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Promise Me Forever
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Prompt - 'Promises were a dangerous thing, they were thrown around carelessly, broken easily but he swore he would never break his, not when it meant you would stop smiling up at him like that, like he was the only person in the whole galaxy.’
Whenever Poe was away you always felt some level of anxiety in the pit of your stomach. Some days it was manageable, if he was only gone for a day or two you were fine, there wasn’t enough time to worry too much, but on missions like this, missions were nobody was able to give you a time limit for how long he’d be gone, those were the days your anxiety was at its worse.
You and Poe had been friends long before confessing your feelings to one another, you’d had a long time to adjust to him being gone for missions in that time and yet you never quite got used to watching him leave and worrying about when he’d return…if he’d return.
You always knew when you watched his X-wing leave that there was a chance something could happen to him, a chance that he might not come home to you and you tried, you tried so hard to ignore the thought, to block it out until you were in his arms again. On missions like this though, missions where he had been gone for ten days now, you couldn’t push the thought away, no matter how much you tried, no matter how much extra work you took on, it was always there, lurking in your mind.
There had been no word from the squadron sent out either, none of them had contacted the base with updates and the silence only made you worry even more. You tried to convince yourself he was fine, you knew he was talented, knew it would take much more than this mission to knock Poe down and yet once the work was done for the day and you found yourself alone in your shared bed, one of his shirts covering your body and your face buried in his pillow, you couldn’t stop picturing every bad thing that could have happened to him.
When two more days passed without a word from him you feared the worst. Twelve days of radio silence from the entire squadron wasn’t normal, sure, sometimes it took them a day or two to send a message back home but in the entire time you’d been a member of the Resistance you couldn’t remember a time it had taken this long to communicate with a team and people at the base were trying, every hour of every day, to form some sort of contact with the squadron only to hear nothing back.
Whereas you had taken to working as much as possible in the first few days of Poe being gone, now you couldn’t focus on anything other than the overwhelming fear that you wouldn’t see Poe again, wouldn’t get to feel how safe Poe’s arms felt around you, how grounding the feeling was after worrying about him for days.
“He’ll be fine.” A voice said from behind you, causing you to jump and look away from the window.
Leia was watching you, a comforting but sympathetic smile on her face. You tried to force your own smile but couldn’t find the strength too, instead you found yourself holding back a sudden oncoming of tears. Despite the fact you had worked directly under her for a long time now you still couldn’t let yourself cry in front of her.
“Trust me,” she said, a look in her eyes that would have had you believing anything she said. Leia always seemed to know if something was wrong, there had been times where a squadron had been attacked, some members hurt or killed, and she always seemed to know. “He’ll be home before you know it.”
As always seemed to be the case Leia was right.
Fourteen days of the squadron being gone you had finally, finally, received a message from them. They had ran into trouble with members of the First Order, two members had been killed but the rest were ok, a little bruised and beaten but they were ok, they were alive and heading home.
Upon hearing the message, hearing Poe’s voice, you felt your knees give way and had to grip the table tightly in order to stay upright. Your eyes fell shut in relief as you felt a weight fall from your shoulders, though not all of it, you knew it wouldn’t be gone completely until you had Poe back in your arms.
It took a day for the squadron to return but once it was announced that they were landing, you pushed away from the work in front of you, spared one pleading look towards Leia who smiled and gestured for you to go and took off running towards the hangar.
Poe was already climbing out of the cockpit and off the X-wing, his eyes automatically scanning the room for you and he couldn’t stop the smile that spread across his face as he saw you run into the room. He was making his way towards you before your eyes had found him but he saw the moment you spotted him, your whole body seemed to tense up, tears filled your eyes before you met him halfway.
You practically crashed into Poe’s arms, the man having to take a few steps back in order to make sure the two of you stayed upright, but he didn’t hesitate to wrap his arms around you tightly, burying his face into your hair as he held you close. He could feel how tightly you were holding him, his jacket gripped in your fingers as you rested your cheek against his chest, eyes closed in a desperate attempt to stop the tears that welled in your eyes but you still felt them trickle down your cheeks anyway.
The two of you stood there for a long time, no words being said between the two of you, the pair of you just needing to hold the other. Poe needed the comforting feel of you in his arms after being away for so long, after the mission resulted in the loss of two members of his squadron and you needed to feel Poe, needed to hear the steady beat of his heart against your ear, assuring yourself that he was here, he was ok, he was home.
Eventually the two of you pulled apart from each other, not going far, Poe kept his arms circled around you but you pulled yours back so that you could cup his head in your hand. Poe brought his forehead down to rest softly against yours, finally letting one hand leave your waist so he could brush away the tears on your cheek, smiling softly at you as he did.
“You’re ok?” You asked him softly, so softly he would have missed it if he wasn’t standing so close to you.
Poe nodded against your forehead causing your head to move with him and a smile pulled at your lips in what felt like the first time in days and he couldn’t help himself, he leaned down and pressed your lips together.
At first it was nothing more than a soft brushing of your lips, could barely be called a kiss, and he pulled away but you chased his lips, pressing yours back against his in the complete opposite style he had.
The kiss you placed against his lips was desperate, it was messy and you let every bit of fear you’d felt over the past two weeks, every bit of relief you felt now that he was back seep into the kiss. Poe kissed back just as passionately, kissed you back just as wildly, letting you know that he had missed you, letting you know how much he needed you, how seeing you after this mission was exactly what he needed.
Your hands slid up into his hair, gripping the locks between your fingers and Poe’s hand that rested on your cheek seemed to try and draw you in closer to him, impossibly closer, and his arm around your waist tightened as if he could hold you in that moment forever.
The two of you remained completely oblivious to the others that were in the hangar, politely averting their gazes though smiles spread across their faces at the reunion. With how stressful things had been getting lately it was nice to have these moments on the base, moments of love and happiness rather than fear and uncertainty.
Eventually the need for air overcame the pair of you and you both pulled away, again only going far enough so that your foreheads knocked together gently, the two of you panting for air as Poe’s thumb traced your swollen bottom lip.
“I missed you so much, baby.” Poe murmured and you nodded, letting out a laugh that sounded more like a sob causing Poe to lean forward and press a gentle peck to your lips.
“I missed you too,” you told him, swallowing around the lump in your throat, playing with the curls in between your fingers, “I was so scared when you didn’t-”
“Hey, it’s ok, I’m here, I’m ok,” Poe said when you stopped mid-sentence, thoughts of what if’s assaulting your mind, “I’m right here, baby, I’m not leaving you.” He promised and you felt yourself nodding, hoping to anyone that would listen that he was able to keep it.
You were about to speak again when you were interrupted by something crashing into your legs and you looked down to see BB-8 spinning in circles, beeping wildly and you couldn’t help but laugh, leaning into Poe’s chest as you did, Poe looking down at you and smiling himself.
He had missed you so much and as he watched you crouch down and wrap your arms around BB-8, the droid happily beeping, telling you how much he had missed you and you telling him you’d missed him too, Poe couldn’t ignore the way his heart seemed to speed up and a warmth spread through his entire body.
He loved you so much. The only thing that got him through some of his missions, who was he kidding it got him through all of his missions, was the fact that he knew you were going to be here when he got back, knew you were going to be in the hangar waiting for him.
He watched as you smiled up at him from your position on the floor, BB-8 still pressing himself into your arms and he couldn’t help but pull you up, couldn’t stop himself from leading through the hallways until you got back to your room, ready to forget the mission, forgot the tension that seemed to loom over the whole base and instead focus on you.
As the two of you lay in bed, hours later with you asleep on his chest, Poe couldn’t stop his hand coming up, his fingers finding the silver band attached to a chain that lay around his neck and he swore in that moment he would do everything he could to keep his promise to you, he would never leave you.