Sorry To Vent.. - Tumblr Posts
@anonyippee
I had a dream today that madi was back , we all went on mag, like we always did and drew together again .. I drew Emci you drew gnarpy.. I forgot what madi drew :(
and we chatted and chatted
but then I woke up
I miss madi..
I miss talking to you
I hope we can talk on mag soon
Atleast you are not gone ki
Sorry to my moots who have no idea what this means
yeah guys *grinning my teeth* it’s fine *locking my fears in* i don’t care hahahaha *tearing up* go without me it’s fine !!!!!!
oh no ! a victim of childhood neglect is acting childish !!!
its funny bc every man in my life was either a bully, an sexual harasser or my abusive mentally stunted dad !!! so yeah, i lowkey need male validation and need them to find me pretty bc otherwise i fear for my safety. and you think well but sa. to that i say, im sorry im more afraid of isolation
starts feeling good about my body:
my mom the very next HOUR : well you’re ruining it and pay SO MUCH MONEY
eating disorders be like : im afraid this will kill me and im afraid i would let it
it’s insane that i think me being a problem or a bothersome or doing anything wrong ever should be like punishable by death ?