Venting In The Tags - Tumblr Posts

No but I'm serious this place is a nightmare /neg Venting in the tags humor me for a second. you go to this uni and they promise you a place that will teach you how to become an artist on both like. morality and skill level. they feed you with bullshit for MONTHS. “oh mistakes are fine! they make you grow!” or “oh this is a community we work all together there are no discriminations this is a safe place to learn and improve” and we like. work on this projects - THAT WE ARE NOT PAID TO WORK FOR SO *WE* GET TO PAY FOR ALL THE MATERIALS AND SHIT FOR THEM. to like “help the community” or whatevrr because “artists are born to inspire others and bring joy” and blah blah blah. BUT. LIKE. THE THING THE THING IS. NONE OF THESE PROJECTS WILL END UP ON OUR CURRICULUMS. WHAT WE WORK 6-7 YEARS FOR ARE NOT SEEN AS REAL EXPERIENCES. AS IF WE'VE DONE LITERALLY NOTHING FOR 6-7 YEARS. AND LIKE. THE PROFESSORS ARE SO RACIST AND DISCRIMINATORY AS WELL. If they don't like you they WON'T EVEN GIVE YOU THE EXAM. BECAUSE THERE'S NO WAY TO DEMONSTRATE IF YOU WORKED OR NOT. IT'S UP TO THEM. THEY DECIDE EVERYTHING FOR EVERYONE AS IF WE ARE SOME SORT OF FUCKING COMMUNIST KINDA BULLSHIT WORKERS. Someone fucks up? *WE* FUCK UP AND EVERYONE PAYS. Someone succeeds? *WE* SUCCEED AND EVERYONE GETS THE CREDITS. THIS IS ALSO WHY NONE OF THE WORKS WE DO END UP IN OUT CURRICULUM BECAUSE ITS MADE SO THAT *THE UNIVERSITY COURSE* DID IT AND NOT *US*. IT'S FUCKING BULLSHIT AND I CAN'T EVEN GET OUT OF THERE BECAUSE IF I DO MY PARENTS WILL KICK ME OUT CUZ THEY DON'T WANT ME TO BE AN ARTIST So I'm trying to STUDY for the exams and the “professors” are getting mad at me that I'm not staying 10 HOURS IN THAT MOTHERFUCKING ART LAB. WORKING AT THEIR NONSENSE PROJECTS THAT WILL NOT END UP IN MY CURRICULUM. “Oh if you're not willing to put all your efforts for the course this is not the place for you” BITCH I *AM* PUTTING ALL MY EFFORTS! THIS EXAM IS *LITERALLY* PART OF THE COURSE!! WHAT KIND OF FUCKING BULLSHIT ARGUMENT IS THAT!!!!! Istg I'm gonna cry I want to kms /NOT SERIOUS I'm gonna cook dinner. chug my lemon beer. and try to study like a normal person and beg this shit will end soon Don't worry I'm not going to become an alcoholic I just need something. anything and I'm ABSOLUTELY not gonna start smoking I hate it /srs tw alchohol mention alcohol mention tw smoking mention smoking mention vent tw vent // mike speaks

castlevania castlevania games text post idk how to word any of this but man how does anyone stay motivated to do things I am constantly stressed out for multiple reasons money reasons responsibility reasons heck even looking up Castlevania stresses me out rn especially rn oof and then on top of that I have executive disfunction sensory issues low energy random pain etc etc and being expected to do things on a deadline worsens all of this reasons why I hate instagram ugh I also get really bad like decision paralysis and rejection issues and aaaaa and usually all of these things cause art block too like everything is stacked against me perfectly in a way that makes me look lazy and spoiled!!! I hate it so much man how does anyone do it like how??? how do people just do things I’m too easily exhausted hahaha seriously worried I won’t be able to support myselfd Venting in the tags i guess???