Cirrus Clounds In The Sky

Cirrus clounds in the sky

Like a horses maine in the wind

Still as my hair streatched out on the dock

Endless cirrus clouds in the sky

God painted forever light blue, cream, pink

What if life were as soft as the heavens?

The water keeps on moving and rocking

Such is the nature of life

The lake as deep as the unknown

Inhaling the moment

The sweet humid air

And watch the unstill clouds

Stay perfectly still

My baby girl, Miss Kitty!

Why Krita is Awesome: A Collection of Reasons Why This Program is Worth Taking a Look At

Krita is a painting program that has been around for a while, and in the last few years, underwent major changes and improvements.  Because of these improvements, many artists are using it not just because it is free, but because it offers amazing features.  These are by no means all of the great things Krita has to offer, but simply some of my favorite features of the program.

1. The Brush Engines.

Yes, engines.  As in plural.  There are many.  And they all do different things.  There is no way you could possibly capture all of its possibilities with one screen shot, but here are just some of the possibilities. Along side standard round, square, and shape, and textured brushes, there are brushes that smear, blend, and create interesting abstract strokes.  There are brushes for filters, and one of my favorites, the Experiment Brush, which is basically a pre-filled lasso tool. 

Brushes also support weighted smoothing, or brush stabilizers.

This is incredibly useful for line art.  And while I do not usually use this feature, it is something that I feel many programs are lacking, such as Photoshop.

But its brushes aren’t the only thing about Krita with variety.

2. Color Selector Customization. 

Whether you prefer something basic, or something more complicated, Krita will likely have what youre looking for.  You are not likely to find yourself missing your other program’s color wheels.  There are even more options than this, and other color selectors.

Gotta love that customization.

Krita also has some great naviation tools.

3. On the fly rotation, zoom, and brush sizing.

With krita, zooming, rotating, and brush size scaling are all smooth, and dynamic with the use of hot keys.  These are features I miss when in other programs.  To zoom, Ctrl+Middle mouse button, hover over the screen to zoom in and out.  The same with shift rotates (press the ‘5’ key to reset rotation).  Holding down shift and draging your brush on the canvas dynamically changes its size, allowing you to see the change, and get the exact size you want without brackets. Brackets also work, if that’s what you are used to.  Krita also has highly customizable hot keys.

4. The Pop Up Pallet

The pop up pallet is a set of your 10 favorite brushes (which you can edit), and a built in color wheel that appears when you right click on the canvas.  It is incredibly useful for switching between those few brushes that you use in almost every picture.

5.  Real time, seamless tiles creation.

Pressing the W key in Krita will infinitely tile your canvas, and allow you to work real time on simple to complex tiled images.  You can zoom in and out to see how your tiles work form a distance, and paint freely to create seamless artwork easily, without having to check using filters and manually tiling. Very usefull for patterns, backgrounds, and games.

6. The Symmetry Tool

This one goes without saying, Krita supports both horizontal and vertical symmetry, along with a brush that is capable of radial symmtry with as many directions as you like.

Go nuts, kid.

There are many more reasons why this program is awesome.  And it is only going to get more awesome.  And the coolest thing about it, is that it is 100% free.  So go check it out!  There’s nothing to lose. Krita isn’t for everyone, it can be hard to get the hang of, and it is not meant for photo editing, it is a program completely focused on digital painting from start to finish. 

Give it a go and see if Krita is the program for you.

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A Fucking Rant

feel free to disagree. I just needed to scream into the void lol.

I hate inspirational videos and assemblies. No matter how good your intentions are, they make me want to crash and burn. Giving me a 7 step list on how to succeed activates every self-sabatouring, society-hating nerve in my body. Trying to inspire me without my asking awakens a special kind of frustration that dreams of quitting.

It reminds me of public school, and I mean that in the most insulting way possible.

Tell me I have to want to succeed, and see how much I don't. Sorry, but I'm a stubborn bitch. And if I say anything to anyone, I don't get taken seriously.

Tonight, I was going to do all my homework. I had to talk myself into it. And it was going to work. But now I'm crying.

Because honestly, any shitpost on Tumblr is more inspiring than an inspiring speech. Because it doesn't remind me of the system that is the source of half my mental issues. It doesn't tell me that my value lies in what I produce and how I please society. It makes me laugh. It makes me hit like and/or reblog and send a notification to the poster in return.

Despite how far I've gotten in school, I am not a "successful person ". I graduated high school with a two year degree because I did things my way and because I was loved. Any time I succeeded was when I didn't want to follow any personal plan, I just talked myself into doing it. I know what my mental blocks are. There tough to overcome, but I can do it. The thing is I HAVE TO DO IT, because nobody else really knows how to handle them, or how fragile my motivation is.

Actually paying attention to tonight's motivational speech was a mistake. Perhaps next time I'll draw while pretending to take notes, hoping to tune it out. Maybe I'll pretend to need the restroom. I don't know.

Don't tell me to want success. I don't, and I probably never will. I want to survive. I want a better world for my and other future kids. Success is a means to an end, and I refuse to pretend that's not the case. Ideally, I would be valued for my soul and my love I have for others. I don't want to hate myself for not fitting in with the ideal of success. Success is a construct and it's bullshit.

So yeah. Fuck your inspiring speech. Fuck your books and famous people quotes and 7-how-tf-many step plans and growth mindset bull. I am growing. You cannot stop me because I am a stubborn bitch. Every day I become more loving of myself and others. I control my destiny. I am stronger than my fucked up mental health, and I will win on my terms. I know I can't be alone when I say this: speaker, I'm happy you're successful and grateful that you want to help. But for the love of everything sane, please stop.

Don't ask me what any of these are. I don't know either