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Do you ever just have those days where your autism has had like a double shot espresso and is on its absolute highest amount of shit so you are like stimming but in double time and your special interest is now like overlord interest

I feel

Do you ever feel like you have millions of needles poking into your skin?

Do you ever feel like you have burrs embedded in your flesh?

Do you ever feel like your blood has stopped circulating, even though you know you are perfectly healthy?

Do you ever feel like your brain is going too fast for your body to be able to catch up?

Do you ever feel like you might not be entirely alive?

And there you have it, folks!

Is. Is making eye contact a thing people actually DO? So, what, do neurotypicals just stare each other in the eyes when they talk to each other? And they say we’re the weird ones.

Me: Making eye contact with you is a sign of aggression and disrespect, and a challenge to your supposed authority. If I don’t make eye contact it means I respect you, I like you, and/or I respect your authority. Lack of eye contact is a good thing.

Also me: Making eye contact is SUPER intimate. You can almost always see my emotions in our eyes, and you can also usually see signs of our systemhood. If I don’t trust you completely, I will never make eye contact. Lack of eye contact means I don’t trust you.

“Neurotypicals”: You’re a liar, you’re an untrustworthy b!tch, and I don’t want anything to do with you because you won’t make eye contact. 😒

~Kabiel

(he/they/xey; protector, soother)

The most terrible thing is when you're a skinny person with binge eating disorder. Everyone will be proud of you for eating, be amazed at how much you can eat. "Wow, where does it all go?" "I wish I could eat as much as you and still be skinny." "It's fine, because you're not fat! You don't have a problem with food! You need to eat more anyway!" And they'll never know how it FEELS, to eat and eat and you can't stop and you don't even WANT to eat but it's an obsession, an addiction, it's taken over your life and you can't stop, you can't stop, but you still have to go to dance tomorrow and wear a leotard and your last binge won't have been digested and pooped out yet so you'll still look huge and you'll be constipated and everyone will be staring at you thinking why is her stomach so large and when is someone going TO NOTICE THAT I HAVE A PROBLEM I NEED HELP PLEASE HELP ME

But you're skinny, so you're fine.

TW!! Eating Disorder

Binge Eating Disorder isn’t talked about enough, or isn’t taken seriously enough.

To someone who isn’t educated about it, it just seems like they have a big appetite, but it’s more than that.

It’s the shame in knowing there are hidden wrappers in your room.

It’s eating more and more, feeling obligated to finish what you were eating, and feeling guilty later.

It’s feeling so insecure about your body, feeling too chubby, glaring at your love handles and cellulite, and eating to make yourself feel better.

It’s doctor visits where they tell you to eat healthier, eat fiber, so you add that to what you already eat.

It’s you telling yourself, “it’s okay. I’ll eat less tomorrow.” And wishing those wretched numbers on the scale would go down.

It’s watching your friends say “I’m not hungry” with a smile, while you sit with your stomach empty and smile “me neither” and yet when they leave you eat until you might throw up.

People say “ you should eat more!” When they find out you have an eating disorder, and “ that can’t be that bad.” When it’s binge eating disorder.

Binge eating disorder is serious, and often it’s only the people going through it that realize that.

Spread awareness about binge eating disorder.

you’re not alone