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Erik is a housewife
Christine finds Erik in her closet dedicatedly hemming and mending her dresses/clothes. She likes the idea, but ... what about her undergarments?!!
Big ty to Executive Producer @night-unfurls-its-splendour who helped me w the historical undergarments situation 🙏
Yknow, I really wonder what mort the chicken is? Might as well find a rom and see what the fuss was abou...
I understand everything
Is this really the hill you want to go out on?
Girl, you are not calling me "not normal" with femcel in your bio 🤣🫵
at least I'm not a tranny lol 💞
Happy birthday to one of my favorite kind of training. #P20 made 1 year at #jardinsdaparede. #is so great to be part of it. Is so #challenging and #joyfull. Have you already tried? Come to #vivafitjardinsdaparede and schedule one crazy training. #personal20 #personaltrainer #trainingday #trainingday #happybirthday #vivafit #gym #gymlife #gymaddicted (at Personal20 Jardins da Parede)
People love spark I wonder why?....*smirks*
top 3 real people who scare the crap out of me
1) Abraham Lincoln. He just has a nightmarishly scary picture. In other pictures, he doesn't look like an alien who came to take over the earth. Maybe his main picture is his first picture, and then he was already imbued with democracy and decided to make people's lives better by becoming president.
2) Barack Obama, Elizabeth 2 and other people who are considered reptiloids. The trolls have done their job, now I can't look at them any other way.
3) Eminem's voice when he sings for Slim Shady. By the way, I always thought Eminem was supposed to be the ultimate 90s twink, but something went wrong.
snufkin “Petty Theft Is Fine But I Cross The Line At The Fuck Word”
still in the lobby
it's 7 minutes past 1am and i will write until my laptop dies. it's at 9% now...
the past hour having been very disappointing and retraumatising is such a shame because i actually had a rather nice day today. i wasn't very productive really but i did two things i enjoyed:
i first met js. for the first time. and then i spontanously went for a bike ride afterwards.
i know js. through bumble as well. he is 29, tall, has brown messy hair, striking hazel eyes that i am too shy to look at too often and wears rather vintage glasses. he works as a medical supply distributor currently which he chose after having been a paralegal for some years. he told me he intentionally chose a job that is more physically challenging rather than mentally in order to use his mental capacities for writing and exploring his passions. he moved back with his mother a few months ago when he made that change in his life. she also works for the hospital and owns this big house in that nice area that also is. lives in.
my first message to him was how he reminded me of ian curtis to which he replied that somebody had said this before. and yes actually, he very much is like how i would imagine ian curtis to have been like. he is very calm, very thoughtful, attentive and quiet. which i think i really like. from the way he texts one can tell writing is his hobby, he chooses his words carefully and knows how to express himself. observing that (before even knowing it was his hobby actually) i was very excited to meet him today.
we had arranged to meet at this café/bakery i go to frequently that reminded me of the european ones, he had never been though. he was a bit late and i waited outside for him beginning to worry about having been stood up again (or there having been miscommunication). when he arrived i turned around and i directly looked him into his beautiful eyes. i was shook and shy. he excused for being late and we went inside. we ordered cappucino to which he kindly invited me. we sat down at the table, me siting exactly where i had spotted that one professor i adore a week earlier.
the first part of our conversation was about what had made me come to this city and unfortunately i had to already then tell him all the background of my messy story, though i tried to be as brief but as transparent as possible. but yeah, we talked about all kinds of things, but i could also tell that he does not talk too much, and least not as much as i do. i had excused for that and for being a bit hyperactive because i had had three coffees already, but i think he liked getting to know me. eventually we went on a walk all through that very nice neighbourhood me talking 70% of the time, him talking 20% of it and 10% of it was just us walking.
generally i am rather put off when i feel as if i have to entertain somebody, especially if i realise the person just does not have that much to offer. but with him it was a bit different. i did feel as if i he wasn't too knowledgable or passionate, but i could also tell that he is still a deep and kind person who maybe is just not as bubbly as i am.
looking back i do feel bad for having talked much, but i just panicked a lot, fearing the akwardness with him. normally i wouldn't care about that at all, but there was a huge (positive!) tension between us that i just wanted to distract from in any possible way.
we eventually reached my bike again that was parked outside the bakery. he told me that he enjoyed himself and how he'd love to see me again.
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i went home, got changed into my sport cloths and went on a ride on that trail i had recently discovered. i enjoyed being out in nature, listening to music, working out and thinking about that date i just had. in total my ride turned out to be 15 miles long, i would have went for a longer one if it wasn't dark already.
unfortunately something bad happened as well: on the way back riding a curve downhill i slipped on ice and fell off the bike. i fell on my face and the left part of my body. for some moment i was so shook and hurt that i lied there. trying to get up i realised that i actually hurt myself quite a bit. i touched my face and my hand was bloody. i thought my whole left side was bleading as well but when i got home i realised that all there was was that little wound on my face and tomorrow probably some bruises. i was lucky! and learned my lesson having to be more careful... especially since i am not insured here!
well anyway, the rest of the evening is history as i have just written about it in the last post. rather i try to fantasise about the next time meeting js., which he already have made plans for: friday after he finishes work we will go for drinks. i love his way of communicating openly and directly. when he got home he promptly reassured me how he had enjoyed and how we should meet again soon, sharing all his availabilities with me. [my laptop is at 3%...]
between 3rd and 14th of march i will live in a very beautiful apartment alone, where i will be dogsitting. already now i like to imagine him living there with me for that time, us pretending to be living together, spending our every day lives together and just enjoying that very delusional and short time of pretention. i mean, i won't be here for long, so why not make the best out of it?
it is certain we get along and from my past experiences with men i am now quite certain that most of the times it happens exactly the way i initially hoped it would go. every guy i fancied in the past i "got". not neccessary into a relationship, but with everybody of them i had good times. so will we have a good time. maybe we will go for a road trip to somewhre or a weekend trip to nyc, that would be cool. he is a good man and i am looking forward to friday.
i feel like pretentious and delusional flings like this one are what keeps me going currently. after realising, or rather having to accept, that y. does not want to be in a relationship with me my last pieces of naivety and actual hope broke. i will not wait for any true love right at least now. i will enjoy myself with the people i meet, will get to know movies, new music, new places with them. make memories and have good conversations. in the end i will be alone but that will be fine. i will have to learn to cope with this.
So I’m two episodes into Leverage, and I’m kind of living for all the double-plays and corrupt businessmen getting screwed over, but man, do I have to not think too hard about how plausible this all is. Pulling up to a hospital with several million dollars in cash in the back of a truck, revealing it to one nurse and her patients and having them all gently bump shoulders and laugh, before simply strolling off? If someone showed me several million in cash and said I could have it, I think I’d throw up.
I’m a sucker for criminals with a heart of gold going on campy missions and uncovering corruption and becoming found family though. And there are 5 seasons, plenty of time for shit to hit the fan…..
(to phantom)
oh whelp we do have the same pfp 😭
that’s silly lol
but AKDJDJSJ crystallized is like honestly one of my fav ninjago seasons
….am i like the only ninjago fan who genuinely likes crystallized and thought it was great for lloyd’s character arc…?
