmouths them drop a letter into the box. thankfully we only deliver blank envelopes to does who sign up"

she picks up a envelope "the hater turned in a whole different type of envelope than the one we provide. we were able to take it out before giving the rest of the letters to you"

"what did they write" i look at the leader and she just sighed "nothing nice"

"so are you gonna read the letters?" i ask

"no, i'm thinking of getting a customized stamp. and only the envelopes with the stamp and those who are members of the club can enter letters"

maybe this girl does deserve a autograph....but I didn't like her attitude...

"just leave the letters here, let everyone know todays letters will not be delivered or any to be exact till we get the stamp"

the girl nods, leaving the box at the counter before walking out.

"thank you" you say

"for what?"

"looking out for the boys very carefully"

"people can have their own opinion, but it doesn't give them the right to make others feel bad about them selves"

you agreed with her and nodded "but you called me selfish" you chuckled

"i'm sorry..i guess that was mean"

"what's your name"

"eunsook"

"nice to meet you eunsook, i don't know about that autograph but i'll see what i can do" you smile as you get up from the chair "i have to go to class, so i'll be leaving first" she smiles brightly at you "thank you!"

you missed your chance to see namjoon in the morning so you headed to class since you were close to being late.

you didn't know not texting namjoon that morning was only throwing more wood into the fire.

once lunch came, just as eunsook said. there were no letters. getting lunch you walk to the rooftop, meeting everyone else there.

and a very very very angry namjoon.

you didn't give it much thought. thinking that maybe he was tired , he didn't glance your way and you were used to it because well. you were both trying not to make it obvious.

sometimes you couldn't help it but look at him, but today you felt like it was fine.

but to him, he felt like you were mad at him.

"there was no letters today" jimin says

"yeah, i didn't even see the box" taehyung talks with his mouth full, receiving a disgusted look from jimin

"they have to do some adjustments to the letters after what happened. before doing it again...don't expect any letters for a couple of days" you tell them as if it was nothing

"what happened??" jimin's asked concerned

"oh.." you couldn't bring yourself to tell them that people were already hating on them. and not even that but people were already starting to write hateful things to them.

"oh uh....they wanna make the envelopes cuter...something about labeling..i'm not sure honestly I wasn't paying attention" you stuff tteokbokki into your mouth.

"you know a lot about our fans huh" taehyung asks with his mouth full. "uh i spent some time with them yesterday and today..."uh by the way, are you guys able to write autographs?" you ask jimin

"not really..why?"

"oh..just asking" you smile at him

they all just stared at you confused, you were making no sense. none of your questions or what you were saying made sense.

"uh anyways.." hoseok speaks up

"we are gonna start practicing at our company from now on"

"really? that's awesome"

"you can come watch whenever you want" jimin smiles

"i'll make sure to visit"

you didn't get the chance to talk to namjoon all day, and not even to try and talk to him after school. jimin said they all had to go and practice. starting tomorrow they would be missing their last two classes to go train.

not wanting to bother namjoon or jimin, you decided not to text neither of them.

as you did your homework you kept thinking of namjoon, and how he looked down all day. maybe it was cause of everything that has been happening. your phone then rings, and picking it up you thought it'd be namjoon or jimin but it was a new number.

UNKNOWN

Hey, I hope you don't mind but I got your number from the survey you took. it's Eunsook btw.

CHANGE  UNKNOWN  TO  EUNSOOK

NO OR  YES

Y/N

I don't mind

Eunsook

I just wanted to ask you to not tell BTS about the letters.

Y/n

oh, don't worry about it. I didn't tell them they did ask about why there weren't any letters but all I said was that you guys were changing somethings.

Eunsook

Thank you! You were trying to figure out a way to tell her that jimin can't give her an autograph. you tapped your fingers on the table as you tried to think of how to even make a conversation. your introvert ass was horrible at this.

Y/n

I can't get the autograph for you... they aren't allowed to do those things

Eunsook

I figured they wouldn't... thanks for trying. I hope we can be friends.

Y/n

sure :)

how do you solve a conflict you had no idea was happening. namjoon was upset with you. you could sense how he'd stare at you as you sat the opposite side of him during lunch. neither of you had texted the other, you were going to call him yesterday but once jimin arrived home he was so tired you could only guess namjoon was too

you didn't know why he was upset with you, but all you knew was that jimin said he had been in a bad mood all day yesterday.

he was even distracted during the practice and got in trouble a couple of times.

you wanted to ask him what was wrong, and you wanted to ask him to meet you were you always did but you were nervous to get caught by someone else. especially now that they are one step closer to what they've always wanted.

jungkook's words were taking a toll on you. it was bothering you, everything.

if there is one thing you hated about yourself, it was the fact that you are an emotional mess when your period is coming. like anything can make you cry. and seeing that namjoon was upset with you didn't help.

once school ended, jimin invited you to the studio. said it would be fine if you just sat there and watched. apparently it was namjoon's idea.

something about, you telling them if they improved or not. and well, you honestly wanted to go home, but he was already mad so you didn't wanna give him another reason.

you watched them practice for a hour before they had a break.

"what do you think?" jimin says as he collapses next to you, handing him a towel and bottle of water "you guys look amazing, of course with hoseok as your your coach in dancing why wouldn't you look good" you giggle, hoseok who was laying on the floor shoots a thumbs up at you

"can you get us some more bottles" yoongi says to you, he's also laying on the floor. you look at all the members and all of them look out of it. they were out of breathe. even the mirror was foggy.

"sure"

"i'll help" namjoon gets up from the floor, as he walk to the door he grabs his bag. you were surprised, but followed him through the small narrowed halls silently.

he opens the door to a dark room, you walk in trying to look for the light switch. and just as you were gonna turn on the light, namjoon shuts the door, grabbing your arm he pushes you against the wall. his body pressing against yours. you could smell the Cologne mixed with sweat.

"namjoon?" you gasp once you feel his knee pressed against your heat.

"why have you been ignoring me" he's still holding onto your arm, as his other hand is on your waist "w-what?" you were completely shocked.

he puts more pressure on you with his knee "you're really gonna act like you don't know" you could feel butterflies in your stomach

you had no idea why he was upset. but he was hot.

"namjoon, i have no idea what your talki-"

"you don't text me anymore, you said no to go to your room, and you didn't even write a letter" he didn't know if you were just being bold acting as if you didn't know or if you were just that dense

moving your hair aside he begins to suck on your skin, harshly

"n-namjoon hold on" you try to push him away but he holds your wrist with on hand, holding them over your head "what" he says with a attitude

"i haven't been ignoring you, i just thought you would be tired after training" you hiss at the pain as he sucks on your skin harder "i didn't write a letter cause your fans might read the letters"

he stops sucking on your skin and looks at you confused "and why would they read the letters"

"just..because"

"what? that makes no sense" looking away you were mentally cursing yourself for even trying to use that as an excuse

"what aren't you telling me"

"nothing.."

"y/n, i swear" he growls

"nothing" you tell him again, he lets go of your hands and walks to the table where he had tossed his bag "why did you tell me not to go to your room"

"because we should be more careful to not get caught"

"why would they read the letters" you bite your bottom lip , trying to come up with an excuse but namjoon was just getting annoyed by your silence.

"fine" opening his bag he looks through it till he finds something. the room was dark, you couldn't see much, especially what ever he had taken out of his bag

"namjoon?"

"why would they read the letters?" he didn't believe that was your excused he thinks there's something more to it.

"why does it matter, i'll write you letters and just hand them to you instead"

"no, i wanna know why" he walks towards you, the little light that entered the room let you see he was smirking

you kept quiet, the moment he was near you. he makes you look at him as he lifts your chin "do you know how much of a toll you've had on me these past days. making me think you were mad at me"

"i didn-"

"shh" he brushes his thumb over your lips

"stop talking"his hand was caressing your thigh, and you knew what that meant.

"namjoon we cant have se-"

"didn't i tell you to stop talking" he grabs your chin harshly. you stare at him with widen eyes

"you need to get punished, for how you made me feel. and for keeping secrets"

"what secrets, i'm telli-" you squeal as namjoon slaps your ass suddenly "didn't i say something" he grabs your arm "come here" pulling you to the table he makes your sit on it, spreading your legs

you cover your mouth with your hand once you see him get on his knees. you wanted to tell him right now wasn't the time for this but he told you to be quiet.

pushing your skirt up, he right away moves your underwear to the side. he begins to leave long licks on your clit, making you bite onto your lip to try and not let out any noise. his hands gripping onto your thighs.

a few more licks and his tongue enters you causing you to squirm, his grip on your thighs tightening

just as you felt like you were about to cum he stops.

you stare at him in disbelief, mad that he didn't let you finish.

"don't pout like that babe" he smirks, satisfied with your reaction.

you stare at him, the way he was sweaty from the practice to how he was just eating you out made you more wet.

"i got something for you" you sit up, watching him taking something out of his pocket.

"what's that?" you ask as a small black thing but couldn't see clearly what it was. he chuckles, always amused at how this was all new to you.

"it's a vibrator"

"namjoon no" you knew damn well what that fucking was

"after what you've made me go through the past few days, this is your punishment" you close your thighs tightly, trying to think of a way to run away. but he gets up quickly holding onto your waist, keeping you on the table "y/n"

"no namjoon"

"y/n" he says your name with a husky voice, leaning in for a kiss but he only brushes his lips against yours. his hands move to your knees "no" you whisper against his lips

"y/n" he says once more before he kisses you, instantly slipping his tongue into your mouth. you missed his lips against yours. he slowly opened your legs as you both kissed. you just couldn't say no to him.

"namjoon but"

"shhh, just trust me ok"

he turns on the vibrator with the control, as he rubs it against your clothed heat making you flinch at the sudden vibration

"that's the lowest setting" he chuckles

"i can't do it" you tell him

"yes, you can" turning it off he he sticks his finger into you "look at you, taking my finger so well, you're ready"

without even letting you answer he sticks the vibrator into you, your hands grip the sides of the desk, nervous at the thought of him turning it on.

"tell me y/n, why would they read the letters" he asked as he tugs the string into your underwear. he puts your skirt down, leaning on the table with both hands beside your thighs. his left hand had the control.

i'm sorry eunsook..."they found people writing hateful things, they mentioned something about reading them before giving them to you"

he didn't look happy about what you said, but he also didn't look surprised "couldn't you just say that"

"i promised i wouldn't.." he chuckles at how scared you looked as you glanced at the controller

"why did you avoid me"

"i told you, i thought you'd be tired"

"not good enough of an excuse"

"you know the phone works both ways, why didn't you text m-" you squeal as he turns on the vibrator, making you hold on to his shoulders

"i don't like your attitude"

"i'm sorr-ry" it wasn't high, but it caught you by surprise, he turns it off.

"we've taken long, lets go" he stands up, picking up his bag

"namjoon take it out" you whine, standing up. you felt weird.

"nope, this is your punishment. keep arguing with me and i'll turn it on" you follow him as he walks to the dinning area down the hall. he grabs some bottles of water. handing other ones to you. "when i turn it on, if you make noise i'll raise the level"

"what?" you were anxious

"lets go sweetheart" he walks out the dinning area and begin to walk to the practice room "think of an excuse" he says before opening the door, to let you go in first

"what took you so long!" yoongi yells, still tired from the training "sorry i went the bathroom.." you answer quickly, not wanting namjoon to turn it on.

you place the bottles on the table, rushing to sit on the couch on the other side of the room. it felt weird. or maybe you were just too conscious of it.

they all get ready to start practicing again, as they get to their formation you feel it turn on making you gasp loudly.

jimin turns to look at you "what"

you shake your head quickly, "nothing nothing" you stare at namjoon who's brow was raised. you feel the vibrator go faster and you just knew he kept his word and raised the level.

you press your thighs together, as you sat there trying to concentrate on watching them dance. but it wasn't helping. the feeling was new. and you were weak.

you felt how you were getting excessively wet making you press your thighs together even more.

as they dance, namjoon moves to the side waiting for his turn. watching you the whole time with a stupid smile.

you wanted to curse him out, but you felt a familiar knot in your stomach. and as if namjoon could read your facial expressions he turns it off before stepping out to dance his part. you sigh as you feet it stop.

you were drained, you wanted to take it out. getting up from the couch, you were gonna go to the bathroom but you sat instantly the moment you felt it turn on in a higher power. you lean on the side of the couch as you cover your mouth.

as for the guys they were too focused to pay attention to you, other than namjoon no one else was glancing your way.

you wanted to throw the bag at namjoon at this point

you just tried to make sure you wouldn't make any noise, the music that played loudly helped cover your heavy breathing

the music stops and you try to keep your composure. namjoon walks over to you, he had left the bottle by you. as he stands next to you. he has a stupid smug look, his hand in his pocket clearly holding the controller "namjoon i'm gonna go take it out" you were about to get up but you feel it go faster and it made to whimper loudly

namjoon choked at the water since he couldn't hold back his laugh. your underwear was soaked.

the practice finally ended and he hadn't turned it on. the guys mentioned going out to eat but namjoon decided to stay back "i'll clean up, you guys go ahead" you tell jimin you'll help namjoon, which was a lie. you just couldn't stand, your legs were too weak to walk. the moment everyone left to go eat you glare at namjoon who was leaning against the mirror.

"don't look at me like that, my finger might slip" he shows you the control, teasing you.

"please take it out" you whine holding onto the couch side with your life. "fine, you got punished enough" he walks to the door, locking it to make sure no one enters.

as he walks towards you, you spread your legs. you could've just yanked it out yourself but you were afraid to hurt your self.

he sees how soaked your underwear is and he looked at you "liked it that much?"

you wanted to tell him to shut up, but didn't want him to change his mind and not take it out, the moment he pulls on the string and takes the vibrator out slowly. you were exhausted, you body leaning back on the sofa .

your eyes were shut, you hear him opening his bag "i'm gonna put these on you, just tell jimin you bleed through" and as you sat there on the sofa, namjoon helped you put on his joggers, taking off your skirt and putting it in your bag.

everyone had gone to eat at a near by restaurant, you texted jimin saying you were tired and that namjoon was gonna take you home.

he insisted on taking you but ended up convincing him to stay.

"you're horrible" you mean mug him making him laugh "don't make me pull over and fuck you in the back seat"

"i'll seriously be mad at you if you do" he just chuckles, "did you hate it that bad"

you pout looking out the window "alright, i'm sorry" he puts his hand on your thigh giving it a small squeeze

"i don't wanna use it again"

"damn, really babe?" he gives you another squeeze

"yes really" you slap his hand, he glances at you as if saying 'did you just hit me'

"one more time, and if you don't like it after that then we won't use toys"

crossing your arms you stare out the window instead of answering him

"alright alright, we won't use it"

"fine we can, but you can't use it how you did today" you make sure to glare at him

"what ever you want" grabbing your hand, he gives it a kiss before interwinding his fingers with yours.

Dear Namjoon | 13

Pairing: kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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"You should see him mom, when he dances it's like...words can't even describe it, you just gotta see it" you're in awe as you think about your brother. 

"i know sweetie, I wish I could go and see him" jimin was practicing late into the night at the company, he asked you to give him some company. once your mom called you stepped out to not distract him. 

"but tell me, you said there wasn't something you wanted to tell me" 

"oh right.." you look at the double doors that entered to the practice room. going further down the hall you take a deep breath. "i'm dating someone.."

you hear your mom gasp on the other side, "oh, is he good looking? well i would expect he is due to your taste" she laughs 

"yeah...he is" 

"does jimin know him?"

"yeah..."

"why don't you sound excited?" she was confused as to why you weren't happy telling her. 

"what if me being with him would cause more harm than good?" you bite on your bottom lip, waiting for your moms response. 

"y/n, you are only in high school. what harm can a relationship do? what? is he some old man or something?" she sounded more alarmed in the end of her sentence 

"no mom...he's in high school" you sigh 

"then?"

"it's complicated" you rub your temples, walking into the dinning area to take a seat. "complicated how?"

"it's just that...i feel that maybe i should just break up with him.." you slouch on the chair, looking at the clock on the wall. jimin will be done in 20 mins or so. "i'm not understanding...is there more to the situation you aren't telling me?"

yeah there is...

"no, not really" you hear a chair being pulled out, she was clearly sitting down. 

"ok well, i don't know what's happening. i hope you'll open up to me when you need my advice. but if being with this boy is gonna cause more harm than good, and you can't see a good outcome when it comes to being with this boy then maybe it's a good idea to end it"

you nod your head as you listen. 

"but why would you give up so easily? there is never one ending to a situation, there are multiple" 

"tell me, who's this boy?"

if there was one person you could trust, it was your mom to keep her mouth shut. 

"it's one of ji-" 

and as if it was a sign. The one and only asshole walked in, Jungkook. "sorry mom, i'll call you back later" you hear your mom calling your name as you hang up on the phone. 

if there was one thing you took from the day of the shed incident, it was that you had to be wary around jungkook and the bastard knew how you felt. 

he chuckles at your behavior as he walks towards the refrigerator. he was practicing his part with their choreographer in a separate room. only reason why you agreed with jimin to even come, you thought there wouldn't be a chance to see him. 

"calm down, I understand I was out of place that day" he takes out two bottles from the fridge and walks over to the table you were sitting at. keeping a stern look, you made sure not to let him know he had a affect on you. that you felt like you had run every time you saw him. 

he hovers over you as he places a bottle of orange juice in front of you. as you look up, you see the grin on his face, and you knew you failed. 

"how's the task going by the way" he pulls out a chair, making you uncomfortable as he sits next to you. 

you stare at him for split second before answering "it's none of your business" 

he scoffs at your words "are you still mad at me? I said I was sorry" you couldn't believe that when you meet this guy, you thought he was sweet. 

"if the word sorry fixed everything, i wouldn't bother being mad at you" he nods, agreeing with you 

"fine, then what do you want from me. To forgive me?"

"I don't wanna see you"

"It's not possible, we have mutual friends. we'll always have to see each other...and then ther's jimin so" he's right...

"then leave me and namjoo-"

"No, what I told you was not just for me but for the good of the group"

"jungkook why are you such a bi-"

"it's only gonna get harder" he cuts me off 

"what?"

"it's only gonna get harder from here. the relationships, the getting to see each other. you're gonna be a distraction to him" 

you both stare at each other, waiting for the next word to be targeted at each other. but the battle was set for another day as jimin walks into the dinning area, exhausted 

"that's where you guys were" he walks to the two of you, slouching on the chair to your right. you grab the bottle jungkook had put in front of you. opening it, you hand it to jimin. 

"thanks sis, damn that was harder than I thought. but I finally got it" he takes gulps of the water as he tries to control his breathing. 

"hoseok got it right away, it's what you'd except from him for sure" jungkook changes his tone completely. 

"how did it go for you?" 

"i feel like my legs are burning" they both laugh 

"shit, i bet your tired y/n. let me just feel my legs again and we can go home. i don't even know how i made it over here. I felt like I was gonna collapse right when the music ended" he chuckles 

"don't worry about it jimin, rest a bit" you smile. 

jungkook wasn't wrong, they started to attend school for half of the day. you'd see them in the morning but once lunch came, they were gone. 

seeing how you didn't have any friends, and really didn't bother making any. you decided to just hang out with the only people who you kinda felt comfortable with. 

Their fans. 

you had to set boundaries...like telling them not ask for autographs, or people saying they wanted to come over to your house. they would ask for videos or photos of them practicing. it was rather bothersome. but they began to treat you as a normal human by the third day. 

you would call and text namjoon frequently but it took him a while to answer your messages. but you are a understanding girlfriend. you wanted to proof to jungkook that he was wrong. you ended up goin on the clinic on your own to get birth control, namjoon said he'd go with you but you felt like this was something you wanted to do alone. 

as if he knew you were thinking of him, the man of your dreams called (lol)

"hey" you smile widely 

"hey babe, what are you doing" namjoon says out of breath 

"nothing, out for a walk. you're done practicing?" you ask

"yeah, I finished already. I got the part quickly" he chuckles 

"i'm glad, jimin tells me how hard it is. he says he wants to practice more often"

"yeah.." he sounded off 

"did i say something wrong?" 

"no, you didn't. what if we hang out today? what do you think?" 

"yeah! let me just tell jimin" 

"alright, i'll see you later" you both say goodbye before hanging up

you tell jimin that you'll be hanging out with your boyfriend to day, at first he said to not go and to spend time with him instead. you tell him, that you see him all the time and barely see your boyfriend. with this excuse he gave up saying he was tired and would just sleep once he gets home. 

you told your dad you'll be staying out with some friends. 

once school ended you waited at a cafe near their company. namjoon said he'll pick you up there. 

you got him a drink, making sure it was something he could drink since he put himself on a diet. you didn't wait long till you saw a very tall figure walking into the cafe, sunglasses, hood up, mask. yup that's namjoon you chuckle. 

"sorry i took long didn't I" he sighs, as he walks up to you 

"no, I just got here" you smile, it was a lie. 

in face you got here really early. you didn't wanna keep him waiting. if it was namjoon, you'd wait hours if you had to. 

"lets go then..i wanna get home and shower" he picks up your bag from the side chair, taking your hand in his free hand. being with namjoon felt right. 

you insisted on driving home, namjoon too tired to fight with you he just sat on the passenger seat. resting. 

pulling up in front of his house you poke him, waking him up. "do you wan't me to go home? so you can rest?"

he chuckles "no, don't leave. i need you" he gets out the car to open your door. taking your hand once more you both walk inside the house that was empty as always. 

"i thought you'd go home to change" he says as he eyes you, bent over taking off your shoes. 

"what for? I can just wear your clothes" you captivate his attention with your bold statements. "you're right" he gives your ass a small slap as he wraps his hands around you from behind, giving the crown of your head a kiss 

"you really are the only thing i need, for me to get through the day" he says as his face is buried in your neck, he leaves small kisses everywhere. 

"you should shower" you tell him slowly, trying not to fall into the temptation of letting him have you right here. 

"why?" he chuckles "do i stink" 

you giggle as he squeezes his arms around you "no, but you can rest if we don't waste time" 

"anytime i spend with you is never a waste" releasing yourself from his grip, you take his hands and guide him upstairs to his room

 "come on let's shower" 

he raises a brow "lets?" 

"yeah...not waste time, right?" 

"right" he laughs at your boldness, but swiftly carries you bridal style into the bathroom. placing you on the sink, he steps out and comes back with the box of condoms in his hand 

"nope" you say as you take the box, his eyes widen. you open the box taking only one out. tossing the box outside the door "only one time today" you wave the foil in front of him. 

 he cups your cheek as his lips are pressed onto yours. this euphoric feeling could never get old. the sparks you feel in your tummy every time he touches you. 

you tug on his shirt, as he continues to kiss you but your lips part as you slip his shirt over his head. "i know you're a kisser, but you're wasting time" you giggle 

your hands touched his skin that felt hot to your fingertips. "as i dance in that room, all i can think about is you" he unbuttons your shirt pulling it down your arms as he leaves kisses on your collarbones. 

"maybe you should focus" you joke

"maybe" he chuckles 

"but right now i'll focus on you" you let his hands roam your body. both of you were undressed as you entered the shower, without leaving your lips. he pushes you towards the wall, he turns on the water lukewarm. 

the water ran was running down my skin, my nipples hardened as he touched my breasts. his warm hand reaches for my waist, pulling me towards him I could feel his hard length up against my stomach. I wanted to look at it, but his eyes stared at me, and I was lost in his. 

i feel as his hand goes down to my pussy and he strokes my clit, I arch my back as he touches me. I use my right hand to feel his cock, stroking it. he kisses me passionately. 

"aren't we just wasting time" you smirk, grabbing the foil. I get on my knees as I slide the condom down his shaft. 

looking up at him, his eyes followed my every move. wanting to tease him I kiss his tip, I keep eye contact the whole time. "babe, stop playing" his raspy voice made me rub my thighs together. 

"ok" standing up, hand on his cock I move close enough to tease him by putting his cock against my clit, rubbing myself on him. Frustrated he picks me up, Wrapping my legs around him he slips into me without any trouble, both of us moaning each others name

pinning me against the wall he slid into me deeper, filling me up inch by inch. "namjoon" you whisper his name, his eyes were shut as he was bitting onto his bottom lip. his brows were frowned with the immense pleasure he was feeling. 

"let me just have you" he says before taking my nipple into his mouth, thrusting into me harder each time, I could feel how sensitive i was becoming, I felt like I was going to cum soon "namjoon" you moan his name more louder, making him get even harder inside you "fuck, once won't be enough" slipping out of you, he turns you around. bending you over as your pressed against the wall. instantly he enters you from behind, thrusting into you. hitting your sweet spot each time. 

his grip on my hips as he pounded into me, his hand traveled to my nipples as he tugged on them and massaged the other one. the sound of the water couldn't cover his groans. The knot in my stomach released and my legs were shaking but he wasn't done, he kept thrusting into me. kissing and sucking on my back. 

he was close, but wanted to make it last longer, he began to thrust slowly into me. the burn of how slow he thrusted into me made me crazy. 

"fuck, it's like i'm being sucked in, I don't wanna stop, I just wanna keep going" you whine as he pulls out only to thrust his hips into your harder than he was. 

a few more seconds and he was done, filling up the condom. he held you up as you both calmed down. "fuck, your lucky to have thrown out the box. or i'd fuck you senseless right now" grabbing your chin, you look at him as he kisses you. 

after you both finished washing yourselves you laid in the bed in his embrace under the sheets. All you had on was one of his huge shirts.  

it was silent in the room until you giggled 

"what's funny" he asks, his eyes were close, but he was awake. 

"you know what the girls say about your chest"

"my chest?" he laughs 

"yeah, they call it namtiddies" you laugh 

"you need to stop hanging out with them" he chuckles, they weren't wrong. if he would become a model. he'd put everyone else on the runway to shame. his broad shoulders and fined chest could bring anybody to their knees. 

you begin to make little circles on his chest, you look at his perfect face thats decorated with  countless moles. 

"aren't you tired" he asks as he pats your butt 

"nope" 

"i am"

"lets sleep then" you smile 

"but you aren't tired, i don't want you to stay up alone" he yawns 

"i mean, you could tire me out" you smirk, he just laughs 

"babe, i'm seriously tired. I don't think I can" 

"I was joking, don't worry. I sleep easily in your arms" 

he nods slowly, definitely dozing off. 

"goodnight" he  whispers 

"goodnight" 

when morning came, you woke up with you back up against namjoon's chest. his hand was inside your shirt as he groped one of your breasts. 

you thought he was awake and was just trying to be sly enough to have a little action in the morning. but he wasn't, you could hear his little snores from behind you. 

too tired to wake him up you just laid there, and eventually fell asleep. 

you both made it to school on time, barely. since everyone else was at school namjoon was able to give you a drive without the risk of getting caught. he gave you a quick kiss before you  rushed inside, he was gonna enter a few minutes after you. 

you rush to your locker, putting everything you don't need away. heading to the rooftop, you saw namjoon was already there, jimin was especially giving you the eyes. 

"about time my little sister decides to show up" he clicks his tongue in disappointment. you hug him from behind as he sits on the chair "don't be mad" he just laughs at how cutely you speak to him. 

"at least you aren't looking like if leeches were all over you" he teases you in front of his friends who also joined in. everyone wasn't as energetic as usual, taehyung who is usually the one running around was laying on the floor with a notebook covering his face. 

"sis, do you wanna come watch today? we're gonna have our second practice together" 

"sure" you smile. 

the bell rings and they all groan, their legs were aching so much they didn't wanna move. you look at namjoon, he was slouched back on his chair. even tho he slept a good amount last night he was still tired. 

wrapping your arm around jimin's you help him up his chair "don't worry i'll help you get to class" you smile, making your eyes disappear. 

"that's not fair, we all need a y/n" hoseok whines 

you carry jimin's bag for him, walking to class with him as you both talk about your day. 

"when am I gonna meet the guy?" 

"hmm...soon?" you shrug 

"i'm curious to why he doesn't wanna meet your family if he's so into you" he scoffs 

"it's me"

"what" you hand him the bag since you stop in front of his class

"it's me that doesn't want you to meet him, not yet at least" you smile at jimin, as he stares at you with widened eyes. shocked. 

"wow, i've been thinking this guy is bad and it's you being a bad kid" he whacks your arm, shaking his head "go to class you little shit" 

so, their fans adjusted their schedule to the boys. now they hand out letters before the first class and collect them during passing period before lunch. to have them ready by lunch time. 

eunsook is diligent. 

you stare at the empty card, wondering what to write. 

Dear Namjoon, 

I miss your smile.

I miss your laugh. 

I miss the way you make me feel, but most of all...

I miss you inside me. 

you snicker as you close the card. 

school ended and you walked to meet the guys. The weather was decent, so the walk wasn't so bad. 

walking in you could hear the music, so being as discrete as you could be. you sneak in and just sit on the couch you were on the first time you came. you sat there, recording little bits of jimin and sending them to your mom. 

you admired them all, even the dumb bitch of jungkook. they looked tired but kept going. not only did they have to practice the choreography but they also had to record today. 

"how do you see them" the choreographer stands next to you, he was staring at them as they danced. 

"sorry?"

"how do you think they are doing?" he looked mean, but you could tell it was just him being really serious 

"uh...well.." you look at the guys, complementing them won't do any good, he'll think your opinion is stupid 

"they have good formation...but my brother is kinda slow to start.." you whisper 

"your brother?"

"yeah..jimin" he stares at me for a good minute before smiling "and the rest?"

"uh..well i don't really think i should be talking since i don't know how to dance myself but jungkook looks like he doubts himself when it's his turn to be in the front. he's proabably thinking am i doing enough or not am i doing too much" the man just nods as he stares at the guys who are dancing 

"you pointed out everything i was thinking, thank you" you nod, relived you didn't seem like a push over 

"do you think they need more help?" 

"help?"

"practice"

"i feel like they got it....it's just. the confidence. they need confidence like hoseok" you smile, satisfied with your answer he signals the man standing by the computer and he turns the music off

"so after talking to this lovely lady here, i feel justified to what i'm about to say" he walks to the guys who were catching their breath 

"last time we all gathered and had a meeting we mentioned things that would be more beneficial to you guys" 

jimin's eyes widen, quickly turning to look at you. "uh wait, can we ta-" he steps out to walk towards you but the man lifts his hand

"don't interupt me jimin" the man's voice sounds stern 

jimin steps back to  his spot and just stares at you, with worried eyes. 

your brows scrunch in confusion, asking why he's freaking out suddenly. both of you just stare at each other.  the man clears his throat, in the last meeting we talked about you guys moving into a dormitory together" your eyes snap at the man who was talking 

move into a dormitory?

what?

"y/n also noticed that you guys could use more practice, of course she humbled herself saying she herself can't even dance. but everything she mentioned I had already thought" clasping his hands together he smiles "if you guys live together, maybe traits from the other members can rub off on you too. i know you guys are friends since childhood but there are boundaries even in those terms. living together is like breaking down all does walls. completely vulnerable" 

wait hold the fuck up, jimin's moving? you're staring at jimin in disbelif, who's head is hung low. 

why didn't he tell you? your gonna stay home alone. with dad. 

wait and namjoon, he didn't say anything either. 

your head snaps to jungkook, who was looking at you with a stupid grin. 

he literally told you that it was only gonna get harder from here on. to think that from everyone that little bastard is the one that told you. 

"you all talked to your parents and it was all approved so by this weekend you should be moved in, remember the rules. no one can come to the dormitory except for jimin's sister since he insisted on making it his only condition" turning to look at you the man smiles "but i don't mind, she might be a good piece in making this work, her criticism is spot on and unbiased" 

"anyways, that's it for today. does who need to learn the next part meet me in the other room. everyone else has permission  to leave" 

you sat on the sofa in disbelief, jimin is gonna leave you all alone. 

"y/n" jimin says your name as he rushes over to you, kneeling in front of you "i'm sorry, i wanted to tell you myself but you left yesterday"

"jimin what the hell, you're leaving me in that house alone?"

"alone? dad's gonna be there"

"dad? seriously dad? he's never home and we were suppose to be together" crossing your arms you look away, clearly bothered. 

"come on don't be mad, this is the norm for trainees" 

"stop being a pain for your brother" jin walks up to the both of you, shaking his head. he whacks jimin's head "and you should've told her before she found out from someone else"

you stare at jin, stop being a pain?

a pain?

"don't fucking tel-" you were about to curse out jin but hobi jumps up 

"alright alright, everyone calm down" hobi speaks up 

"i hope you understand y/n, this is necessary" he gives you a sympathetic smile. 

getting up from the sofa, you grab your bag and walk out the double doors. ignoring jimin calling your name. 

you felt like crying

Dear Namjoon | 14

Pairing: kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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The ride back home was just filled with thoughts, I came here to be with jimin and dad. Now he's leaving to a dorm. And the worst part is that he didn't tell me about it? How are you suppose to stay home with someone who still has a hard time talking to you during breakfast?

stopping in front of a park you just sit in your car, not wanting to go home but also not knowing where to go. You didn't wanna talk to jimin right now and namjoon. He was with you yesterday and didn't say anything...your thoughts are interrupted when your phone rings and the man you were just thinking of just happens to be calling.

turning your phone on silent you wait till the call ends to call your dad.

"hey y/n, I'm at the office still. do you need something?" he says with urgency

"oh..no i just wanted to tell you i'm gonna stay with some friends tonight"

"alright, let me know when you get there" saying goodbye you both hang up the phone and you sit there..wondering...where the hell are you gonna go.

Meanwhile....

"what happened? " namjoon asks as he enters the dinning room where all the boys gathered after practice to talk about tomorrows plans. once he entered he found a frustrated jimin holding his phone up to his ear saying "pick up the damn phone"

hoseok had his hand on his shoulder, comforting him. looking around I don't see y/n, and I just knew what had happened. You probably left after you heard what happened. "y/n got mad about the whole dorm situation and stormed off" jin scoffs.

"it's my fault..I should've told her the moment they brought it up" he presses your number once more, the room was so silent everyone could hear the phone ringing but there was no answer.

tossing his phone on the table he slouches, as he folds his arms cursing out his little sister "I bet she ran off to her fucking boyfriend, cause I know damn well she's gonna be so dramatic and not go home"

You're wrong namjoon thought to himself as he looked at jimin, stepping out the dinning room he takes out his phone to see no messages from you. he dials your number but you don't answer him either, letting out a sigh he sits on the benches thinking of what to text you.

"HEY!" your greeted by a very excited and joyful voice as the door opens. You had no where to go, and well you don't have friends. so you contacted the one person you had maybe sorta kinda became friends with.....Eunsook.

"hey" you smile, she steps aside as you walk in.

"i was surprised when you called, where you with the guys before coming?" she spoke so quickly but you understood her. you couldn't help but stare at her for a bit.

"oh sorry...i'm just so curious...about them" she laughs awkwardly

"yeah, i was with my brother. he was practicing" you chuckle, she nods as she guides you upstairs after her parents greeted you.

standing in front of her door she turns to look at you

"i really really really need you to know that this behavior is not of a stalker" she says with pleading eyes as if she was begging you to understand her.

laughing at her reaction you couldn't help but tease "what do you have photos of my brother everywhere" and you wish you hadn't said anything. the moment she opened the door you see a good size of a frame hanged on the wall with a photo of her and jimin.

you just couldn't help yourself from laughing. her face was totally red, and she was ready to kick you out of the room "don't laugh" she squeals as she covers her face.

"oh this is amazing" you say as you catch your breath, wiping the tears from your eyes. stepping into the room you walk up to the photo and smile at how happy jimin looked

"that photo was taken at the talent show...I told them that I would be their fan no matter what..even tho they were just beginning to have the idea of being a idol group" you nod as she explains.

your phone then vibrates, looking at it you frown. It was namjoon again.

"your brother?"

"no..my boyfriend" you shrug as you shove the phone back into your pocket

"you're not gonna answer?" she was confused as to why you would ignore your boyfriend

"i'm mad at him"

"oh..." she sits on her bed "get revenge for him pissing you off" she smirks

"how?" you sit on her desk chair.

getting up her bed she walks to her closet, "tell me you got him on social media?" you says as she rummages in her closet

"yeah, why?"

"here it is" she grabs a black dress that would definitely be tight on my body. there's a slit on the stomach. the dip of the back of the dress was low.

"wear this" she tosses the dress towards me

"uh why" i pick up the dress, examining it

"we're gonna go to a party" she chuckles

"a party? i don't kno-"

"don't worry, you just follow me okay! I wasn't planning to go but let me ask some other friend if they are still going" she smiles as she picks of her phone after finding a blue two piece outfit for herself.

"do you really want me to wear your dress?" you ask, unsure if it was okay to wear her clothes.

"yes! now put it on" she points at the bathroom as she continues to talk on the phone

bad

this is bad

you've never gone to parties or other places without jimin. now that you were thinking about it, why are you even mad? you should've seen this coming, trainees...of course they have to stay in a dorm to dedicate their time to their debut.

you were sitting in the backseat of eunsook's purple convertible beetle. she picked up two of her other friends who you had seen in the clubroom.

"jimin's sister" one of the girls points out "you sure your brother won't get mad you're going to a party without him" she smiles as she talks to you

"i heard he's really protective" the one sitting in the passengers seat speaks up

"actually, he doesn't know..." both girls stared at you as they were surprised, they'd do anything to have jimin chasing them as he chases after you. "that's fine, who cares. we need time away from our brothers anyways" the girl next to you shrugged

getting to the party eunsook parks the car, turning to look at you. "alright time to post where you're at and have your boyfriend come after you" she had a mischievous look on her face

"oooh, her boyfriend?"

"yeah, he pissed her off. this is us getting him to notice what he might lose" you gulp at her words...I think i'll be the one losing more than him..

they all get out of the car as they keep trying to convince you to get out of the car. tired of them pulling on your arm you get out of the car, pushing down the dress that was hiking up your thighs

"girl you got a ass" one of them says making you blush as you shut the door "can we just go in"

it didn't take long for you to be immersed with the crowd. you did post some photos since they basically pushed you to do it, but you had blocked namjoon and jimin from seeing your story.

what you didn't expect was for them to be friends with mostly everyone here on social medias.

"aye jimin isn't this your sister" hoseok says as he shoves the phone in jimin's face. all the guys ended up staying at your house, after jimin insisting that he wanted to wait there and see if you got home.

"this idiot" jimin says as he sits up, snatching the phone from his hand. namjoon looks at jimin, confused.

"this idiot! can you believe she went to that party we were invited to" he gives hoseok the phone back as he gets up. "where are you going?" hoseok calls out

"to drag her ass back here, did you see what she's wearing? she doesn't buy shit like that! I bet it was her fucking boyfriend"

Why is he attacking me so much today, namjoon thought. getting up he walks to hoseok as he looks over his shoulder. his eyes almost popped out his sockets as he saw you in that dress. excusing himself to the bathroom he calls you about three times and you didn't answer which only pissed him off even more.

you were walking around, looking for the rest room when someone stopped you by placing their hand on your shoulder. turning around you notice it's someone from your first class.

what was his name again...

"hey" he says causally

"hi.." you smile awkwardly, he must be dense cause he didn't catch on at all. stepping to the side you cause for his hand to fall off your shoulder.

"you're jimin's sister right?"

"yeah" he nods, taking a sip from his red cup

"you alone?" shaking your head, you point at your friends. "ah i see.." he puts the cup down on the table in the hall next to a lamp as he eyes your curves making you feel uncomfortable

this was a bad idea...

"wanna dance?" he bites his bottom lip as he smiles

"No, I have a boyfriend" you say and turn to walk away but he grabs onto your waist "I don't see him" he whispers as he leans into your ear. "If you were mine, I wouldn't let you go out dressed like that without me" he chuckles as his gives your waist a small squeeze.

you stood there like an idiot, thinking of what to do. he pulls you closer against him, wrapping his arm around you. "let's go have fun, your boyfriend doesn't have to know" he drags the word boyfriend out as a way to intimidate me.

"I said No" you jab his stomach as you step forward once he lets go of you.

"y/n!" you hear a familiar voice yell your name, turning around you see eunsook pointing at the hall. oh did you wish you weren't wearing heels. coming towards you was a very angry jimin and right behind him was a pissed off namjoon.

"what the fuck" jimin snaps as he pulls you to the side, staring straight at the man who was holding you.

"so it's you huh" he pushes him back as he pokes his chest "your the fucking boyfriend" your eyes widen as you stare at jimin who completely misunderstood the situation, they must've seen him holding you...you glance at namjoon who was glaring at you but he kept staring at the guy more than you.

"jimin" you grab his arm pulling him back "he's not my boyfriend" jimin turns to look at you confused "then why the fuck were yo- was he touc-" he stood their staring at you

"just leave it, let's go" you pull his arm, and look at namjoon while whispering "it's not what it looks like.." you could see how his jaw was clenched as he looked at your outfit. jimin flicks off the man before stomping out as he yells at you to get your ass outside.

you stood next to namjoon as he stared at the boy "next time she says no, it means fucking no" your hands against his chest as you stand in front of him. "namjoon please" you whine as you try to push him back but he doesn't budge.

putting his hand on your lower back he guides you out of the house, no one really paid attention to you guys other than the ones who were close to where the whole commotion happened.

"namjoon, I have to tell euns-"

"if you don't shut up, i'm gonna tell jimin we're dating right here. right now so i can take you home and how you what happens when you let another man touch you" he grips your waist as he stands behind you .

opening the door you see hobi sitting on the passenger seat, while jimin is gonna drive. getting in the cramped car you are squished by namjoon's thighs as he gives you no personal space. you could see how angry he was, the veins on his neck were so defined that maybe in another situation it would be a turn on.

what am i saying

seeing him angry like this is a fucking turn on

"is this how you are gonna act every single time you don't get you way" jimin looks at you from the rear mirror, glaring at you.

he lectured you for so long, and you just realized how far this place was from home. "jimin, i said i was sorry" you sigh

"so if that wasn't your boyfriend, how do you think he's gonna feel when he sees you out without him"

glancing at namjoon as he was looking out the window with his arms crossed, i look back at jimin "he'll be really mad"

"i would hope so" jimin smacks his lips. he didn't talk to me at all after that instead he played music, not short after namjoon finally moved his thighs over and stopped pressing them against me.

I thought he had calmed down but just as I was looking out my window i feel him place his hand on my knee.

snapping my head to the right i look at him "namjoon" i whisper as i place my hand on his. he doesn't look at me but rather at my exposed thighs as the dress was a little bundled up from how i was sitting.

he began to dip his hand in between my thighs as he kept moving up. I pressed my legs together as I held onto his hand but it was no use. leaning towards me he whispers "i'm more than mad, sweetie" groping my thigh he pushes it to the side, making me spread my legs "you know you're mine. but yet you let everyone see you like that" you look at jimin nervous he would look back but he was focused on driving, hobi on the other hand was asleep.

"i'm sorry" i whisper, he rubs two fingers against my clothed heat making me bite my lower lip "that's not good enough, seeing you in that dress. made me wanna fuck you in the spot" he chuckles lowly as he pushes aside the underwear only to enter a digit into me. you gasp at the feeling, causing jimin to look back "what"

"n-nothing" you say as you smile at him, namjoon was looking out the window with a smirk on his lips as he enters another digit.

"spread those beautiful thighs for me, yeah?" he raises his brow as he asks you. and as if everything he would ask you, you'd grant. you spread your legs even more causing him to thrust his fingers into you. your heart beating against your chest as you look at jimin, making sure he doesn't look back.

"why were you throwing a tantrum huh" he whispers as he stops moving

"i-i wasn't" you manage to respond. he scoffs as he begins to move his finger again. leaning on the window you cover your mouth as you try to make it look like your looking outside.

he didn't stop thrusting his fingers into you, using his thumb to rub your clit. you were so close to your orgasm when he pulls his fingers out. causing you to whine at the feeling of emptiness.

"namjoon" you try to catch your breath

"we're here" jimin says bringing you back to the world where it wasn't just you and namjoon anymore.

"i'm fucking tired, let's sleep" hobi says as he gets out the car. your legs were shaking from almost reaching your high. everyone gets out the car as namjoon gives you his hand. the moment you stand you felt your knees weak.

looking at namjoon who closes the door of the car and looks at you with a smug look on his face. you roll your eyes at him as you walk behind jimin and hobi. walking up the steps you feel how close behind namjoon is.

"i want you..." you whisper only for him to hear, as he hears your desperation he chuckles "should've thought that before you went out like that" and with that he gropes your ass as he walks ahead of you entering the house after his younger friends.

frustrated you ignored everyone else who was in the living room and walked straight to your room. shutting your door rather loudly to make sure namjoon heard. you enter the bathroom and shower.

"remind me to not have daughters" jimin rubs his temple as he sits on the couch

"i think you'd be a great father" taehyung smiles

"i'm just sorry for whoever marries her" yoongi shakes his head as he eats another strawberry

They talked for another good hour before they all went to separate rooms, other slept in the same rooms but nonetheless they all went to sleep.

but unlike them, you couldn't sleep. you were still frustrated, horny for what namjoon had done in the car. you would go look for him, but you didn't know what room he was in or if he was even alone.

you had no other choice but to open your drawer and take out the one thing you thought you'd never use.

taking off your clothes, you remember how he looked at you earlier and how his fingers felt inside of you that it made you get a feeling in between your legs. your felt awkward, you had never touched yourself, this would be new.

you did the exact same thing namjoon did when he first used the vibrator on you, after turning it on you spread your legs placing it on your clit as you bite your bottom lip. wasting no time you stick it inside you. the moans that left your parted lips were soft

"fuck, i need more" tightly closing your eyes you begin to pinch your nipple "fuck this isn't the same"

you were so focused in not making noise you didn't notice the figure standing near the entrance, putting the level higher your arch your back just as you turn to look towards the entrance only to find namjoon standing there.

"you look sexy, keep going" he says as he licks his bottom lip. staring at your naked body laying on the bed.

"i..i don't know what to do" you say, not feeling half the pleasure he gives you. hearing him chuckle you feel even more aroused as you look at his face.

you could feel how your body was burning from wanting him to touch you, and he could see how frustrated you were. walking up to the bed he pulls his shirt off from over his head, tossing it onto the ground.

he pushes your knee to the side as he looks in between your legs "you're more than ready for me" he says as he undresses completely.

he fixes himself between your legs as he presses the vibrator deeper into you. "was my girlfriend that horny she couldn't wait for me to have fun?" he asks as he lifts his finger to his mouth, licking the juices.

"please" you whine, holding onto the string he pulls the vibrator out. tossing it to the other side of the bed "we don't need that" he smirks, lifting you up he sits you on his lap as he begins to suck on your erected nipples. "namjoon" you moan his name as he sticks his finger into you making a moan escape your mouth as you threw your head back

"shhh, babe. we don't want them to hear right?" he states before sucking on your skin.

"i cant anymore... i want you" you bite on your bottom lip embarrassed.

"what do you want" he says as he lays you on your stomach, making you clench on the sheets as he leaves kisses down your back

"you.."

"you already got me" he chuckles

"no..." you gasp as he sucks on your skin

"what do you want y/n" he says again

"i want you to fuck me" with that he lifts my ass up, and teases my entrance with the head of his fully erected cock.

"i want to fuck you raw so bad" he groans "but not right now, I don't think i'd stop after one round" he gives your ass a slap before rolling a condom down this length.

without any warning he thrusts into me, my head buried into the mattress more as i try to not make noise "fuck your so tight" he groans as he grips my waist. in a steady pace be begins to move his hips, leaving kisses and hickeys on my back.

with each second and each thrust he started getting rougher. I moved my hips along with his movements which caused him to growl as he thrusted harder into me.

"i shouldn't even give you what you want" he says as he hits my sweet spot making me a mess

"after pulling what you did today" he scoffs, "I should've fucked you raw" pulling out he thrusts into you in one swift move and hitting your sweet spot directly. not being able to stop yourself you were a mess as your moans were becoming louder.

wrapping his arms around your waist he lifts you up, your back against his chest as he turns your head. connecting your lips with his. "cum for me" he whispers softly with his raspy voice that only through you of edge even more. the arm that was wrapped around you goes down to your clit as he rubs his finger over it, stimulating you.

it was addicting, the slow burn you felt as the pleasure created this feeling in your stomach. he begins to kiss your neck as he you tilt your head to give him more space. your eyes were shut as you were in total bliss.

you focus on the soft moans that left his lips, the occasional times he'd call your name as if your name was treasure.

"this pussy is fucking mine" he thrusts upwards one last time as you walls clench around him right before you cum all over his cock.

"i'm not done yet" he says as he pulls out, making you straddle him "ride me" he says

this was your first time in this position, and you were so out of it. you clenched onto his shoulder as you head was against his chest "i-i can't move" you tell him

lifting your chin he kisses your passionately. holding your waist he begins to move your hips in a circular motion. "just let me finish" he grunts as he thrusts upwards, kissing you roughly.

he kept thrusting and thrusting into me until he he finally lets out a deep and long growl and moan of pleasure as he found his own high.

the moment he stops moving you fall onto him, weak.

your sweaty bodies against each other, your heart beats in rhyme. "that was amazing" you laugh

"i know....i needed this.." he grins

Dear Namjoon | 15

✧ Pairing: kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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It was the same routine. Go to school, see everyone in the morning but go home alone. Talking about home, being alone with dad wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. but I did miss jimin being around.

I didn't see jimin nor the boys as often as I did but when I was able to see them, I watched them practice, and I sure as hell knew I could never do half of what they do. very little times were namjoon and me able to sneak away and be alone together.

I would like to say we talked and caught up with each other but if we weren't making out we were pulling a quickie.

we went weeks without seeing each other. and the little calls we'd have every other day when he was going to sleep weren't enough. I'd always end the call making it short since I knew he was tired. plus he'll wait till jimin would stop talking to me on the phone.

"you guys clean up" jimin got up from his seat pulling the towel that was wrapped around his neck up to his face to wipe the sweat. "are you gonna come watch?" his tired face looks over at you as he opened the door to leave the small cramped room.

"i'll go home, you guys seem busy" you smile getting up to give him a hug.

"i'm all sweaty"

"who cares, I rarely see you" after hugging him you tease him by saying he stinks only for him to whack you with the towel as he laughed.

"namjoon you're gonna be at the studio right?" he swings the door as to fan himself as he watches namjoon just nod.

once you both were in the clear and alone you turn to look at the man who was exposing his broad shoulders as the thin shirt would expose his muscular chest. you clean up quickly not wanting to waste any time alone with him.

"how have you been" he massages his neck, as he stretches.

"i've been fine. you?" it's been three weeks since the last time you both were together. and just like him you were eager for more than just talk.

he shrugs before chuckling "i'm great now that i got to see you" getting up from the floor he grabs onto your arm gently as you both discreetly walk down a wide hallway.

"they gave me my own studio" he was excited and you could tell. pressing in his code on the door he ushered you inside. shutting the door he gave you no time before you felt his lips collide with yours as he pushed your body against the wall with his.

he pushed our bodies together as his hands gently held your waist. reaching for his face your fingers gently brushed his cheeks as you deepened the kiss.

"fuck, i've missed you" kissing you made him feel better, but he wasn't planning on stopping there. he needed his fill for the past weeks he hasn't seen you.

gripping her thighs he picks her up as she wraps her legs around him without stopping the passionate kiss. walking to the couch he places her down as if she could break if he was harsh, hovering over her.

she felt goosebumps with every touch, wanting more.

the sound of a knock makes both their bodies jump as they both turn to look at the door.

"namjoon?" yoongi calls out as he knocks again

"fuck" namjoon mutters before sitting up, pushing his hair back. getting off the couch he presses a button on his computer before walking over to the door as you quickly sit up fixing your appearance

"i want to show you this" yoongi lets himself in as he passes namjoon giving no attention to anything else, not you, not the music playing.

"i've been working on this since yest-" looking up he sees you siting on the couch and he raises his brow in confusion while turning to look at namjoon

"uh? what's she doing in here?"

"she wanted to look around" he shrugs as he sits on his chair. you stand up awkwardly glancing at namjoon before looking at yoongi "uh i'll go you guys seem busy"

you say your goodbyes before walking to the exit.

"wait" yoongi stops you before you leave, turning around you wondered if he can see how your eye twitched from how nervous you had gotten.

"you forgot something"

looking over to what he was pointing at your bag that had been tossed to the ground at some point through out the whole make out session.

you give him a smile before grabbing your bag and dashing out of there.

yoongi looks at namjoon with a questioning look only to receive a grin along with a shrug.

"what do you mean you can't send letters no more?"

"they said we couldn't do it and they didn't explain it ma- UGH I DON'T FUCKING KNOW" Eunsook yells as she throws the basket of stamps onto the ground. I came to look for eunsook, ever since the guys been leaving early i've been hanging out with their fans.

ironic right

"i'll talk to jimin, i bet there was a mistake"

you try to comfort her, but that has never been one of your best talents. you made sure to call jimin that afternoon and ask what was going on.

"just leave it, don't get involved"

????

"i'm asking because eunsook is upset"

"what did she expect, we aren't the same as before now theres rules and its more professional now"

"what the fuck jimin at least they could've explained it better"

"seriously y/n why is this even bothering you. just fucking leave it"

"why are you being such a grouchy bitch" you snap at him, not liking his attitude

"i'm fucking tired, and this conversation is stupid. all they said was that they would take care of everything. they'll still be able to send letters just that they can't control it like before"

"well couldn't have they fucking told her that"

"they fucking did, look can we just drop this conversation"

"actually why don't we hang up. you're tired"

"y/n seriously" he sighs, frustrated with you.

you hang up not giving him another chance to talk. he dials back but you ignore his call. namjoon called right after and the conversation with him wasn't any good either. just like jimin he told you to just leave it alone.

and you felt like you should leave it alone, it's not that serious and it doesn't concern you. but it pissed you off that eunsook was ignored when she called to ask for the reason why they couldn't send things until they had their shit together.

eunsook started a war between jimin and you.

"i don't know why you're in such a bitchy mood. go see your boyfriend or something" jimin snaps at you through the other line.

"look you little shit, it's not my fault you can't get the steps right in your damn choreography" you yell back.

jimin and you were arguing during his break, he had called you and for some reason a argument broke out.

"dude it's been a week" taehyung rolls his eyes as he watches jimin who's standing in front of the mirror as he spoke..no, more like yelled into the phone.

"they've been fighting for the dumbest shit" jungkook rubs his temples, done with both your  childish behavior.

jimin hangs up the call and walks over to the guys sitting right next to taehyung as he takes the bowl of grapes he was eating on his own.

"she can be so fucking annoying at times"

"why are you guys fighting anyways" hoseok speaks up

"she started it, i didn't even do shit. not my fault she hasn't gotten laid" he shoves two grapes into his chubby cheeks

namjoon found the whole situation amusing, both siblings kept talking shit about each other to namjoon and of course he didn't take side but he wanted to laugh cause honesty he just wanted to tell them they were both stupid and wrong.

"it's been a week since she's been here" jin steals a grape from the very upset jimin. they were all surprised that the brother who once adored his sister and wanted to be with her at every second plus never cursed at her or anything has completely turned around.

"she's a fucking child"

"he's so fucking full of himself" y/n throws her hands up showing how angry she was, eunsook had came over to the house. the two had become best friends, close enough to go over to each others house.

of course you made sure to keep jimin's room locked and not let her take photos of any family photos that were around the house.

thankfully eunsook wasn't a weirdo.

"i didn't take jimin as that type of person" her eyes widen in shock as you talked shit about your brother. letting out a frustrated sigh you shake your head "he's just being an asshole, he's not usually like that"

"they opened a youtube account and twitter" eunsook speaks up, trying to talk about something else but unfortunately it was still related to them.

Not much time passed before we made up, but now they were busier than ever. months were passing and the calls were getting shorter and less often.

Namjoon and me were becoming complete strangers.

"today's the big day" your dad packs the bags into the trunk. the boys had moved somewhere farther. and today was the day the world found out who BTS is.

you hadn't seen them for over three months and you didn't even receive calls anymore.

at first you were understanding, but now you felt different.

for some reason you just kept thinking about what jungkook told you that day. it made you tense up and feel nauseous, the anxiety of seeing namjoon today.

you were planning to stay with them over the weekend since dad was going to have to leave earlier.

to even say the least, the moment we arrived there was no chance to meet them. everyone was running everywhere and we were escorted to our seats right away. the moment came when the lights dimmed down and all the new groups came out to perform, and i realized something the moment BTS stepped out and got into place

The people on stage, I didn't know them.

the moment the music starte-

(A/N: OKAY I JUST LAUGHED AT THIS BECAUSE I REMEMBERED BTS FROM WHEN THEY DEBUTED AND I COULDN'T LMAOOO NAMJOONS HAIR. YALL REMEMBER WHEN THEY SANG NO MORE DREAM AGAIN IN 2017. YEAH THINK OF THAT..OK AND ALSO WTF AM I WRITING I REALLY DON'T LIKE THIS. I FEEL LIKE I'VE LOST MY TOUCHDIFWJNSPIGNWPGOM)

The crowd chanted their names along with other lines and you looked around feeling out of place. you have been around these boys before they were signed and you were the only one in this room who felt distant.

as jungkook stepped up towards the front, both of you made eye contact and he smirks (2:36- 2:40 in the 2017 bts dna comeback video.....i'ma go throw myself out my window i hate this hahaha)

switching spots with jimin who then lifts his shirt making everyone in the room scream you couldn't help but laugh knowing damn well he was screaming in the inside, dying because of what he just did.

just how the performance started it ended just as quick, the crowd never stopped chanting their names as you made it through the crowd trying to get to backstage with your dad. "here, you give them to jimin" he hands you a bouquet of flowers.

once they allowed you guys to enter their dressing room you are welcomed by jimin screaming your name as he runs up to you "what did you think" he gives you a huge smile as he clutches onto the water bottle in his hands.

"i loved it, especially the shirt lifting. everyone went nuts" you tease him as you hand over the flowers.

"shut up" he thanks you both.

looking at all the other guys who were standing around the screen watching their performance some looked devastated as if they didn't like it.

"you guys did great, i loved it and for sure everyone out there loved it too" you assure them.

there were interviews after their performance so you waited for them in their dressing room.

"did you watch it?" you tell your mom who was on the other end of the call

"yes, i loved it. tell jimin i'm proud of him"

"i will, they've been gone for a while" you glance at your watch.

the door then suddenly opens but to your surprise it was a women with a BTS crew shirt on, she came to tell you the guys had left just now and that there was another car waiting for you since your dad had to leave.

even though you are jimin sister they didn't want anyone at least for now to see you guys leaving together.

leaving through the back door was new to you. as you entered the car, a call came in from jimin.

but your toxic ass felt bitter and decided not to answer.

You kept thinking about jungkook's words.

they kept repeating in your head, how you could ruin everything.

as you sat among them who were celebrating the fact that they finally debuted your insides were twisting with anxiety.

Dear Namjoon | 16

✧ Pairing: kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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As his strong arms held onto me, we began to play the game we knew too well. As his lips touched mine making me yearn for more than these simple touches I knew that I had reached a point of no return. I wouldn't be able to push these feelings down, jungkook's words meant nothing to me because I wasn't willing to let him go. 

and just like me he wasn't capable of stopping himself either, kissing the smile that was only for me made me scream inside. 

stumbling onto the bed he pulls away to pull his shirt over his head, I took the chance to tell  my heart to get a grip. this wasn't the time to have sex, we needed to talk. but instead of doing that, I gawked at his chest. stared at his broad shoulders and muscular arms. 

reason was no longer here.  dangerous thoughts flooded my mind, traveling to the bottom of my stomach. when our eyes finally met I could see the same reckless thoughts were displayed on his face too. his hands travelled up my thigh as his fingers gently gazed on my exposed skin. 

these hands. a simple touch sent bolts of electricity up my legs straight to my lower belly, you needed him to touch you.

"relax" he could feel my body tense up. brushing his thumb on my thigh he gives me a sweet smile, his dimples put me in a daze each time. "do you have something to say? You've been quiet all afternoon as if something was bothering you?"

this was your chance to tell him you thought, you're lips parted but nothing came out. 

"babe, you can tell me. what's wrong?"

babe,  oh how every time he calls me that my body screams for him. 

"I'm not expecting anything from you today, I just wanted to help you calm down. you seemed stressed over something" his back straightened as he got off the bed "let me get you something for you to sleep in" and there it was. the urge. my body moving on it's own as I reached out for his hand only to gently touch it. 

our gazes meeting again his features were soft but filled with concern. getting on your knees you reached out placing your hands on the nape of his neck. pulling him towards you in attempt to bring him closer, he follows you, leaving our faces inches away from each other.

"don't leave" you whisper 

"tell me what's wrong"

"nothing" 

"then?"

"i just want..." bitting your bottom lip has him glancing at your lips before bringing his hand up to your lips brushing his thumb against your bottom lip "what do you want" 

your fingertips pull on the strands of his black locks as you whisper to him "you" 

"i didn't hear you" 

"i want you" 

"i'm already yours" he pulled me to him, holding onto my ass as he made his way back on the bed. without breaking the kiss or his hold on my body he pushes me down onto the bed and positions me exactly where i wanted to be, sending a twirl of pleasure onto every inch of my body as his hardness nestled between my thighs. the warmth of his hands radiated through the clothing of my dress. 

he wasted no time to rock against my burning heat breaking a whimper from my throat. pushing his hips into me his hands let go of my ass as he touches my breasts "does this feel good baby" he rasped 

you don't answer but rather arch your back making him grin. gazing his thumb against the fabric that covered my nipples. he felt as if he had to be easy on you today for some reason, stopping himself from shredding the dress of your body. 

but you wanted him to pull the dress off, you want his hands to touch you not  indirectly as he currently was.  "namjoon" you call his name and as if he read your mind he taps on your hips making you automatically lift them as he pulled your spring like dress up your thighs "sit up for me babe" doing as he said he unties the knot holding the straps behind your neck undone. with one swift move you were left with nothing but your lingerie. 

his fingers snuck underneath the lace fabric of your underwear as he fingers reach your wet folds making your legs weak at his touch. he'd press gently before rubbing his finger against you. my lips parted letting a moan escape. 

"if i slide my fingers inside your pussy, i'm going to loose control" 

"i want more" satisfied with your answer he chuckles. 

"alright" one of his fingers slid inside me in one swift motion, he kept thrusting inside. wasting no time to in adding a second finger. 

"fuck, i could feel your pussy gripping my fingers" he thrusted his fingers inside, fast, slow. moaning and whimpering senseless words mixed with his name as i came. 

touching his chest, i make my way down his torso. my fingertips memorized every inch of his body. reaching the button of his pants, i look up to find his gaze mixed with hunger and pleading look. wanting more of a reaction of of him, my fingertips brushed lower, feeling him thick and hot through he fabric of his pants. 

he grunted, pushing his hips up into my hand as his jaw clenched. as my hands unbutton his pants i freeze. 

this isn't why i asked him to meet me here, we were suppose to talk, looking up into his eyes i felt my inside twist with anxiety again. his soft caring eyes looked back at me, wondering what was wrong with me. holding onto my hands he places them on his chest

"do you feel that" 

"feel what.."

"my heart, it's beating so fucking loud for you" nodding i help him undress as he helped me

before tossing the jeans aside he reaches inside the back pocket where he had put a condom incase of anything. 

"no" you are shocked at how the words left your mouth

"what?"

"i'm on the pill, let's not use a...condom" you whisper the last part. 

"are you sure" you nod quickly 

putting the condom beside the pillow he looks over at you "just incase you change your mind" bringing his hand to his hard cock he gave himself one hard pump. 

"fuck, i don't know how i'm going to be able to take this slow" giving himself another rough and hard thrust with his fist. 

"then don't" you couldn't help it when your hand made it's way to your wet folds making him grunt at the sight of you touching yourself. before you both could continue touching yourself he decided to take control as he hovered over you his mouth devouring yours. positioned between your hips once more. 

"please" i breathed, pushing myself onto him. feeling his throbbing cock rub against me. placing a kiss on my breasts his hand grabs a hold of my waist as he aligns himself to my entrance finally entering me. one slow deep thrust made me loose my breath. 

"oh fuck" our foreheads against each other as i held onto his shoulders. I could feel everything, I could feel him without anything. a cry of pleasure leaving my throat as his hips rocked against me, only to retreat and thrust back into me, deeper, filling me completely. 

my nails marking  his back as he continued to thrust into me leaving me a mess as i call out his name in between the cry's of pleasure making him loose all restraint. as he thrusts into me another time harder than before my whole body moving up. 

"faster" you begged with tears in your eyes 

holding onto the headboard he thrusts into you once more, making your back arch. 

"i need you to make me yours" you cry out, breaking the thin thread of sanity he was holding onto. he lost all sense of rhythm, as he began to thrust into you harder, faster, deeper. letting go of the headboard he lifts your hips higher as thrusts into you deeper. 

wrapping my arms around his neck as he pulled me up i could feel my high near. lifting my hips, pressing me into him. the sound of our skins meeting and the noises that came out of his plum lips made me feel hotter. hornier. 

increasing the rhythm of my hips, he held onto my hips as he jerked me onto his cock. his hand making his way in between us, his fingers landing above the spot where we were connected. he began to rubbing and circling leaving me breathless as i come all over his cock. 

"fuck" his head falls back as he feels his high coming, the tightening of my walls around him. "y/n get off" he grunts as he lifts my hips only to have me push myself down again "y/n" he calls my name again "inside" you whimper

"but" his breath becoming heavier 

"please" you begin to kiss his neck, leaving him no time to think. as his hips continued to thrust upward, holding onto your waist as you pushed yourself into him each time. his face burrowed in my neck with parted lips. fingers digging into your waist as his hips came to a stop, you feel him shoot inside you as he growls into the nape of your neck. 

your sweaty bodies up against each other, you could feel the beating of your hearts against each other as you both tried to catch your breath. 

lifting your hips he pulls you off of him, letting the white liquid drip down between your thighs. something inside him twitched at the sight of you being filled by him. as you laid down he rubbed his throbbing head onto your folds as he smeared the liquid all around "fuck" he hissed as he felt himself getting hard again. 

getting on all fours, his eyes stare at you as you reach for his length only to push your self into him once more. "fucking ruin me please" pushing yourself into his hips behind you move in a circler motion. his hand resting on your lower back as he begins to thrust into you again. 

"namjoon"

"yes" his fingers caresses your naked back as you were pressed up against his chest. "are you happy" 

"yes?" he laughs "what's with the questions" 

"i meant are you happy here, doing music and all" 

"yes..why?" 

taking in a deep breath you sit up "i think we should break up..." bitting your inner cheek you stare at namjoon who's eyes widen.

"what?" sitting up he looks at you confused 

"we can't see each other as we used to and if jimin finds out it could ruin everything for you" you eyes teared up. his hand reaching up to your face as his thumb wipes your tears "y/n thats why i told you we should've told him" he lets out a frustrated sigh 

"don't worry about this shit, i'll talk to jimin don't worry about that" he pulls you into a hug as he holds you tightly "just don't ever say that again" 

"namjoon, we can't" pushing yourself away from him, you quickly get off the bed as you pick up your clothes getting dressed. "y/n, are you serious?" 

you stay silent as you toss your dress on tying the knot around your neck. "please" you feel his arms wrap around your waist as he pulls you onto his chest "y/n please don't" turning you around, as you stare into his eyes who just like yours were tearing up. you cup his face gently before kissing him. 

what felt like the most beautiful thing all the time became painful. trying to pull you back into the bed you don't let him as you get out of his grip. making your way towards the door you don't turn back as he calls your name. you hear him get off the bed only to quickly make your way out the room. 

"wake up" you shake jimin's arm. 

"why" he whines, slapping your hand away. 

"i'm going home, thats why asshole" you return the slap 

sitting up, half asleep "why? i thought you were staying during the promotion period" he yawns throwing the blanket off of him as he stands up 

"i got some things to do back home.." 

"alright, let me at least take you to the bus station" he gets his shirt from the chair putting it on. "why are you still wearing your dress? did you not sleep at all" he questions you as he picks up his phone to look at the time "bitch it's 5am, can't we just go to sleep. i'll take you once we wake up and that way you can say bye to everyone"

"no" you answer quickly, only making him more curious as to why you wanted to leave so fast 

"fine fine, give me a minute" he mumbles as he walks to the bathroom. your phone kept vibrating inside your purse, and you knew it was namjoon who kept calling ever since you left. 

"call me once you get home" jimin gives you a hug before you board the bus. 

Dear Namjoon | 17

✧ Pairing: kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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"why are you telling me this" jungkook pushes his way past taehyung who keeps blocking him as they make their way to the practice room. 

"stop pulling my leg, i know you know t-" he looks around before holding onto his shoulder pulling him closer to him as he whispers the next words "i know you know they are a thing" 

rolling his eyes he pushes taehyung's hand away walking to the board room as he opens the door as he gives taehyung a signal to go in. locking the door they both check if anyone is inside "fine hurry up, tell me what happened"

"okay, i was minding my own busines-"

"hard to believe" jungkook chuckles only to have taehyung glare at him as he crosses his arms "do you want me to tell you or not"

"i could care less, but go on"

"what ever then i'm leaving" he tries to push jungkook who was standing in front of the door but he didn't budge "i'm joking, go on"

"fine...i was talking to my dad on the phone when all i see is y/n leaving his room. and then namjoon came out shirtless calling out her name. i waited for a while before i made my way to my room which i was sharing with jimin and guess what"

"taehyung get to the point please, we're going to be late to practice" jungkook sighs frustrated with him for dragging his sentences out. 

"fine fine, i hear her telling jimin that she wanted to leave, jimin was telling her to wait till morning to say good bye but she said she didn't want to. she ended up leaving and guess what. he's been calling her all morning and she doesn't answer. he even asked to borrow my phone, cause well he knows i know and i asked him what happened and he said" he stops to catch his breath in a exaggerated way 

"he said what taehyung!"

"he said they broke up" 

"oh shit"

he nods as jungkook stands there in shock, he didn't think you'd break up with him. He is actually baffled with what taehyung told you. at first when he woke up he thought you had left cause you didn't want to deal with him or you maybe you two got into some fight. but breaking up? that was interesting...

"did she answer when he used your phone" 

"see the thi-" they both jolt as someone pulls on the door only to have them knock right after "taehyung, jungkook you both better not be sneaking something to eat in there. get out already" startled by namjoon both boys open the door slowly "we weren't eating" jungkook says as he steps out 

"even though that would've been a good idea" taehyung pouts. 

"you guys are late, i had to come get you. cause of the both of you we have to do a hour extra of practice" the two younger members stared at namjoon who wasn't looking his great, he was paler than usual and looked exhausted. 

"hyung, are you okay?" taehyung asks as he reaches out to poke his cheek only to have namjoon slap his hand away "i'm fine, i would be better if you guys would just be on time to practice. i'm the one getting in trouble cause of all of you. now lets go" 

"I arrived safely jimin, i told you to not worry" laying on your bed you received a call from jimin who was worried since you went back on your own. 

"are you going to tell me why you left so early" jimin continues to do his stretches as he talks on the phone. they were going to start but since the youngest members weren't there and namjoon had to go find them, he knew that it was gonna take long. might as well not waste time and call you. 

"i just had to come back...don't worry about it" 

"i know but you loo- damn he found them faster than i thought. i have to go. i'll call you back later" without giving you time to respond you heard the beep which ended the call. sitting up you find tissues all over your bed and on the floor, your nose stuffy from all the crying. you needed to clean and wash up before your dad found you in this state. 

you also had school. 

"you got it wrong again" the choreographer yells at namjoon who messed up steps again "what is wrong?" hobi turned to look at namjoon, annoyed. they have been going at this for hours and he's seemed out of focus since the starts it's putting everyone in a bad mood. the two younger members turned to look at each other aware of what's really going on they sympathize with namjoon. 

 "we're tired" jungkook steps up "how can you want us to do it right if we haven't had any breaks" taehyung follows the younger's lead. 

the choreographer sighs in annoyance as he looks up at the clock on the wall. "get here tomorrow at 7am sharp" turning to look at the bold boys who spoke up he points at them "and don't be late, or you'll do extra" taking his bag he marches out the room. everyone watching him as the double doors slam only for everyones body to fall to the ground as they laid on their backs catching their breath. 

"this is not what i signed up for" yoongi yells as he wipes the sweat off his face "namjoon get your head outta your ass what's with you today" the boys began to have a conversation as they laid in on the floor. 

"should we just stay here? I don't think I can move" jimin speaks up, reaching for the water bottle across from him. 

"no, we have to go to the dorm or we won't hear the end of it." jin speaks up 

"she broke up with me" namjoon mutters but everyone heard. 

everything went silent 

"what?" yoongi sits up, leaning against the mirror "who did?"

"my girlfriend idiot"

"don't get your panties in a twist, i was just asking" he flicks him off only to have namjoon chuckle. the rest of the members sit up and look at namjoon who stayed on the ground with his arm covering his eyes "i'm just having a shitty day and caused you guys to have one too" 

"we're a team aren't we. we do everything together" hoseok speaks up patting namjoon's thigh "who's the girl, you gonna tell us now?" jimin breaks the question some of them wanted to ask 

"no" 

"why no-"

"because..i can't" getting off the ground he doesn't bother gathering his things and just storms out the practice room. taehyung gets up, gathering both their things and chases after him. "who ever she is, what a bitchy move" yoongi says as he shakes his head.

"it was crazy" eunsook and the rest of the girls yell. they're rewatching the debut performance while talking about it, those who went of course. 

you had no where else to go so you stayed here and heard them go on about it for the whole hour. "what's with you? you don't look well. i thought you were staying with jimin and the boys longer"

"nah, I needed to come back you know" you lift the book that's suppose to read this semester, the book report was due soon "oh please if i was in your shoes i'd give zero fucks about homework" you roll your eyes as you hit her arm with the book...gently of course. 

"are you lonely now that jimin really is gone"

"yeah, dad's home a lot more but it's still awkward" you laugh remembering how he was acting in the morning "i feel like it's not even me anymore it's just him"

"it's not bad awkward, its just funny now"

You couldn't avoid jimin and the boys for too long. after their promotion time, jimin asked you to come over, you had no choice. it had been two weeks since you last saw him. 

"you saw the most weirdest things during interviews" you laugh at jimin who was hiding behind the pillow as they were playing their interviews on the t.v 

"it's what the public wants" he yells in his defense but everyone teased him about it. you thought it would be weird, being around namjoon but just like before he ignored you only saying hello and small things here and there. you did see taehyung and jungkook staring at you a lot more often and it creeped you out. 

but taehyung had the eyes of someone who wanted to tell you something, either way it freaked you out. going to the small fridge to get a bottle of water taehyung follows close behind "girl"

looking at him, he has his arms crossed and he didn't look happy

"boy" you answer sarcastically 

" why?"

"why what?" shutting the fridge you sigh "use full sentences will you" 

"why did you break up with him? and just when we had our debut" you could feel your heart in your throat as he had no care in the world if someone would hear him, pulling him to the other room you pinch his arm "why the fuck did you say it so loud"

"sorry" 

"i'm not gonna talk about this with you so lets go" sliding the door you gasp as you come face to face with the one person you wanted to avoid. 

"namjoon" you say as he eyes you, he inhales before clearing his throat  "can you move?" 

"oh..yeah" getting out of the way you see him saying goodbye to everyone. the way he treats you, you're grateful he didn't tell jimin but it leaves you a bitter taste. walking past you once more he mutters a goodbye without giving you a glance. 

no one cared to notice how the interactions between the both of you was any different. only two of them did. taehyung who was annoyed by the both of you. and jungkook who had a unreadable expression on his face. 

looking at jungkook you felt anger. you wanted to curse at him. Namjoon thought you were going to stay longer but he was wrong you wanted to leave the moment you got here. "i'm also going to leave, it's getting late" those two snotty brats kept staring at you. "i'm going home" you emphasize trying to get through  their thick ugly skulls

confused at your tone jimin gives you the side eye before giving you a hug "you sure you don't wanna stay? i can kick out taehyung" 

"hey!"

"no i should get home" you smile. 

you say goodbye quickly as you rush down the hall towards the dorms. trying to see if you could talk to namjoon even if it was for a little bit. you don't find him there, standing there dumbfounded you remember the studio he showed you before you two broke up. running up the stairs you make it to the floor, you find namjoon standing in front of the door entering his pin to the door. 

you call out his name at the end of the hallway. out of breath. looking up from the pin pad he looks at you and immediately his expression falls, turning into a frown. "what do you want y/n" 

hearing him call your name doesn't give you a euphoric feeling, you yearn for him to call you babe again anything but the way he says your name now. "can we please talk" you make your way in front of him. his stare makes your body burn, he's only inches from you but you couldn't hug him. 

"please we haven't talked since that nig-"

"because you left, you didn't even want to talk then. so why should we now" 

"please" your hand reaches out for his, only for him to push it away. frustrated he enters the last numbers to the pin pad opening the door "hurry up" 

entering the studio you notice nothing has changed, everything is the same since you last came. he pushes past you as he enters. sitting on the chair you look at the couch. 

the last time we came here we almost...you could feel your ears heat up. yes there was something else you also missed and wanted. 

"what did you want to say" his voice brings you back to reality as he stares at you, standing at the entrance. 

 His jaw was clenched his arms were crossed as he was leaned back against his chair, you could see how he was annoyed by you being in here.

"I'm sorry"

"no, don't start saying sorry and all that other shit" he rolls his eyes as he sits up "seriously y/n, you said we couldn't be together anymore. You said we should put distance between each other" he scoffs

"but yet here you are, trying to talk" he drags the last work out sarcastically. "I just don't want us to be on bad terms..namjoon you knew this could've happen-" you get startled as he stands up abruptly "no, I didn't ever imagine us breaking up. Unlike you I was ready to face the consequences of our relationship and I was ready to face jimin"

you both stare into each others eyes, namjoon begins to walk towards you. Holding your waist he pulls you closer to him, his hand caresses your cheek "but I could never make you do something you don't want" 

Dear Namjoon | 18

✧ Pairing: kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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How did we end up doing this again, you couldn't bring your thoughts to place as he kissed your lips. holding onto your waist as he makes you back up onto the couch. "we can't" you manage to say as he leaves a trail of kisses down your neck. 

"why not" he sucks on your skin making you bite down on your lower lip.

"you keep saying we can't but what I want to know is if you want to" he stops, staring into your eyes as he waits for a answer. 

lifting your lower half onto him he grinds against your heat. "tell me you want to" he caresses your thighs. his fingers traced his way to the hem of your shorts as he pulls them down with your panties. "hmmm tell me to stop" tossing them aside he hovers over you as he kisses your lips occasionally sucking on them one hand cupping your chest and his other carefully pushing his finger into your tight entrance. 

when a slight groan escaped your mouth he couldn't help it anymore and his pent up feelings were let out. undoing his pants he spreads her wetness with his fingers some more before grabbing her waist and aligning his member to her entrance, giving her no warning he thrusts into her covering her mouth with his lips to stop her from making any loud noise. 

"fuck, look how you take me so well" he groans as he thrusts his hips into you once more. he missed your lips, your body, your touch. he missed hearing your little moans leave your lips as you called his name. your pussy was throbbing for more as you unconsciously began to rock your hips forward making him. "y/n he slows down his pace giving you a slow burn as his hips thrusted into you "You won't ever get over me will you" 

there was this ego he felt. his pride was hurt by you not so long ago. a part of him wanted to hold you and say everything was going to be okay. another part wanted to fuck you senseless and leave you asking for more. 

pulling out of you, he feels satisfied as he hears you whine feeling the emptiness without him inside you. "y/n if you want it so badly, you'll have to do it yourself" sitting back on the couch he sits there staring at your naked figure in display for him. he was cocky, he wanted you to beg for it. 

you wanted him deep inside you, you wanted him to hold you and kiss you but you knew if you fell for his traps today it'll never end. next time you see him you'll fall for it again and end up in the same situation. 

but when it came to him. you had no common sense or self control at all.

sitting up as your pussy was dripping and throbbing for more. you straddle him, his hand resting on the sides you stared into his eyes. the smug look on his face made your insides twist with excitement. 

you grab onto his cock as you align it to your entrance. about to lower yourself on it, he stops you as he presses two fingers onto your clit making you let out a soft moan. "namjoon please" your voice would barely come out as he rubbed his fingers against your clit. letting them slip in as he teases you. "what do you want" he says as he slowly glides his fingers some more. 

he played the teasing game a little more before he pulled you down on to his hard cock himself. thrusting his hips upward as he helped guide your hips. you were a mess, physically and emotionally. you wanted to tell him everything that happened between you and jungkook in hopes for him to take you back. but you kept remembering how they looked on the stage and couldn't bring yourself to say anything.

"inside or out" he grunts as you bounce on his cock, your nipple in his mouth as he bites down, leaving marks everywhere. "doesn't matter"

he nods before pushing your body down on the sofa, after a few thrusts you both came together, the fluid leaking out from where you were both completely joined did not stop him. rather, his hand made its way to her clit as he thumbed her "i can't no more" you managed to say between your pleas

"did you forget, once isn't enough" rubbing the tip of his cock against my clit as he rubbed the juices against it as if he was painting he wastes no time to enter you again 

you began to cry out due to the intense stimulation but only suppressed sounds of yes and moans came out of you mouth. as he gripped your trembling thighs as he push you to your side he rammed into you as if to fill you completely. your leg hung over his shoulder as your other leg was pinned between his thigh and couch  

you had never experienced this position and it was driving you insane. he gave you no time to even think of anything but him as he pulls himself out completely before slamming back in hard. he kissed your lips swallowing your moans lowering your thigh he guides them to wrap around his waist. 

namjoon lifted your hips as his thrusts increased to an unthinkably rapid pace. pushing himself in as far as he could and hitting the deepest parts of your insides repeatedly. you came not shortly after but he kept going. you both stared at each other until you saw the look of satisfaction on namjoon's face as he pulled out once he completely emptied his load inside you. 

"fuck, that was something" he says, grabbing the tissue from the desk to clean himself before putting his soften dick in his pants. he turns to look at you as your chest rose and fell from you trying to catch your breathe "here" he says as he hands you a towel. 

oh..i know how we got to this you thought as you watch him sit on his desk, putting on the headphones and giving you his back. 

- earlier-

"but I could never make you do what you don't want" holding on to his hand you stare into his eyes "we can't date anymore..we can't do anything anymore" 

"then why do you keep looking at me like that" he says as he holds onto your waist "why do you keep giving me those eyes, asking me to touch you" 

"We can't date anymore, so we should do this" you try to push him away 

"date?" he scoffs "if dating is such a problem, then lets just deal with our needs" 

"what?" 

"don't fucking lie to yourself, I know you want me to fuck you" 

you get dressed, as you watch him playing on the keyboard as he continues to do what ever he was doing. ignoring you completely. 

you figured out what this meant. now you guys weren't going to be anything but each others relief. everything jimin told you about him made your stomach twist at the thought of him treating you that way he treated all the other girls. 

you tap on his shoulder, having him take off the headphones to turn to look at you. he smirks as he sees all the markings you couldn't cover with the little clothes you had on "better go before jimin sees you" 

"namjoon we didn't tal-"

"there's no need, i think we sorted our shit out already. we fucked and made up. next time you come i'll be here too so if you want it you know where i'll be."

"wait.."

"what? we both got needs right"

"namjoon are you planning to just go with someone el-"

"no that's why you're here right" you could feel how your eyes were burning at how you wanted to just cry. why was he acting this way. 

"why are you being such a bitch" you snap at him, getting off the chair he grabs steps in front of you "because i'm so close to calling jimin in here and telling him i fuck his little sister so we can get this shit over with and i can have you when ever i want" pushing past you he opens the door, looking down the hall he sees its clear. 

"you need to go before someone sees you" 

walking past him he gives your ass a firm slap before shutting the door after you glare at him.

leaning against the door namjoon sighs "fuck, why did i say those things"