Tr!chara - Tumblr Posts

!TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, sexual abuse, self-hate, threats, mentions of murder, mentions of genocide!

*I feel trapped

i hate my life i hate my body

i hate that there's no way out i hate that my brother isn't my brother and my real brother is dead because of me i hate this world i hate the light i hate that I can't even tell the truth of who i am without fear of jugement i hate how much looking at flowers hurts i hate that my soul is no longer the same i hate that cosplay isn't fun anymore i hate that Toby Fox feels more like a parent to me than this life's parents, because i am scared to hurt people i hate that i can't take myself seriously i hate when people makes jokes about opening dark fountains, not knowing the things it triggers i hate that I'm demonized for mass genocide that was out of my control i hate the looks people give me for simply existing

i hate that look adults give me when I say I don't like being touched i hate that no one takes it seriously i hate when people yell at me and expect me to act like nothing happened i hate when people get so annoyed about my names, expecting me to choose just one for other people's convenience i hate humanity but most of all, I hate my cannon's Kris. fuck you dude, you're the reason Ralsei killed himself. you deserve to suffer in the world-ending event you and you alone caused, you knew what you were doing, you had full control. did you even think about all the people you killed, the people you turned to stone? i'm glad you were controlled, and I feel bad for the Player for having to lay eyes in such a shitty person like you. you deserve to be human. Ralsei wouldn't have jumped if you had just been a little more understanding and I can say that with confidence. you shitty, sexual abusing murderer. those memories of what you did haunt me. you make me sick. you'll pay for what you did to us. -Chara/Susie/Ralsei/Lancer/TR!Chara/Queen/Cat/Clover/Lyra/Kattane/The Collector/Vessel