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Started crocheting. Graduated college. Moved to a new state. Starting all over for the millionth time :)
Twin Flame
I used to think I was cursed in love, destined for relationships that burned bright and then fizzled out, leaving behind only ashes of disappointment. Three engagements, one marriage, countless relationships that promised the world but delivered heartache instead. Each time, I poured my heart into the hope that this time, this person, would be the one.
But they never were.
After my divorce, I took a long, hard look at myself. I realized I had been searching for something undefined, something deeper than mere compatibility or passion. I stumbled upon the concept of twin flames — souls destined to mirror each other and grow together in a profound spiritual connection. It resonated with me in a way nothing else had. Maybe, just maybe, that was my type.
So, I decided to stop searching. No more dating apps, no more blind dates arranged by well-meaning friends. Instead, I focused on myself. I traveled solo to places I'd always dreamed of visiting, rediscovered hobbies that had fallen by the wayside, and nurtured friendships that had taken a backseat to romance.
Then he came back into my life, unexpectedly, as if the universe had finally decided the time was right. He was everything I hadn't known I needed — intelligent, compassionate, with a soul that seemed to understand mine without words. Our connection was undeniable, but I was cautious. I kept him at arm's length, wary of repeating past mistakes.
This time he respected my boundaries, patient and understanding. He didn't push, but he didn't pull away either. Instead, he showed me through his actions that he was willing to do the work, to mend what he had broken.
And so, I let him in, little by little. I learned to trust again, not just in him, but in the universe that had led me to this moment of clarity. Together, we navigated the complexities of our connection, recognizing the challenges but accepting the growth they offered.
In him, I found not just a partner, but a true twin flame — a soul whose journey intertwined with mine in ways I could never have imagined during those lonely nights of soul-searching. And as we walked hand in hand into the future, I knew that all the heartache and confusion had led me exactly where I was meant to be — in the arms of someone who understood the depth of my soul, because his mirrored mine in ways that only twin flames can.
Do you ever feel like burning down your whole life?
Lately I can’t imagine exisiting as myself anymore and so it’s time to reinvent myself again.
Said goodbye to my insta, privated my tik tok… it’s time to not be perceived by all these people and just exist as who I want to be.
Wish it wasn’t so lonely.