ayaisokay - The Girl That Doesn't Exist
The Girl That Doesn't Exist

21 / MtF / Poly — Please Fix Me

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I Started A JP Blog :3

I started a JP blog :3

🙏 こんにちは、みなー (⁠^⁠.⁠_⁠.⁠^⁠)⁠ノ

はじめましてー 👋

🐈 名前って文実ちゃん 「アヤミ」、

私は、作家であり21歳イギリス人です 💫

🇬🇧 英語を話せるが日本語を学んでいる 🇯🇵

📚 漫画を読むのが好きだよー ❤️

🙇‍♀️ 猫を飼いたいなー 🐈

仲良くしてねー 🥹

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5 months ago

Colours

I like red or yellow as a secondary colour: contrasting black as a primary.

For accents or accessories, gold and silver, or black and grey can be nice maybe even some brass or bronze.

A far as pastel colours go, soft pinks and peachy reds are sweet. Generally, I dress pretty dark though.

Reading

As far as manga goes, the last manga I read was Boruto: Two Blue Vortex (Chapter 13). But, the last manga I read through to the end (or rather until there were no more chapters released) were Samurai in Another World and Jūjika no Rokunin.

As far as non-fiction books go, I'm currently reading the satanic bible (yes I'm serious), some books on Wicca, and silly "dark psychology" stuff. The fictional story for me right now is Flight School: Prey, following Lolani Tori.

My current webtoon to read is "Everything is Fine."

Music

The last song I listened to was technically 6arelyhuman's track Take a Pic (w/ Asteria). But, assuming you don't want the result of me just leaving shuffle play to do its job, the last song I choose to listen to would be History Maker by DEAN FUJIOKA (the Yuri on Ice OP).

The truth is I love too many genres, some pop, trap, post hardcore punk, metalcore, deathcore, teen/emo rock, drift phonk, ragecore/trapmetal, glitchcore, hyperpop, scenecore, melodic death metal, jpop, jrock, visual kei, UK drill, edm, breakcore, lolicore (real subgenre), horrorcore, reggae, dancehall, accoustic, and instrumental.

But honestly just take, this, that, and some other playlist. As a bonus, here's a playlist that predates my former self invoking Protocol Aya. Songs played throughout a specific month.

Craving

Love and companionship?

Jokes aside...

I suppose I'd like hot chocolate, so I'll go do that.

Bo'lle eh Water

Under rule of divine king, descendent of the undying queen, I shall favour tea at all times.

Please save me from this fascist island.

They hate trans people.

Passing On

@akuaultima @starstruckpurple @ampullariidae @crunchymint

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Favorite color

Generally pink & pastels, but I like black in clothing, and I mainly use vibrant tones in art :3 Anything goes, if they’re combined well with other colors

Currently reading

Witch hat atelier, Case study of Vanitas & Golden terrace!!

Last song played

Cry Cry - T-ARA

Currently craving

Alpro soy choco milk, give meee 👹👹👹 Also maybe soup, I’ve been really craving clear onion soup for the past couple months lmao

Tea or Coffee?

Coffee, but only decaf because I got nerfed by caffeine intolerance ( ߹ㅁ‎߹ ) I love coffee flavored desserts too!!

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5 months ago

I find both to be isolating in their own way. So, consider them carefully.

No communication is the obvious isolation, and it gets worse when you consider the danger involved with having no vocal, written, or signed voice. But, to speak every thought could cause its own problems.

How often do you have unspeakable intrusive thoughts? How often do emotions shape your thoughts to contradict your true feelings? It could get you into serious trouble or sever all of your bonds. Sure, you could try explain yourself and work with friends to correct the matter... But what's to say their reaction to the initial upset won't make you say worse things?

The question is a matter of choosing your own prison. At least for me.

I'm dependent on others so a loss of ALL communication destroys everything for me. But I'm also emotionally unstable and generally struggle to maintain bonds already. If I vocalised every thought and feeling, I'd probably look insane. I'd probably hurt too many friends.

Is it just me, or is this a cruel choice?


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4 months ago

Can't relate. My blog is dead 🥀

It seems like posts go nowhere(•́⁠ ⁠ ⁠‿⁠ ⁠,⁠•̀)

I'd like interaction ❤️

seeing my followers and notes go up day by day genuinely feels like a drug, for once i feel wanted and not like a dog on the roadside

4 months ago

Like the photography? ❤️ (P.S. my walk playlist)

Like The Photography? (P.S. My Walk Playlist)

I took a walk to enjoy nature and it was honestly nice 😌

With all this despair, my alter human but needed it 🥲

I guess lately, I've just been enjoying the whole nature child vibe 🥀

But in a way I guess it makes sense. As much as I've at times avoided them, I prefer animals to people 🐈

That being said, I didn't get home and expect to find a wasp casually crawling about my neck 💀

Maybe I'm too in touch with nature 😅

Tragic therian matters 😭


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4 months ago

Your JP blog is making me want to learn Japanese lol. I did it in primary school but haven't touched it much since besides from a few Duolingo lessons.

I'm going to leave some recommendations and useful links for you. Lookout for a new post on @notayamichan (it'll be in English). If anything, I'll DM you a link to the post.

(⁠^⁠.⁠_⁠.⁠^⁠)⁠ノ P.S, I hope you do start again. I need JP friends.

🐈 There's a silly little Insta GC too (another JP learner there) ❤️


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