Weird Feeling - Tumblr Posts
Think I might have a slight "manic" episode upcoming.. or whatever to call it. I feel funny. Like a vibration inside my body.
For science I will write this now and see if I'm right or wrong about it. Might just be the anxiety making me crawl..
"Is it normal that I hate having friends? Even good friends? Is there something wrong with me?
Let me explain...I get very sick of routine in general and I hate structure/security/predictability in life. I hate waking up in the same house, going to the same job, the same school, seeing the same people, having the same family and friends...I hate it. I feel like a robot. I change friends constantly because I hate having them. I like getting to know lots of different people but I don't like having actual friends or relationships. Once I get to know you, you're not interesting to me anymore and I'm done with you.
I also change myself constantly. I get bored of being the same person. I'm a free spirit, I want to be a new person every day and be around people who don't know me and I can be anything and anyone around them because I have no known past and no reputation. I hate when people know things about me or my past, it's constricting. I hate when people expect me to act a certain way. I like to be around people who have no expectations for me so I can be ANYONE I want. I want to be FREE. Is this wrong? Is it normal? Everybody I've ever told this to things I'm crazy. Most people seem to have a need for a secure, stable life with some sort of routine and commitment. Oh, and I don't want to get married or have children because I can't be tied down to anyone." - unknown