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LAST CHRISTMAS — b.jc

— pairing: jacob bae x gn!reader

— genre: angst, bittersweet

— word count: 646

last christmas - wham!

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jacob hoped you were happy.

that was his first thought as he saw you across the hall, drink in hand and a stranger in tow. jacob might’ve recognised him if he thought hard enough, but he knew that might be too much for his heart to take. he was barely holding on watching the way said mystery man touched your waist, the way you leant into him, the way you looked at him with eyes so full of love.

he often wondered if you ever looked at him like that, and he was just too blinded by love to see it.

it was his fault he lost you. he should have been clearer, but he tiptoed around what he wanted to say and lost you all together.

“can i play you a song?” jacob had asked exactly a year ago, having escaped to the rooftop of the busy christmas party where his guitar had been waiting.

you had nodded, and jacob continued, confessing that the song was for someone special. the words were heartfelt and beautiful, a gentle confession without having to say a word. a song in which he confessed three years of unspoken feelings, where he told of stories in which you still manage to catch his eye in a crowded room of people – a song where he put his heart and soul out in the open for all to see.

except, before he had the chance to tell you it was all for you – that you were his special – you had stood up and given his shoulder a squeeze.

your voice trembled with something jacob couldn’t recognise when you spoke; either terror at his confession, or sadness at the thought his song might’ve been for someone else. jacob didn’t know then, and he never would.

“i’m sure they’ll love it.”

things had never been the same. jacob had never been particularly close with you, he wasn’t like the younghoon and hyunjae’s of the office, who you spent most of your waking time with. but he thought he was someone.

he was that someone who you always came to first when you had a problem. the someone whose stationery you shamelessly stole and never gave back, only to leave him a brand new package of pens with a little bow attached to them on his desk over a month later. he was the someone you always came to find whenever your boss, sangyeon, had put too much on your plate.

now, he was just your coworker.

after that, for whichever of the reasons it may be, you put distance between you and jacob. you’d steal younghoon’s stationery instead. you’d go to chanhee when you had a problem. and jacob only ever heard your name through the grapevine.

he knew it had hurt, but pushed those thoughts of heartbreak to the back of his mind in favour of burying himself in his work. it was only when the annual work christmas function came back around, the anniversary of when he had made that mistake, that he began to consider how he felt.

crazy enough, he thought it would hurt, seeing you. and it did momentarily, it stung deeply within his chest as he stared off in your direction instead of paying attention to his friends. it hurt even more when he saw the nature of your relationship with the man you had brought.

yet all those pains dwindled away when you caught his eye across the room for the first time in a year.

there was a soft, apologetic smile on your lips, a watery glow to your eyes as you lifted your free hand to give him the tiniest of waves – and that was the closure he needed.

all he ever wanted was your happiness, and if you had found it now, then maybe it was time for him to work on his own.

ೃ⁀➷ note: i thought of this approx. 20 minutes ago so if it seems rushed. yes it is but also i Had to write it the second i thought of it

5 down, 6 to go!!

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SILENT NIGHT — k.sw

— pairing: sunwoo x gn!reader

— summary: christmas brings the realisation that sunwoo is perfect for you

— genre: fluff

— word count: 530

silent night - bing crosby

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watching the way sunwoo fit into your little family was what confirmed you had made the right choice in bringing him into your life.

from helping your mother with setting the table for christmas eve dinner, to engaging with your father in football discussions, he seemed to find the perfect place amongst your family. everyone was just as taken with him as you were. your older siblings praised his good manners (albeit your boyfriend was on his best behaviour), and your father even magically resisted giving him the take care of my child lecture. there was a relaxing air to sunwoo that put everyone at ease, and it was clear to your family why you had chosen to introduce him to your routine.

your youngest nephew was particularly taken with him, and that was the final confirmation you needed that sunwoo was perfect.

whilst all your nieces and nephews had loved meeting the newest addition to your life, the youngest of the group had spent half of the night hanging over sunwoo’s shoulder. he mimicked the way he spoke, the dialect that slipped into his speech whenever in a particularly passionate conversation. he asked to sit next to sunwoo at the dinner table (which you couldn’t say no to, happily giving your seat next to your boyfriend up tp the young boy). and even as the night came to a close, he found a way to stay by sunwoo’s side through the chaos.

now, the youngest members of your family were all asleep around the room, a christmas film playing in the background. you chanced a glance around your family, grinning at your sister and her husband cuddling on the sofa, but it was sunwoo who caught your eye.

you could see his hand moving steadily, the boy sat on the opposite side of the room to you, eyes transfixed on the movie. once you allowed your own eyes to focus on the scene, you could make out the figure of your nephew, fast asleep with his head in sunwoo’s lap, and the movement that alerted your attention was your boyfriend carding his fingers through the young boy’s hair.

a smile crept on to your face, and a strange sort of peacefulness washed over you. despite the many heartbreaks you had gone through, you had finally found that person who simply made you happy. there wasn’t anything out of the ordinary about your relationship – you just simply loved each other unconditionally. there weren’t any terms and conditions to the way that you loved, and you couldn’t be happier with simplicity.

as though sensing your attention was on him, sunwoo looked over in your direction. despite the distance between the two of you, you somehow didn’t feel lonely. if anything, the smile that lit up his face once he caught your gaze was enough to spread more warmth than ever before through your body.

you couldn’t help it as he looked at you, mouthing a thank you in his direction, receiving a confused what for? in response. and so you told him honestly, head tilted to one side as you observed how gentle he was with your nephew.

‘for loving me’

ೃ⁀➷ note: this is very rushed and really not my best at all but i wanted to get a drabble up whilst i’m working on some more plot-heavy additions to this series:) i am working on a. much better sunwoo story currently so that’ll come in the new year ajdjsja

it’ll definitely be continuing after christmas - oops! 5 to go:)

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