Queued Some Art For The Next Few Days.

queued some art for the next few days.

And some of it isn't CatCF related! you're all free for a bit.~

Squish Squash, Pumpkin Sauce~

An experimental piece from 2017, almost entirely accidental. Always check if your pen is actually waterproof... or don’t, and paint with ink!

(this was probably the beginning of our spiral with traditional media, actually.)

Daily Diary Doodle - #001 - Oh Joy

One square book, 366 blank pages, and the life of many in one: the Doodle Diary! Last year we did around 200 drawings in all different mediums, expressions, and efforts, pushing ourselves to experiment more over anything. Yes, we didn't do all 366, but I'm damn proud that we got as far as that. ⠀ New Year, New Book; and this year it’s an exercise in restraint-- to understand that quick and scribbly is fine even in comparison to neat and perfect. Ultimately, we're trying to keep it more on the simple side: one or two mediums per, more typography, etc. Hopefully our social media will reflect that too; we’re trying to not be so specific on what we post, to lessen the grip of the algorithm mentally.

Alistar

As much as a part of us is considering coming back to tumblr, if there’s anyone still around these parts that follows us: we’re mostly at Twitch & Instagram.

A warning, however, that due to dissociative amnesia we remember barely anything of the tumblr days. I do hope to eventually go through our blog backup and see if I can jog anything; but alas, for now, it remains a fog. You’re welcome to reach out to us, but to the majority, we likely won’t know who you are.

And I am not even the Alice you once knew. Nor am I Alistar. They’re both here, but they are not me.

Hello, by the way, I’m Atlas.

We’ve got some things from our Instagram queued up for the next few days. Not sure if there’ll be a consistent schedule or anything; it’ll all depend on if we continue passively using tumblr I imagine.

the way our brain works, is if it’s not in sight, it’s not in mind.~

as said, Instagram is the best place to find us. But I wouldn’t say no to moving here a bit more, with how brutal the algorithm has been.

- Atlas

Daily Diary Doodle - #002 - Of Forgetting

People talk about forgetting the sadness, but never the sadness of forgetting. We struggle to live for the future, because we know that the moment it's the past, it'll likely be forgotten within a day. It's dissociated into oblivion, lost to time, never to be remembered- and with the relatively high levels of aphantasia, we can't even picture it if we could.⠀ ⠀ We have to track everything we do every day, we track which Alters front, who did what, just to know that it ever even happened. We remember the plot of the big things, but so few details-- and even then, we can't trust if they were real.⠀ ⠀ It's been a sore subject lately. I record all our roleplay footage, because the moment it ends we've forgotten the majority; and this day it didn't save. I cried. I know it was a wonderful scene- a big moment for Phineas- but I'll never remember, fully, what I even did. Others get that memory, but I don't?⠀ ⠀ Photos, Videos, Physical Memories, are so important to us,⠀ because maybe then, we exist in some form of solidity.⠀

We're 28. We shouldn't have to live like this.⠀

Alistar