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Some very important things to consider at 4 in the morning #1
1) *can you imagine nothing?* a) ok so... as far as I am concerned our universe (if it exists) is limitless. It has fucking borders. b) we don't know but we suppose that the number of universes varies from 0 to infinity. (Yeah, not a big deal right?) c)if we consider this scenario: There is one (or in fact any finite number more or equal to one) universe and it has its boundaries. Can you imagine this nothingness beyond the boundaries. No... wait... it gets worse. There is no beyond cause boundaries are the limits and then there is nothing. Can you imagine how this nothing looks? Like no cause it is nothing and it doesn't look like anything. Neither it is a black void nor a white limitless space. It is nothing.
i don't know if it's the narcissistic part of me responsible for my protagonist complex, but i consider everything i have to say as something very important to say (even though, deep down, i know... it's not), and equally important to be heard. it feels like i'm always about to say something magnificent, achieve excellence, but even when i can feel it at my fingertips, when i know i'm close enough to having an epiphany about life or discovering something huge about myself, it disappears. i'm always stuck in place, lost in my own mediocrity, licking my wounds and comforting myself with the thought that i could be more if i wanted to -- if i tried harder, if i raised my hand higher, if i had a little more strength. it turns out i don't, and i'm not magnificent either. most of the things i have to say have been said, in more beautiful and fuller ways, long before i even existed. the world seems to be complete. it feels like im just another one, even if i want to wrap myself in the thought that i'm different, that im something more