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i wanna talk about friends with benefits and then of that turning into like an actual relationship (ive been reading a story with it so i wanna talk about this. not gonna mention the story because im kind of worried there's gonna be something dubious idk i havent finished it yet but theres a person working on it whose done a different work with some very .. um . worse than dubious things SO)

like. i dont really know what ppls general thoughts on it are but i feel like i potentially might be understanding of the side that doesnt get as much attention?

like. okay. so. like friends with benefits, and then one person pops the question of dating and the other.. has some sort of negative reaction. or like, didnt even expect it

and like. i understand it being like bUT sO and SO because its the main pairing and obviously they're gonna get together, right?

but so. i as a person can empathize with the one who gets asked the question

because its like. like i can understand their shock? with the question coming out of nowhere, right? cause its like, even if there are all these hints or anything that could be signaling 'hey, this person probably likes you', why would they think about it when its emphasized over and over again that they're 'just friends'. friends. friends. friends. and like if they start to develop feelings then its like, either not realizing, denial, or circling back to them just being 'friends'

so then insert any manner of negative reaction here

and i feel like they're valid because it just comes out outta nowhere. i mean dont get me wrong the person being possibly rejected's hurt is valid too cause it takes a lot to pop the question and take that next step

but its also like.

so story time

theres this person whose pronouns i dont know (i know they changed to opposite pronouns at one point but i have no idea if they stuck to it or if its changed again so they/them to be safe)

but so like. me and them were like really close friends, right? like we talked to each other everyday and it was like we were siblings, and we treated each other like siblings (it sounds weird in text. but its like. yknow how you call people like sis or bro to someone you're close to but not necessarily related? or like. like yknow how theres hyung and oppa and noona in korean which can be used to refer to a sibling but it can also be used to refer to people not related to you but are probably close to???)

then out of the blue they confessed to me and im just like. what??? and i rejected them but so i was caught completely off guard. if there were any signs beforehand i was completely blind to them

but its like. i never saw them that way, but then it was like i realized that there could be something?? like i started thinking about it in our interactions later and could probably see us getting together. its just that before it hadnt occurred to me so it felt like i didnt feel anything of that nature for them

but that once i realized that it could and had time to think over it, that i couldve felt something. like idk maybe i was speedrunning getting a crush or maybe its just this thing that was growing in the background that i didnt notice until then

anyway me and them didnt get together but so thats why i kinda feel more for the person being asked it out of nowhere (for them i mean) in stories

(yknow what? this might be why when watching like the full moon episode on helluva boss i defended blitzo first instead of the general reaction of defend stolas, defend blitzo later on rewatch/reflection)

like i mean if the reaction is really bad then oof i feel bad for the person asking it

but im more understanding of the other needing time to think it over, to rethink interactions with that person in that kind of 'could i love them' light

like cause idk at the time it could feel like they dont feel anything. but then they think of it with, i guess those kind of rose-colored glasses, interacting with them with it and thinking that maybe they could like that person like that, right?

i hope im making sense. i cant be sure.

cause like. i understand that it can be a little hard to handle because its like. doing the deed is usually seen as like something between lovers, right? you're being really intimate and kinda vulnerable with someone and so thats what its usually associated with. so it kinda feels like how can they not be in love, right?

so i just kinda hope that my explanation made even a little bit of sense

anyway im gonna get back to reading (im only 1/3 of the way through fshuifs)