I Know I Am Capable Of Many Difficult Things, But I Have Yet To Learn How To Forge Deep And Long Lasting

I know I am capable of many difficult things, but I have yet to learn how to forge deep and long lasting connections with others.

My whole life, I’ve begged the universe to let me have even just one person that I will be lucky to be close with. Just one person who will stay. I’ve never had a best friend before. Never had someone where I don’t have to translate every word of my soul just to be understood.

Maybe I haven’t found them because I’m not yet where I’m meant to be. I know I have to keep growing, but can’t I be worthy as I am?

I see it happening all around me. I see the hard work and effort people put into their friendships. I see the good and the bad.

I try so hard to be kind, thoughtful, respectful, authentic, and still I can’t help but feel like I’m being punished. Like I’m still doing everything wrong.

I talk too much and have few words to say. Even online, It’s very hard to find people.

What am I missing? Is there something in myself that only I can’t see?

I try to be strong. I try to be content with my own company. But sometimes it’s really lonely.

I am such an Autumn person. Give me a quiet, cozy spot with a view of the changing trees on a crisp, late September day with a warm drink and a good book and I will be in all my glory.

Apparently a lot of people get dialogue punctuation wrong despite having an otherwise solid grasp of grammar, possibly because they’re used to writing essays rather than prose. I don’t wanna be the asshole who complains about writing errors and then doesn’t offer to help, so here are the basics summarized as simply as I could manage on my phone (“dialogue tag” just refers to phrases like “he said,” “she whispered,” “they asked”):

“For most dialogue, use a comma after the sentence and don’t capitalize the next word after the quotation mark,” she said.

“But what if you’re using a question mark rather than a period?” they asked.

“When using a dialogue tag, you never capitalize the word after the quotation mark unless it’s a proper noun!” she snapped.

“When breaking up a single sentence with a dialogue tag,” she said, “use commas.”

“This is a single sentence,” she said. “Now, this is a second stand-alone sentence, so there’s no comma after ‘she said.’”

“There’s no dialogue tag after this sentence, so end it with a period rather than a comma.” She frowned, suddenly concerned that the entire post was as unasked for as it was sanctimonious.

I hope I die warmed, by the life that I tried to live.

Nikki Giovanni, The Collected Poetry, 1968-1998

How blessed are those souls who find several languages in the nature and thousands of stories on the continuously interchanging stages of day and night

I created these for my Instagram page madd_yet_happy and wanted to share them here for a simplified chart for terminology

CREDIT:

Thank you @junigorden for sending me various information to help me with this! (more to come as well!)

https://paraesthetics.tumblr.com/post/682129209886408704/maladaptive-daydreaming-dictionary

https://babydollsmadd.tumblr.com/post/178261663385/sandbox-paracosm

https://paraesthetics.tumblr.com/post/656839862171926528

https://paraesthetics.tumblr.com/post/654188806352912384/new-term-for-maladaptive-daydreamers-by-me

https://paraesthetics.tumblr.com/post/654186924192514048/acircusfullofdemons-thank-you-so-much-for-sharing

https://docs.google.com/document/u/0/d/1sxApPAQUXjMk7Is4Xgc-o6boOa5X0tw2enc_ZV8HFcY/mobilebasic

https://paraesthetics.tumblr.com/post/674958917660491776/words-to-use-instead-of-character

https://paraesthetics.tumblr.com/post/186664584855/para-terms

https://paraesthetics.tumblr.com/post/655363645737418753

https://paraesthetics.tumblr.com/post/682180857883197440/oooo-i-think-maybe-factpara-could-work-for-the