I’m not sick
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A-3x - Elliot - Tumblr Blog
I’ve ate so much today omg.
I had like 3 bags eorth of chips. (Small bags)
1 1/2 of a granola bar.
And some orange gatorade for band class today.
My total that I tracked was 710 for now.
I’ve lost 5 pounds this week. If I gain any I’m gonna die. I might not weigh myself tomorrow because I’ve drank a lot of water so there’s probably a good amount of water weight.
That's sooooo crazy babe
praying for a skinny girl fall
i need more discipline, praying isn't actually gona give me what i want.
Would you like 30 extra pounds with that?
the disordered urge to drop to an alarmingly low weight before halloween to have a more accurate skeleton costume.
call me a method actor.
Don't eat foods that make you scared to step on the scale ୨୧
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Yall. The guy I had a situation ship I dropped in like a day. He disappointed me. He’s a man whore.
Told my mom I have DID. Went well
Kinda wanna od rn. I miss the high it gave me. Plus I’m reminiscing and I’m not v happy about it cuz it’s abt an ex. Sooo
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I knew I was sick when i almost fought my brother over a strawberry cuz I wouldn’t know the total calories anymore
100 reasons to ⭐️ve
1. to be told you're too sk1nny
2. for the attention
3. to be easy to be picked up
4. for people to finally start being worried about you
5. for the dizziness
6. for ppl to offer you help with everything
7. to be in control
8. to finally have that flat stomach
9. to be the sk1nn1est in the room
10. to have a big thigh gap
11. for those defined collarbones
12. for a tiny bmi
13. to be able to count your r1bs
14. to be terribly underwe1ght
15. to feel comfortable in your body
16. to be able to fit your hands around your th1gh
17. to be the sk1nny friend
18. to make them all jealous
19. to look cute in borrowed clothes
20. to have tiny wrists
21. to be someone's thnsp0
22. to be pretty
23. to have a tiny waist
24. to look fragile
25. to have a story to tell
26. to be better than them.
27. to be smaller than that one girl thin you keep seeing everywhere
28. to become proud of yourself
29. for the pictures
30. to be feminine
31. to be masculine
32. to be androgynous
33. to look like a doll
34. for those tiny boobs
35. to look like a ghost
40. to be cute
41. to look good in anything, even lazy outfits
42. to fit any aesthetic
43. for people to ask if you're okay
44. for people to stare at you
45. for confidence
46. not to feel guilty about eating a cookie knowing it won't make you gain
47. for people to be surprised by how much you can eat despite your size
48. to eventually eat whatever you want
49. to feel light
50. to 𝘣𝘦 light
51. to feel thin
52. to be yourself
53. to need help
54. to get help when you ask for it
55. for people to want to protect you
56. to be told your legs are thin
57. to be told your arms are sk1nny
58. to be told your stomach is pretty
59. to be told someone wishes they looked like you
60. to stop being sk1nny-fat
61. to have a cute tiny butt
62. to have to make more holes in belts
63. to be sick
64. to have to visit doctors often (and skip work/school)
65. to be attractive
66. for people to fall in love with you
67. to be adorable
68. for people to subconsciously like you more
69. for everyone to want to be friends with you since you're so pretty
70. to learn discipline
71. to faint in front of people
72. to break hearts
73. to be that one sk1nny person
74. for everyone to know your name
75. for people to tell you you could be a model
76. to be the creation of your own
77. to make memories
78. for wooden floor not to creak when you step on it
79. to look small even in loose clothing
80. for people to feel bad for you
81. for everyone to be sorry when you feel bad
82. to fit everywhere
83. to have the best hiding spots in hide and seek
84. to travel comfortably
85. to fit everywhere
86. to bruise easily
87. to make chairs look big
88. to be weaker
89. for people to be afraid they'll hurt you
90. to make everyone feel big next to you
91. to make everything look big
92. to be the main character
93. for people to want you to sit in their lap
94. to be told you're b0ney when in someone's lap
95. to flaunt how little you we1gh
96. for people to wonder how you could reach such a low we1ght
97. for people to ask you for wl tips
98. to start liking exercise/walking more
99. to make eating less a good, lasting habit
100. to finally be happy.
that's it . thanks everyone , follow me 4 more !
disappeared for a couple days but im back
heres the
New Plan
i bought a scale yesterday so i could weigh myself wo going through my mom first so this will make it easier for me to keep track of my weight
i must weigh myself EVERY morning after using the bathroom, with no clothes. if the weight has gone up i must fast for the next 24 hours
no calories for breakfast. only 0 cal drinks allowed. for lunch i can have a snack, idc what it is as long as its a SNACK, not a meal
for dinner i can eat whatever i want, this way i can avoid binging and satisfy my cravings while keeping my calories low
on my days off, i will work out for at least 30 minutes. idc what i do, dancing, walking, running, but i will spend 30 consecutive minutes burning calories
if i break any of these rules without approval for the next 30 days, i must either: sh (i dont want to do this anymore + ill be kicked out if i do so it helps me stick to my goals), be forced to leave my job (i love my job and i obviously dont want to quit) or no longer do any homework and slack on my schoolwork (dont want to fail my jr year of high school)
i also have rewards for all the lbs coming off. 130lbs: get my feet done. 125lbs: new perfume set. 120lbs: new jewelry and piercings. 115lbs: tattoo. 110lbs: new bikinis. <105lbs: $500 clothing shopping spree
to be approved to not follow one or more of these rules for the next 30 days, you must be approved by going through a checklist (see below). you must meet at least 1 of the requirements to be approved for a “cheat day”
by posting this to tumblr, i am electronically signing and agreeing to stick to this plan and all of the rules that come with it. if this contract is broken, i will have to pay $500 to anyone who likes this post (given that i have a way of paying)

cheat day checklist
🔳 weight has plateaued for 3 or more days
🔳 have an important exam or test tmrw (2 days)
🔳 need a break for your mental health
🔳 parents are forcing you to eat
note: this is just for me, please do not follow this, especially if you think it would be bad for your mental health. only posting here to hold myself accountable
block dont report
Good afternoon Charles
this is charles. Charles is a skeleton. Charles is dead. He is also my thinspo. Be like charles.
“Good morning charles” we all say in unison
how do i uninstall Severe Childhood Trauma
HAHAHAH I AM MY OWN TARGET AUDIENCE IM SO. FUNNY
Shout out to the systems who have "bad" alters. Shout out to the systems who have "undesirable" alters. Shout out to the systems who have alters with morbid or dark interests. Shout out to the systems who have introjects based on bad people - real or fictional. Shout out to systems who have alters who make it unsafe for them to front.
I don't know who else needs to hear this, but living as a system, as a collective, instead of a singular identity is not anti-recovery. It's not a crime to be open about such an intrinsic, undeniable part of yourself.
Having Resolution [functional multiplicity/plurality] as an end goal is not anti-recovery. Recovery is not the same for everyone, and to assume that it is the same is to be close-minded.
It is not anti-recovery to want system friends or system partners. Or have them, for that matter. I see a lot of unusual people on r/fdc say that wanting system friends or partners is anti-recovery. It's not. You can want friends who are systems- aka those who will fully understand your unique struggles as a system.
Living functionally as a system is not being ''half healed''. Whoever made up that notion is kind of??? questionable at best. You can have worked through trauma recovery and still have functional multiplicity/plurality as a goal or have reached that point of being functional.
Maybe little unconventional things that helped me lose weight
- Chew your food thoroughly: Chewing each bite thoroughly can aid in digestion and help you feel full faster, reducing the likelihood of overeating.
- Drink cold water: Drinking cold water can slightly increase your metabolism as your body works to warm it up, burning a few extra calories in the process.
- Use smaller plates and utensils: Eating from smaller plates and using smaller utensils can trick your brain into thinking you're consuming more food, leading to reduced portion sizes and calorie intake.
- Stand more: Spending more time standing rather than sitting throughout the day can help burn additional calories and improve overall metabolism.
- Laugh more: Laughter not only reduces stress but also engages your abdominal muscles, burning a small number of calories with each chuckle.
- Brush your teeth after meals: Brushing your teeth immediately after eating can serve as a signal to your brain that mealtime is over, reducing the temptation to snack unnecessarily.
- Sip on green tea: Green tea contains compounds that may boost metabolism and promote fat burning, making it a beneficial beverage choice for weight loss.
- Practice mindful eating: Paying close attention to the taste, texture, and sensations of each bite can enhance satisfaction and prevent mindless overeating.
- Spicy foods: Spicy foods containing capsaicin can temporarily increase metabolism and suppress appetite, aiding in weight loss efforts.
- Get quality sleep: Prioritize getting enough high-quality sleep, as inadequate sleep can disrupt hormones that regulate appetite and lead to weight gain.
Is it normal for me to randomly and briefly to see a bunch of people in my head. Like I have a bunch of atla fictives and some from other things and i didn’t even know about.
I was lining up something earlier and I said our hosts deadname which is also another alters name and i realized that they weren’t fronting. I have no idea who I am rn.
[Text: This system has a lot of alters the host isn't allowed to know about.]
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*maladaptive daydreaming: a mental health issue that causes a person to lose themselves in complex daydreams. these daydreams are usually a coping mechanism for other mental health conditions or adverse circumstances.
bonus question: how does maladaptive daydreaming affect your alters/innerworld/system as a whole? have you ever daydreamed *about* your system? - amaranth.