Lord Cassius Stating To Keefe You Were Terrified. Because She Gave You Just Enough Love To Show You How

Lord Cassius stating to Keefe “You were terrified. Because she gave you just enough love to show you how wonderful it could be if she truly cared for you—and then casually withheld the rest, leaving you wondering where you went wrong, and trying to figure out how to fix it, and being constantly afraid that you'd lose what little you had." is, and I cannot stress this enough, one of the cruelest things I have ever read about being done to a child.

Like can we talk about this quote? And how raw and tragic it is?

Fitz Vacker is cursed to see himself from a 3rd person perspective at all times. He watches himself from inside of himself, like a movie.

Is my smile real enough? (My cheeks hurt.) Is my posture right? (I want to curl into a ball) Do I look like a Vacker? (My eyes are burning with unshed tears) Is my hair styled right? (Can you see me? Have you bought it? Is this version of me digestible?) Is this lie convincing? (Would you love me if I was being honest?)

I think about him at Alvar's tribunal, and how that's the worst he's ever looked publicly. I wonder what his 'alone' must have looked like.

For the Keefex shippers :)

imagine if Keefe saw a bunch of stuffed animals in a store and remembered that Dex didn’t have one, so he got him one 😭

idk I thought it’d be adorable

never getting over Sophie just letting Alvar go in that tower scene in Legacy right before the fitzphie break up. (Keefe might have been there too- i don't remember- which makes it a million times worse.)

like in what world was that her choice to make? Idc if the guy looked like death- that's not her son, or her brother, and the entire decision was just beyond stupid. ??? that's a known terrorist, who might have taken part in torturing you and Dex in book one?? that's your boyfriend's brother?? like you cannot be serious.

sure, Alvar might have crawled away to die, but to not tell his parents? to not give his family some closure? a body to bury??

that alone is a bigger reason for Fitz to break up with her than matchmaking by a landslide.

“Those poor boys”

“She deserves to be punished too.”

“I’m not saying I support rape, but-”

“Sorry to say - she deserved it.”

“She put herself in harm’s way”

“But if she was fingered, then that’s not rape.”

“She ruined their lives.”

LONG HAIRED KENRIC PLEASE STEP ON ME

My kotlc enjoyers pspspspsppspspsppspspss have some sketches for a fic im writing :D (Before I Burn)

It’s set in precannon, around 20 years before the current TL (So like, the 90s) following Kenric and Oralies navigation of Elvish Bureaucracy, classicism and inter-species politics. Also Brant is his brother and Kenric is desperately trying to dispute ability restriction — I’ll put the summary in the replies but if ur interested give it a read