I Didnt Get To Grow Up With My Birth Parents In My Life, Because Of Them I Have Lived Through Thirty

I didn’t get to grow up with my birth parents in my life, because of them I have lived through thirty one years of my life with abandonment issues. Searching for love and acceptance, settling for just anything that felt like love.. I look back on all of the relationships that I have been in and I feel so embarrassed to have allowed such toxicity in my life. I long for someone to come and save me, only to realize that I don’t need to be doing that anymore, I have myself to be proud of, I need to pour LOVE into this beautiful human being who is ENOUGH. I am WORTHY!!!!!!

Anyone who is struggling with the fact that you don’t feel important enough to be loved and appreciated, I’m here to tell you that you are!!!!!!

My new small town is beautiful!!! I’m LOVING this fresh start in my life. Beyond blessed and grateful 🙏🫶🤩

My grandma has been battling cancer for some time now.. She made a huge decision to be put on hospice, that started Friday. It’s absolutely horrifying to know that you are now in your last days of life.. 😭💔😭

God brought you into my life at the age of 12, I haven’t always been the easiest granddaughter, consistency was challenging for me, abandonment issues caused me to withdraw myself from just about anyone. Involving myself with the wrong people which led me to live life on certain expectations cause of my own choices.

You helped with open hands, a caring heart, love you poured into every single one of us. Speaking advice into ears that needed it, being the worlds greatest grandma to us kids! Importantly, while leaving a toxic relationship my daughter gained having the best gee-gee in her life!!!!!! She adores you!!!! She feels everything so deeply so this right now is affecting her so much… 💔

I pray for peace, I pray for strength, I pray for no more pain in your life grandma!!!!!!

A PRECIOUS human my family & I LOVE dearly, is once again being ripped away from us by this evil sickness cancer! It’s not fair, watching someone so close to you slowly dying is terrifying. It makes you question everything, mixed emotions & not enough words to be said that we can say to save those we care about…

Pray for my family at this time. Cherish your time with your loved ones, hug them extra tightly for a moment. You never know what life has in store for each one of us. Embrace the love that comes to us, appreciate the people who have been there all along. Life flashes before our eyes, without a trace of hope or fear of the unknown.

I finally accepted that I need to be by myself and just heal....

I crave INTIMACY desperately, but when I’m touched I pull myself away. It’s been so long since I’ve been able to allow anyone in my life.. I am triggered when I am hugged, kissed, admired by others and yet I disagree with them all.